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Sunday, November 28, 2004 [08:20 p.m.]
Happy Birthday Mom~!! <3
dad didn't call today ... kinda disappointed in him. I even e-mailed him and told him not to forget ...
hai-yen aunti came over and looked through my pictures xD ah the memories ^^;;
I remember this little boy from when I was in kindergarden ^^ he used to do everything with me and told my mom that's he's gonna marry me when I grow up xP it was so sweet hehehe~ he was chubby in the picture ^^; makes me wonder where he is today =P
there's also this picture of me singing in the karaoke microphone we used to have. I thought that was my brother but it was me xD
I miss my family >_<...
we used to do so much together...
I haven't seen my little cousin since she was about 3 yrs old? I was the youngest before she came along hehe~
I love my baby pictures XD LoL~~
Song playing Yanni - Before I Go
Thursday, November 25, 2004 [09:21 p.m.]
wow this week went by quick @ @
I thought today was Wednesday till now LoLz >_o;; I missed out on a day of my life xD
I just want to scream at some people -_-...
stayed at school till about 8:30...
there's still tons of chem hwk to do and jap as well =_="
Song playing none
Sunday, November 21, 2004 [02:13 a.m.]
busy day today @ @
got called out to the art exibition in Crystal Mall by terri. izu wasn't online the night before or this morning so couldn't reach her >_<
anyways the paintings were so pretty~!! O_O wish I can learn to do something like that =] terri's kittens were so cute ^-^v
we got free food afterwards and so we helped outselves to some ^.^
afterwards we walked around the mall and then went to Metro to hunt for presents but no luck >.< we ended up buying BBT~ XD
bused to her family resturant and then went out for dinner with her family =] Nick (her little brother) kept playing with the orange peels after dinner =P it was kinda funny ^^;;
got home at about 10:45pm @ @
still gotta write my grad write-up and send my baby pix in...dunno what to write >_<
Song playing Coldplay - The Scientist
Wednesday, November 17, 2004 [10:42 p.m.]
muahahahaha!
got our pictures taken at Artona XD
Everyone was so dressy and looked so pretty ^^ we all loaded up with make-up and concealers and stuff x] saw Sarah at the entrance and wow she looks so different! same goes for Angela and Joanne ^^ I loved Sarah's dress tho. Tonia's was just so damn puffy XD
ease's mom is good with make-up + hair :]
my hair was so hard to do cause it won't stay the shape/style that I wanted it to go >.< took so long and we ended up just letting it be naturally ^^;
oh yes and I have very long eye lashes ^-^v muahaha~ the mascara worked out great :]
terri, ease and I missed our last two classes to go home and get ready. in the end we were still rushing to the studio XD barely made it in time but we still got there :] 11:30~3:45 to get ready lolz ^^;;
the studio was so pretty~ I loved the white and living room ^^ I took my glasses off for the pictures so everything was pretty much fuzzy blobs xP I couldn't see where the white room's walls were >_< hehe
the yearbook portrait picture guy was cool ^^ was so funny and friendly. the grad gown one was just bleh XD she made me so stiff lolz x_o
afterwards we went for dinner at Cactus Club Cafe. Lin had to go home so it was just ease, terri, whit, stephen, and darren. omg we ate so much XD two cakes (omg...sooooo good!) i ordered a sandwish, stephen a burger, darren a veggie fehita (sp?), terri and ease the calamarie (sp) and then a salad. whit didn't order anything >_o we wanted to get a belini but haha yea...too bad ^^" so we all drank darren's ice-tea and we kept getting it refilled :P
darren bought a pimp-looking stick XD we had some fun with it XD hahaha~
my feet were killing me cause of the heels >.< and we were gonna walk to cactus club O_O so glad we didn't and took the bus instead ^^ there was a cool bus driver who thought we were UBC's drama class :P
anyways time to shower~
feeling all icky =P mascara is fun XD hohoho ^.^
Song playing BoA - Every Heart
Monday, November 15, 2004 [07:37 p.m.]
I forgot that I have a math test today >_< I'm pretty positive that I failed it ~_~" thinking of getting a math tutor soon...
was so tired today so I took a long nap when I got home.
chem test tomorrow first thing now T.T omg I'm gonna die >_< I liked it when my chem class was after lunch x_o
anyways, got this fwd e-mail from Roman and thought it was really nice :] I think I've read this somewhere before ^^"
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I walked into the grocery store not particularly interested
in buying groceries. I wasn't hungry. The pain of losing my husband was still too raw. And this grocery store held so many sweet memories. He often came with me, and almost every time he'd pretend to go off and look for something special. I knew what he was up to. I'd always spot
him walking down the aisle with the three yellow roses in his hands.
