Thursday, September 13, 2001 Condolences. Nothing can describe the tragedy that occured on Tuesday. Nothing can explain the tragedy that occured on Tuesday. Nothing, nothing can justify the tragedy that occurred on Tuesday. To all those who died, whose loved one's lives were taken in the terrible event of that terrorist attack, my deepest and sincerest condolences. May God be with you. amei plucked yellowed tomatoes at 08:54 p.m.

Tuesday, September 4, 2001 Bullets and knives Your smell fills the room like flowers but your eyes fill my heart like thorns you care about the pain of the poor why can't you feel my pain would you hold me gently if I was Aboriginal? would you listen to my dreams if I spoke battered English? hold me, listen to me forget who I am, forget I'm pretty pretend I'm disadvantaged because around you I don't have to pretend I'm disadvantaged you make me unemployed you make me persecuted you make me black you make me very blue help me like you help others even your cum smells like flowers. Your eyes, your eyes Bullets and knives Bullets and knives, The monkey's mask, Dorothy Porter amei plucked yellowed tomatoes at 04:45 p.m.

Tuesday, September 4, 2001 BGM: YSJ 6 *slump* I'm sick. Missing out on school, because of that all nighter. Man, I feel all blurr. Its wierd, because I went to the doctor, (heh, yeah the same one you adore Jo..^^) and he was like, you want a med cert for 2 days yeah? I replied that I'd rather get back to school as quick as I can. Last year, or any year before, I'd somehow try and extend that sick leave utnil 3 days or more, but now, I'm itching to get back to school. Miss out a day in year 11, and you fall *way* behind...*sighs* And because I'm so sic, I have to miss out my Human Bio excursion, to watch Planet of the Apes. Hrm, I figured out that I don't give a damn. I didn't wanna watch that movie. I have the real Planet of the Apes in my mind, I don't want to watch Hollywood screw one of my all time favourites over. Not even for Mark Wahlberg (spelling?). Not even for Mark Wahlberg's man-boobs. *makes rubbing motion with hands* Moving on now, I'm d/l Yoo Seung Jun 6. The title track Wow!, sounds awfully...pop(ish). But despite that, I reckon the album is really good. So far, more dance than rap, but then, I've only d/l'd two songs. Wait and see, although, personally, I don't see how anything can be better than One Fine Day (YSJ5, track 10) I'M GETTING MY OWN DOMAIN! My father was saying how he'll buy me one, if we can find a reasonable provider! I felt guilty, because our family is on limited (in my view) income, but pa said that its all okay. 0.o Anways, I decided on a name months and months ago. I'm registering clear-rain.net pure-rain was already taken, but it wasn't my first choice anyways. I happened to stumble across some taiwanese magazines, and found some picture of Shinhwa profile. The names were translated into Chinese character, and Minwoo's meant "clear rain". Then on, I've been signing all my works off with clear rain and thought it would make a good domain name. ^^v. Sounds pretty too. (hah my mother said it sounds like a girl's name, so prettiful) Hrm, better scoot I'm sick, and have to catch up with my work. *slumps forward onto desk* amei plucked yellowed tomatoes at 02:02 p.m.

