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Friday, October 31, 2003 08:47 a.m.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN I finally got my cute little laptop. I love it. I took it home, and to my chagrin ended up working in my PJs. Since I was getting my desktop swapped out I had to place all my MP3 on a network drive. I was terrified they were going to delete all of my music. I invested a lot of research time looking for all of that music. I did, however, delete some of the horrendous stuff I had, why I had it....no clue. I had some stupid shit on there and won't embaress myself by listing it in such a public space.

Big news, very big news coming down the pipes. Can't divulge just yet but very soon. Just waiting for the details. Stay Tuned!

All Hallows Eve is tonight. We had plans to go to the Sunset Room with Mo & Ro but we all realized we were to broke to go out. Instead we're all going to meet up at my house and watch scary movies. I'll buy a bag or two of candy just in case we get any ghouls and goblins stopping by.

I was so tierd yesterday. I went to the gym immediatly afterwork, came home did some work, read and fell asleep at approx. 7:45pm. Im in dire need of a nice weekend at home!

Tuesday, October 28, 2003 05:47 a.m.

Its taking for my laptop to actually make it to my lap. Supposedly it was ordered 3-weeks ago, but having to wait is ridiculous! Until I get my laptop I will be unable to place any Pita entries from the comfort of my own home. T monopolizes the laptop at home for work. Since he works out of the house it is a totally legit reason. Once in a while I'll get 10-minutes here and there but for now all major internet escapades must be completed at work. Looks like i'll be coming in early for a while.

I did nothing all day yesterday. I watched more news then I have for the last couple of months. The news was dominated by all the wildfires in the SoCal area. Even local programming was interrupted with "Breaking News." It's a little scary seeing as though the fire has crossed into Los Angeles County. I just don't want it to get any further East the Chatsworth.

We crossed the picket line in front of Ralphs yesterday. I couldn't take it. I needed food bad and Trader Joes and Whole Foods did not have what I needed. The grocery strike is getting quite pathetic. No more marching in front of the store or in the parking lot. Sometimes they just sit in lawn chairs and holding their signs up. Not even holding them up proudly or aggressively. In other instances they just stan their talking amongst themselves with their signs resting on their shoulders. Why would we want to support them when they are showing no passion? When we came out of the market yesterday there was a woman who stepped out before us and she went straight over to the picketers-hmmm.....they seemed to know each other. That's a little strange I would think they wouldn't want their friends going into the market.

I really need to start thinking about Christmas gifts and I have a multitude of birthdays coming up as well. I attempted to make a Christmas list but to no avail. I cannot do it with T. If it were up to him only I would get a gift. My mom does here shopping year round so its never a crazy rush for her. I on the other hand am one of those people that waits until November to even start my Christmas shopping. But i'm a big Christmas card person. I've always wanted to do those ultra cheezy photo cards with T, myself and the two doggies. I don't think it will be this year but I am on the quest for the perfect Christmas card. I've been looking but haven't found them yet.

I am the fearless leader this morning. I must get to work before chaos ensues.

Monday, October 27, 2003 09:13 a.m.

As a result of all the wildfires here in Southern California the sky has been so gray and the air quality kinda gross. It's a little freaky that nealy 900 homes have been burnt down.

So far I have had a restful weekend and intend to get some house cleaning done today. I really hate cleaning my house. Don't get me wrong. I hate being surrended by giant messes but I can never gather the motivation to put things in their place. I am determined to turn that mentality around and squash that bout of laziness today.

Halloween is coming up and T and I haven't bought any candy for would be trick or treaters. No parties this year and I look forward to a quiet night at home.

Saturday, October 25, 2003 08:58 a.m.

Why do we care if Matt Luaer loves the cocaine?

Saturday, October 25, 2003 08:05 a.m.

Yesterday was such a bad day at work. I've been put in a position I don't want to be in and the work is not only boring but extremely time consuming. When I took the position I am currently in this is definetly not what I agreed to. Anyway, I have two peers in the same position as me and we have been complaining all week about the change in responsibility. We have not been getting the support we need and do not feel comfortable talking to our direct reports about this. Anyway, yesterday all came to a screeching halt. We had a mini-showdown yesterday with our direct bosses and the director of the department. It was ugly and everybody was pissed. I then proceeded to be dragged into another meeting with my boss (who is 3 years younger then I), he felt bad and wanted to know if anything else was bothering me. Then he had a rumble with the director, which led to a rumble with me, J and the director. J and I were so upset we were yelling at her, crying frantically and every other word out of J's mouth was f*ck. It was nice to finally get everything out in the open but nothing was resolved, if not little tweaks to what the director did actually made it worse. Since it is now Saturday I can't vent with my peers. I think they will be just as pissed!

I stormed out of work at about 3:15pm yesterday. Drove home and went straight to the gym. I felt a lot better after that. I find going to the gym in a stressed mood really makes my workout that much more intense and worth while. T and I vegged out at home last night. We watched Charlies Angels 2: Full Throttle and Logans Run. Actually I fell asleep somewhere in the first thrity minutes of Logans Run. I really like that movie. It's so nerdy but I like it.

I'm currently listening to a N.E.R.D. cd and it is so very good. It's very funk, rap, somthing CD but its very nice to listen to while I'm *working*. I guess I would say its awesome background music.

See Ya!

Friday, October 24, 2003 07:57 a.m.

I wish someone I knew were throwing a Halloween party. I would have one but I just had a get together at my place and I'm not ready for another one. When we lived in Chicago we used to go all out on Halloween. We would start thinking of our costumes in August and start making them in late September. Well "we" didn't make them, I made them. And they were awesome. I put my blood, sweat and tears into them! I boast about my costume making abilities to this day.

