current mood: relaxed
current music: sleeping child - bonnie pink; hikari, bridge(interlude), letters - utada hikaru; everywhere nowhere, heartplace, dearest - ayumi hamasaki; hero - shinwha; 1/3 no jounjou na kanjou - rurounin kenshin ost; daijoubu - boys be ost; oni to sakura - peirrot; illuminati - malice mizer; pink spider - hide

the other day, as i was walking alone in a street near galleria, i was almost run over by a car.... it was a white car and i was walking with my head bent over, admiring the ground of it's grayish color... i looked to my side and the car was almost going to hit me and it's about less than an inch before it stopped....

the weird thing is that the car didn't even honked at me to get off the road.... well, i said to myself that it's not yet my time to go and i need to be awake the following day to do something i guess...

in other news, i'm bored out of my mind at the moment because of the taskless situation that i'm doing... the next task that i'm supposed to do will take place next week when i facilitate an audit again.... *prays hard* give me something to other than playing games and surfing the internet and downloading songs.... *grins*

this is reall funny... i think it's giving matrix a bad name but for the japanese people, this is quality entertainment.... and they won actually... it's an entertainment show and whoever entertainer received the most claps, then they are winner... the clap machine went over the roof.... *grins* *lol*

btw, this is my desktop lookslike for now....


and i got so bored yesterday that i decided to make a theme for my Yahoo Messenger and of course, i did the Ayumi Hamaski and I so LOVE her... *grins*

ok, that's it... i'll stop thinking about mitsui and i will focus all my energy to trying to snare kaede instead... since mitsui and kogure are in the US, who cares, right? and he doens't like me like the i way i like him so there's nothing wrong with that in any way..... *sigh*

my back is killing me.... *groans*

current mood: cool
current music: a song for xx - ayumi hamasaki; ares, marmalade - gackt; egnirys cimredopyh - dir en grey; rusty nail - x japan; at first time - f4 (i love this song even if it is by f4 *gags* the tune is great)

last sunday, i watched the movie lotr : the two towers and i think it was great and the story thickens.... now, i think i'm going to be the house guest of mt friend quite frequently.... i'm going to watch all the dvd that i can watch... *grins* *just joking*

*shocked* i came early and i got into the elevator with kaede!!!! i think the skies are weeping for joy, he's early!!!! something weird is going to happen, i just knew it!!!!! of course we talked and also blurted out that he's early and i was shocked, he just smiled and said they the PMs have a training to be conducted.... maybe i should focus the attention to him once again so that mitsui will take a hint that it's better to be cold rather than warm... *grins evilly*

i woke up later than the usual week... i didn't have enough time for the gym that i wanted so i just took a bath and went straight to the office but it's ok since my workout was done yesterday... my next workout will be tomorrow... damn it!!!! why is it when i don't have clothes with me, kaede has them for their gym!!!!! *frustrated* *sigh* oh well, better luck next time i guess....

i downloaded a software in which i make cross stitch designs from pictures and i'm so happy but the only catch is that i can only do use it for 15 days only... a trial period per se..... *lol* but i've already made a batch of it and i'm going to do all of it... *lol*

I don't know if I could have any hope for the future

current mood: productive
current music: it's silent all around.... silent all around the household of my friend.... *grins*

today it became very hectic for me... as early at 6:30 am, i'm already up and preparing myself for the workout thati'm going to take for my body... i've been going to the gym recently and i want to be fit... *grins*

anyway, i attended the kickboxing session which took out a lot of my energy.... *groans* but i guess the workout is working quite well since i don't feel pain in my body anymore..... hmmmm... if i can loose the pounds that i need to loose then i' in a very good start....

