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A Mad Tea Party Babble Version 2.0 geh. (continuation of feh) geh. I seem to be in a really bad mood right now. I'm not exactly sure. Maybe it's because this stupid classroom never opens the windows and I feel like i'm getting all the life sucked out of me. (O__O;;; i feel like a plant. i have to suck up sunlight or something?) Yes, i felt that you needed to know that. It's one of those "rainy day moods" like when I just want to take someone real cute and cut him open while smiling like a maniac. and i'll stab the knife into his pretty eyes and then pull out the knife and slice off his pretty little face and leave my knife in the palm of his small hand leaving his hand pinned to the wall. i know that was the worst run on sentence ever but i can't think straight enough to type it into proper english. i can't even tell if it's really sunny outside or not. because it really feels like a rainy day. It's painful. I want to write that Leopold and Loeb script right now or work on Heki-Version or even Hye Version. I want to kill something or rather. To murdur something. Someone pretty. I don't know what I'm supposed to say, but that's what I feel. Pour all my feelings into someone. Make them feel this insanity. I can't even give _that_ smile now. You know, that fake smile I always use everyday for everyone. not the one that's like "Oh? you need that change this font color?" DAMMIT! I KNOW WHY I WANT TO MURDER SOMETHING NOW! The guy next to me is playing death rock with that insane screaming. That's why that's why! It's a big different from the happy Aqua I've been listening to lately. cry for help? me? No way. I don't cry for help. I just like to complain because I have too many problems. murder murder murder. Fingers on the cute boy's face. kill. insanity. death. pain. he smiled. end. nonono bad feelings! bad bad for me! smiiiiile! Think of Krunkrun and Ishi! My oh my! Do you wanna say goodbye. To rule their kingdom baby tell me why. My oh my do you wanna say goodbye. To rule their country baby you and I. If you were my king. oohhhhh. I would be your queen. ......... Tarzan is handsome, Tarzan is strong. Listen to the Jungle Song! aiayayayayayay <--something like that i'm not sure. ...... Roses are red and violets are blue. Honey is sweet but not as sweet as you. Roses are red and violets are blue. Dumdidadum <--don't know that either. ....... THINK CLEX!!! OBVIOUS YAOI HINTS!!!!! BLATANT! CLEX!!!! ah, the screaming lightened up....that is good to know. let's see if i can learn bout Betty Freidan's The Feminine Mystique or something. A drop of blood fell on Tuesday, April 27, 2004, at 12:09 p.m.. feh couldn't concentrate on reading about world war ii and stuff. so i am posting randomness. WHY? Because it's really weird. What is weird? GAM! It's really scary because real hye is turning into comic hye and real kei is turning into real kei. It's REALLY creepy, and it's not the new Hye or Kei. It's the old old Hye and Kei that i made in 9th grade. Poor cute little Kei who gets corrupted....... i'm scared. i was going to write more, but i got distracted. A drop of blood fell on Tuesday, April 27, 2004, at 12:06 a.m.. Grapermelon? Strappleberry? XD I was thinking of this earlier because I was bored. (this actually happened like a month ago) I was at the local giant and next to the register they have the random gum and mint and candy and ness. So Juicy Fruit has now came out with Strappleberry and Grapermelon flavors. So i'm like "hey! why does strawberry and grape go first? why doesn't like watermelon or apple go first!" So it can be like Applerry or Appery or something! And then I'm like I bet you if Watermelon came before grape, it's be a much better name so I try to piece the two names together and I found out why Grape comes first. The Reason? with watermelon first and grape second, you get Water Ape (like a Sea Monkey) OR (the more popular of the two obviously) WATER RAPE -- I'm sure it is like what Jose did to Io. So I guess they probably won't be putting Water Rape on the nice clean G rated gum wrappers. Too bad. kekeke. Water rape....sounds kinda kinky..... Nehehee~ <---(imitating Anqi's dirty thoughts laugh.) A drop of blood fell on Sunday, April 25, 2004, at 05:16 p.m.. Tarzan is handsom, Tarzan is strong... Yup, didn't win I-Spite-Thee. But after the 1st one, it wasn't about winning anymore. Lately it's just been to force myself to draw one-shots so that my fans don't think I'm TOO lazy. kekeke. Well at least my ploy is working. Look at how many "Other Comics" pages I have compared to GAM! and the quality of the pages are really getter better...it's like DDR! Practice and practice to no avail. Give up. Then suddenly BAM. I'm actually getting 'B's on Standard (actual DDR! XD I'm been playing StepMania lately on my comp, and i end up getting like AAs on Hard and Oni XDDDDD;;;) But it's actually a pretty good reason for drawing. XD since I can't ever do anything without competition. If i'm just playing DDR for fun or practicing, I suck (on Easy). If there's a group of people, then I'm doing a lot better. If I'm just drawing for the hell of it, I get lazy. But if I'm drawing cuz I want to actually creep out TPop then I finish 17 pages of screentoning and rewritings and revisions and new panels in 2 days...The picture of Fio's profile on page 14 of V2 is really beautiful, y'know? I'm proud