I would like to go to Disneyland in the next few weeks. Every year during the holiday season they "dress up" the haunted mansion with decor of The Nightmare Before Christmas. We seem to miss the gala every year but this year will be different, I promise. Additionally, the El Capitan theater on Hollywood Blvd. shows midnight screenings of the Nightmare Before Christmas. Like Disneyland we miss this every year, and as previously mentioned things will change.

I'm feeling positive about the gym. I like my new workout that I'm doing and am actually looking forward to my big sweat afterwork today. The workout goes by so fast that I cannot believe it. However, I do need to visit Target to pick up some decent gym clothes. I want some shorts and I want some long sleeved gym tops. For mid-October the weather here has been unbearably hot! On Tuesday it was 103 degrees! I want to wear my winter clothes, can't this summer heat go away. To top it off, I'm in Pasadena everyday for work and Pasadena is in the San Gabriel Valley so its so much hotter then other parts within LA. Everyone around me is starting to get sick. My theory is because of the various temperatures we're exposed to everyday. It's damn hot outside, but the AC is cranked up so high in the building that the temperature change in/out of the office is screwing with everyone's body. This is how I normally get sick. Since I have very little sick time left I cannot afford to get sick right now!

Thursday, October 23, 2003 06:53 a.m.

So the weekend is creeping up and I don't know what to do. I'm not really into clubs, unless it is all 80's (I know the words to the songs and I like the music) but Avenue D is playing at Club MakeUp. And, Peaches is playing at the El Rey. However, we're all feeling a little cheap and will ultimately end up at a bar. I think because we have going out every Saturday I've really learned to pace myself. I don't drink nearly as much as I used to. Although its fun to be drunk and after effects are simply not worth it!

I went to the gym last night. It was great. I always complain about going to the gym but I always feel great when I leave. I'm on this new circuit thing so I will be going every other day. I need to lose some weight by Christmas. I have these awesome rock-n-roll leather pants I must fit into for my Christmas party! I bought them 2-years ago and they fit me for like 30-seconds and have been in my closet since then. Okay, back to the gym thing, so I went last night and now my body is slightly aching in places it don't normally ache. Yes!

I had some yummy Indian food last night. I hadn't eaten Indian in a while so the saffron rice, chicken makahni and naan were awesome. The service sucked but the food was great! While we were eating dinner we saw that guy from Office Space. You know, the white guy named Michael Bolton that was singing the gangster rap in his car while stuck in traffic. Speaking of Office Space, the movie is simply genius!

I hate when you let people borrow things and they take forever to return it. I let a coworker borrow Queen of the Damned and she's had it for a month and hasn't said a peep about it. Second, I let this guy borrow my box set of History of Jamaican Music and he hasn't returned it after two weeks. I must reclaim my property. Nasty e-mails will be going out. I want my stuff back now.

Im still reeling from my entries missing beause of this weekend's Pitas nonsense. Unfortunately Google didn't cache my stuff. Not surprised, considering its Google. I will cope and move on. Although should I have to enter therapy because my thoughts and words are missing I'll really be pissed.

Tuesday, October 21, 2003 08:59 a.m.

I'm so pissed that all my entries between today and October 7th has fallen into the void. I tried lookinf for cached pages but to no avail. I know its only text but its my text! Hopefully it will miracuously return. Until then I will forge ahead.

I had a pretty decent weekend. Sunday I went to the Beverly Hills Farmers Market, and an art/craft fair of overpriced semi-ugly stuff. Monday was busy. I had a bunch of errands, groceries, gym, drugstore stuff like soap. Running errands can be so tiring! I had to run over to Trader Joes, which was so damn packed. I think the overcrowded store is a result of the grocery store strike.

I can't even think right now as I'm a little dishevled due to my missing entries. More later.

Tuesday, October 7, 2003 08:50 p.m.

I did my duty and voted today. The big California Recall. It was a little surreal. There was 6-pages of candidates for governor, and it was so weird seeing names like Gary Coleman, Gallagher, Angelyne and even Mary Carey. I voted in favor of the recall but I will not lay all the details on the table. However, it turns out that our new governor is Arnold. Hmmm..Don't really know how I feel about this. At least I voted! Hell, I even got myself an I Voted sticker.

Its almost 9pm. T and I need to get out of here in a few minutes. We need to run down to the co-location of his server to pick something up then jet over to LAX to pick up Lance. Its going to be a late night.

Next week Wednesday we're going to see Juliet Lewis and the Licks at the Knitting Factory. Im kind of excited. It'll be fun. But I really need to start limiting my school night outings as I totally suffer the next day.

Effective today I am officially a Yahoo! employee.

Monday, October 6, 2003 08:41 a.m.

We went to a party in the Hollywood Hills on night. So when Ro came over he was saying that this house was described to him as a castle. But he didn't believe Mike's description and said not to expect that. Ok, whatever, honestly I didn't really care if it was a castle or not. First off we had to go to Downtown LA to pick up Mo, he was at this artist guy's loft downtown. So we go downtown and man is this place isoloated! When we get to his street their's this hoopdie with like 10 black guys drinking beer and shouting at each other and trying to direct us to some crack-hole of a parking lot. Ah, no thank you. We parked hoped out to go to the loft and as we're walking one of the drunk guys keeps asking us about some party in the building and if we were going. We politely tell him no. And he graciously responds with a "i'll keep an eye on your car." It makes me feel great knowing that he's going to protect my X5. I would think they would have left us alone seeing that Ro is a huge guy with a mohawk.

