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[Tuesday, December 10, 2002]

Time Left Until Departure: 37 hrs

CG'ing, writing, and packing like hell. For those who don't know, I'm off to Singapore for 2 weeks, with four of my best friends ever. Rock on.

innocence borne not from naievity at 05:42 p.m.

[Monday, November 25, 2002]

Schwing!~~~

I have drawing block. Shit, great timing ay. This always happens. Currently missing a lot of friends, who are located at either Dunsborough, Mandurah or Rotto. Saving up for Singapore. Maybe I should pack. ><"

You can keep my Houshin manga, since I don't have any room to put it. 0.0" Hrm, you do know that WoG is a PC game yeah? It doesn't take much to support it though, (unlike Magna Carta) so I don't think the computor requirements should be a problem. Oh and no rush with the layout. I'd hate for you to get layout block...><"

YOU! What did you do at the UWAnime meeting?! Wings were just looking for a list of people who were interested in buying our calender! Not a business venture!!! 0.0 Although, since managed to bring it up, the others have indicated they are *very* interested..

In other news I have been getting very odd referrers...
Toilets shit?
pic of boromir looking shocked? Sorry, fresh out.
NO.
What? Nah, He can't he's Australian.
Typing it in a second time will not make Hugo Weaving Sirius I'm fraid.
Someone write some. Preferably with the Fool in it as well.

Oh, in other unrelated news, Third Strike has updated. Some weird things to see there.

innocence borne not from naievity at 06:13 p.m.

[Friday, November 22, 2002]

Beach or Ps2? Stupid question.

I saw MGS2!!! Since, I've taken the MGS2 vow of chastity (I won't play it until I have a ps2 of my own), I was relagated to drooling puddles on the floor. Ok, the game made me want to roll around and orgasm. The excecution of the cut scenes were just so bloody BRILLIANT, not to mention the detail, AI, and overall feel of the gameplay itself. The MUSIC! Ay, don't get my started. No cheap midis, no this is real orchestrated stuff.

And yes Tim, I'm seriously considering using the MGS theme as my wedding song. XD Now there's a site to imagine. Erm, I have one gripe. What is WITH the New Guy's (I refuse to call him by his name, he will always be "New Guy") design? His suit reminds me of Serena William's little black dress, its tight enough, and he looks like Gwenneth Paltrow, except girlier! I came to the conclusion that New Guy is a woman. Ok, right. Now give me back my manly Snake please.

Forced Tim to show me FFX clips, with Fad's gasping and oohing in the background. And whoever came up with the idea of Metal Gear Auron is a bloody genius. That alone would be worth buying the FFX sequal. (Yuna's sluttification is hardly a good enough reason for yours truly).

Laughed at GTA3, bitched about its censorship, but honestly I really couldn't care less about the censoring. I mean, people who want the game bad enough *coughcoughTIMcoughcough* will just find some way to get their grubby little paws on it anyways. Erm, Bust a Groove 4 is officially on the hilarious/wouldn't be caught dead playing games. Sorry Alicia, but honestly...

Tim, have a great time at schoolies, drink lots and have safe sex! And try your best to accidently run over annoying little shits who think I'm a tie-weilding dyke. All the best.

Must watch Oprah tomorrow. Daniel Radcliffe & co will be on. (stop drooling you pack of pedo-rashii)...

NEW GUY LOOKS LIKE A WOMAN.
Sorry, had to let that out.

innocence borne not from naievity at 06:47 p.m.

[Tuesday, November 19, 2002]

Of vomit, stress and pure bliss

It's over.
There, I said it. I still can't quite believe it though.

OC2 Rocks this house.

innocence borne not from naievity at 01:34 p.m.

[Friday, November 1, 2002]

Graduation

The Pride of 2002, Year 12 Graduation Class Rossmoyne Senior High School.

Here's to the fond memories.
We made it.

innocence borne not from naievity at 12:44 a.m.

[Thursday, October 31, 2002]

Breakfast.

Ok, I'm soaked to the bone, I didn't take any pics, but FUCK, that was the best school morning ever! No matter how juvenile this sounds...

RSHS GRAD CLASS 2002. YOU FUCKING ROCK!

Argh...Valedictory tonight. Taking the day off studying. But still...I can't get this freaking Demian CG right..*sighs and closes pic*...
*opens horse pic* Work...more work...

innocence borne not from naievity at 12:53 p.m.

[Thursday, October 24, 2002]

Aw Fuck.

