I'm Angela. My website, fizz site, doesn't currently work, since the server's down. I hope that status will change very soon. My email, however, works just wonderfully. I've churned out this amazingly simple layout because I'm at the end of my layout rope right now. But hey, these Azumanga Daioh icons are cute.
I only go to one other person's blog, and that's Dan's. He's the only one I can nag about updating and get success.
Beyond that, I enjoy going to the Noblevitae Forums (run on Dan's website), and I love downloading manga (especially from Toriyama's World, Manga Project, Cabbit, and Inane).
Past entries (pictures don't work): 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17
Friday, October 3, 2003 08:05 p.m.
Lauryl invited me over to her house to spend the night on Saturday and watch some movies after I told her I'd been feeling alienated from the group at school. I accepted, glad to be doing something with her again. Today, I was supposed to see her and talk more about the specifics of this event. She wasn't there. So I wonder if I'll be at her house this weekend.
I also wonder what I have to offer people, and how I can offer it. This is something I'll have to think about over the weekend.
Saturday, September 27, 2003 11:32 p.m.
My keyboard is fried slightly. It won't shift at times, and sometimes won't use Ctrl or Alt either. Like for copy & paste, so I've been using Alt commands for certain punctuation, which work, thankfully.
I've been feeling a little better about things lately. I'm still not connecting with people like I used to, but that's all right. I guess I just need to let it go and get used to the fact that I'm all but out of the state to a few. To the others, well... Everyone's caught up in their own situation, so no matter. While I'm not truly alone, I am still alone in a sense, and it bothers me, but there's little else I can do without reaching out to someone and feeling clingy, and then guilty because that person doesn't want to deal with someone else's problems. Or that's how I perceive it anyway.
Friends go to each other with problems and it's not a burden. Do I have friends?
Saturday, September 20, 2003 12:56 a.m.
When I was little, I used to play with Legos a lot. I loved them. I had great fun building houses and cars and coin banks and all sorts of nifty stuff, even if it made no sense at all. My sister told me when I was six that I would make a great architect. I don't know why she said this, or what prompted it, but from that point on, I was motivated to finding out what an architect was, and how I could become one. For years my goal in life was to be an architect, to design fabulous buildings using little more than a pencil, a ruler, and some paper. After a while I no longer wanted to be an architect, but a writer. I think this happened around the end of middle school, the beginning of high school. Now, I'd still like to be a writer, but with my interest in language, I think I'd like to work in translating.
How do these connect? They all build or create something. Architects build with their pictures a building, writers create stories. Working with the Japanese language is wonderful, as is English; you're building words and ideas, and you're communicating. It's a great feeling to me.
Monday, September 15, 2003 10:47 p.m.
First, the scholastic: I got back both my New Testament and logic tests, and they were all right. I could have wished the logic score to be better, but just the same, it was decent. Also, I took my art history test today, and it went pretty well too; I think I've made an acceptable grade.
Second, I was told to hit on Jared. Not one to back down from such a simple and silly challenge, I did; I passed with flying colors. Goody. I won't explain further, because it really WAS silly.
Third, relations all around are changing, and I'm trying to find a place where I'll be satisfied with my position and not be bitter. Or too bitter, at any rate...
And fourth. The meat of this entry. Remember how I wrote that I wouldn't call John further? Yeah. That didn't go well. I broke down and called, and called, and called some more. Still no answer. I told Dan about it, and he told me that the last time he and John spoke, John had acted strangely. (For example, Bunta was not eaten by a rock. This is just Dan's trickery. Pay him no mind.) So Dan went to bed because of a migraine, and I turned to Sara for help. She said to call his mom, so I did. Surprise surprise: he's perfectly well (which relieves me of a great deal of stress), and he switched to a local number. So basically, with all he HAS been doing, he's forgotten to call me and say he was going to be unavailable for a while. If he really was that busy.
Either way, John's going to get an earful when I talk to him >=(
Sunday, September 14, 2003 02:56 p.m.
I suppose I'm trying to make up for the lack of entries lately by posting yet another today ^_^; Who knows, maybe I'll post some more later.
I found an interesting blog called Econoclasm. I wasn't really sure what I'd be looking at when I clicked on the link, but it was neat to find that the person writing it is a Japanese man living in England, studying economics. I know little about economics; that's Dan's department. But it was fascinating to read those parts nonetheless (though I didn't understand). What's more, even though his grasp of English is very good, he claims to still have trouble expressing himself when speaking.
In retrospect, I forgot to mention in all this updating that I plan to take the Japanese SAT II. I decided this because the test is only given in November, and I feel the need to know where I stand in my studies. It's been two years since I've taken Japanese classes, and since then, I've been relying on a mixture of anime, manga, Jpop, Jrock, and internet files to keep learning. What do I really know? So, I'm going to take the test. Plus, if I do well on it, I'll feel better about wanting to take the Japanese Language Placement Test. But the prospect of taking THAT is rather scary x.X But this sort of fear makes me want to learn Japanese even more, because I love language.
But suppose I get my bachelor's in Japanese (which I will make happen one way or another, make no mistake about it). What then? What will I do with that knowledge? Even if I stay in school and keep learning, what sort of career will I have? Gotta keep thinking about. And while I'm at it, I need to study for my art history test tomorrow ~_~; Joy...
Sunday, September 14, 2003 01:16 p.m.
This was one of the questions I had in my New Testament class; two similar questions involved substituting Romans and Greeks in for Jews. I couldn't remember what the teacher said about the Jews... But I think I did so-so on that test. Now, the logic test that followed... Ugh. Just bludgeon me with a toaster now.
Needs and wants. They teach you that sort of stuff in economics, but they never teach you how it functions on a personal, psychological level (unless you take psychology, and even then you're not discussing your shit). That's what I don't get: why aren't schools interested in making its students actual people, instead of neat little cogs full of rote, ready to fit into their niche in society?
I remember taking a stress management class in the fourth grade, and upon looking back, I didn't need it then. Why were they offering such a class in elementary school?
Still depressed/angry. I feel I shouldn't be angry at John for not being around to talk, but I know that unless some emergency has taken place, I'm perfectly justified. I said I'd call on Friday, he agreed. I haven't talked to him all weekend. I'm not going to bother calling him anymore; if he wants to talk to him, then he can pick up the phone and dial.
Saturday, September 13, 2003 06:18 p.m.
That's about how I feel right now. Whenever I hear it, I'm back in my junior year in high school, and I'm depressed. It's a depressing song, yet for me, it has a tinge of anger to it. But I'm probably imagining how Ayumi's singing.
I'd rather be feeling like her song "Fly High," but oh well.