So we go into this loft and it is amazing. Super tall ceilings, dark wood floor fabulous decor. Mike is an artist and the art work is amazing and all over the place. Appareantly this guy Mike works mainly on commissions and he's damn busy with that. Okay fast forward on the loft. We leave in my car, which looked in tact as we all climbed in. Drunk guy kept his promised and was a good watch dog!

We head back north on the 101 to the Laurel Canyon exit. Luckily traffic wasn't to bad because it was sure a bitch on our way to downtown. With directions printed on hot pink paper we're ready to go.

Halfway there we realize we've been to a party near this guys house and parking was a pain so we pray that this isn't as crowded an area, yeah right! Whomever wrote these directions was a real dumb ass because they neglected to include the street address, rather we were faced with take a left, then next right its the first house on the left, etc, etc but there were endless forks in the road so god knows if we were really going in the right direction. Ultimately we found the house and strangely there was a school in the canyon with a parking lot, yippee there was parking.

We get to the base of the house preparing for the 100 stair hike to this house, which literally is built like a castle. I wish I had a camera. Their were towers and balconys and tons of hidden spiral stair cases, trapdoors, more hidden stairs and gates to strange places, even a wishing well. The back patio was amazing. Their were giant boulders casted out of concrete slapped up against the actual mountain with a wine cellar built into the mountain. A raised back terracy with a giant retaining wall light entire in candles. There were sunken hot tubs. It was crazy! The owner, this guy name J.S. Music Industry type was a lot younger then I had expected. He had hired this company to bartend his party, we were totally stoked. They made whatever you wanted with only primo top-shelf liqour! Yummy! All tasty treats were junk food, giant bowls of M&Ms, brownies, cookies, chips, apple turnovers. Stomach ache heaven. This party had wonderful people watching and some major hollywood peeps. There was Darren Stein, writer directer of Jawbreaker, which places me one degree closer to my fellow Boston totter, Rose McGowan. There were also some guys from The Cure. Had I been 13 or so I would have nearly wet myself out of excitement, but at my age it was cool but not as life moving. And a bunch of music and movie types I could care less about. We ditched Big Foot and stayed at the party until midnight and bailed to get some real food.

We headed over to Swingers. I had the amazing Swingers french toast. Which consits of two thick slices of callah bread cut in half and stuffed with cream cheese and bacon then carmalized fruit and nuts piled on top. Perfect for late night comfort eating. T had mac and cheese and an extra think chocolate malt, Ro had the same thing as me while Mo just had some coffee with load of sugar. By the end of the meal we were stuffed and tierd! We headed back to our place and Mo&Ro hopped into the black Jetta and took off. But not before we could make plans for Sunday.

Mo&Ro swung by at 2pm yesterday and we excitedly drove down to Highland Park for some homecooked Mexican at La Abeja. This place is a total hole in the wall and the food is amazing. I had the milanesa, T machaca, Ro carne tortas, Mo machaca. It was so good and so cheap I couldn't believe it. After lunch we came back to our place watched Valley Girl and all the extra DVD bits then watched a few hours of the Cribs marathon.

It was probably 8pm when the left and I was ready to settle down, watch charmed and fall asleep on the couch.

Now to spend quality time at home with T and the doggies. I just want to chill today and relax.

Saturday, October 4, 2003 05:24 p.m.

My work week has come to a close. This Tuesday-Saturday shift rocks! Although Im at work on Saturday's there are only 6 other poeple there with me and it is way chill. As a result my work week feels like 4-days long and I feel like I have 3-day weekends.

Lance will be back in LA on Tuesday night. He'll be here for approximatly a week. Hopefully he'll have time to play rather then boring old work. I'm attempting to lure T and Lance to the Boucning Souls show on Tuesday night at the Henry Fonda Theater. Its cheap, something like $12-$15. I've seen the band a few times in Chicago and some shows stand out more then others. Reason being I have a little bit of a drinking problem when I see concerts. I feel like just buying the tickets and saying they have to come and call it a day. T doesn't really like the band to much, but I like 'um and they're pretty fun to see live.

I found out the Turbonegro played at Henry Fonda's last night and we totally missed it. Oh well, nothing I can do about it now.

So I found this little fundraiser for breast cancer. Its an online thing but its pretty creative. Its called the Blogger Boobie Thon 2003. Hey, its all in the name of breast cancer!

We're breaking the Saturday night routine tonight. Instead of going to Big Foot we're going to some Record Execs. party in the Hollywood Hills. I don't know if Record Exec is the most accurate title but I will find out tonight. We're going with Ro&Mo, I believe these people are Ro's friends. I have a sneaky suspician they will want to swing by Big Foot on the way home. I'm ok with that. I told my mom where we are going and she was like, how did you score that invite? She told me dress nice and don't get outta hand and act appropriately. Typical mom!

My doggies are being extra cute today. The littlest one was in my lap while I typed away. She didn't want to jump down. She had her little head resting on my forearm and it bumped up and down with every letter I typed.

I guess our big voting day is next Tuesday Oct. 7th. The California Recall. I didn't realize it was such a big deal until my mom, in Hawaii, started saying they've been talking about it on their news. There are so many Web sites about it. There's the Recall Davis sites. You can buy the playing cards. Or own the t-shirts like this one or this one, or even this one. I'll definetly be voting and I will not be casting a vote for the Terminator. That just seems wrong to me.

One of the greatest stores in California are the super-mega-99 Cent Stores. They are huge, and in a weird way reminds me of Sears. And everyting is truly 99 cents. You can buy all of your household staples here. Batteries, Tape, tie downs, windex, balsamic vinegar, brooms, towels the list goes on and on. Seriously, if you were on a budget you could totally furnish your house with items from the 99 cent store and Big Lots. I had to include Big Lots because the 99 cent store doesn't have much in the way of appliances and furniture.

