Sunday, February 19, 2006, 02:47 a.m.

cause in my heart was a picture of us
holding hands



had dinner with bao bao in town. im adventurous okayy! we went to big O. hahaha. nice nice dinner! then, we walked around town. here and there. and we didnt catch a movie in the end. damn. really enjoyed spending time with her. is tHat right?

bao INSISTS that when you pronounce, that. you must say it as HAT with a T. so, its T-HAT. hahaha. and, its IS IT. not isit. i cant remember what other nonsense we did or she said!

sent her to the busstop, and i just sat there for bout an hour waiting for my brother to come.

i could only fall asleep at about six am yesterday. i just didnt feel like sleeping. was feeling, sad? i guess ppl can become really insignificant. i mean after all that, is that all you can do or say? i feel really ..

Saturday, February 18, 2006, 12:49 a.m.

here's to love, telly belly
BAO IS DA BOMB !!



i woke up at four pm today. haha, what a pig. then, went gardens to meet sara, esther, yunhua and ivan for dinner. after eating, esther went for her small group. so, the four of us were supposed to 'rescue' her and then she can go off!

we went to the toilet there. and i did the most embarassing thing! i saw this like flushing thingy, and i pushed it. then water splashed onto my head!! turns out it was for the showerhead! wahlau. my hair and birks were wet larh. haha, and they couldnt stop laughing at me. even esther's small group. SO EMBARASSING!

then, they came over to my house to play mahjong. i think we're getting addicted to it, that's bad! since im leaving soon i wont get to play with them. nevermind, mahjong-mates, we'll play in december kayy? dont find new ppl and forget me!

i can brush up on my pool skills since my brother said that there's a pool table at the student apartment. first hour free! hahaha.

oh, and bao's REALLY sweet. so, now she has to sign my gbk often to prove that she hasnt forgotten me! hahaha. and, she made me put that heading, hah. mel loves bao ! :)

i've a bad headache. ouch.

Friday, February 17, 2006, 12:28 a.m.

four o’clock in the morning
my mind’s filled with a thousand thoughts of you



valentine's day

basically, valentine’s day was quite screwed up. but at least i got to spend the day with sara, have dinner with esther and meet up with ervyn, fifi and oliver!

sara and i went back to school to have recess with esther. gave presents to kelly, eliza, lisa, amanda and shannon. I baked brownies!! not three-in-one okayy. i put in effort to bake know. hahaha.

then sara and i went to town to just walk around. had lunch in yoshi then we met tammy. so we ended doing errands and we went to lucky to meet ervyn, oliver and fifi. then, tammy left so we just walked around. and we met mark outside tangs. haha, fifi kept complaining that town was full of millenians.

had dinner with sara and esther at café cartel. when esther went to take the water, she wanted to tell me that she doesnt know why the thing wasnt working. she lifted her hands and flipped water from the cup onto another table. its was SO OBVIOUS! the person kept staring cos i told esther to hurry sit down and dont care! sara, and her “hello, mummy is that you?” and “ms dainty?”. esther and i couldn’t stop laughing!!

thanks to sara (for the cookies, very nice!), wing yan(for putting in extra effort in the pencil!), eliza(for the rose), yangling(for the heart) and gina for the gift. really like it! :)

after sending sara and esther off, i went to the busstop opposite far east and missed three buses. then i walked from wheelock to dhoby ghaut mrt. didnt know why i sis that, but i guess i just felt sad. at least i know that when i reach home i'll be so tired i wont have energy to think bout other things. almost every toy shop in town and united square, i’ve been to. what a wasted effort, and i thought everything was worth it. i dont know.

its the little things you do that make me smile.

you would still have my heart until the end of time
you're all i need, my love,
my Valentine :)

yesterday

crashed MI. in the morning, mark, ervyn and fifi wanted me to hide in the toilet. but in the end, i just joined fifi, then sara's class.

sara's home tutor: i've seen you before. what's your name?
me: err, melissa?
sara's home tutor: -puts finger on clipboard and scrolls down name list. what class are you from?
me: huh? C1, thomas tan. (according to fifi)
sara's home tutor: what are you doing in my class?
me: talking to my friend? -looks at sara.

and, he let me off! haha. ended up sitting in the canteen the whole day. was really boring, but luckily sara and may were there. went to play pool after school. yay, i won fifi and yanzu! by luck, but still.

fifi walked me all the way to yishun mrt, so sweet.