after the workout, which me, and two of my co-workers had a workout as well, we decided to watch a movie and it was pretty hilarious too... the only downside of the said movie is thatsome of the quotes are really true and i guess i have to agree on the script writer about it.... *grins* and me and shio-chan almost cried because out lovelifes is also the same.... *lol*

now, i'm not at home.... i'm in my friends house, working on a program for their psychology something and it's quite funny since she's a psychology student and yet they are asked by their teacher to make a program.... *shakes head* oh well, have to finish even at the middle so that i will be having a satisfying sleep.... *grins*

in other news, mitsui and kogure are officially out of the country and i missed them already and i hate to admit that i beginning to feel lonely without them to pester me and tease me... and since i have feelings for mitsui.... i sure miss him a lot....

also last week, a worm is found in out system.... it was the ms blast worm which automatically shuts the pc in record time and simultaneously.... good thing i update my windows quite recently so as not to be affected by the worm.... there is another worm which is the NICHI worm and ate kima found it in her pc.... *sweatdrop* oh well, the system administrator should fix that or else.... *grins madly.....*

i have to go.... have to test a program.... ja!

current mood: touched
current music: pink killer - dir en grey; neverending dream, boys & girls - ayumi hamasaki; freesia (op2), story - gackt; letters, DORAMA, simple & clean - utada hikaru; dramatic neo universary - peirrot; au revoir - malice mizer sanbunoichi junjou na kanjou

some tests that i took and everything is hilarious....

For Which JRock Band Will You Kill? by daisuke_Yoshiki
User ID
Least Favorite Color
Reason	They glared at your poster of the band.
Kill for	X Japan
Kill on	April 4, 2008
Number of People Killed	32
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

You are Nothing.

Poppy Z. Brite Quiz - Which Lost Souls Character Are You?
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Which Jrock tragedy broke your heart? by tornbutterfly
Username
The tragedy was:	X Japan disbanding
Did you cry?	You bawled
What was the aftermath?	You became a pachinko addict
Did you become suicidal?	No... you wanted everyone else to die.
When do you recover from this trauma?	May 19, 2039
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

Your Yaoi Fanfic Cliche by koshiroryuu
Name
Gender
Age
Lemon or Lime?
Your Yaoi Fanfic Cliche	"koibito" as a nickname
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

J-Rock encounter by annana
Name
Year encountered	November 4, 2015
Who did you meet?	Kagerou
Hugs given/received	13
Souvenier	A CD
Do they remember you?	They worship you.
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

You are a member of the Celestial Chorus, or a
"Chorister". While others may
dismiss you as a fundamentalist freak, or
preachy conservative, you have conviction in
your soul that cannot be broken, a certainty in
your faith. You know that your way is right,
for when you feel the song inside, it is
beautiful and unifying, drawing all of creation
together. Of course, being a mage of this
Tradition means you must exterminate those who
would disrupt humanity's rise to divinity. And
like any fanatic, yours is a righteous wrath.

Which Tradition Mage Are You?
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exercising in the morning is really good.... *grins* especially when a guy is checking you out.... *lol* just joking... :p well, i have to join the others for a little breakfast.... ja!

current mood: melancholy
current music: A.S.A.P - utada hikaru; a song for xx - ayumi hamasaki

here are some tests:

Protector

The ULTIMATE personality test
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Red...Your on fire! You tend to get easily pissed
off or at least you try to seem like you are,
but thats okay cuz it makes you..well you!

What Color Best Fits Your Attitude...(no not soul I said attitude)
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-0-

sent off some invitations for meeting and audit so as to make myself useful... i should be doing this tomorrow but since i have more free time in my hands because one of my deliverables are already finished and shared in the sourcesafe, i can rest a little easier but meetings are going to pile up.....

anyway, i have to go home with now and i have gym tomorrow... i'm a little sad thought since mitsui is gone away to the US and his flight is 10 pm in the evening and i guess, that means that i'm going to see him again after three months... have to go home now and sleep early and i have gym tomorrow.... ja!

current mood: high
current music: art of life(live) - x japan; audrey - dir en grey

so many things happened this weekend and i think i'm going to relay everything....

last friday night, we watched a movie and it was fun... unfortunately.... *spoilers* stuart townsend died in the ending because he's a traitor and sean connery died as well... but the ending is a cliffhanger... maybe sean connery resurrected from the dead...