of it. He looks gorgeous compared to the last time. (i even managed to fit in Heki-kun without anyone noticing. XDDD "Luca" on the last page is actually a new version of Heki-kun.) (It was originally Heki-kun asking Lilith for help to find a murderer/thief.) AQUA songs are REALLY catchy. A lot of them are DDR-type songs. (One of the Mr. RHHS guys used "Roses are Red" which inspired my AQUA downloading spree) One of the songs I heard when I was in 6th grade - "My oh my". I got inspired because of that song for the next I Spite Thee. I can't decide if it should be the Yeo version or random fantasy style. Anyway. I want the prince to be all rich and high class and all, but he steals for the poor. Why? Because he can. And he meets cute little pauper boy (probably the only boy i call cute and little...Kei-kun). Maybe cute pauper will get locked up in the castle? Or maybe he is an angel? I dunno. Throwing out ideas. I'll get all my ideas when I start writing the script. Or maybe I will go back to trying to do my mystery? Where "Hekiru" has to find the murderer of Lucifer. (All my new scripts which don't have character names yet all get nicknamed after GAM characters who they will look/act like. Like the vampire in here is "hye" and the fallen angel is "kei" and the butler and maid are "yeo" and "alucard") Or maybe I will draw system.sc.rew because that's pretty interesting. With boys running around trying to ruin Corporate America...and the corporate slaves sleep with their bosses. Or it will be Heki's version. Oh my gosh, that'd be insanely awesome but scary. especially since I originally made it off the top of my head, but I have the ending of it already. It's muchly sad. Hekiru is basically the narrator though he doesn't have a big part, he's just passively watching as the events happen. Kei's twin brother is deathly ill (because that is what happens in yaoi mangas) and so Kei needs the money (because that happens too) and he has to sell his body for the money (what else did you expect?). The first night he sleeps with a rich corporate slave in a hotel and the guy leaves immediately after, letting Kei stay in the room for the rest of the night. Hye walks in and he takes a strong liking to Kei. And they wander around "NYC" (i haven't fleshed out the middle yet obviously. I never do the middle before the end. That's what happened with Hye Version too) but somewhere in there, Kei accidentally does some shit which gets him in trouble (even though he doesn't know). So Hye kicks him out and forces him on a bus to wherever. Kei's all ;___; because it was too unexpected. And he gets all angry and swears never to fall in love and that greaty angsty yaoi manga stuff....kekeke i can't say anymore because I will spoil it too much and I don't know what I'm going to do with Heki-version yet. Or maybe I will do a shota magical boy thing. XDDDDDD! He will have a cute butler too! okay i gotta do stuff now. Like listen to more aqua on repeat and write script and history homework >__< MAY 7!!!! Enzai came out yesterday i think? A drop of blood fell on Saturday, April 24, 2004, at 08:13 p.m.. Escapades Yup RHHS coffeehouse which was actually pretty interesting. I got a cute hairwrap thing which is (with Gayden's color coordination because i have none) pink, yellow and royale purple with shiny pink, purple and white beads. ^^ Anyway I hanging out for like 10 minutes with Stephy, Mia, Nick (the same one with the black thigh highs at yesterday's Mr. RHHS) and the guy who gave me a ride back from the History Test Review (scroll down or CTRL+F). Kekeke. It was quite interesting conversation. Included random bits like... NICK: Oh! Look! I dropped something! *bends over and shoves butt into crotch of other guy* (naw, he was just demonstrating what to do. XD he didn't drop anything. He did it multiple times.) STEPHY: Yea, I'm gonna go and get wasted now. And I'm going to call you. NICK: To ask for instructions? STEPHY: YES. Will you help me? NICK: Don't worry. Just grab that dangling thing between the legs...well let's hope it's not dangling. And other such things...such as molestation of the gay guy. XD;; we decided that he is a "nice firm A cup." and the history review car guy also grabbed nick's ass multiple times. (Lilian thought that he was nick's boyfriend. kekeke. that's how "bad" it got). Mia and I were enjoying that homo-eroticism muchly. Because we would be nowhere without gay guys. kekeke and good times were had by all. Man. this hairwrap thing sure is cool. *gets smacked with the hair thing* oh and I also decided that Heki-version Kei needs a tattoo. Uh DUH Kei looks different in Heki-version! He is a poor little boy living in NYC who needs to get money for his deathly ill brother. Of course he looks different! They look a lot more gothy. Heki looks completely evil - like he would shoot someone in the head without a second thought. Hye look kinda like they're bored with life. Kei still looks innocent...in a deadly morbid unwashed goth sort of way. I'm getting too into Heki's version... A drop of blood fell on Friday, April 23, 2004, at 11:10 p.m.. ...yayyyy asiannnn yes yes back from mr. rhhs. so here are the hilights that you missed. I'm kidding about the 'theme' it was just funny to put there. PROGRAM BOOK: Reza "Princess Jasmine" Azam - Future aspirations: "To own a chain of 7-11s and start up a Kwik-E-Mart" Stepen Davis - Future Aspirations: "To own Hooters" Nick Guglietta - Something unique about you: "I find Calculus sexy" Jason Mauritz - three words to describe you: "Call me Sally!" Alex Plaxen - (favorite food was originally "Fruitcake") Future Aspirations: "Live in San Franciso, get married in Vermont" Billy Vernon - Entered Mr. RHHS Because; My third cousin's hal brother's grandma is black, making me 1/90th Black. (Ling's note: ...i'm not sure how that applies...but oh well) OPENING DANCE: interesting...but can be summed up in one sentence....guys rolling around on the floor to Madonna's Like a Virgin song..........