Sunday, February 12, 2006, 11:10 p.m.

im sorry everything's not as perfect
as you want it to be



i must try and pitas more often, or i'll feel as though im letting ping down! hahaha. right ping?

i was with jan the whole of last night and this morning. we weren't supposed to sleep, but guess what? jan fell asleep, and i just sat there listening to the radio and playing solitaire. and i fell asleep on the chair at about 6.30 am, and we woke up at 9.30 am. so tired. left her house at 1 something.

i stayed at home the whole day today. so poor thing. haha, but i asked my brother if he'd accompany me to go shopping tomorrow. he actually said yes, and i just stood there holding the phone, stunned. haha, i was shocked! and SO HAPPY!! yea! no mrts, buses or what not.

for now, i will never be able to know if this is right.
it is a hard decision after all.
i give up trying to make you understand.

Wednesday, February 8, 2006, 12:40 a.m.

dear diary.

i think i have a crush on somebody.
she's damn CUTE w brown almond eyes, high cheekbones.
and a strawberry-mouth.
in short.
i really really love her alot

HAHAHA
this is not considered as rubbish right

HAHAHA
hello ppl.
im the CUTEST.

okay
i dunoo wot to say alr.
byebye.

Friday, February 3, 2006, 09:52 p.m.

say farewell to the dark night
i see the coming of the sun



just back from dinner at the tanglin club, i ate so much! haha, sashimi, escargot, wagyu, bread and ice cream! took lots of funny pictures in front of the bamboo looking thing, haha.

okay, i must proclaim how much i love lim si ping, to the world. lim si ping designed this present template for me on february 3 2006. each time she designs a new template for me, or when she designs anything, she leaves us (meaning the world) in awe. at not only her creativity, originality and also her capabilities! she puts in effort for every one of her ovenbaked masterpieces, which are just lovely and good-enough-to-eat. she's what i'd call a html/designing genius. so, ppl from the designing world, watch out. cos, ping will definitely get all the business ! yay, i support you ping! :) pixel pastry brings graphic design up to a whole new level !

iloveping ! :)

One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl its plain to see
that you're the only one for me
and Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
if ever i believe my work is done
then i start Back at One


i hate it when ppl break promises.

Thursday, February 2, 2006, 07:06 p.m.

i can see it in your eyes
you still despise the same old lines
you heard the night before



sometimes i want to explain myself, but i dont know if there's a need to.
sometimes i like to think im special, but i dont know if i am.
sometimes i just want to disappear, but i wonder who'd miss me.
sometimes i want to talk, but i dont know who'd listen.
sometimes i want to listen, but i dont know who'd want to talk to me.
sometimes i just want to be something, but i end up as nothing.
sometimes i wish i were perfect, but im far from that.
how i wish everything went along with what i feel. who cares anyway. i'm just being self centered as usual, isnt that what everyone thinks. i guess i am after all. random.

steph, i need you!! hope you read this.
oh, i miss sara and jan too!

Friday, January 20, 2006, 11:23 p.m.

those happy hours I spent with you, that lovely afterglow,
most of all, i miss you so.



i carry your heart with me
by e.e. cummings

i carry your heart with me
(i carry it in my heart)

i am never without it
(anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)

i fear no fate
(for you are my fate,my sweet)

i want no world
(for beautiful you are my world,my true)

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart
i carry it in my heart

steph : this poem is dedicated to you. i'll really miss you, and the times with spent together. good and bad. im glad you like moodoo! i have the mickey mouse snowglobe to remind me of those times and you. at least we spent an 'almost' perfect day with each other. SHOPPING, CHOMPS and just enjoying each others company like we always do. i realised that i still had so much to write in that letter, but you know that a million pieces will also be insufficient. things are just not the same without you. and, we WILL see each other soon! iloveyou. :)

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day

your favourite song, for now.

