sunday.march.23.2003|poo poo face!

really fun day! slept in till around 2pm. i had fun last night with johnny and his buddies. i finally saw this infamous 'jar' that adam has. crazy. fun group of guys, hehe. even more fun is my johnny baby! *wink wink* played some super nes games and ate banh sao. hmm.. i think that's how you would spell it - of course with the accents and stuffs. johnny came by and alain fixed his car. the three of us then went to the surplus store and to great mall. ran into nicoley! whoo hoo! i haven't seen that girlie in ages. didn't really find what we were looking for. johnny returned the game he was so determined to get a week earlier. didn't see elvis, nor did we see our computer friend. so sad. umm... that's pretty much the core of my day. it was great because i think alain likes johnny. they were talking to each other a bunch. hehe. oooOh! and the best part - we rode in alain's little starlet. haha, and my baby was in the little backseat. how cute is that??

~babe, thanks for coming with us today! hehe, i was really nervous, but i'm glad things went swell. we should do that more often! haha. i'm glad my bro was able to fix your car. thanks for a good time last night. best episode EVER! i love you!

saturday.march.22.2003|spring break mothafuka!

interesting day. had a GREAT time trying to wake up this morning. went out late last night to jason's house out in avalon. hung out with my boy and his boys. didn't get back home till almost five in the am! woke up for work at eight or nine, worked from ten to four. met jerry rice! he was actually in my store! how freakin tight is that??! i also got his autograph. such a nice guy. also really tall with dry hands. busy ass day at work. worked ALL around the store today. fcuka. i'm just glad a certain manager wasn't working today. she always puts everyone else in a bad mood, and the way i was feeling today would've been so much shittier if she was there. the staff working while i was still there was cool. i'm glad all the girls pretty much get along with each other. makes work that much more comfortable and enjoyable! o_O

went to johnny's cousin's birthday party dinner at spaghetti factory. awww, baby was there! hehe. he was going crazy though. eeP! yummy dinner. i'm still hella full. went back to johnny's after. pushed out the knots on his back and shoulders, massaged my poor baby, watched the lost episode of spongebob. and now i'm here at home. my brother whipped out the super nes system, so i'm getting ready to play that shiet as soon as i'm done with my 100+ games of yahoo towers. fcuk yeah!

tuesday.march.18.2003|i didn't know i was viatmanese!

happpy day! so happy that there are THREE 'P's in the word. haha. my day started off really well. went to school, found out i totally aced a criminal justice test. i also found out that i'm way above average in that class! heck yeah! the anhela is kicking butt! class was dismissed early so i went to visit my baby. had a really really good time with him. *wink wink* went back to school for sociology (yeah, i actually went to that lame ass class). watched stuff i saw last year in my psychology class. it's kind of funny because much of what i learned in psychology, i'm re-learning in sociology. found out i got a B on my midterm for that class, which is pretty good considering i crammed in four chapters the morning OF the midterm. aiyah. let me warn you - that shit is hardcore so don't ever do it... unless you're a supergenius like me. o_O hehe. went back to johnny's after school. had some yummy hot dogs, went to toys r us so my babe could get a game. found it, bought it, brought it home, opened it up, and discovered that there was NO game inside. how freakin janky is that?! so we went back to toys r us, and they didn't have anymore copies of the game. went to target to see if they had it, but no luck. poor johnny - he was really looking forward to playing the game, and BAM! damn game isn't even in the case! after all the commotion of the video game incident, we left to the gaslighter in campbell for the boys' show. GREAT show last night. it's funny because johnny always tells me about how some of their shows (usually at broadway studios) rock ass, and i feel really bad because i'm never there to see them. but today was really good! yayeee! ^_^ it was funny because we were all chillin in the lobby. jason (shortround) is toooo funny. so is brian. and amazingly, adam made it to the show, but chickened out on the bet adrian made him. everyone was pretty much in a good mood, so that's always groovy!

made it to the gas station on fumes, spent twenty-one freakin doolers on gas, burned hella cd's for my brothers, found out some tight ass lyrics by missy elliot, and attempted to study for stupid statistics. bah! math stinks.

monday.march.17.2003|go ahead - pinch me.

statistics is the devil. i swear, when am i ever going to need to know the invNorm or normalcdf of something?!? and who the heck carries a TI-83plus in their purse. 'Oh yeah, lemme just pull a graphing calculator out of my ass, and find the mean and standard deviation of how many deer are in the forest.' well, as you can probably tell, i had math today. being someone that hates math so much, i'm doing okay - so far. we have a killer test on wednesday that i'm already shitting bricks about. i've been trying to study this whole evening, but it's really difficult. especially when i ask myself every minute 'what the hell is the point of this??!'

english was cancelled today, thank goodness, so i headed over to johnny's house. to my surprise, my baby was waiting with a VERY special surprise for me! ahh yeah! watched some shawks, the new order video, went to wamu by my house, then to the other bank so johnny could pay off his car. after that, we went to antipasto's for some bomb ass sandwiches. soooooo good. watched lilo & stitch when we got back to the boy's. hehe, johnny liked it!

i went home when the boys packed up and left for the show in frisco. called up abel and met him at fry's. bought a speaker package for my janky ass computer, only to find that some stuff was missing. took it back with alain and exchanged it for a complete package. hooked it up at home, and to my surprise, it works. bad news is that it doesn't work with my computer. i hate my computer! it's so fucked up. there's only one person that can really fix it, which makes me mad because he's in fremont and ALWAYS busy. bah!

i noticed today that i'm totally getting fat! i seriously need to start swimming or running or just do something to cut down on the fatty-ness. i find that i'm always too tired to work out before bed, or when i wake up in the morning. you know, i really want to go swimming! i miss the water!!!