A friend of mine at work recently got divorced. Although he doesn't seem to broken up about it its still so sad. He's my age and with three kids. His ex is unemployed and is constantly asking him for money. If he says no she will immediatly chime in with things like, "well, the kids will have no dinner." Which is such bullshit, because that would make anybody feel bad. So my friend gives in and gives her the cash. They did one of those DYI divorces because they didn't have the case for lawyers. I feel like my friend is getting screwed and I don't like seeing or hearing that. He says he is broke and will be eating top ramen for awhile. It makes me sad thinking about this knowing that he works his ass off to provide for himself and his kids.

I couldn't imagine being divoced with three kids. That would be so rough. I mean, there would be no quality time with the kids because I would be to busy working trying to keep them fed, clothed and having the necessities to live a clean and healthy life. I gotta stop, cause now im making myself sad.

Our pal in Utah called. He wants us to come up SLC this winter to go snowboarding. I think I want to. It will be a lot of fun. Again its that stupid vacation time thing that gets in the way of potential funness I could be having. Gotta quit my job then everyday will be a vacation. Sort of.

Friday, October 3, 2003 10:51 a.m.

My week has been frightingly calm. I don't want to jinx it by talking about it. So I will move on.

Today I will actually leave the dismal building for lunch. Its not exactly a sunny day but its not to cold to enjoy lunch outdoors. I think we're going to grab some takeout from The Kitchen and eat lunch in the old town piazza. I hope there's time to do some strolling through Crate & Barrel. I really don't want to do anything tonight but sit at home watch some movies and spend some time with T. He promised he wouldn't work to late tonight so we could hang out.

T's brithday is a month away and I really don't know what to get him. I'm the type of person that always wants to by pratical gifts rather then fun, cool gifts. But then I also thought about not buying him a gift but rather going away to Palm Springs for the weekend. I was thinking we could go to Estralla Spa, its pricey but it looks so relaxing and calming. I just don't know if I can throw down that kind of cash. Maybe i'll just have T get tattooed, since that's what he wants anyway.

I feel very sad since I don't have anything interesting or fun to write about. Maybe i'll take some time to think about it and hopefully the next entry will be a little more interesting.

Wednesday, October 1, 2003 05:32 p.m.

So I just posted an entry but I couldn't let this slip by. I was reviewing some of my site logs and noticed that someone searcing on Google's german site clicked into my Pita-since it showed up as a search result for granny in bondage! GROSS!

Wednesday, October 1, 2003 05:06 p.m.

It has been a very quiet week, so far. I finally submitted my vacation request for Thanksgiving. My mom and dad will be in SoCal at that time and I will be cruise director. More on that when it actually gets close to the date.

For the past 6 months or so I've switched from Coke to Diet Coke. This was a huge deal for me because I was completely and totally addicted to Coca Cola. I am slowly becoming a Diet Coke addict. It's strange that I like diet coke because I think it really doesn't taste as good as regular coke. You see I truly love the tast of regular coke. Mmmmm....mmmmm....good! My coke addiction was horrendous. When I was in college I think there were times I was drinking maybe 5 cokes a day and barely any water let alone juice or coffee. Nowadays, I'll drink maybe 1 coke a week. It's all diet coke now, baby. However, I can't drink any type of caffeine after 4pm or else I can't get to bed. I've stooped down to the saddest level of soda consumtion. I have purchased, for my own home stash, CAFFEINE FREE DIET COKE. How sad. It's as bland as regular diet coke but it sure does satisfy my soda craving. Im embaressed that I buy this product.

I've re-evaluated some of the things I do regarding work and the baggage I drag home afterwork. I've realized that my work stress was really interfereing with my outside of work life. I was being grumpy, lazy, tierd and 100% unmovtivated to do anything. At the beginning of this week I've decided to leave all the work drama at the footstep of the elevator and come home work-stress free. So far so good. I'm taking it all in stride. Its totally not worth it to bring this crap home with me. I don't talk about it, I don't think about it and when I get home at 3:23pm every afternoon I treat it as the start of my day. I think this will have a huge impact on how I feel about myself and I think I'll be able to much better uphold my household responsibilities.

Honestly its been very boring this week and i have nothing interesting to talk about. Although, we may consider flaking on the Big Foot Crew this week because we found out that The Streets will be playing at the Avalon on saturday Night. Wow...can you believe it's October?

Monday, September 29, 2003 08:15 a.m.

I so wanted to nap after work on Satruday. But as usual this did not happen. I don't understand why I have such a hard time napping. I concluded that I am so excited to be home after 8-hrs at the office that my body is so revved up I can't fall asleep. That's the only thing that makes sense to me. Anyway, I think I need to train my body to nap, if I did maybe I wouldn't be so tierd all the time and having episodes of going to bed at 6.30pm.
Ro called me on Saturday and pushed back our meet up 1-hr so we were going to be meeting at 10.30pm. I had some time so I decided to watch a movie. I had just received Real Women Have Curves which was such a great movie. I don't normally cry and I cried at the end of it. I reccommend this one.

T invited a guy he met at his server's co-location, so we had no choice but to leave early for Big Foot. I was happy about this because had we shown up at 10.30pm we would have spent the evening standing, getting their early ensured as a fabulous booth.