Saturday, January 14, 2006, 10:35 p.m.

lean on me, when you're not strong,
and I'll be your friend, i'll help you carry on.



thursday, january 12 2006

potato salad making day! went to ele's house right after school, to make potato salad. i LOVE her 'new' kitchen and its 'island'! really, ULTRA cool!! seriously. and, she makes the BEST potato salad in the world! of course with the help from the best too, namely ping and i. its irrefutable. it tastes so good, that ping and i couldnt stop eating till we our stomachs were so bloated.

friday, january 13, 2006

LAST DAY of school in MI. friday the thirteenth. though i only spent two weeks there, i really had fun with all of them. being the 'bung' that i am and the gays that they all are.

had dinner with steph, sara, shuk, may, fifi, ervyn, yanzu, mark, oliver, daryl and lee at dan ryans. felt like a country bumpkin cos it was my first time there.. haha. anyway, steph, sara and tasha surprised me by giving me a disney jigsaw puzzle! though sara and tasha chipped in to buy, steph made the puzzle. i was really shocked because out of nowhere, the waiter came and told me there was something for me wrapped in brown paper. SURPRISE! but, im still the queen of surprises okay?

went to play pool at pot black after that.. steph won all the guys! just had to announce that, cos im proud of her!

steph and i caught the midnight movie : in her shoes. really good, and not to be considered a chick flick. i think it does have the feelings that i know i'll face soon.. in 'losing' a close friend. but, i still love the movie.

saturday, january 14, 2006

had piano lessons, as usual. went to chinatown at night for dinner with steph and her friend ali, in tamkah! great food!! hah, we had so much fun talking about the 'italian curse' and everything under the moon. ali's son is SO CUTE! he'll grow up to be 100% eyecandy! a charmer/flirt. hahaha.

went to max brenner (first time!) and tried the java orange dark chocolate hug mug, good! then, we went to the waterside front and caught a live performance. the girl sounds like norah jones, but not as.. soulful? a different style. but, she's still good. hah, but im not a norah jones fan eh.

GREAT WEEKEND ! :)

Wednesday, January 11, 2006, 10:29 p.m.

of all the things I was ever planning for
this was the last thing on my mind



the whole of last week's orientation was actually fun, phecda 5! despite the super long trip to school when the sun cannot be seen.. made loads of new friends, weird and interesting altogether! really love the breaks! haha, just sitting there with those ppl can really crack me up. they're full of nonsense!

the gays : mark, yanzu, oliver, adam, daryl, fifi and sebastian.
the ijs : tammy, sara, tasha and may.
the classmates: cheng hoon, sharon, debbie, yanzu and fifi.
the pool players: ervyn, may, madeline and all gays.

had fun playing pool in beauty world today! $3.80 per hour for students, cheap huh. and, i won oliver and may but mainly cause i was lucky. after all that 'bonding' i think i'll really miss them though we only spent a short two weeks together. just like the two weeks i spent in shanghai, these friends are to keep.

of course, i also miss ele and ping now.
i will miss everyone else though. you all know who you are.

have you ever wondered why things turn out the way they are? that if some things didnt happen, would you have taken a different path in life? funny how our choices lead us to unexpected situations in life. like the ppl i met in MI, im loving this experience.

Thursday, December 22, 2005, 08:47 p.m.

one night in beijing
with a golden boy



im finally updating! okay, i got back from shanghai today in the afternoon and met up with ele and ping! yea! we ate noodles together and just talked, long awaited quality time.

the trip was super FUN!! i loved every minute of it and i bet i can say the same for shuk and sara, right? okay, embarassing situations coming up.. on a scale of 1 to 5. but, i cant give too much details or they will all kill me.