*random leg sticks up* (oh and some and shimmy real well XD)...oh and 3 way action right in center stage. X3 INTROS: Matt Cox: (theme: red neck/"country") Rode around a mini-red tractor...then lasso-ed what looked to be an inflatable doll with silicon shaped boobs. XD oddly humorous. Dennis Kim: (theme: ambigiously gay duo/superhero) Chic was tied to traintracks and would get run over. Dennis "Yellow Fellow" arrives in that bright orange patrolling uniform and is pushed around on a cart by sidekick Fumi Takahashi (woot). In the end, he runs away. Yay. Asian! (read: yaoi) Alex Plaxen: (theme: gay...and makeover) Queer Eye for the Straight Guy. RHHS style. Immediately thought of "Shounen-ai for the Shounen Guy" skit from Kastu X. Peter Quinn: (theme: comedy central/homophobic and racist river hill) begins with two girls standing on the lunch table. mr. pfeiffer gets up on the table between them and makes them give him a kiss. He then gives them referral. Fumi Takahashi: (theme: iron chef and american idol) XD extra points for playing William Hung's version of "She Bangs!" and beating up Simon. XD...and getting Dennis Kim as Paula Abdul (including a bright green dress) GROUP ACTS The Shockers: Hawaii Shirt Guys v. Biker Guys. Somewhere in there the 2 biker guys surrounded each hawaii shirt guy on both sides and danced him to death...kekeke too close together. And then in the end, they run off with another. One couple comes back out with a picnic basket and blanket, and the other gets a stroller with a baby. Ends with the Full House theme song and everyone hugging. XD The Foreign Four: Random clips from random movies including Mortal Combat, Space Jam, and I'm guessing "Bring It On" since they had pompoms and ness. Involved much stripping from Dennis Kim. Fumi wore like 10 layers....involved random ass-smacking. Diamond Dogs: 4 dancing to Lady Marmalade from Moulin Rouge wearing thigh-highs, high heels, corsets and panties. 1 obviously gay, 1 obviously straight, and two guys who danced really flamboyantly and looked really good. Go Nick and Brendon Dunn. Everyone was talking about how they actually looked like girls today (fri) Cheer Dudes: 4 guys begin off walking onto stage wearing like weird kung-fu looking roby things. Then they strip it off and they're wearing RHHS cheerleading uniforms. Insert random cheerleading-ness. The saddest part: they are better than our junior cheerleaders. (Mr. Beier handed the script to next year's Mr. Atholton High) involved random flipping up of skirts and more ass-smacking The Boy Toys: Action figures (involving a "sally" in leopard print and braids as well ;;;) dancing to randomness...then did the oldschool ribbon thing. kekeke old school. PRESENTATION OF THE ROSE (only involves finalists): (i'm not sure if the girls are really their girlfriends, but since most are not important enough to look up their names, i'll just leave it as "girlfriend") Dennis Kim: Was eating Wendy's at an expensive looking restaurant (with waiter and white dining cloth) with girlfriend. Then he's like "oh wait! I've always wanted to give you something!" and then can't find it and goes "Oh no! If only the Yellow Fellow was here!" and so recorded Yellow Fellow appears and zaps roses to Mr. Dubs and Dennis runs to Mr. Dubs and gets it. Alex Plaxen: Girlfriend (OBVIOUSLY not his girlfriend considering that he is gay) walks on with some guy. Random chic walks by and the guy runs off with the girl. Girlfriend is sad. Alex Plaxen arrives and they do a dance sequence to the song "My Boyfriend is Gay" and in the end Alex pulls the rose out of his tux and gives it to her, along with a shirt that says "I'm not gay, but my boyfriend is." WAITING FOR RESULTS Nick Guglietta: wore a leather jacket while everyone else was in a suit jacket MR RHHS: Brendon Dunn. (extra points for wearing that white see-through corset and thigh-highs). Keke this was obviously abridged since there were some guys who weren't really interesting enough to mention. EDIT: I just found out that the Gay Boyfriend song is by...U--'Ukes of Hazzard'?! O___o;;; I didn't see enough of El Hazzard to know the yaoi pairings in there......;;;;; A drop of blood fell on Thursday, April 22, 2004, at 10:41 p.m.. more da vinci still doing that project. now i'm doing actually doing it. kekeke. I'm writing the biography....actually it's more like plagirism. *shrug* but unless he wants to take the time to type in my entire biography and do a google search i don't think he'll REALLY care. anyway. I found out that after da Vinci went back to Florence in 1500, he entered under the service of the duke of Romagna. Name? Cesare Borgia. Yup. The same Cesare Borgia from Higuri Yuu's Cantarella. Cantarella is really good....well actually...anything by Higuri Yuu is really good. kekekeeee. (und taxis. heart. i like