I was anxious to meet T's new friends. Our circle of friends is pretty small so i'm always excited to meet new people. T described him as a really, smallmodish guy with semi-shaggy brown hair which when I heard this nearly made me fall out of the booth because T is a small guy, so I ask "smaller then you?" Of course, he said yes. Now, when T says smaller then him and me being so overly dramatic at times, I'm thinking this guy is a midget. So I ask if he is. T laughs and tells me I'm being ridiculous. After drilling him with questions T gives up and says he's cool, likes the same music and is a bit younger then we are. Okay, fine, I can deal with that. We wait for a bit, drink a beer, bitch about the DJ and waiting for the usual DJ to show up. Finally, T's friend E shows up. Okay, he's not really small he's the same height as T and everything else T describes is accurate. He was totally nice and totally funny. Their were moments on Saturday night that he totally broke into song and totally dug. I wish in real life people would break into song, just like in Grease!

Mo & Ro show up and are shock that we have a booth. Of course we had a great time, even though T's Bass fell in my lap. By the end of the night E said I can't believe I live right across the street (he literally does) and have never been here, i'll be here with you all next week Saturday. We laughed and totally got excited because we have told so many people about our Saturday 9.30pm date we are wondering who will show up. So next week we won't only have E but we'll also have Nic and Jen. Yeah! When we were driving home T said to me ok E's not really, small I was wrong. I don't know what I was talking about. I think he only said that when he realized that he and E were about the same height. I just laughed at him for the duration of our drive.

We didn' do much on Sunday. I slept in for the first time in months. I woke up around noon. I was stunned! We sat around for a bit watching TV then headed out to Foxy's for some breakfast. The Mexican bus boy (bus man is more appropriate, given his age) kept swinging by our table to talk about my tattoos. He has some pretty nice tattoos himself. We then headed to Pasadena because I wanted to go to the Paseo to look at shoes at DSW. I don't know what exactly I want but I surly didn't find them. Ideally i'd like a new pair of boots as the ones I have are starting to die, and I would like a pair of sandals, with not to big of a heel that I can wear to work ane be totally comfortable. All my heels now are way to uncomfortable and impractical for work. Hmmm....after the Paseo we drove around Pasadena for a bit and then came home. T napped and I debated if I wanted to go to Target or not. I opted for not as I was way to lazy to get dressed, I had already thrown the PJs on and washed off my make up. So we stayed in for the night.

I plan on shopping today since T has to do some testing on his site and I don't want to be in the way. Although he will have to sneak way long enough to go to Barney's to pick up our jeans. The only other thing on my agenda is paying and filing some bills and the laundry.

Saturday, September 27, 2003 09:14 a.m.

So I never got a chance to trim/cut my hair this week. Maybe I can do it on Sunday morning. I really need to do something with it since its getting kind of boring. Since I added a little bit of layers near my face I think my hair has gotten a little puffy. Is it puffy or pouffy? Hmm...whatever, it really doesn't matter. The point gets across either way. Sometimes I like a little bit of poof, like when i'm going out but when I come to work I feel like I just rolled out of bed and came to work. Which is typically true but I don't think my physical appearance needs to project it.

My friend J and I are thinking of getting manicures on our lunch break today. I just painted my nails and its all jaked up already. So this is a good thing.

Spoke with TexAm (that'll be my new name for her)yesterday. Our calls always average about 2-hours. I feel like there's so much to say. When we both lived in Washington we spoke regularly and we saw each other every few months. TexAm would normally catch a greyhound out to Olympia and we would spend a few days together. Then I moved to Chicago and I think I only spoke to TexAm a few times in 4-years. A lot happens in 4-years. So you see there's this 4-year void in our relationship that we totally need to catch up with. I love talking to her and our conversations totally run the gambit and I don't feel like we talk for 2-hrs at a time. T thinks we're mental because we chat for so long. I think we would've talked longer if my cell phone battery wasn't about to die.

I feel so physically exhausted this week. Im tierd and really need to sleep. Im planning to take a nap when I get home today. I need to rest up for my night out tonight. I have a permanently booked Saturday night with Mo&Ro at the Big Foot Lodge.

As I was driving to work this morning on the fog wrapped 134. I was thinking about dreams and what they truly represent in your life. For example, are dreams just representations of things really happening in your life? Are they desires you want fulfilled? Are they just fantasies and nothing else? Its strange how dreams make you feel, upon waking. I mean they can really have an affect on your mood. You can feel happy, desirable, humiliated, embaressed all because of what went on in your head while you were asleep.

My friend sent me this link in retaliation to Friendster.

Thursday, September 25, 2003 01:23 p.m.

So a few days ago I mentioned that Pink collaborated with Tim Armstrong for much of her new album. You can hear her first single here. It sounds very similar to some of Rancid's songs. You can almost here Tim's voice in the chorus.

Thursday, September 25, 2003 11:17 a.m.

So i'm one of those people that collects all the new quarters. I totally blame my mom for this addiction. Let me back track a little. At the inception of the new quarters there were all those commercials/infomercials and ads advertising all those map folder things that you could place each state's new quarter as they are realeased. I used to joke about how dumb that was, and that collecting the quarters was a useless hobby, yadda, yadda, yadda.

So my mom comes to visit me. She's so excited and says she has a present for me. Yeah, I love presents! What could it be. We hadn't even left the airport and she's tugging at her suitcase to open. Oh, god, this must be good if she can't wait to get home. At this point i'm practically salivating. The suitcase flips open, she's digging around, "Oh, here it is" she says. Hmmm....it's big but really skinny, i'm stumped, I have know idea what it is. Maybe a book? I don't know. She hands it over and tells me to open the bag it's in. I open it, pull it out and scream. AHHHHHHH.....its, its the giant quarter map thing. MOM I yell, what? why? I couldn't believe she bought me this. She knew I was shocked. She stood back and laughed, and laughed and laughed. Once she calmed down she explained how the maps were cheap and she bought one for me and all my cousins. She left me speechless.