He knew I loved yellow roses. With a heart filled with grief, I only wanted to buy my few items and leave, but even grocery shopping was different since he had passed on.
Shopping for one took time, a little more thought than it
had for two. Standing by the meat, I searched for the
perfect small steak and remembered how he had loved his
steak.
Suddenly a woman came beside me. She was blonde, slim and lovely, wearing a soft green pantsuit. I watched as she picked up a large package of T-bones, dropped them in her basket, hesitated, and then put them back. She turned to go and once again reached for the pack of steaks.
She saw me watching her and she smiled. "My husband loves T-bones, but honestly, at these prices, I don't know."
I swallowed the emotion down my throat and met her pale blue eyes. My husband passed away eight days ago," I told her. Glancing at the package in her hands, I fought to control the tremble in my voice. "Buy him the steaks". And cherish every moment you have together."
She shook her head and I saw the emotion in her eyes as she placed the package in her basket and wheeled away.
I turned and pushed my cart across the length of the store
to the dairy products. There I stood, trying to decide which size milk I should buy. A Quart, I finally decided, and moved on to the ice cream. If nothing else, I could always fix myself an ice cream cone. I placed the ice cream in my cart and looked down the aisle toward the
front. I saw first the green suit, then recognized the pretty lady coming towards me. In her arms she carried a package. On her face was the brightest smile I had ever seen. I would swear a soft halo encircled her blonde hair as she kept walking toward me, her eyes holding line.
As she came closer, I saw what she held and tears began
misting in my eyes."These are for you," she said and placed three beautiful long stemmed yellow roses in my arms. "When you go through the line, they will know these are paid for." She leaned over and placed a gentle kiss on my cheek, then smiled again I wanted to tell
her what she'd done, what the roses meant, but still unable to speak, I watched as she walked away as tears Clouded my vision. I looked down at the beautiful roses nestled in the green tissue wrapping and found it almost unreal. How did she know? Suddenly the answer seemed so clear. I wasn't alone. Oh, you haven't forgotten me, have you? I whispered, with tears in my eyes. He was still with me, and she was his angel.
Every day, be thankful for what you have and who you are.
Please read all of this, it is really nice. This is a simple request If you appreciate life, send this to your friends, including the person that sent it to you.
Even though I clutch my blanket and growl when the alarm
rings. Thank you, Lord, that I can hear. There are many
who are deaf.
Even though I keep my eyes closed against the morning light
as long as possible. Thank you, Lord, that I can see. Many are blind.
Even though I huddle in my bed and put off rising. Thank you, Lord, that I have the strength to rise. There are many who are bedridden.
Even though the first hour of my day is hectic, when socks
are lost, toast is burned, tempers are short, and my
children are so loud. Thank you, Lord, for my family There are many who are lonely.
Even though our breakfast table never looks like the
pictures in magazines and the menu is at times unbalanced. Thank you, Lord, for the food we have. There are many who are hungry.
Even though the routine of my job often is monotonous. Thank you, Lord, for the opportunity to work. There are many who have no job.
Even though I grumble and bemoan my fate from day to day and wish my circumstances were not so modest. Thank you, Lord, for life.
Pass this on to the friends you know. It might help a bit to make this world a better place in which to live, right? A friend is someone we turn to when our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone to treasure.
For friendship is a gift. A friend is someone who fills our lives with Beauty, Joy and Grace, and makes the world in which we live a better and happier place.
YOU ARE MY FRIEND!
God bless you and yours.
Now send this to every friend you have and don't forget me!
Song playing Mariah Carey - Through the Rain
Saturday, November 13, 2004 [06:50 p.m.]
fuck you
yes I'm stupid, I can't do anything right.
why do I even bother?
Song playing none
Wednesday, November 10, 2004 [02:35 a.m.]
Happy Birthday Ease~ =] (November 9)
Missed the morning classes today >_o felt really crappy -_-"
went back to school with a fruit cheesecake (thanks ^^) and cough drops (helped me get through Jap)
We had no plates but got Darren to go get us some from the cafe =P we had a bunch of forks, spoons, and knives (all plastic). stupid me...I left my camera on my table >_< I even reminded myself that I'll bring it today T.T *sigh*~
so sorry...no birthday pictures ease >_<
When have I become the camera person? everyone expects me to have a camera whenever they want -_-"
I came home and slept from 5:30pm~10:30pm.
