Tuesday, September 17, 2002 05:30 a.m.

...damnit.

I was supposed to talk to John around one this morning so I went to bed thinking I could lay in bed until then. WRONG. Fell asleep... I'd have rather talked to him ._. Though I got a really cute message from him while I was off in la la land ^^; And... I suppose he read my two emails. Hasn't replied to them, but since he gets so little time to be online in the first place, it's okay. We'll have to stay a long time at the library tomorrow so he can get more time ^_^

My silly, silly boyfriend, with his silly, silly girlfriend... I love him.

Saturday, September 14, 2002 02:26 a.m.

black and death-like. yummy!

My friend Andrew invited me to go see a metal concert of sorts in Cary at Studio 56, so I decided, hey, why not? So I told John to take me (because I am quite the demanding, oppressive girlfriend) and Misha, because I told Andrew about her and he wanted to meet her and yeah. I was originally trying to hook them up, because they had both recently broken up with their significant others, but Misha went back to hers... So I don't know. But they got along well and things are peachy on that front.

The first band, Bloodwritten, sucked. For various reasons, we don't like Dave Sanchez. And besides, he and his band are awful. The next and last band, AntiMen, totally rocked. I bought the demo they had selling there, and so did John and Misha (because it was so great). We even listened to it on the ride back. I got my copy signed by Bryan, the vocalist, since I know him and we go to the same school and such. Should have had the whole band sign, but oh well. They're going to have another show on Halloween, and I'll probably go to that.

Tired. Going.

Friday, September 13, 2002 12:05 a.m.

socialization hijinks

Hoo boy. You know, I almost miss the days when everyone ignored me and I barely had any friends. This time was known as middle school. But thankfully, that "almost" statement is beaten to death with a shiny toaster, and I am glad to be in the funny situations I am in.

For example, last night was very interesting. John, Sara, Billy, and I go to anime club as usual and afterwards we're just sitting around; John and I are talking about the awesomeness of Hoshi no Koe (YOU MUST GET IT! YOU MUST!!!), Billy's... doing something, and Sara's inking a picture she drew in her sketch book. All of a sudden this guy comes up behind us and comments how he likes Sara's picture. She thanks him and they start talking. I barely pay attention, since John is so fascinating. But eventually we both turn our attention to this guy, who is introduced as Robert, and he asks us to join him in going to the Dairy Queen down the road. (At this point, however, I didn't quite hear him, but anyway.) And what do we do? We go with him. And I'm thinking, "Why are we going with a potential serial killer? Why did we agree to all get in his car and go to God knows where?" (Since I didn't hear him and all.) Luckily none of us were harmed by this encounter, but all the same, it could have been worse. Don't take DQ from strangers, folks.

As it turns out, he knows John MacIntosh (or however it's spelled), a fellow nicknamed "Shiny" that we knew in high school. It also turns out that he knows Doug Lucas and the guys at Studio Artic Bananna (I know it's spelled incorrectly, but that's what it is). And guess what else? He's published, and tonight I managed to find where it's selling at Amazon.com. He has big plans on turning his novel (and its sequels) into an animated series, and while I don't know if he can do that, I know that it's a big step to just have his book published. Just knowing that about him motivated me to write...

Then today at school I hung out with Andrew and Lauryl and Amanda and Dustin. It was cool. And now that I have a headache I don't particularly want to type anymore so I'm going goodnight ^^;

Sunday, September 8, 2002 09:25 a.m.

stopped-up nose, grr

I'm trying desperately to get the first episode of RahXephon so I can see what all the fuss is about. Plus I was supposed to watch it last Wednesday at NCSU's anime club, but since it was so hot the computer kept stopping, things got delayed and my friends and I just left. That and I decided to get some music from it last night, and since it's so good (by Yoko Kanno, and we all know how great she is), I wanted to find out more. And at least the opening is sung by Maaya Sakamoto, which only increases the coolness factor. So is this supposed new Evangelion really worth my time? I love Eva dearly, and I don't want imposters (like, say... Argento Soma?). But the review I read said there are comparisons, but that they're very different. So I shall try it out for a while, and see how things work.