Fast forward to more recent days. As a result of that quarter map I am now obsessed. I sometimes obsess over my quarter collection. Every so often when I am home alone, I will get out my map, look at the collection, shine my quarters, make sure the quarters are straight in their little slot, look at the upcoming states. How sad is that? Damn, map! How could my mom do this to me? I still bring this up with her. Whenever a new quarter is released I totally freak out. If T comes across a new quarter he always saves it for me and checks if I already have it. It's really ridiculous. The newest quarter is Missouri, its alright. Nothing to spectacular. My friend AR is as obsessed as I am. We always talk about the new quarters. And compare our favorites. I think California will be released in 2005, I think. Here are our finalists.

Wednesday, September 24, 2003 04:42 p.m.

I got home from work yesterday and I was so frustrated I baked a batch of oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. Neither T or I will eat very much of it. The novelty of "sweets" in the house normally wears off within a day or two. No worries though. I think I may through three quarters of it in a zip lock and tote it off to work with me. I have a meeting with my team tomorrow and bringing food is like throwing meat out to the wolves. I find the process of baking very theraputic. By the time I was finished baking, I felt like the stress had been whisked away.

I got my new issue of InStyle today. There was a 4-page spread of things to by to indulge your teeny dog. Texas friend if you're reading this go to the store and check it out. There are dog carriers, sweaters, tees, shoes and even pearls for little dogs. The funniest thing is this kit you can order to take an imprint of your dogs foot, send it off and have it returned to you as a brozend imprint. I thought that was hysterical. The sad thing is, if I had the extra cash to toss around, I would totally do it. He, he, he.

Its finally starting to get cool during the day. I can't wait until the crisp fall wheather hits. I miss my scarves and coats!

I get to pick up my brand new pair of black Seven jeans from Barney's on Monday. I bought them on Sunday but because I'm so damn short I have to hem them. Normally I hem them myself, and I must pat myself on the back, I am a whiz and hemming these jeans, but because I bought a pair of jeans and T bought a pair of AG jeans I had them hemmed at the store. I thought it was pretty reasonable, only $5.00 a pair. That's cheaper then the tailor we normally go to. Anyway, I can't wait to pick them up. Black jeans are so rock-n-roll but not in a tacky, bad way.

Wednesday, September 24, 2003 05:43 a.m.

I think its time for a haircut. Nothing drastic, just a little shaping with a tiny bit of layers. I feel like my hair has been the same for a while now. I cut some layers in the front, which made a huge different, but they have since grown out and this time around the layers need to be a little shorter. I think when I get home today I will cut my hair before I wash it. Sometimes I thing about cutting some bangs but I feel like i'm so over that for awhile. There was a period of almost 10-years when I had short bangs and various length hair. That being said, I need a break from the bangs.

I got to work this morning a little earlier then expected. This is kind of nice since I have some time to get my personal stuff out of the way.

More later.

Tuesday, September 23, 2003 04:36 p.m.

So I was watching TV the other day and they were taking about Pinks new single/album. It's called Trouble and it was written by Rancid's Tim Armstrong. Should be very very interesting. I was trying to download the song online but was having some trouble doing so at home. I think I will try it at work tomorrow. Strange thing is, when I was watching MTV's movie awards this summer the interviewed Pink as she started strutting down the red carpet. She was accompanied by her boytoy Carey Hart and Tim Armstrong. Hmmm...Old pals?

Speaking of Rancid, T and I are going to see them when they play in November. We just don't know if we want to see them in LA at the Wiltern with Tiger Army and Horror Shop or if we want to see them in Vegas with Tiger Army and Nekromantix. Personally I would rather see them in Vegas because I would want to see Nekro. I'll let T decide. If we go to Vegas we're going to fly, I do not want to drive to Vegas. Although it's only 4-hrs its so damn cheap to fly and it only takes like 45-minutes.

Sometimes I find it strange that I don't get homesick for Hawaii. Although I've lived away from the island for 10-years I don't go back as nearly as I would like. If i'm lucky i'll go back once a year. When I think about it and realize that my entire family lives there I wonder why I don't miss seeing them regularly. I care for my family, I miss my family but I don't feel bad that I don't see them. I see my mom pretty regularly. I suppose twice a year but we talk about 3 times a week. Which I think does not allow for me to miss her. When I do see her though I always ask her to extend her trip even if I don't have any vacation time available and will need to go back to work. I think I just want her around. My mom will be coming back this November. My dad will be following a few days later. Its funny though. My mom purposely scheduled her trip to arrive before my dad so he does not interfere with her fierce shopping habit. I think this trip I will schedule activities while my dad is here. I know he doesn't want to go down the road of toursit hell so I will try to plan more fun less touristy things. I don't know if they would like to go the Getty but I think I would like to go. I'll have to start planning an itinerary in the next few weeks and make all the necessary reservations. Maybe I can get us some tickets for some tv show tapings. I think my dad would like that.

I want to start my Christmas shopping now. Is that weird? I always want to buy year round and save them but I never do. I need to make my christmas list. I know it isn't even Halloween but Christmas is really just around the corner.

Monday, September 22, 2003 07:25 p.m.

I can't believe it isn't even 8pm yet. Wow, the day has come to a screatching halt. Im not complaining. I want to go to bed. But I went to bed at 6.30pm last night, I can't do it again.

I think my dog has shrunk. She looks teenier then usual. Maybe i'm imagining it but she does look extra smally small since getting her back from the kennel yesterday. While spending the night at the kennel we had them implant those microchip thingy in them in case they ever get lost. They will be able to be traced and returned to us. I used to have cats that had the microchip in them so why not dogs. Although my doggies have never run away it's not to late to be safe.

