I'd like to think that I'm generally happy unless I've had a particulary nasty sort of day. Though, as I tell others, one couldn't tell the difference either way. I feel my best when other people expect me to be at my worst, but stupid people can mess up my day entirely. One thing I'd like to say at this time is good night.
What is seen here is...
Souma Momiji from Fruits Basket by Takaya Natsuki. Unfortunately, I don't recall from where I found this scan, but I edited it myself with PhotoShop and wrote up the html on notepad. Please do not steal--not that I thought anyone would anyway.
My previous fetish was with the feathers (and petals before that) so here we have fetish number three-- autumn leaves. I hope that no one finds the the color scheme offensive to the eyes.
My greatest thanks to...
Pitas - Blog
Boomspeed - Images
Statistik - Counter
The archived past...
Sept-Dec 2001
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Feb-May 2003
June 2003
Aug-Oct 2003
Uggh. I went to sleep around 10PM yesterday. I woke up at 1AM to my parents and sister talking--as well as one hell of a stomach pain. @_@ I very sorry for ever kidding about those with Crystal. *Ooow*
I really thought I was going to have to puke my guts out. U_U And I'm generally not a person who gets sick. Arrgh. So I then I had major bathroom issues (and it took a lot of energy just to get off my bed) and returned to my room with the continuing pain. No one else was awake.
At first I read to keep my mind off the pain, but eventually I really got into the story. I'm talking about the book Hero's Song by Edith Pattou by the way.
I'm not quite sure when the pain stopped and the cold of the night never did, but I finally finished the book at 6AM and went to sleep.
My conclusion? I must have been all that grease from last night’s dinner! ERRK! I’m never eating like *that* again.
[Topic] First CG
That's the next item of discussion, and I'll try to make this quick since I should be doing a whole lot of homework right now.
Yes, I have finally made a CG.
Well, that's really the end of the story. The beginning is my sister bringing back her scanner and me spending forever crawling under my table and trying to plug the damn thing into its proper USB port. There was this really useless board that was blocking my view and I was cramped between a wall and the desk. I was also pissed. . So I ended up tearing the board off viciously and thus destroyed a part of my desk.
Phleph. Who cares about that. I got the scanner plugged in, and scanned that picture of mine that I had always intended to CG since I completed the sketch. Heh hehhh.
I spent a portion of yesterday working on it and finished the outlining it then. Today I did the rest, laboring over it from about 10:30AM to 4:00PM Yes. A long time.
And now I don't even know where to put it. DeviantART is being a loser and not working for me and Side7 applications have to be hand sorted through. u_u' Have I no way to celebrate my triumph?
I suppose I could temporarily upload it onto my boomspeed account... Hmm hmm.
[Farewell Nothings]
Boomspeed then homework. Maybe.
Tuesday, November 18, 2003---09:01 - 09:25 p.m. Mood: Sarcastic [Topic] Long time no updateAh yes, I've gone and disappeared for ever and ever again--except not forever since I'm here now. Ah-lah. Anyway, I think I've just lost inspiration for this blog... It probably means that I'm in need of a new layout. XD
Don't you notice that whenever I get a new layout I feel more inclined to post? ^^ I think it's a psychological downfall. Umm, yeah. But I probably won't get a new layout up in a while.
I'd like for my next layout to be CG of some sort--and that's precisely the problem. High standards, no experience, little time, and no scanner. Um, I'll work it out eventually--maybe. In the meant time...
[Topic] Full Round-- Sherry takes another history test
Gosh, it seems as if I'm always here complaining about some test or another. And this time it's history again! Really, a familiar subject. Just makes me reminiscent of the last time I took a history test. Ya know, when I fell asleep during the essay and ended up getting a C on the objective portion? Yup, good times. I think I'll abstain from them this time if possible.
[Topic] New English essay
Speaking of abstaining from gruesome fates, I'd also like to stray away from my previous experience of having to finish my final draft for my English essay two minutes *after* the class starts.
It's really not to good for the nerves you know. Humm humm. Plus I just know that Boyd's grading on this Scarlet Letter essay is going to lead to a brutal beating of my paper. So, right.
[Topic] So much to do, so little time...
Actually, this is just carping. I thought I could be a kind soul this time and inform you ahead of time. Am I not the wonderful? No, rhetoric questions are not meant to be answered. But anyway, I've got a new tank for my fishies!
Does anyone ever get my carp-jokes? ^^ Silly humor.
So there is the math test tomorrow; therefore I have lots of assignments to complete by tomorrow. There is a chemistry test on Friday that I must study for and hopefully get a decent score on so that I might salvage my grade--tortured by the last test, which I did horribly on.
And no I'm not trying to be modest. I try not to be b!tchy like that, but everyone's a hypocrite at some point in their life. No, this is not one of those moments.
There is the connections project due in about three weeks. I have not started the visual or the powerpoint or the connection. The prior mentioned Scarlet Letter essay is due next Wednesday. Group dance project due some Tuesday.
Come to think of it, oh crap, isn't *next* Tuesday an odd day? Crap. So it's due next Tuesday.
New chapters to read in history, and lots to do. Oh wee-yay.
[Farewell Nothings]
I shouldn't have complained so much. Now I'm feeling bitter. I'm going to squish up the negative energy in me and try to electrocute something. Weeh.
Tuesday, November 11, 2003---11:33 p.m. Mood: Distressed [Topic] SufferingsToday was supposed to be an easy productive day without school. In the end, it was merely a day of no school--wait, slash through that; the day is not yet over.
So of course I didn't start on my homework until about 7pm, and of course everything ended up to be fifty million times harder than I expected it to be. I only had to do three things: Spanish composition, history essay, and study for English unit test.
And now it's almost midnight and I'm barely starting part two. *Sigh* What am I going to do with myself?
I probably should get back to my work, but I feel restless and a sense of unease. What will I do next now? I could go back to the essay, but I don't want to waste time if all I'm going to do is end up staring blankly at the computer for an hour like I did with the composition.
Maybe I should read instead. But being the sort of person that I am, I find it hard to do abstract things like studying before concrete necessities like essays.
Of course as I told Crystal, the failing grade I'd receive on my test should I not study would be concrete enough to bash my skull open and bury me beneath a ton of cement.
Well, perhaps I did not express it so eloquently before, but with all the extra time since I've had time to improvise. ^^
[Topic] Essay
Yes, it's a barrage of carps! Fishies. I like fishies. >=D
Ahem! But yes, I find the topic to this essay to be entirely too ambiguous. I liked the question from last time more--mostly because it was an actual question! I need direction and instruction. This is... not.
[Farewell Nothings]
I intended to go on for longer, but then realized I was wasting time again.
Tuesday, November 4, 2003---07:35 - 08:02 p.m. Mood: Equilibrium [Topic] Balloon HappinessSo, I just got back from Party City... Well no, not really. I returned home about half an hour ago and just finished my dinner. ^^ It's all about the same though, isn't it?
Anyway, I'm going to act under the assumption that Megan-chan does not know my blog address (and how could she?) and therefore carp about getting her balloons for tomorrow, which is her sixteenth birthday.
Not that I'm complaining about *giving* her balloons. No no, I quite enjoy the idea. It's the *getting* that killed me. Oh my goodness, one wonders when was the last time they restocked their balloon supplies!
"Hmm, what about #MMMMM balloon? The star shaped happy birthday one?" asks Sherry politely.
*Employee behind the counter wanders off to find the balloon*
"Umm, those are out of stock," comes the apologetic reply.
"Err... The bluish one to the left of it then? #MMM"
*Employee goes in other direction to check*
"There aren't any of those either."
"The one below that one?" o_o
"Nope."
"Below that?" ~.~
"Eh, no."
"At the very top?"
"Sorry."
"..."
"The balloons haven't been restocked," informs the employee helpfully--as if she couldn't tell by then.
"Are there any happy birthday ones available?" inquires Sherry, still politely. By now she's feeling guilty because a long line has formed behind her.
"I can't tell... The balloons aren’t in any real order and I don't usually work in this section." ^-^’ ... ...
And an *hour* later, I left the store with five balloons instead of my intended six (sixteenth birthday, six... rah rah?) . I don't blame the employee of course. I blame the damn store didn't update their stock even though it's *evidently* quite insufficient for the paying customer.
Of course it would have been much easier if I could have simply gotten the latex-y balloons--but of course they only remain, well, floating for about eight to twelve hours; by six in the morning they would be dead. The store doesn't open until nine thirty too-- so no, I couldn't have gotten them tomorrow. Blah.
Enough carping. That’s my funny incident for the day. Pathetic incident, if you’d prefer to call it such.
Saturday, November 1, 2003---06:01 - 06:30 a.m. Mood: Kind of cheery for 6AM [Topic] New Month
Rabbit Rabbit Rabbit... Okay now, feeling any lucky vibes heading my way this month? ^_- Hmm, that was random, but random is not so very random in this life. Random, nyummy!
Er, if you don't get the rabbit-thing, it's actually something that the principal used to tell us on those Friday morning meetings when I was a fifth grader. It's a new month, she'd say, remember to say rabbit three times first thing and you'll have good luck.
Oh, don't worry; I'm not so delusional that I actually believed that. I didn't believe it then and I don't now... but still. Hmmhmmhmm. ^^ I'm just lost in memories.
[Topic] Art sites and talented artists
Nyummy! I've just been off to visit bunches of art sites... .*o*. These people are just so talented! Wah! Not to worry, though--not that I thought you would. 6_o I don't feel like crap or anything of that sort because I know I will *just try harder in drawing and work up to that level eventually* la la. Right right, Ami-oneechan? ^_-
Seriously though! I'm always serious. Laaaaaaa! I really want to learn how to CG! But of course FIRST I need to scan in some of my pictures. . Which, um, requires a scanner, right? I'm loath to leave my sketch book to my sister for an entire week to scan a bunch of pictures, and technically I don't have to since there is a scanner at school that I am allowed to use free of charge in the library.
I just never get around to it... Heh heh?
Like signing up for the SAT in time. Grrrr... Late registration fee! And dun no one talk to meeh bout it neither. >_<
Eventually though! Hmm... This week! IF, that is, I actually manage to read through history and chem and take proper notes and do my four or five assignments of math homework and my Spanish homework and read the Scarlet Letter and the other English assignment and ALL. . How about a few calorie free fries with that order to go? Nevermind, that would taste nasty. XD
[Topic] Yesterday. Halloween.
Rain... The little trick or treaters had wandered through the streets~ Down came to rain to wash the trick or treaters out~ Never did the sun come up in the middle of the night~ So the poor trick or treaters were drowned to death oh laaaaaaaahhhh.
XD And the poor teenagers hoping for a park gathering too. ^^ So Amy, Crystal, and I went to my house and we watched Chicago until about ten. At that point I walked Amy home to make sure she didn't drown or get run over by a drunk, and Crystal returned home with her dad. Weeh. [Farewell Nothings]
I'm still trying to decide whether or not I should go back to sleep...
Wednesday, October 29, 2003---08:40 - 08:55 p.m. Mood: In need to blow nose, but kind of refreshed [Topic] Cerichan and the Long SleepWow, sounds like a children's book title. ^^ Well, I've neither died nor tipped myself into some freaky version of Sleeping Beauty. Um, that's probably apparent anyway... but I did enjoy a nice almost-four-hours-long nap. =D
So I'm feeling refreshed! Um, mostly. I actually have a slight headache after sleeping so long. u_u' It's worth it though to sleep. Of course it took me about fifteen minutes to half an hour to fall asleep, 'cause you know it's really hard to go to sleep when you can't breathe and I have an extreme stuffy-nose problem.
The problem was at its peak during sixth period actually, when I thought I'd pass out from lack of air. . Of course I did try to breathe through my mouth, but it never seems quite the same...
[Topic] Messed up sleeping habits
Hmm... Haven't I gone into this before? Probably, I'm always bragging about how screwed up my sleeping patterns are. ^o^
In *theory* it's actually getting better. I sleep early and wake early. Sounds good, right? I recall that voice warm up from eighth grade chorus: "Early to bed and early to rise, makes a man he~althy, wealthy, and wise. He~althy, wealthy, healthy and wise." La! *Bows*
That was utterly side tracking... I feel like I've integrated a piece of Nathaniel Hawthorne's personality from the Scarlet Letter into myself. ^^
That is, anyway, that I fall asleep around ten or eleven and wake up at four or five to finish my homework everyday. That is bad. Veeery bad. Baaaaddd. It's not very helpful for my cold when I wake in the cold morning, or good for my nerves to attempt to read five chapters of the Scarlet Letter before the second period of the day. u_u' Blah
[Farewell Nothings]
I think I should be doing something productive now, so I shall leave. Wooh.
Monday, October 27, 2003---06:49 - 07: 02 p.m. Mood: Sick--this is now an offical mood ¬.¬ [Topic] More water please*Coughs* So parched... Throat in pain... need... water... NOW! *Dies*
And that was Sherry dying from dehydration, even though she's already drank three bottles of water in the past three hours. Cheers. Anyone for a toast? =D
*Sigh* It sucks to be sick. I wasn't even sick when everyone else was sick... Why couldn't I get sick when the days were cold--like normal people? Instead now I walk home from school feeling really hot, really dry, really in need of water, and really in need of a bathroom-- with a runny nose. Bah. I blame it on that Martin test (er, the first one)! I was up all night studying and felt like crap afterwards. *Blows nose*
So now I have a sore throat, probably from all that sneezing and coughing, and am drinking more and more water... causing me to need the bathroom every few minutes. -_-' I feel like Ann in her band-trip days... or during our skit--
Especially during our skit! The irony. . Summary: Ann is the middle child of three sisters--Ivy being the youngest, and I the oldest-- and gets sick just before our "family vacation". So motherly, er, Mother Crystal advises her to drink lots of water... So of course she has to *go* during the trip. *Sigh*
Okay, back to getting drunk on water. *Blows nose again and waves tissue*
Saturday, October 25, 2003---11:24 a.m. - 12: 38 p.m. Mood: Thoughtful [Topic] FictionPress.comSome days I like to go to fictionpress.com and read the stories there. The site itself is set up like fanfiction.net, with the same moderators and such, but the distinction is that fictionpress is only for original fiction.
Well, I am an avid reader. ^^ So I enjoy reading amateur stories as well. There are some really well written and well-plotted stories on the site, but there are also some, er, "crappy" fics. I like reading both though, the good stories for what they are and the crappy ones so that I can mock them. ^^
One thing that bothers me is celebrity fiction. I mean, of course it's something well scattered throughout the web, but it's still creepy in the most moralistic sense. Imagine being a celebrity, going online, and stumbling upon someone's sick fantasy of you. o_O' Your life has been manipulated by the fangirls and fanboys of the world and you've been made to fall in love fifty-million times to satisfy their delusions... And just wait 'til the NC-17 fics show up. *Shivers* Of course there'd be fics dedicated to torturing you in the most brutal way 'cause people think that's funny or that you're some b!tch because of what they read in magazines and you quite deserve it. .
Maybe it's just me--well, probably it's just me-- but I'm not sort to think up strange fantasies (of any sort) regarding real people because I feel I'm violating them somehow. u_u'
Persay I have an elaborate daydream to myself of, um, one of the twins, Stephanie, brutally beating Catherine and shoving her off a steep cliff in a river of poisonous cat-eating spiders. Now it would be wrong to find enjoyment of that, simply because I'm enjoying that. Of course it'd be okay for me if I were saying it to threaten the twins or something of that sort... but just to think it up would be erky. ^^'
Now that was a weird example. But in any case I shall be going now. And no, I did not spend over an hour on this entry; Amy called me and I talked to her for about fifty minutes. ^^'
Thursday, October 23, 2003---09:22 - 09: 45 p.m. Mood: Random... is that a mood? [Book Review] Escape from MemoryWell, this is something different that I haven't tried before. ^^ But new things are supposed to be good, right? Well, the purpose of a book review on this blog isn't to convince anyone out there to read a particular book--so please don't feel any abnormal inclination to read any book I mention, but rather to record it for my own future reference.
Kind of like Ivy and her Tiger guide, except that this is, er, online. u_u'
Umm anyway, this book is about a girl named Kira and the strange train of events that follow her friend's harmless intentions to hypnotize her. ^^ I starts out with the actual memory that she recalls during the hypnotism and ends... um, kind of creepy.
Really the ending was very dramatic, something I imagine that I would write, but then I am the sort of person who adapts what I read. So of course what I read is like what I'd write. I think that makes sense.
There was one big plot twist that I should have seen coming, but didn't. *Sigh* It makes so much sense though, in a creepy way. I think that this book seems to be the science fiction type and I enjoyed it despite my lack of predilection for that genre.
The one thing that bothers me, though, is that the ending is extremely open-ended. It's almost tragic and it seems "finished" in the emotional sense, but happily-ever-after wise it's not exactly ten out of ten. u_u'
That's probably one of my greater downfalls. Everything just has to be happily happy at the end of the story, just like life isn't. Kind of like denial, right?
Actually the feeling it leaves is similar to the Kyoko Mori books. Kind of empty, sort of sad, incomplete, yet... just ended. ^^ Eh, feelings obviously aren't meant to be described...
Well, that's a lot of babbling. Not even so structured as the rest of my entries, and that's really saying something. ^^' But in conclusion, I enjoyed reading the story, but I probably won't read it again.
Thursday, October 23, 2003---04:21 - 04:50 p.m. Mood: Cheerfully blase [Topic] Strange dreamI had an odd dream this morning during one of my sleeping spurts while I was studying history. Actually, I'm inclined to believe that studying history was what induced the dream--though it was not history related.
All I really remember of the main "plot" by now is that there was an approaching storm, but my grandmother still wanted to go out for a walk anyway. So I went along with her, though I was filled with apprehension. I recall looking up at the sky and seeing blue to the left and impeding gray on the left.
Is was extremely quiet, and the thing that remains most clear is that I wanted to write up an entry in this online journal about how eerily quiet it was... weird.
[Topic] Evils of History Test
Today was the multiple choice portion and last night's sleep and studying were among the most sporadic. u_u' Sleep a few hours, study a few minutes, sleep a few minutes, study a few hours, sleep a few more minutes, study a few minutes while half asleep. U_u' But at least I was awake during the test.
Aside from that, I don't feel up to elaborating. Of course that's expected, if only by analysis of my past entries and tallying of all the times I've said that. La. I don't like to speak or think of unpleasant things.
[Topic] Peculiar diction and The Magazines
I feel as though the wording of this entry is more story like than usual. This, I believe, is due to the fact that I spent my TA period correcting French Revolution magazines and read through my own when I came home.
Actually I do love my articles. XD The pictures are "dinky" at best, the pages are "bland" in most cases, the spelling and grammar errors are abundant, and I did forget to labile each article... The content itself is just so good. XD XD hmm... Sounds like bragging. ^^-?
But I don't think my magazine would have been nearly so well if I had done it this year because of the new policy, aka the eight page limit. My magazine was fourteen pages (including the cover and table of contents) and to have squashed it into eight would have been... Eww... u_u'
It's all Jessica's fault! And "Hello ^____^" to Jessica if she ever goes online to find my blog. XD Her magazine was some THIRTY pages long and the it took her peer evaluator the whole period to get through it... I don't know if the evaluator even did. u_u' So yeah. But EIGHT? Hmph!
Well, suppose I'll be going now. La.
Wednesday, October 22, 2003---04:59 p.m. Mood: Tired still [Topic] My wish for todayAll I want is sleep. Well actually, first I want to secure an A on tomorrow's history test--but after that, I want to sleep. So what I'd really like most, would be to finish studying by midnight. ¬.¬
Reasonably, this should be attainable, should I focus my energy to studying and not dawdle through my day... but ack! Who wants to study anyway??
*Sigh* This is random...
Tuesday, October 21, 2003---04:08 - 04:50 p.m. Mood: Tired and in need of sleep [Topic] Pitas, etcWell, I'm back and so is my blog, as you can see. Lala. There were some technical difficulties with pitas that I won't care for explaining, but it's all good now. ^o^
Well, except for my four or five missing entries... I dug the entry from the seventeenth out from the ole' google cache, but unfortunately that only managed to recover a single entry. *Sigh* Yes that sucks. Didn't I actually say something meaningful too? Maybe...
[Topic] Entry recall attempt
I don't feel like repeating myself now (especially after so long too) since I can't quite remember what I said, but I'll try for the basics.
Umm... Color Day was Friday and I celebrated that with this layout. Er, football game? We actually won against our "rival school" and now it's tied 23-23 games. I think I commented about there actually having been 46 games a.k.a 46 years of rivalry. Though of course it's only on this side of the looking glass. ^o^
Something else? What did I do on Saturday? Take the PSAT... Right. Yes and there was a funny question about a "Mr. Boyd" that sounded a lot like the Mr. Boyd we have as our teacher... Something about how people don't like to talk to him 'cause he forces his opinions on others... It was creepy. XD
Right, and then I went to work and outlined for the rest of the day. Sunday? Ummm, I think I did some more history outlining... I don't remember... *Frown frown*
Ah, well the whole lot of those entries were depressing anyway.
[Day Sums] Crappy day ~ history test ~ O³ Lvl: III/V
Hmm, haven't had one of these in a while, but there's always a time for something weird. So hi.
Now, one thing that sucks is spending the whole day and night outlining three chapters of the history book (well, actually I was on-and-off asleep but I was definitely awake at 2am and from 4am onward) and then going to school at 7am to practice a Spanish skit due the next period.
So of course that's the story of my own life. ^^ *Yawn* I didn't even study since I was so busy with notes. I felt, as I had so eloquently expressed it in xanga, like crap. I had a headache and was being caught by a cold *sneezes* Any I was late to the meeting anyway... but remember, I made no promises.
Not that it matters in the end anyway 'cause we completely messed up on our skit. *Sigh* I don't even want to talk about that anymore.
Everything else in between second period and sixth period is uneventful and so shall be excluded for the purpose of maintaining the excitement level of this entry and a joyful .000000099%. Cheers.
Oh right, except lunch was hot as hell... and that was such a bad pun
So it's time for the great history test! Weeh... I should have known from the very beginning that something was wrong when I able to listen to the teacher talk about our upcoming test without any anxiety. In fact I was feeling quite *yaaaaawn* at ease...
But I was too *naive* and thought nothing much of it--not that I could do much thinking at the time or that the thinking would have done me much service. You might have already guessed the course of this already, but yes, I found myself falling asleep during the test. I would write a few practically illegible words, close my eyes for a while, then open them again and wonder what it was I had planned to say... and so it went, for forty minutes. u_u'
Yes, what sucks is spending forever preparing for an essay test to be taken the next day, crawling to school nearly dead that morning, using up all the energy reserves through the afternoon, and then dozing through the middle of the said test.
Oro, that really sucks.
Friday, October 17, 2003---06:16 p.m. Mood: *Sigh sigh* [Topic] New layout
Well, that's quite obvious isn't it? This will have to be a short entry because I'm due at Amy's house in a few minutes so we can go to the football game at school.
I'm sorry for the obscenely long loading time by the way.
As you might have noticed, however, both the tag-board and commenting are gone for this version. I didn't feel that either was used in a too productive manner or that anyway really cared for my efforts in respect to that... so blah.
Well, must go and change now.