You know, none of my friends know about this journal. Not even John. Of course, I just started writing in it yesterday, though I've had this since February XD Ahh... that's something else. Stupidity, I'm sure. But seriously, I wonder if I should tell anyone. It's nice to have a small, private place all to myself, though true be told, the journal I have at melo is fairly private when I think about it. Only John and Annie know about it, and that's what matters, despite melo being a pretty active community. Well, when it's working, anyway. So I don't know. To tell or not to tell?

I'm going to AWA, yes? Well I've agreed to sing "Smashing Blue" from Gravitation with Annie, and "Tomorrow" from Full Metal Panic! with John ^_^ I've never karaoked in front of people, and AWA is a lot bigger than Animazement ^^; I'm a little nervous, but at the same time, expectant. I want to do something a little daring right now. Of course, I have to totally memorize these two... *grins* Shouldn't be too hard. They're not really difficult songs. They both have a good, easy-to-follow rhythm, and the lyrics are fairly simple. (Though it's not like I fully understand the Japanese they're singing, but still.) It's not like I'm trying to sing something such as... Gackt's "Vanilla." My tongue just cannot do that yet. Ah well.

Eeeeee, the men's championship for the US Open is today! Andre Agassi versus Pete Sampras. Hopefully this too will be a wonderful match! Last year their semifinal (quarterfinal?) match was so great, though Andre lost. They went to FOUR tie breaks! Amazing @_@ Last night was the women's championship between the Williams sisters, Venus and Serena. Though I didn't watch, Serena won, and that's fine. I'm not too interested in watching the Williams sisters anymore. I used to really like watching Venus play, but I guess I just don't anymore. Oh well ^^;;;

I should probably eat something today.

Saturday, September 7, 2002 10:56 p.m.

a little sad

I can't communicate with certain people, for I feel they don't wish to communicate back.

I miss my friends again.

Saturday, September 7, 2002 01:08 a.m.

my throat hurts

Melodramatic.com is usually what I use to blog, but since it's going through so much server shit lately, I remembered I had this pitas account, so I might as well use it. I don't know. Perhaps this will be better, ultimately.

I miss my boyfriend, John. I know I haven't seen him in all of two days, but what can I say? I'm attached. I feel this great need to be around him. I find myself latching onto anyone that gives me attention and affection, and as he does, so do I grasp at him... I guess I just have issues like that.

My throat hurts due to some sickness I got from him, but that's all right; it's not as bad as he's got it, so I'm a bit grateful, though sad he's sick. But that's how things go.

I'm really getting into the anime Azumanga Daioh. It's great, fluffy, lighthearted fun. You can watch any episode and not miss a beat. I have 1-7 and 20 so far, and the movie and web clip as well as the opening independent from all else. I shall learn the complete opening theme one of these days; it's too randomly kitty-cute not to.

I'm home alone this weekend, so I'll be spending all day later with John, possibly visiting a friend to watch some RahXephon, and Sunday I shall do homework. That's the plan, anyway. I'll have to watch some tennis as well, since the women's championship is later today (the Williams sisters again). Ah, and Andre Agassi (my favorite) and Lleyton Hewitt play for the semifinals as well. Mmm ^_^

I really want to go to NCSU. It's not so much that I'm getting sick of paltry Wake Tech, but that the environment of State's campus is awesome. I want to be a part of that, I think... Although when I think things through some more, I realize that I, not being a very social person, wouldn't exactly soak up that sort of atmosphere well. But all in all, the campus is nice, and it's cool to be able to just get up in the morning and walk to class without a drive between... Something about that is very liberating, especially in the good seasons like fall and spring, when the air is crisp all around. I would enjoy it.