Looks like I dropped a whole 10% in Chemisty. Fuck. At the most now, I can get 4 A's, 2 if I'm unlucky. Definate A's in Physics (w00t!!) and Political. Maybes in English Literature, (FUCK YOU EXAMINERS>>> AT LEAST TRY TO READ MY WRITING), and Human Biology. (How sad. I can't even get an A in Human Biology) With these crap results in mind, I shall go study.

...
Who am I kidding. We got a muck up day to organize. XD!

innocence borne not from naievity at 06:16 p.m.

[Sunday, October 20, 2002]

A noise like dying giraffe...

Huge fucking discrepencies in my exam scores. I don't even know whether I'm going to get into my course. I feel like shit. Does shit feel?

innocence borne not from naievity at 12:15 a.m.

[Sunday, October 13, 2002]

I'm shaking myself...

I tell a lie. Currently listening to Motor Ace; Shoot this, and I tend to agree with the reviewers, the only decent tracks are Carry On and Keeping Secrets. Oh, and I'm reading Jie's MUDs. She puts so much effort into them, characters and story. *cries*

Lilo and Stitch rocked the house. Hate the exercise though. I swear your house has some sort of voodoo on my slippers. This is the second time the damn thing has broken! Almost rolled my ankle walking to the car. And hope you enjoy the yam jelly.

Cafe Wings just updated, new ordering info and goods, etc. So, any of you going to the MAC cosplay, if ya see a Christian de Merdich hanging around the Wings table that's me. I'll be molesting Saladin. XD XD On that note...
Christian x Saladin pic.
Requested by Jie. 0.o"" Her pairing. *runs away from WoG fans* We so gotta do this gay loverboy pose in December.

Hello...A stalker? Should I hide? *lol*. I'm so glad you like my piccies Leigh, and you know you are fucking fantastic yourself don't you? And I demand more hot mansex for Schism! XD XD XD.

Anyways. This is it. I *swear*!
You're keeping secrets, there's only one I need to find...

innocence borne not from naievity at 09:00 p.m.

[Sunday, October 13, 2002]

EAT PENGUIN SHIT, YOU ASSPEILUNKER

I'm not even sure if that's spelt right. Tomorrow school starts. From tomorrow, until the 19th of November, I'll be virtually cut off from the social world. Tomorrow, until the 19th of November, the only thing I'll be doing is hardcore study. Tomorrow, the preparations begin. Yeah, right. It's nice to think that though isn't it. But seriously. See you, when I come out of my study-hole on that day. Till then.

innocence borne not from naievity at 12:09 p.m.

[Thursday, October 10, 2002]

hey, hey, hey its fat albert!

No, really. Errm, bought most of my cosplay gears...>.<" Uhm, you wouldn't happen to have a ribbed white turtleneck sleeveless sweater lying around would you? Or anyone else? Yeah, If you haven't figured it out by now, I'm going as Christian from War of Genesis Part2 Ep3, to mach my Jie's Saladin. MAC people, watch out for the shortass Christian, that's me. Anyways, went shopping for my pants, (backup shirt) and belt, and came to a grad total of, $44... Fuck I am cheapo when it comes to cosplays. Hm I also need hair straightener, garden sprinkler, styrofoam guns (yes, WORK those grey paints), gloves to butcher, and erm, some brown strips which I'm gonna get from Lincraft. Geez, I mean honestly, since I'm not rich enough to *hire* someone to tailor it for me, well.

Great. Exams are coming up. I'll go out with a blast.

innocence borne not from naievity at 06:40 p.m.

[Monday, October 7, 2002]

The Phantom of Avalanche

No I didn't draw Calintz. I tried to but failed.
Can go see Christian at Third Strike. Yes, I know this is a very roundabout way of telling you all that Third Strike has updated. Just trying to get you all motivated that's all.

About the other stuff. I'm fine now. Honestly.

innocence borne not from naievity at 04:47 p.m.

[Sunday, September 29, 2002]

I won't be able to be contacted for about a week.
Sorry.

innocence borne not from naievity at 12:07 p.m.

[Friday, September 27, 2002]

BOOK RANT

A mild warning to anyone who a) has no real interest in science fiction fantasy books or b) has not read Golden Fool yet.

BIG FAT FUCKING SPOILERS AHEAD

Well, seriously, I went to Collins Bookstore today, to look for Robin Hobb's Golden Fool was on the topsellers (#5). Naturally I spent $30 AUS and trooped off home, Fool trilogy Book 2 in hand. After several hours of hardcore reading I finished it. All 599 pages of it. And now I'm dissatisfied. Ms Hobb has this wonderful talent of creating a character and then tearing them all down again, then reconstructing them. However, this book is very event driven, (understandably since Fitz has to while away half of the book over, since he refuses to talk to the Fool...><"), but it didn't seem so much politically driven as the Assassin Trilogy, which for me, was a big downer. Overall though, the book had enough Skilling and a big poignant end scene to keep me happy, though there are some issues I'm really confused about...