1)both shuk's luggage and mine weighed about 10 kg each, but sara's weighed 16KG!! she brought loads of STUFF! hahaha.

embarassing index:1

2)sara's ON and camera manual. i cant elaborate or she'll kill me, but steph and shuk know what i'm talking about.
embarassing index:3

3)in the ARK, shuk's "hai you yi fen zhong! wo yao alexander." there's was still one minute left for the one-for-one deal, haha.
at night when i said, "night shuk! hai you yi fen zhong"
she replied "for what?"
and when i said for another alexander, i just couldnt stop laughing at her! oh, and when shuk is high, her face turns tomato-red!

embarassing index:4

4)people with headaches shouldnt talk. right sara?
embarassing index:1

5)it's between me and shuk, in the bus. sorry steph and sara, cant reveal!
embarassing index:5

6)TOILET!
embarassing index:5

7)steph made me stand on the boat to wave at the people and shout "da jia hao!" and i actually did it. she took a video of it while everyone just stared.
embarassing index:4

8)sara went to the toilet at mac's in wuxi, she pushed the door open and saw a woman sitting on the toilet bowl with her pants down, probably shitting. the woman actually said "ni zhen me ke yi zhe yang?!" (why you like that?!) to sara! hahaha, and sara said "shi ni mei you suo men!". bloody hilarious! and the second time she went to the toilet she was so disgusted by the sights, haha.
embarassing index:5

9)making me take pictures with a certain SOMEONE!
embarassing index:4

10)all the funny moments and intriguing pictures we took during the whole trip!!
embarassing index:0 enjoyment index:10

on the very first day we reached shanghai, we took our first cab. and, all of us fell asleep in the cab! how dangerous is that?! imagine if he drove us to some deserted place!

eating ma la tang in the cold, dong dong huo guo and shanghai uncle were great! in shanghai, there was always food! i think i gained weight, thanks to all that good food, haha. except for the service at shanghai uncle. steph and i had fun scolding that ugly asshole, what lousy service!

we met jieying and tammy there too! and i wont forget how the dvd broke down when we wanted to watch some shows, steph and i had to walk all the way out to wenfeng and buy a new one! imagine how desperate we were, and how convenient too.

the four day trip to suzhou, hangzhou, zhouzhuang and wuxi was a new experience. sara and i wouldnt have survived without steph! though there were petty quarrels everyday, it was worth it, only the toilets were a tad disgusting! i ended up with static hair EVERY DAY, it was terrible! we ate cup noodles for every dinner, so now we know that tong yi the cup noodles with jay chou on the cover is the best! hahaha.

meeting new people like haiyan, adam, ben, liu hao, lee wen kai etc. made the trip so enjoyable and unforgettable! but, with the GREATEST and MOST VALUABLE tour guide, stephanie natasha simon kudus, the trip was exceptionally fabulous!! and not forgetting gong gong, steph's grandfather!

mel loves steph, shuk and sara! :)

i wont forget ele and ping too! :)

Saturday, October 2, 2004, 04:44 p.m.

there is nothing you can say or do
i called to let you know i'm through with you



haha, i can come online, it was just a LOOSE connection larh! okay, i must update about my darlings on my birthday and yesterday..

20th September 2004

I LOVE JOE, ELE and PING!! :)



they tricked me into thinking that after school we were gonna have a trash talk of some kind, on MY birthday! haha, but turned out it was a celebration of me turning sixteen! when i reached their classroom, ele was so stern, but i saw joe laughing, i felt so relieved.

then, i saw 5 heart-shaped chocolate cakes on the table! they gave me really sweet and just LOVELY presents, like the balloon, the body shop scents, an invaluable book which cant be found anywhere else in the world! i'll definitely cherish it forever, and most probably bring it with me into my coffin!