last saturday, i paid the gym where i'm going to start exercising since, i'm beginning to get fat... *lol* and i started today actually, a while ago.... morning exercise.... *lol* and i'm going to go to the gym later, after work again.....

also, last saturday afternoon, me and my office mates had an swimming session and even if it was raining hard, we had a great time... i think we are going to have an outing on 22 since it is an official holiday....

last night, i stayed in my friends house until about 10 pm because she asked me to do a programming for her since she's an psychology student and her teacher decided out of the blue to have a program for a testing thing in st. paul... really, that school sucks.... big time...

finished the glass paintings that i did for kogure and mitsui since they are going to the US maybe tomorrow.. speaking of mitsui... he's not yet here... hmmm... where is he.. *looks around* oh well...

in other news.... rukawa seems to be early today and it gave us all a shocker.... he said that he's a change man... (yea, maybe for today... *lol*) anyway.... i think he's still late but only minutes.... *gasp* what is the world coming to? *faints*

here are some tests that i took:

Dark- you tend to have an unquenchable anger. You
are somewhat of an outcast, however, you are
NOT exactly evil. You control the psychic
forces of the world.

What element are you?
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Turquoise! Turquoise is said to drive away evil spirits & bad
dreams, banish grief & melancholy, restore
appetite, induce sleep, & protect against
lightning! You would best benefit from this
stone to reverse whatever hellish state your
in.

Which BIRTHSTONE Is, and Benefits Your PERSONALITY?
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edit#1:

You should be dating a Capricorn. 22 December - 19 January Your mate is cautious and realistic, hard working,
and loyal. Though he/she has the tendency to
be egotistical, unforgiving, or anxious,
Capricorns experience an intense feeling of
satisfaction while sharing their bed with the
one they love.

What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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ok this is freaking me out.... mitsui is capricorn.... does this means that i should be dating him... i'm willing but i don't think he is... *looks as status in YM* (he doesn't like me like the way i like him) *sigh*

anyway, i have to go now, i have some work to finish....!

current mood: blank
current music: only you - d'arc-en-ciel; claire - malice mizer; dalhia - x japan; kimi ni fureru dake de, sobakasu, nibunoichi - rurounin kenshin ost


Gold! You have golden eyes. You tend to be quite
distant, and may come off as depressed. In
truth, you are, but once people get to know
you, a smile or a laugh breaks through your
emotion barrier every now and then!

What Color Are Your Anime Eyes?
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What's Your Jrock Quirk? Test made by: Docudrama.


What's Your Outlook on Life?
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YOU ARE GACKT!

You are one weird puppy! Not only are you hot, but it is hard to tell if you are a guy or a girl at times. You use to be in a band called Malice Mizer but have gone solo (technically your aren't a group) You can be really funny in a bizaar way. Oh, and you also tell you people that you are hundreds of years old- but don't worry we all love you anyways!
TAKE THE QUIZ AT OOH-LA-LA.NU!

killed on 10:35 a.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

revolved on Thursday, August 14, 2003

revolving around .... and then some
current mood: depressed
current music: hades - dir en grey

been crying all day since the morning i woke up.... i'm too depressed and someon just broke the trust that i gave him.....

maybe for today, i'll hate men....

killed on 04:59 p.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

revolved on Tuesday, August 12, 2003

revolving around *whistles* and then some
current mood: artistic
current music: art of life - x japan

got this results from here:

You are a person who approaches their finances aggressively and with purpose. You make sure you have covered every angle by consulting the best professionals, then move in for the attack.

Elegance is essential. It doesn't matter if you are going to the opera or the to the corner shop, you make sure that you look fantastic. what the?

You have a lot to say and love talking to your friends, always staying in close contact wherever you go. You are outgoing, fun and have people are drawn to you. now this is true

You are a very practical person. It's more important to you that the things you own are useful, rather than nice to look at.