Oh yeah, you know what was a hit at the party? The homemade pigs in a blanket. I made them with cocktail weiners (he,he,he) and Pilsbury crescent rolls. Mmmm.mmm.mmm good. Next time I'm limiting my food to cocktail weiners and tatar tots (did i mention that we had tatar tots?). I think the only white trash food we were missing was the deviled eggs. But I didn't want anyone stinking up the pad with their post deviled eggs bodily functions.

This morning at work was pretty shitty. I really didn't want to be there and one of my supervisors really gets under my skin. I know her intentions are good but she is to motherly and not my mother and needs to leave stuff alone. I just like to be given projects and left alone. Definetly the wrong department to be in for that state of mind. Oh well. After re-reading some past entries I think I want to limit my work talk to just a small percentage of my blogging. It will be challenging since so much of my day-to-day stuff is work related.

Besides visible panty lines another big pet peeve of mine is blondes with dreadlocks. How horrific! It is not attractive, its ugly and just looks dirty. All that runs through my mind when I see a blonde (male or female) with dreads is "god damn dirty hippy!" Yuck, yuck, yuck!

And I leave you with something I find grosser and dirtier then blonde dreadlocks, its really in its own special category. This is my personal opinion so don't take offense to this.

Monday, September 22, 2003 09:31 a.m.

The par-tay was a blast. Everyone had such a good time and everyone fille up on our array of junk food. Fondue is not as much as a party food as people say. We had to keep watching the flame to ensure the chocolate and cheese did not burn. But the chocolate was amazing as I splurged on primo dark chocolate. Yum! There was so much alcohol it was disgusting. I drank way to much and paid for it for the first half of Sunday.

I hate when you go to bed drunk and you sleep soundly but when you start to wake up and are aware that you WILL be hungover when you get out of bed. Ok, that's what happened to me. I realized it was daytime and opened my eyes only to be concious of a hangover. It was awful. I had friends spending the night and wanted to see the city so I had to wake up. I took a long shower but that didn't really do nothing but wash the night before's skank off of me.

We somehow managed to all get dress and head to Canter's Deli. We got there and got drinks. Looking at the menu in conjunction with watching a table of overweight people eat pastrami sandwiches that they were smearing 1000 Island dressing on with every bite. My stomach churned and churned. I ran to the restroom and began to throw-up. I felt gross. I thought I needed to eat ordered bacon and eggs only to take a teeny, weeny bite and that's it. I probably made a few trips to the bathroom and I felt like i was turning green. I didn't feel up to par until 2pm and finally worked up an appetite at 4:30pm. My god, In-N-Out never tasted so good.

Im at work for a half day today. 20-minutes to go and i'll be out of here. My friend MM is still in town until this evening so I'm hopin I'll be able to catch up with her before she leaves. Im so glad I was scheduled for a half day because I came in this morning thinking I was spending an entire day at work.

This was the best surprise.

Saturday, September 20, 2003 03:19 p.m.

I've been at work since 7am this morning. The software that we use has been down since 10am. I am so bored. I've done every work related thing I could that depends on the software and i've exhausted my personal web browsing. I have reached boredom. I want to go home and have requested to go home early. Any extra time to prep for the par-tay would be helpful and much appreciated.

I was dead tierd yesterday. I got home tried to do some cleaning. Went to a friends house then the market. I got home ate a turkey burger and fell fast asleep. It was maybe 8pm. I want to take a nap and drink a Red Bull.

So I was at the market last night buying some provisions for the par-tay and I was freezing my toosh off. The AC was so damn cold. I felt like I was in Chitown in early winter. As I was walking around I started to get the urge to pee. The need kept building and building, all because of the damn AC. I reached a point where I couldn't stop moving in fear of the flood gates opening and having warm, yellow pee running down my leg. So we pay and head to the car. Because I had to wait for T to unlock the car the urge got worse. I finally said, sorry T, I can't help. Standing and unloading the grocieries will force me to mee my pants. I have to sit in the car and wait. Okay, I stood talking for to long. I was in trouble. I had about five steps to get to the passenger door. I couldn't walk. I was hunched over and hopping to the door. I was afraid to uncorss my legs, I knew if I did it was going to squeak out. I successfully hopped to the door, jumped in and continued to bounce in my seat until the pee urge went away. T drove home, really fast on my command. We weren't even in the drive way and I had my keys in hand and my door partly open. As soon as it was safe I frantically swung my door open, hopped out and ran for the door. I barely, barely made it. Ahhh......I felt like a whole new person once i did what needed to be done.

CT should be somewhere around San Luis Obisp or Pismo Beach now. I just want to be able to start preparing the food and straighten my hair before she shows up. I'm so excited to see her. I called her earlier today and I know she was a little behind schedule which is a good thing so I can get more stuff finished at home.

Friday, September 19, 2003 05:35 p.m.

IN CASE YOU DIDN'T KNOW: IT'S THE INTERNATIONAL TALK LIKE A PIRATE DAY.

AAARRRRRRRGGHH!!!!

Friday, September 19, 2003 04:49 p.m.

The Par Tay is tomorrow night! I've been slowly cleaning my place for the last hour. CT called me and said she was bringing another friend with her. Cool. The more the merrier. I need to swing by the market and pick up some stuff for tomorrow night. I think I'll go by Ralphs or Trader Joes at 7 or 8 tonight.