und taxis and ludwig ii pairing actually. even though und taxis was only in about one scene. kekeke) gwar. it's too hot outside... YAY. GOTH FRIDAY2. I got a cool gothy-loli skirt thing. Katou Yue~~~ I really wanna work on his costume, but i have to do a bunch of history stuff (like usual) sighhh back to learning out da vinci and cesare borgia. A drop of blood fell on Thursday, April 22, 2004, at 11:24 a.m.. yay. news time. as always, i am wasting time in vis com (still not working on that project...) So i decided to check the NYTimes headlines. kekeke (i've been so out of the loop lately because this iraqi, terrorism crap is getting old.) yup, still pretty boring. blah blah blah prime minister blahhhhh terrorism blah bush's new plan blah blah. ...there's also a play about some guy talking about his relationship (with an older man of course) when he was 12-15. LING: ";;;; well at least it isn't about iraq." yup yup so i'm sitting here thinking of poor little yeo right now~~and trying to figure out how he will fit into the plot too. And eri/alu's relationship too. I was considering making eri and alu the same person but alu seems too abusive. *shruuuuug* i dunno. XDD maybe i will make different versions of gam? like...HYE'S VERSION: gothy, slutty boys living in american wandering around in snow and then KEI'S VERSION: japanese school boys in an all-boy's school ("rape...violence...a climax of total disorder...") and then ERI'S VERSION: Alice-eri wandering around Wonderland. XDDD YEO'S VERSION: a fantasy story where Hye... ...GODDAMIT YOU ASS!!! PULL THAT GODDAM CHAIR OUTTA MY ARM! IT FUCKIN' HURTS!!!!<--well that's what i would say if i could talk today. anyway. where Hye is the prince of the country, and yeo is the masochistic whipping boy (kekeke)...also includes Hekiru as the merchant (he always gets that type of part. XD he is so money hungry.) and ALU'S VERSION: vampiristic goth band screwing with their fans (in other words: SINS.) kekekekeke tha'd make me happy.....oh? what about hekiru? uhmmmm HEKIRU'S VERSION: NY. drugs, violence, sex and money. (i can see heki-version hye wandering around with a slutty looking Kei holding a gun to some guy owing him money for drugs. <--has included all of the above listed....oh...in New York.) hmm maybe there can be a cosplay version too? Maybe after I create the president of the SGA or USGA in Hye's Version. man hekiru's version is sounding pretty cool now...even though i just made it up off the top of my mind. ..and then Fei is the owner of a bar where Hye frequents...and Hye is a ho so he can sleep with another boss (shit man, just how many bosses have you slept with?! Heki-kun in HYE VERSION, Mr. Sugai in system.sc.rew, Fei in HEKI'S VERSION and probably with Heki-kun again in ALU'S VERSION. The others don't contain bosses XD;;;) And it can be like [KR]Cube where Kyo sits in the middle of a group of crazy looking people in a club and shinya looks like a chic and kills people and Kaoru wears a beaver on his head and Toshiya has poofy hair and Die walks in in a trench coat and shoots Kyo. man...that'd be cool... =3 hmmmm so cool so cool. Heki's version reminds me of [KR]Cube, Kei's of Shiigu Gakari Rika, Alu's can be like Sakai no Chi to Bara, Eri's is Alice in Wonderland obviously, and Yeo's can be like...Shrek or an RPG or something....(i wanna read King & King!!) okay i wasted like half an hour. i'm gonna work on the project now...err try to anyway A drop of blood fell on Wednesday, April 21, 2004, at 11:59 a.m.. summer...cica..das..... arrrrggggghhhhhhh. the people standing next to me were talking about cicadas. cuz you know they're coming this yearrrrrrr. Anqi~~~about when do they come out?! I'm so scared~~~~ CREEPY! I'm going to end up closing all my windows and refusing to go out in the summer. i'm going to become ash pale and just stay inside~~~~I must protect my beautiful costumes ;____; Katou Yue cannot die a 5th time from a big bug!! (yeah, yeah, i'm not sure if it's technically a bug, but you know what i mean.) ;_____; Ludwig II~~~ *tear tear tear tear tear* And leopold and loeb~~~~~~ *heart tear tear* anyway. for my vis com project i have to make a brochure for a museum advertising an exhibit for an artist. being the person i am, i'm doing davinci. I went out and borrowed a book with his bio and arts and stuff from the library and i'm looking through it to decide which ones to scan. XDDD and first of all, his drapery is really nice. XDDDD and also, he's got some really girly guys in there. Like St. John the Baptise. he's got nice curly long hair (riglets curly) with a girly smile, holding a piece of fabric over his chest. First reaction: "hey, that's a nice picture of a...half naked...chic...? O__o;;;;;; it's got no boobs ;;;;;;;;" *sees picture of the same person next to it who isn't talking the fabric so high.