of course, what's a celebration without cake-smashing-into-your-face! hahaha, ping ended up with her whole face covered in chocolate cake, joe with a little on her cheek and me, with my eyes and cheeks.

yesterday

after my papers, i went to j8 with ele to meet joe and ping. we watched 'white chicks'!! its a REALLY funny show, a must-watch! then, we headed down to my house for our bbq!

cleared things up, and started the bbq. ele the great chef and me the food tosser/fire fanner! right ele? okay, so i made the names up, but both of us were cooking the food for joe and ping our newscasters, informing us when the show starts. but, ping and ele had to go at nine-thirty.. so, joe and i went to use the com.

i had her hooked onto 'spider solitaire' while i entertained myself with being a background singer! bet i was really good, just that she didnt want to tell me, hahaha. right joe? then, she had to go, and she didnt reply me message! but, nevermind, she must have been tired.



* Joe, Ele and Ping: yesterday, was really like DAMN fun, so we should do it more often! and, i've alr added you all with my new email, so i'll be waiting for you all to come online. though, im not gonna message you all cos im gonna study. but, the com will be on and online next to me, so the moment you all come online, you can TALK to me!! hahaha, ILOVEYOU, each and everyone.

Tuesday, August 31, 2004, 10:12 p.m.

everything means nothing if i aint got you



okay, here's another update! today, was interesting, due to the teachers' day celebration, though there were screw ups.. but, it was fun watching!

when i was packing up, joe, pig and ele were like lying on each other, and they looked like they were playing, broken telephone! haha, was quite funny. and, we started asking primary kids to take pictures for us, haha. ele came up with the conclusion that they CANT take pictures.

during lessons after recess, tasha and i were walking around the canteen cos she wanted to eat. three truth has lots of people who LOVE to eat honeydew. . . right? cca sucked, cos of some irritants. at least winnie, and esther made it better.

Friday, August 20, 2004, 11:33 p.m.

have you ever found the one
you've dreamed of all your life
you'd do just about anything to look into their eyes



haha, im like finally updating! so exciting, haha. ok, class has been crappy, stressful, irritating yet at sometimes, FUN and retarded! haha, cos, i have retarded ppl sitting next to me (obviously! like ahem), haha. at least life in three truth is much better.

stayed back after school for a while with yang ling and steph, walked around and stayed in class.

was waiting for my darlings to finish their mock exam, and they came over to my house. haha, we had so much fun, with joe, ele and pig just being our usual selves! pig and i were like DANCING like retards, but we enjoyed it. right pig? then, joe, ele and pig played the piano and me and joe were CRAZY over ele's piano composition!! right joe?? it really sounds damn good! haha.

had tuition, and as i promised, am here updating my pitas! haha, and i didnt lie, isnt this a new entry?! haha. gonna spend the day at sentosa, my brother's party! its like oh-so-cool! haha.

ireallyreallylovejemksalot! :)

Thursday, June 24, 2004, 10:28 p.m.

remember we used to laugh and say
no one else could get in our way



im back from camp, with this GREAT song!!

JOE!: thanks for listening to me in the afternooon! haha, it is really fun being around you! and, i love the joke your mum made!! :) hahaha. STOP taLkiNgx LiKex tTX lEhzX~ vAlLeY DeZ iRriTaTinGsx sIaZ!~ mOiX siAnz hAlfWayX OrRediEx mArNzX~~

I LOVE JOETTE CHIEW TSIN MUN !

dance with my father - luther vandross

Back when I was a child,
before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around ‘til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved

If I could get another chance,
another walk,
another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance,
one final step,
one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again

Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me

I know I’m praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don’t do it usually
But dear Lord she’s dying
To dance with my father again

Every night I fall asleep and
this is all I ever dream

Sunday, June 13, 2004, 08:19 p.m.

i told you every day
i told you every night tht
i love you :)