You are very sociable! You are the center of attention and have great stories to tell. But this often prevents from establishing deep relationships.

You are very considerate. Friendship is the world to you, and you are friends with everyone. Be careful, as sometimes this works against you if you are too trusting. now this is true

anyway, we have a badminton game later and i have work to do... ja!

killed on 09:42 a.m.

I'll shove my tongue down your throat and corrupt you with my spit... I'll unzip your skin and kiss you with your own heart-blood on my lips. Are you tempted yet?

So what? I can take the pain. It will pass... And if I chose to return and take my pain out of your hide, I will my pretty seer.

revolved on Monday, August 11, 2003

revolving around tests and nothing more and then some
current mood: amused
current music: kettobase, automatic, deep river - utada hikaru; it's gonna rain - rurounin kenshin ost; speed of despair - malice mizer; suteki da ne - ffx ost; erode - dir en grey; x - x japan; seven - gackt

mitsui got his hair cut.... *cries* he's much more cuter with long hair though but it was his choice so i don't have anything against that..... i guess i have to get used to it....

some tests that i did:

You're Die-sama

Which PVC-clad Jrocker are you??
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You are Shinya. Silent and sexy with killer moves-
even your weapons are good looking. No one gets
in your way. If you don't like it, you take
care of it.

Which [KR] Cube character are you?
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oik, shinya's hot and i've seen that music video and it was really good... but toshiya ang kyo died and die killed them... *cries*

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in other news, now, everyone is praising me not because of my work but mainly because of the things that i'm wearing right now... eyeliner, dark lipstick and the skirt that i swear that i'm going to wear if i have nothing else to wear....

they say that i looked dignified.... *groans*

edit #1:

Lain! You're a very quiet girl who has no clue
what's happening to her. You love the internet.
It's a palce that makes you feel free.

Which Serial Experiments Lain girl are you?
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me and my ofice mate are going to megamall later to by myself a bathing suit for me to use on saturday.... we are going to have an outing and then i will go to UP because of the INK that i promised that i will go.... *grins madly* and since i want to go there too because my highschool classmates are going to be there and we are going to treat that INK thing a some what of a reunion.... *grins*

current mood: chipper
current music: simple and clean - utada hikaru; mirror (MARS version) - gackt

i'm in the office because i'm waiting ate to finish her work in this overtime... meanwhile, i'll be printing my heads out for fanfics that i'm going to read in the house... *grins madly* and maybe to sufr for some more pictures of x men graphics for mitsui since he is going away...

and later tonight, me and ate will be watching a movie and i'm excited....

ne, tetsuki i can't watch it with you anymore if we are going to watch later tonight unless i can persuade mitsui and some of my office mates to watch it with me again on saturday and maybe it would be like a reunion with a few pals of your boyfriend.

well, i have to kill time and i have to hurry so tht i can print a lot... *grins madly*

current mood: lonely
current music: daybreak, hanabi, everywhere nowhere, evolution - ayumi hamasaki; dune - l'arc-en-ciel; tightrope - gensomaden saiyuki ost

well, it's official, he's going to the US and i've been crying for the past 30 mins. but fortunately, i didn't want anyone to see that i've been crying over the fact that he's going to fly soon to the US.

then sometimes i think that i shouldn't have given him the good luck charm that i gave him the other day but when i think about the oppurtunity, why wouldn't i give him something for good luck?

unfortunately, my luck has gone out of my system and passed to him and now i've been going in and out of bad luck recently, like last night, the racket made a not so nice contact to my head and now my head is aching but i have to work and i have to finish something so that i can prove myself.

i've made a lucky charm to kogure so that he will the same luck that mitsui had when he had his interview.