* "uhhhh i don't think chics are this flat....." XD he's also got Bacchus who is really girl with ringlet hair too. kekekeke and his angels are pretty too~ especially the one in the Annunciation with that girly hair-piece-halo thing. XD;;; I'm amused....oh. and that genevre picture. That chic only looks like ryna if you zoom in on the face and curls part. the rest of the hair is tied back or something, but it's not curly. that part doesn't look like ryna's hair (and it's too dark too!) okay. stuff ;___; i wanna go to sleep! i'm so tired! A drop of blood fell on Tuesday, April 20, 2004, at 11:11 a.m.. Death Note and GothFriday2 Well Goth Friday2 is this friday. kekeke. I'll probably just shove a piece of fabric through the sewing machine if I have time. XDDDD I don't have anything special this time (unlike my pirate jacket and Kaoru dress). kekeke just throw something together. yay. I've been reading Death Note (scanlated by Orange Tangerine) lately. It's made by the person that drew Hikaru no Go. It's realllllly good and much different than Hikago. Basically this Shinigami drops his Death Note in the Human world and this bishie picks it up. If you write someone's name in the death note, they will die. If you don't write a specific cause within 40 seconds, they die of heart attack. Or you can write a specific cause of death in the next 60 seconds. Then in 6 minutes afterwards, you can write the details of the death (like "draw a symbol" or "write whatever note" or "die 3 seconds after getting off the train") and they can be really really detailed like "hijacks a bus. asks for financial report of space land. Picks up paper. Sees a monster not of this world. Shoots all the bullets at the monster. Runs out into the street. Dies at 11:45" and that's exactly what will happen. It's really really good. But you can only do this if you know the person's name and you know their face. So the main character starts killing off all these criminals, but the police gets suspicious and even though those guys were gonna end up dead anyways (a lot of them were on death row) they start investigating the murderer who has been nicknamed "kira" ("killer"). But you see, the main character is really really smart. In that bus hijacking example, he was able to find out the name of the FBI agent who was trailing him. Then he later goes to the FBI agent in the middle of the street, "demonstrates his ability" by killing some random criminal in the street and says that he is kira. (so in the description, he had to tell the random criminal to go to that street/store at that exact time. And in the FBI agent's death description he told the agent to go to that place at that time so that he could see the death.) and tells the guy to call a lower ranking agent to get the names and pictures of the other FBI agents sent to investigate the Kira case and then write down the names in the cut-out slots. (the paper until the cutout was the DeathNote paper. So it didn't matter that Kira didn't see the faces, because the FBI agent saw the faces) And the FBI agent had to leave the envelope in the train and then get off the train. After he gets off the train, he dies of heart attack 3 seconds later. (Oh yeah, next to each of the empty slot spaces on the deathnote paper, he already wrote that all the agents would receive the FBI personel info and then their death time. So even he wouldn't know the exact order they died in). The really smart guy investigating the Kira Case (he is called "L") then decides that the Kira is most connected to the first guy that got the file. (WRONG! Remember? Raito told Penber to call a lower ranking agent to get the data first!) Wah. I would've never thought of giving the paper to the FBI agent. It's really really good~~~~And Raito ("Kira") looks like Isumi from Hikago...kinda. XD but he's cute anyways! And I really wanna see what L looks like!! five bucks say he's missing a face or something like that. XD (the latest chapter left us with a cliffhanger! The 6 remaining police officers were right in front of L's hotel room!!) Ahhhh and I need more FMA too!!! And and I've been reading a really good webcomic too. "The Rules of Make Believe." It's about this crazy violent VR game. It's really cool~~~. And San is really funny. XDDD he's the random janitor who is always playing chess/checkers with the bald guy (Azman i think he was called?). And when this girl asked him on a date, his reply was that he didn't like women. And the girl asks him if he's gay. XD He tells her that he's gay with the bald guy he plays chess/checkers with. Then the bald guy comes in and beats up San for saying that. XD it's fun fun! And Dusty looks really cool...maybe because she's always half dead and bloodied up? I dunno. It's cool...the artstyle looks kinda Korean to me for some reason. (I'm not sure if the artist is chinese or korean. There's a couple chinese names, and some of the other names sound korean. Y'know, like Min Woo or Jun Jin or Kangta...or Hye Sung XD <--- note: except for Kangta, the others are from Shinhwa XDDDD;; I like their songs "Perfect man" and "Last Zone") XDDDDD Oh, and the Sublunary plot has temporarily ceased for Eekie sex. Ohoh! And I got a pretty art exchange too! Mine is Here. It's of A.Twu's "magic for the masses." The Emperor kinda looks like a bad Johnny Depp rip-off. XD And the one I got was from Fenrir. Here. I really love Eri's hair here. So I've decided that halfway through the story, Eri's getting his hair cut like that. It's a really pretty haircut~~~ He looks SO evil! Like he'll rip out your intestines without a single thought and lick off all the blood! Hye looks like he couldn't care less about you XDDDD that he is far superior than everyone else. And Kei-kun looks like he'll betray Hye at any second. I still have to figure out Alu and Eri's relationship in the new GAM script. Really! Hye's not as bitchy in the new script! And I'm trying to cut out Eri's spazzy-ness so he'll fit into the typical idea of "depression" (he had a manic-depression or bipolar dealie previously. Y'know, with the crazy mood swings.) (Yes, i'm a loser. I actually did a lot of research on the mental conditions of my characters when I was writing the original script. That's why Yeo has so many problems. Because abused shota boys end up with many problems.) O__o;;; I'm not even sure what GAM counts as anymore. It's not "love story" really i don't think. And it had school politics (I am SO including the USGA. Underground Student Government Association.) and mental disorders. I don't think "goth" fits it quite right. Five points to anyone who can find a manga like GAM (that is not listed here). Cut by Touko Kawai <-sp? was a bit like GAM...well until the ending. (Scanlated by Mochi*Mochi. The ending sucked. I don't like it.) And Awakening Puberty (Scanlated by Shi-ran) is kinda close (Especially the 2nd chapter! Where the guy wanted to apologize to his friend for raping him, but he wasn't able to. ahhh that is one of the saddest scenes ever. It's impossible for me to describe why he doesn't apologize. But after writing GAM for so long I can actually understand why. (sad sad sad scene~~~). And there is always Shiigu Gakari Rika. Considered to be the most violent yaoi manga ever. It is one of the main reasons why I wanted to write about school politics. If it's done correctly, school politics can be a lot more interesting. kekeke. Those are the closest three manga I can think of. kekeke. Chin2! (Toshiya and Shinya style.) A drop of blood fell on Monday, April 19, 2004, at 10:22 p.m.. ;__; i don't want to go back~ i don't want to be locked up in that crazy asylum looking place. I want to stay with my gothic porno and sparkly clean fun! (yes! it is very clean! it is not dirty at all!! Kei just walked out of the shower nekkid! HE IS SPARKLY CLEAN!) *sigh* i didn't get to finish that gothic porno because i couldn't find my eraser then i went to nj and couldn't work on my costumes. My cousins, their friend, my sis and I wandered around NYC. (actually they're not cousins. We're not related at all. It's this old joke with Ryna...) We figure if we pooled all our money we could probably buy a shirt there. ;;; I drew Madison! It was a pain because the first picture i googled of him--he had a very girly looking smile. So everytime I tried to draw his goddam lips, he looked like a GAM character. Then i gave him wrinkles so the lips were less obvious. kekekekekeke i didn't do homework. (actually i did but y'know what i mean). i wanted to work really hard on GAM. But then I started completely rewriting the script (I'm not sure the relationship between Alu and Eri anymore. At first Alu was the image of Eri's father and then I changed it so that Alu was Eri's old lover, and then I changed it so that Alu is the illegitamite child of eri's father and so i'm not sure anymore XD). The story is a lot like the original, except Eri isn't as spazzy, Yeo is a lot meaner but fleshed out, Kei is more of a cutey-uke, Hye isn't PMS-ing as much (he has like an unrequited love aura). It's a lot like the GAM script that I began with (back in the day). And I also began writing a Manga-style GAM. kekeke rip-off of Shiigu Gakari Rika. My GAM boys get to wear school boy uniforms and eat bento and stuff (keke). Basically the "king" is the Student Council President, and the "queen" then becomes the vice-president. To become queen is like a beauty contest. Storyline goes like this: Kei is a new student at some randomly created high school (in japan of course! manga style after all). He becomes friends with the boy who sits next to him (...an asian Aaron. keke maybe his name will be something like Yamamura Akira or something XD) and so Aaron explains the school system to him (basically of course). Kei sees the Old Queen walk by with a really angst-y unrequited love look (it's Hye of course!). And right then Kei is like "no way am I becoming Queen. It must really suck." And Aaron explains about how a lot of people want to be part of that group, blah and it is (supposedly) the easiest to become the queen, blah blah. THEN even though Kei doesn't want it, he gets nominated for Queen (because all the cutey-ukes get nominated whether they want to or not) and obviously, he becomes Queen. Poor Kei. i'll type some more later. i'm not tired but i think i should go to sleep. ;__; i can't wake up at 10 anymore...not even at 8! A drop of blood fell on Tuesday, April 13, 2004, at 11:40 p.m.. ......shota dream....... O_____----o I just had the creepiest and weirdest dream. yes, it beats all my other dreams which I thought was weird and creepy. This one is TRULY creepy and weird. i think it's the 2nd part of a 3 part dream (all three parts are unrelated) I forgot most of it, but basically it goes like this. I forgot my chem homework so I needed to go and get it. So I travel across a school (not rhhs or whatever, it's a generic school) and i come across a final stretch of hallway which is enclosed by double doors (y'know, cuz stretches of hallways are always enclosed by double doors.). I can kinda see through the glass window on the door, and i just see that the hallway is dark with a faint glow from the other side. So I go into the hallway and he first thing I see this cute little shota boy running out from the other side looking kinda hysterical. And then....