~babe, thank you so much for a wonderful day! it felt really nice to release all that built up tension, huh? yeah, i felt it too - jizzy tummy! thanks for surprising me when i got to your house. i liked it A LOT! you have to do that for me more often. *wink wink* i love you, johnny poo poo face!

sunday.march.16.2003|shrimp chips!!

great day. woke up super duper late today. hehe, too much partying with my baby and the boys at adrian's last night. it was neat because i got to see how popcorn is made from kernals using the stove. hehe, i guess i'm not as old school as some of us think. anyway, called the boy. talked for a super long time about good stuff, as always. a gazillion hours later, i rolled out of bed and headed off to johnny's house. we stopped by the bank, using the buddy system at the atm, then decided to tour the great mall for about an hour. didn't run into anyone famous, like elvis or our fatty friend at the internet cafe. got my yummy dose of starbucks! whoo! went to best buy only to find that it closes at SIX in the freakin PM. argh. i swear it used to close later, even on a sunday. bah, whatever. took a trip to ranch 99. haha, it was so cute because johnny's never really been in an asian market, and he was fascinated with the seafood section. awww baby!! hehe. we bought yummy shrimp and pizza chips then headed to jamba juice. on the way back to the boy's, we stopped by long's drugs to run a few errands for my mom. didn't really find what i needed to get, but i guess as a consolation prize, we ran into some band geeks. doh. hehe. came home, watched time machine and home alone 2 with alain, burned some cd's for his lazy ass, ate two hot dogs (oink oink), and tried (and failed!) at math homework. ugh, i hate math! math is the devil. grrr... anywhoo, that was my superb day. of course it was great - i spent it with my johnny!!! xoxo

thursday.march.13.2003|another fun-filled day of adventures!

i've had a wholesome day. yet, it's also been incredibly tiring. visited johnny early this morning before school started. slept, talked, watched a dvd, downloaded a song, then headed off to school. aced my quiz in criminal justice. headed back to johnny's. had lunch at happi house, got mad about some stupid girl (you know who i'm talking about!! x_X), listened to the TIGHT ass song i downloaded, played counterstrike for a little, watched prize_fight play, skipped my sociology class (tsk tsk), watched some television, fell asleep with spongebob. my poo poo face boyfriend woke me up with some sweet kissies, and we went to great mall. almost ran into alain with this girl he's smitten at the candy store. damn, i wanted some peachy penguins too! headed home, watched jeopardy with my dad, played the uke for a little, picked up abel at his place, and we headed to the mall. round two for anhela! *ding ding* bought some stuff at old navy, walked around to show my brother the shoes i want (or should i say *ahem* JOHNNY's shoes *ahem*). ran into johnny and adrian, introduced the bro to the boy, looked at some shoes, then headed to abel's work. saw his cubicle. i swear it looks like office space. after he did his unfinished work, we went to his place. finally got to see his new birds - tooo cute! makes me miss the different birds i had as a little girl. sigh. we ate dinner and watched some television together, talking about stuff in between the lines. and alas, the anhela has arrived to her domain, tired as ever. yawn.

monday.march.10.2003|i was blinded by my own insecurities

not feeling too great. going through a financial crisis with my family. apparently, i'm going to have to start paying for lots of my own stuff (as if i haven't already since i've started working), AND i have to start paying for things around the house, like groceries. i was talking to my babe about this, and i really don't know if it's selfish to say that my parents should be the ones to pay for stuff like groceries. i don't mind it. it's pretty obvious that i need food too. but it's just crazy because my life seems like it's turning upside down.

not only am i dealing with these money issues, but my mom just kind of had her day to criticize me about almost anything. i know that sometimes she says it as a joke, but most of the time, it hurts. and she claims i'm not stressed out, and i don't even know what stress is. how much bullshit is that???! i get all this shit from my family about how to be a good daughter, a good sister, a good student, a good worker, a good musician, a good cook, a good EVERYTHING. then they add the burden of money and criticism on my back and expect me not to be stressed! how the hell does that work??! can someone freakin tell me, cause i sure as hell haven't received the memo.

i try to tell myself i shouldn't be taking all this too seriously. i should just kind of let this pass because it's just a phase. but it's hard. it's really hard when it's pretty much all around you. everywhere you turn, everywhere you go, even when you wake up in the morning, it's right under your nose.