Monday, September 3, 2001 All-nighters, MinWan and Bach's Concerto fur zwei violine... Fuck I am sleepy. I must be mad, to try and pull another all nighter, when I know damn well I'm getting sick. Hell, I don't want to be in bed for a week like Ching. Like I said I'm mad, and I'm doing a Political and Legal Studies Inquiry Project I should have finished three days ago. I didn't get to finish my maths, physics, or my Minwoo drawing. Yes Heimdal, I am hell pissed. Oh yeah, look Caro, I *found* it! WanniexWoo_Titanic.art *takes a sip from mug* You have no IDEA how long I've looked for that pic. Its so romantic. (heh, gotta get some of the guys to do that sometime...) Damnit, I want someone to hug me and cuddle me like that. Seems like all my friends are having some measure of success at snagging a guy. Me? Well, I bought a DRESS. Maybe that would help. Its a military green, super asian skanky overdress. Typical HK mui shit. (Fuck, desperation has made me mad) Man, I was hell bumming, just looking for stuffs to buy, when I came across an electric dildo. I dunno, it just seems mad weird, a synthetic piece of rubber that is meant to look somewhat like a penis. It even had scrotums. I was like...0.o. Maybe its just me, but being screwed by a piece of vibrating plastic, (don't give me that comfort high durability latex rubber crap), isn't my idea of pleasurable. Now I know what I'm gonna get from the chicas for my seventeenth huh... Anyways, dildos aside, I was thinking of purchasing a domain name. Phphosting seems pretty good, because they let you pay by cheque or mail payment, and a lot of the other servers only let you pay by credit. But I don't know, I mean, it's just something for fun, and $9.15/month is a pretty expensive toy. Maybe I'll bum off Taikoubou.net for a little longer. *bows to Chiri-kun* I HAVE got my domain name in mind though... Anyways, the majority of my weekend was dedicated to the fundraising concert for research into leukemia. All those people there, made me realise how serious it is. And just liek that, after realising that, my playing just...improved. I don't really know. The whole program, I think, is the best I've played in my whole life. We played Overture to Rienzi, Ave Maria, Cappriccio Espagnol, Vivaldi's Laudaute Peuri and Bach's Concerto fur Zwei Violine. I think that last one was our best piece. Andrea and the other soloist (shit forgot her name) were so good. Congratulations to them both And I learned another thing hey... Kevster knows how to treat a girl...^^v Scary stuff. I was like sitting on the rail thing, and I was like *Fuck! I can't get do~~~wn!*, so I told him to move his ass and help me down, (couldn't jump, was wearing my ultra skanky dress), and he was like...=.-. And he reached up kinda took my hand and waist...and helped me down. I was like...whoah, that was wierd. Didn't know my deskmate was so touchy. Heh, he's cute, but he's an All Saints boy. And younger than me. Bah, another 345 words to go...Stupid report... Fuck I am sleepy amei plucked yellowed tomatoes at 02:54 a.m.

Monday, August 27, 2001 Bo-dak-ness, fics and Jin.... As I sit here looking for policies on illegal immigrants and reading fics, I realise something slightly disturbing. I am being turned off Jun Jin. I don't mean to offend anyone when I say this, its just whenever I turn around in the gfic world its like *BAM!* He's there, right in your face, up your ass there. And always, always he's got the rest of the Shinhwa, lusting after his ass, waiting in the shadows just bidding their time for the opportunity so they can rip his clothes off, not bother with lube and fuck him to the ground...and more. Which is fine, for maybe two or three fics, but when people start writing epics on it...*shudder* Just for interest I used to be a huge MinJin fan. I still am. Its just that, variety is good, real good. Which is why I love HyukTa, over TonHyuk and JunTa, although right now, I am sweating MinWan. Sadly I'm beginning to despise any fic with Jin in it...(Argh, sorry jinbaby, I hate myself for saying that) And that just fucking makes me sad, because, like Jin used to be one of my favourites in fics, (needless to say, I still love him in real) but the fact is, the rest of the world has killed Jin for me. Its more than just the bo-dak do...Trust me. amei plucked yellowed tomatoes at 09:28 p.m.

Sunday, August 26, 2001 crying to One Fine Day, and random thoughts Sorry about the short entry below. Totally random that was. Anyways it's a cloudy Sunday and I'm taking time out to muse about the weekend. It's Sunday, and I spent my morning cutting out newspaper articles. Fun. There were some really interesting ones, such as the one about that guy who hung naked from a helicopter and dropped a skinned cow filled with explosives, all in the name of art. There was even a picture, which I *was* going to scan, but since I'm on the other computer which doesn't have a scanner, (but a shitty ass keyboard nevertheless...) It'll wait until next week, when I scan Taryn's pictures in too. Going back to Friday me and Caro went to the movies. We went to see Bridget Jones's Diary, mad funny...We were all like...OMG IT'S PEMBERELY! and cheering Colin Firth on while he beat the shit outta Hugh Grant. I guess half the fun is that we just finish studying Pride and Prejuduce, which is like...the shit ^^ (heh P&P fan). The similarities were like, woah...and whoah. The best bit was when they used Areatha Franklin's "Respect". Like I said...mad fun. While we were there, we decided to watch A Knight's Tale. Its an OK movie rah, but I wouldn't waste $10.50 over it. (No, not even for Heath Ledger)...The girl pissed the hell outta me. "Prove you love me by losing." Ok, that is mad, wack-ass shit. I admire her wanting to be something other than an object, (because she's the princess and all), but consider it...by telling him to lose she's asking to give up his honour, his pride, and basically all his self-respect. Basically she's telling him to make himself some worthless fuck so she'll feel good. And naturally, after Heath got beaten to a pulp by ten feet lances (about six or seven times), the bitch changes her mind. Goddamn, this is why I am not a lesbian. It would have been great if Jo came, but she couldn't because she had bible study. I dunno hey, all the koreans I know...(a meagre six or seven) are all christians. Then again, take six or seven chinese at random, and they would probably almost always be christian. You get the random one like me, an atheist apparantly, because they didn't have agnostic as one of the options in my census forms. I guess that was a major turning point, because, deep down, I think my mother was hoping that I'll eventually see the light she calls christianity...but now, she's kinda accepted that I've lost what I never really had in the first place. But I'm not really an atheist. Just agnostic And on Saturday? Nothing really happened eh...Stayed up watching Love Generation. Damn man, that show made me wake up and realise, that I'm a hardcore romantic... Sitting in front of the foot heater, in my purple pajamas, crying over some jap drama, this isn't the front I usually walk about with, but its just something that's there yanno? And...Kimura Takuya (aka kimutaku), rocks my world. Not as much as Minwoo does, but somewhere close. He's so sweet/insensitive in that drama, but I was really touch by his proposal...^^v (wrinkly old lady...) Oh yeah, last night I changed my Sorimachi wallscroll back to my Takeshi Kaneshiro wallscroll. amei plucked yellowed tomatoes at 02:45 p.m.