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my head is still aching from contact of the racket with my head. i'm still practicing java and i have training later at 2 pm. it's raining cats and dogs and my ID is missing... well it was found but i'm going to go to where it was found tomorrow so that i can claim what is mine.... *lol*

*sips milk* we're going to eat out today supposedly but i don't think we can eat in this weather. what am i saying.... i'm going to eat japanese food!!!!!!!

bought a speaker for my cd player so that i can listen to my cd player and have a good time.... and maybe i can listen to music that i need to soothe my aching heart. well, i have to think about the java program that i'm doing and maybe think about something even more....

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edt #1:

Your Sex Dream Is Kyo

You are a wild child! You love the craziness that Kyo projects- which is alot. Kyo is the lead of Dir En Grey and comes up with insane lyrics about murder, canibolism, and rape. You like the more "disturbing" things in life and can get twisted thoughts. But it is all good. Good Bands: Vidoll, Dir En Grey, DéspairsRay TAKE THE QUIZ AT OOH-LA-LA.NU!

Depression

Which Life Stage Are You?
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current mood: confused
current music: rose of pain - x japan; rain, u+k - gackt; ohayou - hunter x hunter ost, utada hikaru - A.S.A.P; purple sky - peirrot

now i think i have red eyes... my eyes are very sore and i think i should let them rest.... or maybe it's time to have computer glasses for my eyes.... too much exposure..... hmmm... vitamins... i think i need vitamins....

mitsui got me to robinsons last night and the funny thing is that there is a light rain and i'm the one who's carrying his umbrella.... the nerve of the guy.... *lol* but it's ok because i teased him endlessly of ungentlemanly qualities.....

and he almost didn't want to let me off because when i was about to step down the ca, he's gearing up again and moved 2 feet more.... *groans* the only thing that i liked about him is that he offered his umbrella to me because there is still light rain but i refused because it's ok to walk in the rain and i love walking in the rain.... unless i get a fever again.... *laughs*

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in other news, my teddy bear (a person) is sick yesterday and now he's having some fever and he's in the office.... poor teddy bear..... hmmm.... have to take care of him... hahahaha~

i call him teddy bear because he's as cute and as small as my hyde (the stuffed bear that seph gave me for my birthday, i think... or is it christmas.... *thinks*).... and he thinks i have crushes to all the guys that i thinks is cute..... told him that i can think everyone is cute but that doesn't mean that i like them very much..... but mitsui and kaede are cute and i both like them very much.... and i have a crush on them..... kogure is cute too... just dense and slow.... *laughs*... but at least he's honest and i know that he's a true friend.....

current mood: silly
current music: in my room - utada hikaru; miracle moon - togo featuring sana; crucify my love - x japan; seasons - ayumi hamasaki; baptism of blood - malice mizer; be in agony - luna sea

got my new layout for my journal.... yay! ayumi hamasaki... *drools* i'm addicted to ayumi hamasaki for some reason but i don't really know why.....

*sips milk* what's been happening lately? well, i've bcoming more prone to sickness, got to take some vitamins so that i can control my disease....

anyway, i had a fever last friday and when i'm still playing counter strike but i didn't give up because i was having a lot of fun....
i think it's because of the a/c... it's too cold here in the office.... *brrr.....*

anyway, i went home and went to bed with my jeans and shirt on and i fell asleep, next thing i know, it's morning and i feel a little head ache coming....

fortunately, i'm already feeling fine and my fever is gone so took a bath and ready my things because i'm going to go my friend's house that day (which was seph's house by the way) and i'm going to have a sleep over there as well....

the purpose of having that overnight?.... finish the game and defeat a titan.... saw the secret ending and it was so sugoi~!!!!!! *screams* RIKU IS MINE SEPH!!!!!!! *squeals*

*ahem* *looks at cup* oh dear, i don't have any more milk.... ..... back to the game, i wanted to defeat a certaine white haired, one-winged, angel but unfortunately, i can't..... i'm going to try it again, but i don't know when as of yet.... have to speak to seph-chan first so i can schedule another overnight session with her.....

anyway, i have to do something for a moment and maybe practice java for a moment.... tomorrow, i have training to attend to but it's only in the afternoon *groans* i don't have anything to do anymore... *cries*