HEY MEL :)
since you don't update often
i'm so bloody free,
i've decided to update for you
for a moment, i couldn't remember
of your password.. till i
thought of how retarded you are! haha!
well, you're having your bbq now!
hope you're enjoying YOUR bbq!
hah, bet you're irritated.
anw, thanks for these few days.
tennis has been great! & yes,
we'll have to brush up!

oh well, update ok? :)

i love you! always :)



love always,
JOE :D


Wednesday, May 26, 2004, 11:54 a.m.

this love has taken its toll on me
she said goodbye too many times before



its been twenty one days, since i've updated, so long. now i really feel computer illiterate. haha. well, everyday spent with the HULA has been the best, no doubt! watched 'shrek 2' with joe, ele and louie, its a great show!

during recess today, ping had to go for english remedial, so we had recess, just the three of us. ate quite alot, then ping and sam joined us. we had an ICE FIGHT!! more like gang fight, cos, joe, ele and i ganged up to pour ice on ping. haha, was so fun, especially with ping saying "my breasts are contracting!". then, when we headed for class, ping started raining leaves from underneath her pinafore, while she ran after sam. hahaha!

HULA!: hey, i really really love being around you all! considering the fact that i love you all SO much! :) well, all the best for your chinese 'o' levels, and everything else! haha.

MEL LOVES HULA! :)

this girl just doesnt know that she gossips too much, thinking that she's so pretty and popular, showing attitude and all. oh please. dont you realise how disgusting you are, and i have to see your face in class almost everyday. how unlucky.

Wednesday, May 5, 2004, 04:32 p.m.

will you be around to tell me
everything's alright



today, mojo jojo, was being an irritant as usual in the ava room! argh, but i managed to escaped unharmed.. hahaha, and samantha is really lame! chewing cow! tan was being sucha bitch to the whole class, annoying! but, english was really cool, literally and all. we were in the com lab, and we got chocolates!! i guess she's kinda nice.

stayed back after class to do blackboard duty, haha. they all thought i was mad, but i really couldnt stand how dirty the class is! yuck! i even swept the floor, now tasha thinks im some cleanliness freak.. haha.

they, gave me a ride home on their cab, cos they were going to gracehaven. and my file got wet.. thanks. off to tuition!

HULA!: hey, good luck for all your chinese exams and other tests!! i'll be right here, rooting for you all! :)

Wednesday, April 28, 2004, 08:37 p.m.

at night I pray
that soon your face will fade away



was really boring during lessons today, kept falling asleep, but, had a shock during e. lit! brightened up my day, besides seeing HULA, of course! english was funny, SOMEONE stuffed a earphone into my ear while i was sleeping, but at least the music was good. haha. at least i didnt have to go to 'grace haven' today, cant imagine what it'll be like, oops.

stayed back after school to study with HULA, then, pig was 'caught in the rain'! haha, and she really lost track of time. had LOTSA fun, definitely. i just love being around them! managed to complete my homework, then, went home for tuition.

off to watch 'mr. bean', it really funny! at least, i think so.

And I don't trust you
Cause every time you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come

Monday, April 26, 2004, 08:37 p.m.

it's gonna burn for me to say this
but it's comin from my heart



finally, im able to update, many times i've tried, but i think, pitas just doesnt like me! haha. i have ALOT of things to update, but i guess most of it can be read in joe's blog.. haha.

for starters, today, had my 2.4 km jog, was second last in class. is tt slow or what? haha. some ppl are just SO self-centered and irritating! argh.. anyway, then, joe and i went to j8 for lunch, ya kun kaya toast again. yummy! then, joe and sam came to my house, but we didnt do much, realised tt my dad is really lame!

im sure pig's torn shirt is alr famous, so i shouldnt emphasize on it. i think my memory is failing me, i cant seem to remember the things i want to blog about! shit!

on thursday, had workshop till really late at night in school.. so freaky. friday and saturday, had leadership camp. it sucked like shit, at least for me. :( really hated it, no offence to the ppl who made an effort to make the camp, fun. but, i must really thank joe for being there, ele was of help too! :)

off to study for tomorrows test..

