Monday, September 23, 2002 08:22 p.m.

yay!

John's finally back online, but he's exhausted (albeit delirious with joy, as he put it) and slightly overwhelmed by the fact that everyone wants to talk to him ^^; I love you, John!

So my day was spent mostly at school. Annie came along with me, and I didn't go to film class so I hung out with her a while before Andrew came along. We three ate lunch, then Lauryl came by and the four of us chatted, then Andrew left and yeah. I went to Brit Lit, knew most of the answers for the review, went to the library to find Annie and Lauryl, went to Psychology, fetched Annie, then waited for Mom to pick us up. Then at home I pretty much... slept. Yes. I napped while Annie played Legend of Mana (my turn is tonight, whee!). Then... food. Meatloaf and green beans and mashed potatoes and French bread and applesauce. An' a vitamin, because I'm a growing girl and whatnot.

Hiragana is fun and curvy. I love hiragana.

Sunday, September 22, 2002 10:43 p.m.

aww, so cute

My mom took two pictures of me and John the other day so she could see what they would turn out like on a certain setting on her camera, and they turned out well. Now I have to find a scanner and get them online, because they're pretty darn cool. John's so cute ^___^

Annie's going to stay all this week, so this means... A person to talk to around the house! Yay! I so happy. Watch me be so happy.

The day after tomorrow is John's 21st birthday ^_________^ And we're going to see The Tuxedo and... yeah. I don't know why Steven invited us, but hey, it's the thought that counts. Maybe we'll stop by a park afterwards or something. Swing on swings, slide down slides, all that good stuff.

My train of thought got derailed, so night night.

Saturday, September 21, 2002 10:17 p.m.

"to the late night... double feature..."

I went to see Rocky Horror Picture Show early early early this morning (and last night, but the thing started at midnight so anyway). It was pretty fun! I can't dance though, so I had a hard time trying to do the Time Warp ^^; We (John, Annie, and I) first had to pick up Steven at the mall, then we got to the theater early so went for to a coffee shop. I had some delicious oolong tea =D Then John got a call from Sara saying that her ride had gone AWOL and she needed to be picked up. So we trekked over to her dorm and got her, and arrived back at the theater just in time for it to start. The live performance wasn't so great (though the guy playing the criminologist was hilarious), but the movie was fantastic as usual (though I had only seen it once before). It shocked me to learn that John had NEVER seen RHPS before! Amazing.

John, Annie, and I got back to my house at three and we were all so tired =_= Since Annie had to be at the Go tournament at seven, I okayed it with my mom that John could just crash on the couch, so he did. He was the only one that got any sleep (other than my parents). Annie and I stayed up having "girl talk." It was good, but at one point, when I was ready to pass out, Annie was talking about Vejiita being protective of Bra and I made the comment of: "John has a guitar--no, Steven has a guitar..."

How I came up with that, I'll never know. And neither of them have guitars anyway.

We all got out into the living room/kitchen at 6:45, woke poor John up, and debated whether Annie really wanted to learn those silly Ing rules after all and play Go. And so she didn't. So we ate breakfast and talked a little and napped (though this time John and I were in the same bed, mwa ha ha). Eventually my brother Chris came over to give Dad his belated birthday presents, and John left.

The rest of the day was spent off and on napping, and after I finally dredged myself up, I joined Annie in watching GTO ^__^ Well before that we had macaroni and cheese for lunch, watched the fifth episode of Trigun and the Utena movie, though I watched half of that before I decided it was time for me to go night night. THEN it was GTO. Then random stuff. Bologna and cheese sandwiches for dinner. My parents went out to Burlington to see Leon Russell, and when they got back they reported that they had a wonderful time and even got two signatures of his. Spiffy.

And that's what's been happening ^_^v

Friday, September 20, 2002 12:27 a.m.

it was my fault. grr.

After being thoroughly upset over lack of conversation for many hours, we finally talked and I found out exactly what was wrong. I'd been demanding too much time of him and making him feel guilty when I felt like he wasn't spending enough time with me.

So yeah. This time around, I'm not going to be so childish. John goes out of his way to spend time with me because he wants to, and I pretty much tell him it's not enough. So I'm not going to do that anymore.

I love you, John, and again, I'm sorry.

Thursday, September 19, 2002 03:54 p.m.

hrm.

John and I had something of a fight yesterday before anime club. He picked me up late so I was a bit frustrated about that, then he and Dan kept talking about fighter planes, so I then felt left out and ignored. When Dan got out to get Sara, John asked me what was wrong, and I told him I was bored and I was kinda upset that he picked me up thirty minutes late. He replied quite sarcastically that he was sorry that he was so boring (which he is not) and that he didn't have to pick me up.

...No, I guess he didn't. In fact, he doesn't ever have to pick me up for anything, using that logic. A person doesn't have to do a damn thing with that sort of logic. It still pissed me off just the same.

Then when I tried to get him to talk to me so we could work this out, he shrugged me off; it felt as though he didn't want to be around me. And maybe that's true... Maybe he simply wanted to get away and think.

Still hurt anyway.