(drumroll..yes, this is when it becomes creepy and weird)....I see.....Mr. Hartlove (O___--o?!) run out after the shota boy. I'm still standing by the doorway...and the weird thing is that, I felt like this was a completely normal situation. So then the shota boy has reached me when Mr. Hartlove grabs him and starts molesting him, putting his hands in erhm...places, and doing other such unspeakable things (unspeakable only because i'm afraid someone will see light of my computer and come into my room). And I'm like "oh! little boy getting molested by older man...uhm, I need my chem homework..." Mr. Hartlove gives me this (weird) look and tells me not to tell anyone (O___---o;;;) So I continue on through the hall. I go through another double door and I end up in the chem room (i don't know how either.) I get my homework and I hear random female teachers talking. I hide behind something because that's what always happens. And so they are talking about Mr. Hartlove molesting little boys. XD;;;; Why there are other teachers at school at midnight, I have no idea. So I go back and go through the hall (they're gone by now) and then somehow I ended up back in my bathroom. I walk out of my bathroom and i'm headed towards my computer when Mr. Hartlove comes running into my room with a laptop. He sits down in my chair and puts his laptop on the desk where my computer moniter was (I moved my moniter to my bedside IRL and in dreamworld) (...i kinda felt like my room...and the whole world was more...hightech somehow....like AR hightech.....i know, creepy) And we talked or somethinng I can't quite remember about what. And I also asked what happens to the shota boy. I can't remember the reply. Probably something typical though. O____---o what a weird dream. I'm not sure why I had this dream...maybe because I re-cleaned my room?? okay. yeah, i'm going to go back to sleep now (since it is like 5:39 real world time. 5:55 Ling time)....... ....that shota boy was really cute though!! :D:D:D getting molested like that...mmmmmmmmmm..... REVELATION (at 6:28 Ling time. 6:12 real) actually this dream might've been inspired by the current arc in Sublunary. With Eekie looking all hysterical....hurry up~~ we all know that talis is a sweetie and won't hurt eekie~~so let's get to the sex already!! A drop of blood fell on Thursday, April 8, 2004, at 05:35 a.m.. kekeke no problem fire! I update my babble just for you! XDDDDD short one though. ladeeda. Yay I was working on my pirate jacket for Pirate Wednesday. Considering I've only worked on it for an hour, I've actually gotten pretty far! I have the front and back sewed together and the collar thing (which is two colors so far XD) needs to be sewed together. yay. That means that if I work really hard, I can probably get Cain done in a day (both jacket and pants together) and get the basic Katou costume (without the accessories) in half a day. I'd probably have to spend one to two days on D. and maybe one day one Kaoru. Guys shouldn't be too hard either considering it is a t-shirt and shorts basically. Hmmmm. I want to watch more FullMetal Alchemist. It's really good. Go anqi! watch it! =3=3=3 it's so cute. XD mimi and i want to cosplay it for next katsucon. XD Mimi wanted to be Ed...and we felt bad for Al so we'll have an empty tin can with his soul-symbol thing drawn in market on the inside. XD We'll even attach a pipecleaner horn. (ARROW: Al was defeated in battle.) =3 poor Tin Can brother! The two of them are so cute and incest-y! even if Al is a tin can...he is a cute tin can! and he's got a cute shota voice too! ("Onii-chan~~!") cute cute shota boy in shape of tin can~~~~~. And I want to watch more Hunter X Hunter <--was reading that as well as FMA. XD I want to coslay that too because I want someone to be Biscuit because the wig will be too funny (the hair she had after she was attacked by Binolt with one chopped-off pigtail) XD you're getting bored on my cosplay talk, i know. but oh well, i was working on cosplay, so there. i should do history or something.....but oh well...later. XD i want to get most of the jacket done today. ..... I hope Eekie is gonna get sexxors soon. He's too cute....with those shorts which just keep on getting shorter to the point where fans refuse to call em shorts anymore. Talis~molesting a cute shota boy! What about Robyn, your resident fuck buddy? <---likes Robyn lots. ....sigh. only 70 some percent of FMA ep.9 downloaded? ;____; i need more! i want to watch it!!!!!! Okay, maybe I will be productive later and write something intresting for you to read, anqi. *pat pat* <---so obsessed with HxH and FMA right now that she hasn't gone on IRC for a while. ohoh! i got new shoes which match my new socks which match my black pants (the one with the peeling red design). It makes me feel like Eri. It is seriously the same shape as all the cheapo shoes I draw XD. I laugh. And I got a shirt which happened to match these pajama pants =3=3=3 I'm matching everywhere! Kinda shocking and humorous. (...the shirt makes me feel like cute Kei for some reason....