THANKS JOE! I LOVE YOU! :)

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
:)

i love HULA! :)

Thursday, April 15, 2004, 08:40 p.m.

god send me an angel
to wipe the tears from my eyes



was shocked at my history marks, then, had a chinese test. things got really heated up during recess, and after assembly, with the confrontation and all. joe and ele with their 'lecture' notes.. lame, haha.

cca was the same as usual, nothing interesting. then, came home for tuition, listened to my mum's crap, etc.

I don't know what to do
I can't believe it's true that
You can make me feel this way
I see it in your eyes
It made me realize
There's something that I've got to say..


JOE !: i'm really really really happy for you! like, finally, don't know why you felt so irritated. well, wish you all the best! :) i don't know whether this is relevant, but, its for you!

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love! :)

Tuesday, April 13, 2004, 10:20 p.m.

i can't make you love me
i'm just a girl with a crush on you..



i got scolded in class during chinese for playing with a bottle? that jade sparrow, is really interesting, haha. and, that mrs tan, she's mad. sprayed water all over my table.. argh.

then, cabbed down to cine. joe was saying that the driver was a cheeko pei! haha.. he's really strange.

then, walked all the way to lido to catch 'the prince and me', really sweet show. but, there was this person beside me who kept complaining. joe and ele were crying! haha.. so funny! walked all the way to taka, then to somerset mrt. headed home, and i was late for tuition.. but it was okay.

going to do some online surfing..

Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time

Monday, April 12, 2004, 10:42 p.m.

don't waste your time on me
you're already the voice inside my head



thursday
after dinner went straight to joe's house. was supposed to go for the lenten vigil thing, but couldn't, so we ended up surfing the net till late at night.. haha. was fun though, really enjoyed myself! :) in the end, we couldnt hold out till five. then, i reached home at three, haha.

friday
went to joe's house again, and played 'bishibashi' with her.. was interesting. i kept losing to her! haha. then, we cabbed all the way to town, to catch 'prince and me' but, it was sold out! well, after that, we went to bel's house, cabbed to bishan and we caught 'into the mirror' with her brothers and kenneth, scary! then, after reaching home, my dad cooked noodles for me! :)

sunday
there was no class! had lunch with my mum and relatives, then, followed my mum around. watched 'pirates of the carribean' with my mum! nice show! :)

monday
tasha didnt come to school today, so i ran the six rounds with sara. was ok though, just that they were teasing my about 'estee lauder-beyond paradise', so irritating! then, went to j8 with joe and krist where we ate 'ya kun' kaya toast and eggs.. nice! then, had tuition.. off to sleep.

I'm trying to speak
straight from my heart
So much to say
I don't know where to start
You're that special someone
Right out of my dreams
You opened my eyes
You made me believe
I could fall in love with you
:)

Sunday, April 4, 2004, 10:00 p.m.

baby you're the one you still turn me on
you can make me whole again :)



chow didnt come for class today, was ok, but really boring without her :(. my palm's are all sweaty, and im damn irritated with my brothers! argh.. i shall just blog bout yesterday and friday.

friday, had fun as usual in class and during recess. then, went town with joe and ele, they and their x and z language! haha. joe thought i was trying to trick her with an april fool joke ,on the second of april, by going 'uhmm' when she was eating! i wasnt doing ANYTHING, and she kept turning around.. haha. KIND, NICE joe, walked me to the side of the mrt station. sure enough, it was sweet of her :), haha.

spent the whole of saturday, with my MUM!! :) so exciting.. haha. she bought me a new phone, and we were spending my long-awaited 'quality' time together! well, i had to do all the carrying. realised tt my mum is very charitable! she bought a painting of a monkey, and donated the amount to the spastic's association, through an auction. :)

Monday, March 29, 2004, 08:22 p.m.