I can't fall asleep now...
and my computer...lol...I think its dying soon >_> it was making a lot of weird noises today. my brother let me back stuff up onto his computer. just hope he won't open anything that's kinda private ~.~ (like my chat logs...)
Song playing Earth - I'm Happy We Met
Monday, November 8, 2004 [10:08 p.m.]
Why must I be sick now? -.-
*sigh*...the day was pretty crappy cause I was coughing through it with a slight headache =.=
Slept for 2 hours after I ate my dinner...woke up with a headache still and was still sleepy @_@ bleh x_o
is it wrong to feel insignificant at something so...little? ~.~ its just...bleh -_-"
I'm kinda surprised at my mom that she noticed (a couple of days ago) that something was wrong with me >.> it felt pretty good for her to ask me what was wrong even if I didn't tell her the reason. it was just nice ^^
her birthday is coming up too, I wanna do something special for her but I don't know what >_< ...
at least her b-day's on a Sunday so I'm sure I can do something =]
I just realized that...my dad hasn't contacted us for a while...hope he's doing ok @_@
Song playing A1 - I Will Take The Tears
Sunday, November 7, 2004 [10:25 p.m.]
went to get haircut today with terri and ease.
my hair is so very very short now and I have bangs >_o
but I kinda like it ^^" though the hair is poking my eyes x_x gotta start clipping my hair up now lolx XD
wish I had a before and after picture. forgot to take one this time >_<
happy b-day grandma~ =]
Oh yea, I just found out that there's no school on Thursday cause it's Rememberance day ^^"
Song playing Miyavi - Gariben Rock
Wednesday, November 3, 2004 [10:25 p.m.]
didn't present the Japanese weather report today *phew*...
well am somewhat glad that I didn't but also somewhat disappointed. glad that I get more time to study and prepare for it now that I know what sensei wants and how she's gonna mark it, but then disappointed that I couldn't get it over with and that means more nervousness >_<
writing cue-cards at the moment @_@
if you have something you want to talk about, you know I'm there for you right? you know who you are...don't want to mention any names just in case you don't want me to. but yea...call me or just IM me whenever you want whether its 2am or whatever. I'm just worried about you =( and I'm sure everyone else is too...
went to play broomball at an ice rink this morning for PE. it was pretty fun lolz~ its just like hockey but instead of hockey stick you get a broom; instead of hockey puck you get a ball; instead of wearing skates you wear your shoes. Damn those helmets were tight >_< took me so long to find one that fits not too badly =.=;; I almost fell on the ice a couple of times x_x daniel kept doing weird things lol, it was quite funny xD layed down on the ice in front of chris...hahaha ^.^~
daniel and JOHN (aka. michael~ lolz XD) skipped English to go study for geography? or was it history? don't remember...oh well. they got caught by the teacher when we were about to go home XD caught right by the door too ^^;; I kept getting punched -_- *glares* pfft wasn't my fault you two got caught x_x aii~~
I slept pretty early yesterday...1am (yes that's very early for me) and I was still really tired this afternoon so I came home and fell asleep while watching TV ^^;
damn my computer is so annoying -_- it won't let me install Gunbound or Maple Story T.T and dammit its all CHINESE now >_< don't understand @_@ *mumbles* want to switch back to English but I don't wanna ask my brother to help me reinstall again x_x
Shaw was messed up again -_-" our internet kept getting cut off *mumble mumble* I just wanna call them and start screaming at them >_>~
anywho...
my brother's sick now (dunno how he got sick) so I better stay away from him. but then again, I'm gonna get sick from him anyways ~.~" *dies*...stupid weak immune system T.T
Song playing Three Days Grace - Home
Tuesday, November 2, 2004 [09:15 p.m.]
awkward night >_> I felt kinda bad dragging my mom with me to the post-secondary night.
so many things going on, I don't know what I should do. A part of me wants to give up but another just keeps going.
I'm so worried about school now too -.-" what if I don't get into UBC or SFU? what then? x_x I know my marks aren't that good so don't give me that "have more confidence" crap >_>~ just so frustrated with everything lately.
Song playing m-flo feat. Melody & Ryohei - Miss You
Tuesday, November 2, 2004 [03:14 a.m.]
bleh -.- I typed up a very long entry earlier but I just had to click on some link which used this page to open it so I lost whatever junk I typed up ~.~" so now just a very very brief entry now...
slept over at terri's house on sat, fireworks on Halloween night.
*continue studying for math*...-_-"
Song playing Mandy Moore - Cry
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