Uuggghh. I'm getting so annoyed with T and his attempt with doing house stuff.. He does these house type things in such a half-assesd manner that it is frustrating. And if I bring it up he gets so f*cking defensive. Its ridiculous. I don't bring these "issues" up just for the hell of it but rather make reference to them when something pertains to it. Point in case, he decides to "clean" the garage. Ok, he brings all the shit out of the garage, and guess what it stays on the back patio for three weeks before it all gets put back. C'mon who in their right mind would take 3-weeks to clean the garage. Pre-"cleaning" it was clean, on shelves organzied but use. Now its all thrown on to shelves with categorization and items that I used and was able to easily locate is now lost. Something smells fishy.

I went to work with wavy hair today. Well, it was wavy but totally pulled back in a ponytail with a cute plaid Burberry headband holding my bangs back. I felt very preppy like but really wasn't.

I feel gross and grimey right now. Its hot, i've been doing things and I think I need to vaccuum because the carpet just doesn't feel to good right now.

My body feels so sleep deprived today. I slept for maybe 4-hours last night. And have been completely wired on caffeine for most of the day. I think my body is coming to a screatching halt right now. I've never been much of a napper but I may have to give into my body's urge to sleep and take a 1-hr cat nap.

Today I received Bowling for Columbine from Netflix. Yeah for Netflix. This is by far the best $20 a month bill that I pay. If you don't already subscribe to Netflix, what the hell are you waiting for!

People at work keep saying, "have you lost weight?" Is this a compliment? What were they thinking months prior to stating such a question? I never know how to respond when posed with such a question. Unless it is obvious to a blind man that a person lost weight I keep my mouth shut. I don't know if I lost weight. I don't own a scale. I stil fit in my jeans. Huh? Do I answer your question or not. Asking a woman if they have lost weight is not a compliment, its like asking a woman how old they are. You just don't do it. Who cares if you have or haven't. If a person feels good about themself weather they are a 100 pounds or 200 pounds leave them alone. The only exception of the rule is if your friend/co-worker brings it up. Then follow their lead. I don't diet but I try to eat healthy and not excessively. I go to the gym occasionally but walk my dogs regularly. I take the stairs whenever possible. I don't obsess over these things life is to short to worry about if you fit a size 10 or a size 6.

Friday, September 19, 2003 05:50 a.m.

Almost my entire day consisted of meetings yesterday. It was nuts! Well after my first meeting I swung by my desk and noticed I had a voicemail. I checked it and it was my friend MM from Chicago letting me know she was in LA and wanted to hang out that night. Then I reach in my bag and noticed I had a voice mail on my cell it turned out to be another frined of mine whome I hadn't seen in almost 4 years. Turns out she'll be driving down from SF to attend my little shindig.

Well last night was fun. It was a very late night for me considering I was at work at 5:45am. I was so excited that I told MM that I would pick her up when I got out of work. Needless to say I sped (is that even a word?) down the 2 and zipped over to Silverlake. We chilled at my place for a bit then started the evening at the ripe hour of 5pm. We headed to Mirabelle on Sunset for happy hour. All premium cocktails are half off and they have a happy hour food menu that's super cheap. They have grub like tuna tar tar, steak, stuffed mushrooms. Its so yummy and with really good prices.

From there we walked over to the Rainbow. The Rainbow is a bar and grill that was a big metal hang out in the 80's. Its dark, lit in red and tons of rock/metal posters and banners all over the wall. They had a giant Motorhead banner hanging from the rafters. It was one of those banners that the band normally hangs on stage with them. We only stayed at the Rainbow for one drink each and then moved on.

Since MM's sis was still at work and she works near Wilshire and La Cienaga we decided to head down to her area so she could meet up with us. I chose El Carmen. I was hoping I could find a photo of the bar since it is sooooo Mexcan kitschy. The interior is dome shaped with blue and cream tiled walls, orange tiled mosaic ceiling. Large format mexican wrestler black velvet paintings hanging on the walls. Two walls are decoupaged in mexican movie posters. Its dark but lots of multi-colored lights. There's a cut out in the ceiling with glass covering the hole and its filled with mexican wrestler masks. Man, it was so much fun. But now i'm tierd and busted into my first coke (not diet) at 6am. Yum!

Thursday, September 18, 2003 05:52 a.m.

Since last Saturday I've had Le Tigre's "Deceptacon" stuck in my head! I really hate when that happens. Le Tigre is Kathleen Hannah's new electo-synth-pop's new band. Kathleen Hannah used to front the Riot Grrl band Bikini Kill in the early 90's. But that damn song, just plays over and over in my head. I'm going to have to find a song to counter "Deceptacon" and get it out of repeat.

So we're having a par-tay on Saturday night. I have to go to the market tonight and pick up some ingredients for choclate fondue, cheese fondue, veggies and some other random snack foods. I will also need to get some tonic water, Red Bull, soda and champagne. Val is going to check the party supply store for some plastic champage flutes. I also need to remind T to call the dogs vet and see if they can spend the night on Saturday night. I think my friend CT is driving down from SF tomorrow night. She was planning to attend but this has been a bad week for her, family wise. I would love to see her and it would be so much fun to hang out with her this weekend. I'll keep my fingers crossed.
CT and I have been friends since grade 7. I have very few friends whom I've kown for that long so and it's been about 4-years since I've seen her.

My Texan gal pal had a link on her blog about pysch disorders. Of course, I had to do it and decided to check the OCD systems. something like 0 to 5 is not likely, 6-11 is probably 12+ is likely. Yeah, I scored 22!

Gotta go obsessively flip a light swtich.

Tuesday, September 16, 2003 09:30 p.m.

Yeah! One mixed CD 95 percent complete one to go. The first mix is "guilty pleasure" songs, the second one is made up of songs that are not guilty, secret pleasures but songs that are just good. Disc one contains: