Saturday, October 23, 2004---06:52 pm
Reeeaaally long rambling post
Currently listening to: the clattering of the keyboard
Currently reading: "College Pressures" an essay by W. Zinsser
Currently feeling: contemplative
[College, a really long rant]
It's been on my mind a lot-- and it rightfully should be. I'm a senior in high school and applications are due within a little more than a month. It's scary to think that within these next few weeks, or at least by December, everything will be over.
SATs will be over. Applications will have been turned in. Majors will be decided. All that will be left will be to wait and to survive the remainder of senior year.
Arghy.
I've been having this conversation with a lot of people recently. My run-on sentence somewhat describes it all: I don't know what I'm going to do, and I don't know where I'm going to go to do what I don't know that I'm going to do.
Yeah. It's a bit like that.
A month ago I had limited myself to only UCs in Southern California. I'd practically signed my life away to Irvine, really, because at least I'd be familiar with the campus and surrounding area since it's where my sister goes to school.
It's different now, though, but I'm not sure what has changed. I think it began with a conversation I had with Crystal. She asked me if I would ever want to go to Columbia, and being the ignorant fool I was I immediately wondered what and where Columbia was exactly. Wasn't that the capital of some state or a country in Latin America??
Well, of course everyone else in the world knows that it's an Ivy League university near New York. Ha ha ha. At my, ahem, request she began to describe it, and I began to think to myself that, yeah, Columbia did sound like a nice place.
In fact I began to think about all the
other nice places that I was obviously missing out on, having limited myself to California schools. I realized then, although I’m quite sure I knew this a while ago, that I knew nothing about the many colleges in existence. I began to wonder.
I had never considered a private college simply because I didn't know what I was going to do. Why go out and pay $##, ### for tuition when I'd just be wasting it? So in turn I did not consider an out of state college because all out of state colleges
would be private colleges for me. Or at least cost that same amount.
Well, of course there
are other public schools California. What about Cal States (!) one asks. The only truth I can provide on that matter is that UCs sound much more prestigious than Cal States. Well, are much more prestigious. In short, it's a pride issue.
We work so hard. We take dozens of honors and AP classes whenever possible. We sign up for masses of extra-curricular activities. Why? You already know why.
We want to
look good. We want colleges to want us. We want to go to that dream school and come out ready to make lots of money in that dream job.
To me, it just felt as if it would be a waste for me if I ended up at some community college.
Why did I try so hard?
What have I been working for?
How can I put my work to waste and disappoint my parents?
I'm quickly beginning to see, however, that my thoughts were much mistaken. It shouldn't-- it doesn't-- matter which school I go to now, at least not in terms of how others view it. I'm starting to think that UCs aren't even the right place for me at all.
UCs, on a general note, are research based while Cal States are practice based. Do I really want to go to college and spend four years studying the research of hundreds of scholars just to learn the theoretical way of saying "uh, this sucks"? I rather think I'd want to learn what I can use to really do something in the world.
I'm not an altruistic extremist by any means. I'm really quite selfish because I want to go to college to help myself; helping others will hopefully just come with the job.
So now I'm re-thinking everything. What I’m going to major in for example.
Another thing I've told a lot of people recently about me is that I
never knew at any point in time what I wanted to be. Even in kindergarten when the teachers showed us those job flash cards, I could never imagine myself doing those things. Others would say: "Oh I want to be a teacher" or "I'm going to be a fireman" or "I'd love to be a baker" or even "I'm going to dig mud trenches for all of my life." I guess I was one pessimistic kid because I always figured that those jobs were really either too hard, uninteresting, or just not "me."
Now it's all coming back to beat me to death with a squeaky toy.
My friends ask me what I like to do. I like to play Ragnarok Online and read stories. Occasionally I will CG or design a layout for my blog. Hmm, somehow I can't imagine a job that will allow me to glue myself to RO. Don't we all wish there was a job out there like that?
Perhaps not, but my problem is that I don't have any talents. NO, I'm not saying that in the pathetic "Oh woe I’m so ugly, fat, and stupid and I can't do anything!" tone! What I mean is that I don't have one particular ability that I excel at any more than the next average person. Nor do I have a passion that I could not live without.
All I've been able to do is slop together my won'ts: art, music, law, and computer science. Those are among the list. The sciences went bungee jumping off the list, um, today but after that sudden leap they might just bounce right back up onto it.
During an hour long phone conversation with me, Ann discussed the internship at a lab last summer that changed her whole outlook on science and decided her major. Though chemistry and physics had never been her “thing” at school, she found enjoyment, excitement, and comfort in the job she’d taken up-- a job that requires both those sciences. This has given me more chocolate cake than I can handle in a single sitting because it's changed my views on many majors.
I don't particularly dislike sciences right now, but I'm not too fond of them either. What if there's a job out there in a science that I will
love except that I don't currently know of its existence?
On a similar note, my mother has always wanted me (well, both her daughters really) to go into business, but I've always felt that it wasn't the right thing for me. I always associated business with entrepreneurship, which quite frankly scares me. But business is more than that, so much more. What if I really am business material, but I simply don't know it? What does this oh-so-general major of "business" actually entail?
All I can think of as a career at this time is writing... but writing professionally is harder than it seems! There are so many aspiring writers out there in the world, millions who are much more qualified than I am, so what makes me think I can possibly make a living out of it? Also, back to the more practical/selfish/greedy/money_whoring aspect, how much do writers make? Not that much on average according to the
U.S. Department of Labor
Bureau of Labor Statistics website.
I just don't want to limit my options the same way I limited possible colleges, but now I'm finding that I'm not limiting myself enough. I want to be able to try everything just so that I can find that one
something that's for me. To declare a major would feel like the ultimate curtailing of choices.
What I want most now is time. Actually, I want future-me to come talk to present-me and tell present-me what present-me should do to achieve/avoid the successful/downtrodden life chosen by future-me. Or I want someone to just hand me a list and say, "I've been stalking you and your every move/thought for every second since you were five seconds old. This is the job/major that would best suit you and this is the school you should go to pursue it."
Since there's no genie to grant my three wishes, however, I can only do what I am physically able to: make the most of my time by researching.
I know that this will not be the most important decision for me to make in my life. For all I know my most important decision might be whether or not to eat bagel tomorrow, assuming that the bagel is poisoned.
I will always be able to transfer from a college or major.
In the future my morals will be tested and my decisions will affect more than a single individual, myself.
But for now at least, my future is in today.
And in this today I have spent over an hour typing this approximately (before editing) 1,393 words rant and another hour proof-reading it. So perhaps it's best to go make use what time I have left and do the research that I can.
My sincerest thanks for simply reading.
Saturday, October 09, 2004---08:12 pm
What's a week-- or two anyway?
Currently listening to: Sweets ~ Love Like Candy Floss
Currently feeling: blinky
[Just a list: I love it how...]
~People don't notice I've cut my hair until two months after I've cut it. You'd think that a good FOURTEEN INCHES of hair missing from my head would be... iunno... different?
~There's so much to do for this coming week, yet here I am I, still blogging and playing RO
~Blair High School has such a messed up room numbering system. Room 133 is *not* next to room 134. It's *behind* room 132. Great.
~I've missed the SAT registration deadline-- again.
~I only blog when I'm avoiding something else
[Eh, blah?]
I don't feel very inspired today. Hmm... What is inspiration? La.
Saturday, October 02, 2004---09:46 pm
Testing one-two-three... four?
Currently feeling: *blinks*
[Cross Blogging]
Well, since this feature is offered on Tabulas, I thought I might as well use it. So this post is really just a test to see if my entries will actually cross post to my LiveJournal for me.
Testing, five-six-seven-eight.
Yay or nay?
Entry Edit
Okay... Well, it doesn't quite work the way I thought it would... but um I think I'll manage it for another entry. -.-' Hmm.
Saturday, October 02, 2004---09:40 pm
Well waddaya know...
Currently feeling: =D
[XD]
Interesting webring I stumbled upon a few days ago while reading Xangas. So now I dedicate this link to Amy, who always bitched about XangaWhores and bad their "oMG i dun noe gramMz cRappiEZ" littering the world of online journaling.
Xangans Against Poor Grammar & Spelling
That is all.
Saturday, October 02, 2004---02:08 pm
Another bit of Rah-rah randomness
Currently feeling: accomplished
[Alternate Browsers]
Since I've been so into those layout review sites, I started wondering about this infamous little phrase: browser compatibility.
What exactly is this oh-so dooming factor? Well, I decided to find out today. I went off and downloaded Opera7.0, Netscape7.2, and Mozilla Firefox1.0. It was very interesting.
I don't like Netscape or Opera at all. Is there something in particular that they offer? Some special benefit other browser users don’t have? Why do people use them?
Firefox seems a lot like IE, although certain scripts, color scroll bars for example, do not function properly. I finally understand why some reviewers say, "It doesn't work in FireFox. No." Sometimes images just don't seem to load in FireFox even though they show up perfectly well in IE.
What I really wanted to know, however, was whether my layouts were cross-compatible. I hardly get any viewers that don't use WinXP, IE6.0, and 1024x768 resolution... and when I do get viewers with a different browsers, they don't leave comments.
I never get comments from anyone.
Well, there's Amy of course. <3<3
But otherwise, no. So now I can check by myself. So there. Yes. Okay.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004---01:09 am
And she comes crawling back... with candy? Yum
Currently feeling: fine. Just fine.
[So it's been two weeks]
since I last updated. I mean-- wow. Just when I was beginning to think that I’d undergone some great positive change... But there’s no need to go on with that again.
[My entries]
according to Ann, have degenerated over the while. I wonder a bit at what she means by that. Is it because I've become even shallower recently, I wonder? Where is that depression when you need some inspiration, eh?
I think a part of it is just personality change. I'd like to think that my writing has improved or at least remained the same, but it's only that I can no longer produce thought provoking entries. I feel that I'm a lot more open in general these days. My writing style is more casual, usually, with more pointless interjections. Or maybe it's the profanity that seems increasingly apparent in my speech.
Why, I wonder, am I always trying to find growth in myself? I'm so self absorbed sometimes. slfkjeisfjlkj Or all the time. This journal is just a place for me to analyze my lack of personality I guess...
That kind of pisses me off actually since I hate blogs like that. All the person can do is talk about "I think I have blah blah " and the entries hardly change day to day as he/she examines the same qualities that have *not* undergone any change apparent to the reader. But then I don't like the other sort of blog either where it's just "I did this. I did this. I did this. I did this. Am I not very boring? I did this. I did this. I did nothing. This did I."
Capricious fool am I.
[Today]
While I'm on the topic of "I did this"... I actually fell asleep in economics yesterday.
I'm not just talking about the fluttering lashes or the lolling head or even a combination of the two. At least I would be twitching in those cases. I was out cold. I remember seeing the intro for this really old video that looked like it was going to be quite pointless, and suddenly the girl sitting behind me was calling my name because class had ended five minutes ago.
o_O' I've never done that before. Now aside from my obvious embarrassment ('cause dewd, only slackers make a habit of going to sleep--not just being sleepy-- in class) I'm worried that it might become some sort of horrendous trend.
[Change track: Life]
For some strange reason the headlong pace that characterized my life in the previous years seems to have decelerated. It feels like longer than just half a month since I've left this journal, and I can't believe school has only commenced this month. It's strange, but refreshing in some way too. More time to think and to prepare myself mentally for future… issues.
I suppose it has something to do with the rote-ness of my classes. I only have three core classes-- Spanish, English, and math, and I know the pattern of these classes so well already. I feel like I'm back in middle school sometimes. Especially math class. Have I already mentioned how much I abhor (ooh, intelligent word-- and now an example of bathos ^^) that class?
No, I do not need an entire 100min lesson to understand a single concept. We're only on chapter one! The teacher splits each section of each chapter into two separate lessons. I'm not retarded and we did twice as much last year. No offense intended, but I mean that denotatively.
[Meanwhile]
I think the reason why I've taken so much time away from my blog again is because of my returned RO obsession. Just when you think it's gone, it's not.
Because aside from that, now that I think about it, I don't do much else. Oh right, I haunt original fiction sites. Really, not that much though. I don't even download manga avidly anymore (which really is a good thing since my computer memory is running low).
[Layout-- following the tradition]
of me always talking about them, let me mention it again. As I said before, I've been spending a lot of time at ohfuck_layouts and now I finally understand their ways.
When I first read their reviews I thought "ohfuck" what is wrong with you people? Is it really necessary to be that cold, cruel, and bitchy? As it’s often said, however, “Ooh! I get it now!” I see that the reviews are meant to be a joke in a way. I can definitely relate when I see really plain layouts that dare to even suggest that they are among the elite. Well, the layout creators that suggest that; the layouts say nothing, except maybe "I'm ugly! or I'm default!"
It's great entertainment to read these reviews when you have the time (or the mind for avoidance), and I think I've already improved in layouting. Not that I can say much really, since I haven't tried layouting since I started reading their reviews, but I already see what I can change.
[And now]
I can't believe it's already past 1am! And here I was ranting about my sleep issues; this is probably the cause. I still have a bit of homework left too. Ack.
Tuesday, September 14, 2004---06:22 am
Randomness in the early morning
Currently listening to: Humming of my computer
Currently feeling: awake
[I'm awake]
The reason, of course, is because I procrastinated on my English assignment and thus had to wake up early to do it.
I swear I must have some sort of inner clock because whenever I fall asleep without doing my homework I always instinctively wake up in the morning... Not only that, but I always manage to wake up at 4am on the dot-- unless my inner self knows I need more/less time to complete my work.
As you can see, however, today is one of those days when I have overestimated the time needed, because I'm done and blogging.
Xd *sticks tongue in nose*
Yes, I know that it's a bad idea to procrastinate. ¬¬' But I can't argue with the success this method has of getting me up in the whee early mornings. Isn't going to sleep early and waking up early supposed to be healthier? Xd
[Yesterday]
I spent most of my time on RO. I am such an RO whore. I can't stop. Just when I think I'm tired of it, I find myself playing again. I have no self control.
[Well...]
I'm going to go shower now. Actually, maybe I'll just play RO or read LJs for a while since it's kind of early to wake up the entire house with my shuffling.
Saturday, September 11, 2004---11:29 pm
September 11th
Currently listening to: Boa ft. M-flo ~ Some Day One Day
Currently reading: A Year Down Yonder ~ Richard Peck
Currently feeling: contemplative
[9/11 3rd Anniversary]
Huh. I must admit with guilt, however, that I hardly remembered at all. Well, I did recall the event sometime at about 7pm or so. I was in the middle of doing my economics homework at work when it just came to me.
Well, actually, I looked at my watch to check the date to put on the header of the paper and saw that it was the eleventh.
Yes, I am American-- more that than anything else at least. Why is it that I didn't remember? I know I'm not the only one out there to forget.
I think it's been addressed before. It’s probably been addressed before. Many do not remember simply because it did not affect them directly. It’s hard to empathize with what one doesn’t know. I live on the west coast (California) and all my relatives on this continent are on the west coast too. I spend my days thinking about myself and those people, things, and events around me.
I wonder, does this make me a bad person? Or just human?
It was once said by my history teacher that 9/11 would be a day that all would remember, because an act like this had not occurred in so long. I do, in fact, remember exactly where I was when it happened. I remember waking up and hearing my mother’s voice. I can see the light, brightly coloring the room yellow as I leapt onto my parents’ bed to watch the news. Feel the warmth in a day so dark and cold.
But years go by and it seems that only in passing do I take the time to recall all this. I remember the exact date I moved to my current home. Dozens of birthdates are stored in my head. Yet a day like this…
It makes me feel gloomy-aarrghy-blah.
Hmm… this post, then, is dedicated to all connected to 9/11 -- and even those that aren't really, because one shouldn't have to be directly involved to sympathize at least.
That is all.
Friday, September 10, 2004---09:53 pm
Just where are *you* coming from?
Currently listening to: Quincy ~ BoA
Currently reading: Dreadful Sorry ~ Kathryn Reiss
Currently feeling: Kinda dizzy
[Referers]
I've wanted to comment on this for a while actually, ever since I started using my ultra-cool hit counter, but… do you ever wonder how people get to your site?
Okay, some people just know: friends, tag-hopping, recently updated listed on front page, some witty/deep/informative post linked around... But others like me are curious as to how utterly random unsuspecting victims stumble upon our pages.
Well, there's a link in my profile. Hmm... and I've probably spammed my link on a lot of sites after making clever replies ("Oh. Hmm..") to something someone said.
My most interesting referrers, however, are search engines. I purposely allow my page to be crawled all over by them-- mostly because I'm hit happy (visit me more moooorreeee!)-- but also partially to see what sort of keywords lead people to my site.
I swear, I've seen some of the *strangest* searches leading here. Usually it's about some anime or another, i.e. FMA or Ragnarok or whatever's got my attention at the time.... but sometimes it's not quite so simple.
I've actually gotten hits from searches that picked up on my "I saw a transvestite" post. o_O'
Weird...
I get a lot of hits from people looking for xanga layouts. XD That's hilarious. I can't figure out why, but it is.
[Layout / Usericons]
I know, I know: "WTF??" I really hate this layout so I'm coming up with a new one... preferably before November. Although the layout I have in mind seems more like a spring thing. Blah.
Anyway, I really want some usericons already! I know I should go make some, but I'm just not feeling in the mood for CGing. I've already drawn them all out in paper, but the coloring/outlining process is arghy. I just want them without the work.
Plus the designs I have match the new layout I have in mind, so I'll just suffer without icons until then. >=D I promise it'll be better... Or I'll give up the blog in general
[Tabulas posting vs. Pitas posting]
I really like the convenience of Tabulas posting. All I have to do is go to any tabulas user site (usually it'll be the mod/owner of tabulas 'cause his entries are hilarious XD) and click control panel. Immediately, I'm transferred to this quaint box to start typing my entry.
On pitas I had to go to pitas.com, then log in page, then type in info, and then to add entries. So much work XD
[End]
Anyway, that's enough spamming for now. Two posts a day is quite enough. Ranting can only go on for so long.
Friday, September 10, 2004---07:09 pm.
Any good tabulas layouts out there? ... Show me!
Currently feeling: Rant-y
[Good layouts]
Why is it that I can't seem to find any decent layouts on tabulas? LJ has full communities of these whores, but I can't seem to find any real layouters on tabulas.
I've even visited layout communities on tabulas... but seriously, every one that I've seen has sucked. I mean, it's a love-my-layouts type community, but the layout *for* the community page is just the default. WTH?!
Arrrgh, why is LJ so blah-y and evil? If it would only allow me to fully customize my layouts as a free user I'd be there. Arrgh. I don't want to deal with all those overrides that free-users need to use though.
But there are still hundreds of people using free accounts on LJ with really nice better-than-I-could-even-make-with-a-paid-account layouts! You tabulas people have it easy! Why can't you customize your layouts too?
And by customize I do *not* mean just changing the colors to neon green and hot pink or slapping on an ugly background with large text around saying “i so kewlies! leeb me a comnet!!”.
What I really mean are layouts you'd find in these LJ communities:
ohfuck_layouts
or
_eyecandy
Truly supreme layouts...
I've seen... maybe five or six fully customized layouts on tabulas, and only three or four of them even slightly pleasing. None so far that are spectacular. What I mostly see is a whole lot of java script crap and "ooh! lookies! i kin make mah thingie flash in lotsa colors and make words blink across mah screen" -- but that's the only thing I can do 'cause I don't know how to do anything that's not annoying.
Seriously, I found a journal that actually had sidebars that *shuddered*... like they were having seizures. WTH?! If Amy thought my motion blur made her "@_@" then that layout would have caused full blown motion sickness.
I'm not trying to say that all tabulas users suck at layouting or anything else like that. (Just like I wouldn’t say all xanga users are idiots without typing/speaking ability, because a lot aren’t-- it's just that a lot are too, especially teens these days) I'm just... ranty. I'm sure there are some *great* layout-whores on tabulas-- I'm just not personally acquainted with any of them.
So in conclusion, if you ARE a tabulas user reading this and you are seriously offended (or amused) by this entry, then prove me wrong! Leave a link! Show me y'er awesome-ness! XD
Then I'll write a formal apology... maybe... ^^
Wednesday, September 08, 2004---05:28 pm.
Tired, just like everyone else
Currently reading: Long Way from Chicago ~ Richard Peck
Currently feeling: tired
[Just tired]
It's something that I've noticed a lot since school started-- granted it's only been four full days of school. When I come home I don't seem to have the energy to do anything. Only my naps after school (and occasionally during class) keep me awake these days. Hmm, isn’t that just a sentence full of bad puns?
Why though, I wonder. Maybe it's just because I'm having a hard time readjusting to my "usual school sleeping patterns" since until recently I’d managed to sleep until nine everyday.
Or maybe it's just all the textbooks. Arghy. Those are heavy! Everyday I trudge home (by myself! all alone without anyone to talk to!) in the hot-hot-and-getting-obscenely-hotter sun carrying about a fourth of my weight in books. Blaaah.
[Yesterday]
I went to the library after school to find a book to read this quarter for my English class. It's always the same format when I try to find an independent reading book. I search and search, but never seem to find anything good. Finally I settle for whatever I can and suffer with it.
This time, it's looking to be a long "it."
So yesterday I walked home carrying about six books and my dance clothes. It was a half-hour long walk. I kept thinking I’d pass out before I made it home. =/
[What I really want...]
and this is rather random, are some usericons. I just haven't found the time to make any yet. Maybe later though.
I want a new layout too! >=O The more I look at this layout the more imperfections I see. If I find the time, I’ll probably devote it to more layout making. I am layout-whore.
[What I really need...]
is this nap I'm about to take right now. I don't even have energy to fritter away on RO anymore. Maybe this is a good thing?
Right now I'm just glad I'm not taking as many APs, because I'm in no mood to study and blahdy-dahdy...
[Last side note]
Wow, I really have been spamming this blog more than before. Yaaay for me.
Now ZzzzZZ.
Wednesday, September 08, 2004---01:10 pm.
In Copa
Currently reading: Mill on the Floss ~ George Eliot
Currently feeling: blank
[At school...]
Really random. Sitting here in Copa with nothing to do. I guess that's somewhat expected since it really is only the second day. I don't really have an interest in joining the SAC assembly skit, so...
I could be doing calculus homework right now. Or maybe reading Mill on the Floss since that book will be due in a month. Ero. It's kind of strange to be posting in the middle of class though, since I feel as if I should be doing something useful. What to do though?
[Yesterday...]
I didn't sleep until 1AM. I think it was near that time, anyway, but I can't be sure since I wasn't supposed to sleep. Econ homework. And math homework.
I woke up again with all the lights on and it was 4AM. I fell asleep again and didn't start writing out the homework until 5AM though.
I was so addicted to reading layout critiques from LJ. Once I got over the abusive language and realized it was all supposed to be some sort of elaborate joke I really enjoyed it. XD
Well, good luck to Amy, who's trying to join some of these communities on LJ with her new layout.
[I wish I could...]
Join some communities on tabulas too! Except there doesn't seem to be a directory and I haven't read enough journals to find any good ones. Bah.
[Okay.]
Well, this feels really, extremely, exceedingly strange... So I'm going to go now. Happy spell check and re-check later.
Sunday, September 05, 2004---04:28 pm.
$_$ / o_O' / ;_;
Currently feeling: aggravated
[Disneyland Tickets...]
Are sooo *sfjlksdjfksfjl* expensive! About fifty dollars for a single day. Even children's tickets are forty dollars!
That's more than a four day AX pass! OMFG. o_O'
Arrrrrghgh.
That is all.
Sunday, September 05, 2004---10:21 am
SAT arghy
Currently listening to: Broken ~ Seether ft. Amy Lee
Currently reading: Crown Duel ~ Sherwood Smith
Currently feeling: annoyed
[Waking up]
Ooh, look, I'm actually awake even though I went to sleep at that dubious hour. ¬.¬' And after all my hard work, my images decide not to load for me. Of course the images *are* the layout.
Not that there's anything good to wake up to, of course. Blah.
[SAT IIs]
The first thing I had to do upon my awakening was register for SATs, which really sucks by the way. I pay forty-some dollars just to take a few tests that will burn my brain out for all the days following. On top of that I have to take them at some dubious school.
Just thinking about it makes me feel arghy.
[Leaving]
Have to eat now. What a really short post... Huh, it must be the "new-layout" mood that's causing me to write such short and pointless entries.
Sunday, September 05, 2004---02:04 am
New-ness to Tabulas (1:39AM)
Currently listening to: Holding Out for a Hero ~ Frou Frou
Currently reading: Economics Book =/
Currently feeling: accomplished
[My first real Tabulas post!]
Doesn't count that other post o' mine that was a test. =P I'm finally done working out the kinks of this layout. Please use what Tabulas has to offer and leave me lots of comments! or tag-board me… I think I'm supposed to be able to type without having to add in my own html paragraph breaks. Let's test and see, eh?
Hmmm... I did say this layout was going to be less impressive than the last. Oro. Need to link this blog to my old one.
I promised Ann I'd post soon, so here it is! ... I guess. Nothing too spectacular right now, because it's so late at night. I’m probably not functioning correctly anyway.
[So school has started]
This past Thursday, of course. All my classes were generally blah. I spent most of the time in class looking at my watch and waiting for time to past-- or trying not to fall asleep. Not the best beginning really.
Copa is my only joy at the moment. =/
And my dear friends of course! How could I ever forget them?? ^o^ Of course I would never do such a thing... I get through my classes because of my friends, so it's a good thing I have a close friend in almost all my classes.
I still feel as if I'm slacking off though by only taking two APs.
Okay, I know that sentence is going to earn less than appreciative responses, i.e. "What the f*ck are you talking about you b!tch?? Two APs is a f*cking lot and some people aren't taking any, so stop giving me all this sh!t about whatever f*cking thing you're obviously f*cking about." Or something similar to that. Probably with more grammatical errors and no punctuation. ^^
It's just that when you have friends, i.e. Crystal, taking four APs... you feel a bit inadequate. =/ Okay, no more complaints about that.
I did *my* homework (most of it anyway). Have you done yours? XD Randomness. Must be the night.
[Looking forward right now to...]
-Disneyland! <3<3 Amy ^^ Though my mom says she won't be letting me go at this rate since I'm still not asleep.
-Hopefully doing better this year in school
-No work tomorrow! Yaaay!
[Going now]
Need to sleep. I hope this non-html thing works. =/
Still an RO-whore!
Sunday, September 5, 2004---02:33 - 02:36 a.m.
Tee hee hee *giggle*
This all gone now! Bwah-ahahahahaha!
Well, not really, but I have moved to tabulas. ^^' My new address is here.
Come visit me! Leave comments! Wish me luck and many updates! ^^ And etc, of course.
(Edit: This entry remained on my pitas front page after I moved my blog, and now, because I can find no other place for it, I will leave it in this archive. It is now obsolete)