remember we'd be up all night
talking 'till the morning light



didnt blog for the weekend. did flag day on saturday, then went for piano, and fell asleep on her sofa.. haha. then, colinn came over to pick up something, oh, my mum came back on saturday! :)sunday, was maddening, had to walk home under the scorching sun! was so irritated.

today, was even worse. after, running four rounds, i started sneezing like nobody's business. then, had a cough, stomachache, and felt really COLD! -brrr. went to class, and found 19 mosquito bites on me! started scratching until yunhua and yangling felt really itchy also.. haha.

but, turned out tt it was just an allergic reaction, as in those weren't mosquito bites. haha. but, it was still tormenting! cant believe i'm allergic to estee lauder's BEYOND PARADISE ! :( still, joe thought it was funny.. hmph. but, i'm okay alr!:) but, couldn't have recess with my dear JEMKS!

JOE ! : hey, don't overwork yourself k? next time sick, then just stay at home and rest! this is for you, MY BEST FRIEND ! :)

Where would I be
Without you by my side loving me
Anyone can see that we¹re the real thing
No matter what and always
Come whatever
We're best friends forever.
:)

Friday, March 26, 2004, 09:34 p.m.

cause i've been waiting all my life
for someone just like you
but, you're it, you're the ultimate YOU!



school was ok.. during maths, yunNIE and i were doing our own things, she was writing her letter, while i was filling up my organiser. i realised tt i'm one month lagging behind in time.. haha. and, my class is really strange. they, only work to impress the teachers, especially if the teacher is angry, leaving the class halfway, haha.

after school, joe, ele and i went to j8, ate lunch in sakae. yummy! then, we went to popular where we started talking with double words, mimicking 'someone', haha haha. ele left, joe and i went window shopping in mph, we were so bored, we took a bus ride, and joe went home.

one of my goldfish DIED!! :( ahhh.. i got into my room, was gonna feed them, then i saw one of them FLOATING!! oh no, now there's only two left! :(

JEMKS ! : hey, heard tt you're have lots of tests coming up next week, must study hard!

Remember the laughs
Then add up the dreams
And take it to the ninth degree
We'll be friends forever
Cause you'll be forever in my heart
That's where best friends are :)

Tuesday, March 23, 2004, 05:07 a.m.

i put your picture away,
sat down and cried today.



in the writing workshop now, its so cold! have to research on my topic, for persuasive speech. im doing it again.. last year, it was on maid abuse, this year we get to choose. should be better i guess.

yesterday! woah, i took the bus with krist, and it was filled with amk-sians. -sneers. they were so irritating and noisy! i think the girl next to me was crazy or something, when i was getting off, she waved bye? and, i had to squeeze my way out! argh.. retarded. then, i had two tuitions. i fell asleep during one, oops. but, she was nice about it. haha.

oh, i dont know what to name my goldfishes! there's no special meaning to the goldfishes..

its gonna be recess soon!! :) cant wait to eat.. hopefully none of the jemks have meetings and are absent. haha.

Monday, March 22, 2004, 03:28 p.m.

i promise i'll be there for you



first day of school and my dad pisses me off.. argh. anyway, today during recess, joe and ping were putting egg yolk into a straw, planning to pass it off as honeysticks. wonder whether it worked.. haha. was sitting in the same line with 'somebody' also.. haha.

because i didnt take the bus with joe, i had to go home alone.. and the bus was SO crowded! this girl was like hugging the pole and blocking the exit.. so irritating!

off to science tuition..

JOE ! : hey, decided to try and update as often as possible, so tt i can make full use of this blog you helped me make! haha, THANKS! right now, i have to go, or i'll find a song to dedicate to you k? next entry larh.. haha.

Sunday, March 21, 2004, 05:34 p.m.

angel dust



at joe's house now! she helped me edit this template, so sweet right? THANKS JOE! haha. had so much fun just now, when we were buying food and how we had to bribe her bro to lend us his com..

cat class was ok, as usual, chow, dhini and i were eating chips during class. haha.

cant wait for school tomorrow, but too bad, i cant sleep in anymore!

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