Thursday, August 23, 2001 Musings on a Thursday Night I saw this hell fine fuckalicious guy last Saturday. He's fourteen. Fuck. amei plucked yellowed tomatoes at 07:20 p.m.

Sunday, July 8, 2001 Of tomatoes and freedom.... Holidays are out, so is the new layout, Yellowed Tomatoes. I was just musing myself, why "Yellowed Tomatoes", when I realised my ICQ nick is Jaded Mandarin. (maybe I'm feeling frooty? I dunno) Hrm, just occured to me...the new layout. The guy's name is Zhang Zi. I'm sure you know him...He's quite old already, (and therefore not popular). Heh, I was digging around looking for my father's Zhang Xue You VCD, when I picked it up. I know I said I'll do a MinWoo layout, but...I thought this pic looked hexa cool, so I guess Woo will just have to wait until I get their fourth album...(And is it just me or is the freaking tomato still red? *growls*) Huah, speaking of holidays, I got my mid-term report. I'm not smart, I admit. With these scores I am never going to get into physiotherapy... I reckon someone up there is trying to tell me something by making me stupid. The downside to being stupid, is that you have to sit on the floor of the gym, instead of the all awe-inspiring/relieving/semi-comfy benches. So after that assembly on Friday, my ass is now square. Huah, Sook baby, you and me, next sem, we are going to be UP THERE! *insert pyscho xylophone music* and THEN we be laughin at ya... During all this scramble for grades fracas, I just realised, my true calling...To be Sam's sugahmomma... Man, that guy is pretty fucking beautiful I tell you...I could make a hexa lota cash. (All I have to do is approach him with the idea.) Anyways, when I told my crew about my dream job, they were all like...???...Some people just don't understand. And yeah, he's doing...*table tennis* for sport...With MingDong. *gasps* Damn man, I only I weren't doing weight-training, I would like, do Table Tennis, just to follow them around and shit. *laughs* Hm, I just found out that some guy doesn't like me. I don't even KNOW this hell puntzy piece of crap, and he's like telling everyone that I spread shit....*silence* I was like "?". I mean, I've heard stories about this guy, (he's my brother's friend's girlfriend's brother), but I've never ONCE spread them. So tell me, who is this wack-ass piece of shit to spread crap about me, huh? Because I sure as hell don't... Plus, he says my bro is trying to steal his girlfriend. Well...If he is, then, fuck man, what have I gotta do with huh? Don't involve me, if I never struck you first. Besides like, him and her are just friends. If your immature self cannot HANDLE that, I seriously, seriously pity you. Anyways...Full marks for my Lit essay! *beams* Go me! I really thought I screwed it up, I mean, everything was so freaking vague, but...I guess that means everyone else's was even more blur than mine. (man, I am still hyper about this, It's like, given me a huge confidence boost, because they say that if you can't score in at least ONE of your list one's, your screwed.) Which reminds me... I have to draw a MurakixTsuzuki pic for Leareth. I think I've got an idea, but it will take a VERY long time to excute. (still not used to painter). And I gotta draw a pic for Robin. Some reaaally pretty korean girl. Song Kim Hye? (or something). He was like..."draw a picture". since I'm kinda scared of him. (he's like one of those big korean guys with his own "crew" in the school -.-) *nod nod*, and he runs off to get all these pictures of this pretty chick and say "thanks". I don't mind...Nuh-uh. (I'm a coward)...but really, she looks fun to draw. And...there is still Emily and Edwin. *sighs* *amei squashes a tomato in time to the third movement of summer.* *squash* *cough* amei plucked yellowed tomatoes at 02:26 p.m.