Tuesday, July 29, 2003 12:17 a.m.
lull

Mage was okay, Sunday night.

John and I might be staying in a cabin when we go see the Grand Canyon, but nothing's definite yet. Might stay in a hotel.

I'm divided on how much clothing to bring.

I want to get back in school now. I'm bored, and I miss my friends.

...What's spontaneous supposed to mean anyway?

My sleeping habits are all fucked up.

Friday, July 25, 2003 10:42 p.m.
the part where self-loathing kicks in

I went through the stuff on my chair and threw away a few things, and shuffled more around... Then I got into my bookbag and recycled the shitload of papers in it. My notebook's gone, because it was falling apart, and I kept getting spring semester flashbacks while going through it. None of the good ones, like Naked Day (in all its incarnations), or regular days hanging out with me friends.

But you know what? Even if it usually seems to me like I have more bad days that good, even if I really do have more bad than good, it doesn't matter. It's all in the past. Bad memories are like old paper, and I'd rather put them through the shredder.

So enough of that crap! There's Mage stuff to get ready for!

Tuesday, July 22, 2003 12:02 a.m.
give 'til it hurts!

But not really.

I went out with Mom to run errands earlier. The reason why I went along was because I was to get an ID card (because I'll need something other than an expired driver's permit every so often), give blood, and get some khakis (or some sort of light pants). Oh, and drop off some film, because I want to see those Animazement pictures! So we went into Wendell first; I went to the DMV, which was full, and Mom went to the bank. Now, while Wendell is a small town, it sure has a lot of people coming in and out of the DMV. Mexicans, mostly. And it's grossly understaffed, because there was a full not-exactly-a-lobby, and only one person on duty. So I waited there for thirty minutes, then Mom came and decided we should leave. Off to Knightdale to drop off a library book, get some gas, drop off the film, and drop off two movies (Brotherhood of the Wolf is a good movie, btw). All that accomplished, we went into Raleigh. We tried the DMV on Capital, but that...... Ugh. That was worse than the one in Wendell! We left quickly, then went to the Red Cross so I could give 'em some of my life candies. That went relatively well. I had cookies and crackers, then left to go eat even more food at the K&S. I ate a lot, as all I'd had before giving blood was a small bowl of butterscotch pudding... not a good idea. Then to Hamrick's for those khakis.

After trying on some stuff, I felt dizzy. I would have liked to just plop down on the floor and take a nap... I felt like I'd just sprinted from one end of the store to the other too. I got a shirt and a pair of khakis, then Mom and I left; I napped in the car while listening to Mr Henry. I felt better at home, but I was still kinda woozy a moment or two. Mom says it was probably all the quick up and down motion involved in changing clothes that did it.

Oh, happy birthday to Mom. She's a year older now =D

That's it for this evening's edition!

Saturday, July 19, 2003 12:54 a.m.
late afternoon dream

I took a long nap from about five to eight yesterday, and dreamt of walking narrow paths upon cliffs bordered by too low shoddy wooden fences. The fences seemed as pencils: long, thin, and easily breakable. I walked with people, and around people, again and again near the edge. I had to avoid fragile objects, precious things. I don't really know much else of it.

Wednesday, July 16, 2003 07:32 p.m.
don't take my life points, damnit!

I finally got my own copy of Unlimited SaGa today! I don't care if every single review out there says it's a crappy game, I'm going to play it anyway. But it's hard as hell so far, because I CAN'T FUCKING HEAL IN BATTLE. Not yet anyway. This means that once my HP is gone, my LP will go next. LP is very dear to my heart, and I'm a greedy bitch with it. Losing LP makes me very, very sad... But I'll figure something out. I'll get the game to work, damnit!

I've been hooked on Frou Frou's "Must Be Dreaming." I heard it in a RahXephon music video; the images and music just struck me as powerful, and I could really feel what was going on. I'm going to be listening to it days on end...

I've been tinkering here and there with my new character sheet for the upcoming Mage chronicle. So far I have all the necessary stats, and a bio is coming along (slowly but... well, kinda surely).

I've picked out three classes I'd like to take this semester, and one as a backup, should one of the classes I want isn't available when I choose it (it only has one seat left @_@). All of them are Monday Wednesday Friday classes, so that's fortunate.

I really want to get Shogun on DVD =D Mom and I have been watching it on TV since Sunday, and it's really really good ^__^ But it's around $75 @_@ So it'll have to be put on my Christmas list ^^; No worries though! Even if I don't get it then, I'll save up and get it at some point ^_^v Nine hours of feudal Japan bliss *dreamy sigh*

Friday, July 11, 2003 07:12 p.m.
questions, comments, concerns, ambiguities, and/or disagreements

My first geometry teacher used to say that all the time after he taught us something. Though I didn't like him much, the phrase is useful.

I'm being made to go back to school this fall. My mom told me last night over dinner that it's for my future, and so it will be. I don't like being forced into situations; I've had too many of those lately. But I can't do anything about them, so I have to work my way around them. Still trying to find that path of mine... I have a vague, extremely vague impression of where it's leading, but as it is, nothing's exactly set in stone quite yet. I'll either figure things out, or I won't.

Rarg, thunder and lightning outside. Looks like more rain will come tonight. Speaking of rain, I got completely doused on Wednesday while out with the gang (Lauryl, Thomas, Andy, Loury, Dustin, and Sam, all of whom are COUPLES *jealous at being the odd woman out*). I had a real good time though ^__^ The pizza was great, and we even got a free one to boot, because they screwed up on the order =D Heh heh. And "Pirates of the Caribbean" was awesome. I heart Johnny Depp with long hair and an excess of eye makeup, and Orlando Bloom in something other than elven wear.