1) Is the Fool an Outislander? Because I seem to recall him/her (for now I'll refer to the Fool as him, since that's how dear Fitzy sees him) telling Fitz in FE that he was raised by two males, and in GF, we are told that this is customary in the Outislands. Uh, so what's the link between the Fool, Elliana and the Pale Woman? We know that the tattoos are applied when young and the Fool was sent off somewhere to "study" and got tattooed, so, how did Elliana get tattooed? Can the Fool's tattoos be controlled by this Pale Woman?

I really liked Dutiful in this book. He shit me off in FE, which was I'm sure the intended effect, but in GF, he's bright, cheerful, although certainly very naive, though he does make mistakes, I find myself liking him for some weird reason. But Chade! Wtf happened to him? I really loved that crotchety old guy, and all of a sudden he turns power hungry and Skill obsessed? I really get the feeling he doesn't have Fitz's or even the Six Duchies' best interest at heart. He just seems even more bitter than ever, and gets none of my sympathy. *pushes Chade into the Skill River and hopes he drowns*

Starling is still a bitch, I truly hated her whole "mounting" comment, what's more she doesn't despise Fitz for his-er... perceived homosexuality...(shit what an awkward phrase), but because she's been deposed. On the subject of women in this book. Jinna is a fucking bitch. We all know that she was a backup plan but STILL. She was heaps ready for it. That sex scene nearly put me off the book. But still I kept reading. This failed relationship goes to show that no one really understands Fitz except the Fool, even Kettricken who's character is developing remarkably well.

F/K shippers turn away. I see no possibility for a relationship. Kettricken loves Verity. Fitz loved Verity (in his "as a man loves another man" way). They both love each other as friends, and each is a reminder to the other of a husband and a king. That's my take on the F/K story.

Of course. The Fool and the Fitz. Fitz spends half the fucking book over a lover's tiff, (which imho is what it really IS). Ugh. I agree with Jek. I mean, just how direct can you get. He just shows a total disregard for the Fool's feelings, and seriously, if the they weren't made each other, I'd tell the Fool to ditch this one. He deserves so much better. The whole flowers thing is too tragic. Pinning the flowers to his shirt and everything. But yes. Back to Fitz's total insensitivity.

"I could never desire you for a bed partner. Never!"

*attacks Fitz* Of course this immediately gets the reader to expect that he will eventually get it on with the Fool, because we all love dramatic irony. The Fool is going to die, and all we can hope for is that he gets one good bang before he dies...At least there's that whole mushy Beloved ending to set things right. *hmmphs*

There was a time, I admit, when I thought the Fool was just plain old gay. Now I really believe he is a woman. This topic has been debated everywhere, so yes. I won't bother substantiating this claim. XD

Man its after dinner, and all the blood is rushing to my stomach, and I've forgotten everything I want to write. May add later. But yeah. More Fitz/Fool action please Robin.

innocence borne not from naievity at 06:02 p.m.

[Thursday, September 26, 2002]

Fuck Me over, Fuck me Down...

It's over. Bring on the the TEE.

innocence borne not from naievity at 04:51 p.m.

[Thursday, September 19, 2002]

Placebo

Can someone please tell me what the fuck this is?
Entry deleted for gross overreaction of my behalf.

innocence borne not from naievity at 01:24 p.m.

[Wednesday, September 18, 2002]

I want to finger bang bang....

I didn't even know that NAMBLA existed. Thought it was just something they made up on South Park.

Thanks to Tim for the link. What you were doing with it I won't ask.
*goggles at policies*

innocence borne not from naievity at 06:23 p.m.

[Tuesday, September 3, 2002]

and the pr0n shoots, it saves....!!!

I should be doing physics, and instead I get this. Please, do NOT open this link unless you happen to either, like my drawings, or like seeing gay cartoon men hump. Consider yourself warned. :)
gaypron.gif
Actually, their legs and hands are pretty hard to follow, and there was the shitty filepaper, whose lines I just can't get rid of, but bear with me here. *stares at pic morbidly* I just see myself failing these exams.

If you liked that, there's, well, less pr0n-ish kind of stuff at our (Wings Symphonia), website here Cafe Wings. There, I pimped, so put away the cleaver jie...

Oh well. More gay pr0n for everyone. Love and peace ya.

innocence borne not from naievity at 09:23 a.m.

[Saturday, August 31, 2002]

In Memorium

The C:/ is dead. Long live the C:/

Trying to cheer myself up...

You are an extremely talented person and you are also brilliant. You are mature, charming, straight-forward and you worry about your friends when they're in trouble. You give great advice and you're probably one of the best friends someone can ever have.

Which Gravitation Character Are YOU?
Take the quiz at Dare to Dream

innocence borne not from naievity at 02:29 p.m.

[Saturday, August 31, 2002]

An Innocence...

Actually I should be studying. But considering this is my last weekend at a computer for a couple of weeks, I thought you all should at least have something new, (and not so blinding) to look at. Pastelly blue kind of colour, too bad the it's out of proportion, the original can be found here. Mmm, ass. Anyways, had a bitching time colouring Asrael de Sacre (aka Clone of Beramode/Kuja) here with Painter 7.0, woot, first picture done with this program. Layers rocks my world. The system doesn't though, but since I have blogged about this before, I'll just keep quite. Finally mastered that whole BG prperties fixed thing, I'll tell you at maths how to do it. While I'm talking to you, I want my Chrono Cross. NOW!

Actually, I was thinking of going to Garbo tomorrow to pick up a Assassin's Apprentice and/or Royal Assassin. Mainly because I like the Fitz/Fool dynamics. Not sure whether to save up for Golden Fool which *should* be coming out this month, unless the publishers push back the date. The US get it in January 2003, so I guess I shouldn't complain. Anyways, big fat spoiler if you haven't completed the two trilogies yet...

It never occured to me until Fool's Errand that the Fool and Amber were the same person. Looking back, I feel so stupid. It's all there, the fevers, the riddles, the androgynous description. Oh yes, and also the Fitz obsession. Kinda obvious during Paragon's recarving. I'm hoping that in Golden Fool, Fitz and Paragon run into each other. That would be amusing. And on that topic, I'd like to state that I believe the Fool is a woman. Hell it would be cool if he was male, more gayness for me, but really, I think it would make more sense if the Fool was female. Still there's hints for either side, so I'll withold my judgement until this is fully resolved. Got a nasty feeling that Fitzfitz will end up with Jinna though; she and Hap represent everything he wishes for, home, family, anonymity, whilst the Fool is everything he tries so hard to avoid. Ack. If that happens, I shall be very unhappy. True, Jinna is a nice enough woman and all but the Fool has lusted longed for FitzChivalry for an eternity...well, it doesn't seem fair really. Besides, who couldn't love Fool after the infamous dimple dangle song. :D

Since you are all bored, there are a shitload of links down there, feel free to go to anyone of them, you can always jump to the art site although nothing has been updated yet.

Randomly, I feel like hot GenSui mansex.

innocence borne not from naievity at 01:24 a.m.
innocence
Freefall
[ describe me ]
Name |
amei
asl |
17/F/Australia
ethnic |
Chinese
Religion |
agnositic
Hobbies |
psx, drawing, manga,
I listen to |
Grieg, Debussy, NIN, Radiohead, Motor Ace, Sugar Ray, U2, Gregorian Chants, David Bowie, Michelle Branch, Eskimoe Joe, MGF
ICQ |
#17119891
Mail me | amei@clear-rain.net

Current Obsession:

Sugar Ray, Drawing
manga/anime:
Saiyuki, Hikaru no Go, Shaman King, Naruto, Houshin Engi, Yorozuwa Tokaido Honpo, Love Games, Kamikaze, Gravi, Wild Adapter

[ innocence ]
Design:
clear-rain.net version:04 | teu deum laudamus |
Layout four of clear-rain.net features the very femenine looking Asrael de Sacre from the SIGMA (my not-so-original) concept. He's a dead ringer for Beramode from WoG II, (ripped is probably the right word...), with a touch of Kuja. His personality is modelled on Sydney (Vagrant Story), or the Fool/Amber from Hobb's Asassain's Trilogy, who is easily the most sexually ambigious (in more ways than one) male I've ever had the pleasure of reading. Oh, and I was listening to the Gregorian Chants when I coloured him in :P. Drawn with Photoshop 5.0 and Painter 7.0, edited using Photoshop 5.0 with brushes from nocturna.net.

[ My Sites ]
# clear-rain.net
My weblog. You are here already.
#Third Strike
CG room hosting my random drawings.
#Take These Wings
A now redundant shrine to the main character of Houshin Engi; Taikoubou

#!Terazuma!
Site with the mission of scanning every picture of Terazuma, from the manga, Yami no Matsuei. Really he is the most underated guy.
#Group Blog
Hopefully will be making a group blog.

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