*shrug*) well hey, the shoes were one the sale rack, and the shirt was one the sale rack, plus the 5 dollar off thing they were having that day. (yeah! 3 dollar some shirt! almost as cheap as the coke shirt!! chinese people. geez. XD <--kidding......) A drop of blood fell on Tuesday, April 6, 2004, at 01:40 p.m.. :D search time! like always, someone will find my website by doing a really random search. (there has been all sort of yaoi searches, sluts, boots, goths, makeup, gay guys, ynm, etc. searches) this time, the most amusing search was: (searched 3 times) anqi fu. XDDDD Are you not proud of yourself, anqi? you are becoming famous! so then i did a search for "anqi fu" and out of the 10 pages i looked on, only two of them were for our yaoimistress. My website and Kathy's xanga. (there was another one where the person's friend's name was also "anqi fu" but they got a D on a test, so it can't be our resident yaoi mistress) Yo-ho yo-ho a pirate's life for me. PIRATE WEDNESDAY. The wednesday we get back from spring break. I'm going to try and re-create my Shroud costume from my Owl jacket and it'll probably work since i still have my collar and cuffs. I'll just pin on some more gold ribbon kyaha. Then after that is movie monster monday, and another goth friday (which is slowly becoming quite popular) (this time i will be in my butler costume and unmotivation skeleton crown.) Spring break is coming up. Yay. Lots of history homework and stuff. But I want to get my Count Cain costume (The gold jacket) done, at least half of my Katou Yue capes, And maybe half of my Kaoru outfit. I will also need to work on my Count D costume....I found a really good costume i want to do! It will probably be really hard. I know that I will be wearing Tsugiri from Alichino to Katsu next year. I will probably be wearing a Guys costume too (Enzai). I really really want to make a Rody (Suiko III), Rin or Ren (Wings Innocent), Might (Silver Chaos), Envy (Full Metal Alchemist) costume sometime too. I'm sure there's a bunch of other costumes I want to make or need to make and I'm leaving them all out. XDDDD But I can't remember right now.... A drop of blood fell on Friday, April 2, 2004, at 12:23 p.m.. yay. kei pr0n. (or not) There would always be a strange melody playing in the middle of the night. Like the sound of a muted orchestra playing for the stars and moon at midnight. It would begin after the twelve chimes of the church bell, and it would finally end just before the horizon glowed red with the oncoming dawn. I don’t know why I choose tonight. The wind blew hard across my face, and I hurried on, following the Midnight Nocturne. Though the winding roads of the night I followed, on towards the awaiting morning light, past the glowing street lamps, Water slipped down strands of hair and fell onto my lashes, blinding me every few seconds. It was raining again and like always, I didn’t have an umbrella. I wish time would stop around us. I never want to grow up. You’re afraid of being alone, aren’t you? I’d die for you. Over and over again, Kei’s voice echoed ceaselessly in my head. He was usually the one who carried the umbrella for me. With that sad smile, he would always be there, waiting for me in a crowd of empty faces. Step. Step. Step. But he wasn’t here today, or yesterday, or the day before. And he probably won’t be here tomorrow either. Stop. I was already standing on my doorstep. I pulled out a key and after a moment, the key slipped into the lock and clicked open. I stepped into the oversized house, water still dripping from my body. And for some reason, the house seemed comforting. Warm. Which was odd because no one should have been in the house. “Master! You’re home!” Sunlight flowed through the thing cotton curtains and warmed my face. I slowly opened my eyes, and as they focused, I watched the child in the mirror staring back at me with sad eyes. A drop of blood fell on Wednesday, March 31, 2004, at 01:28 p.m.. the life and times of... (It's actually the life and times of S.Belmont. CD by Konami Code. XD I heart Jeust Belmont.) Okay. So apparently there's some kid who's liked me for a while. he's a cute blonde sophomore boy. But he always looks happy all the time. five bucks say that if i put him in a catholic school girl uniform and wig, he'll be an Eri clone. oh. but the thing is. I seriously have never seen this kid before a week or two ago. He just comes up to me and is like "hey effey!" (My first though to myself if obvious "he's too cute to be straight. he looks like a cute shota boy." then "who is he?" then "O__O how does he know my name?!") And I learn from Elise later that he likes me. (I'm like "shite! I haven't even met you before!") So i'm really creeped out right now. and apparently he's also becoming very stalker-like and obsessive of me O__O (?! worse than me?!) and it's really scary cuz he really is just like Eri! (maybe not suicidal, but he's overly happy at least!) And and. I didn't even know he existed. Geez. SCHOOL POLITICS! IT BURNS! Yeah, i'm going to go and rewrite the GAM script now. it is missing too much school politics. A drop of blood fell on Tuesday, March 30, 2004, at 09:56 a.m.. >____< I just realized that all these times are INCORRECT!!! >____< it's ac tually 12:27 pm on this clock....i never realized how screwed up the auto clock thing is. grrrrr oh wel uhm....yes. i will attempt to think of something to do in the next 5 seconds so that you can be very amused at my stupidity (*coughcoughANQIcough* *beats up anqi* grrrrr i hate youuuuuuuu. uhm...ladeedaaaaaa. OH OH OH! GUESS WHAT!!! I STARTED TO DRAW ANGEL REVIVAL AGAIN!!!!! yup yup, isn't that amazing? :D:D:D and the first person I drew was tsu-chan! (our lovely power hungry, money greedy main fem chara....who now had a huge huge angel sword to poke angels with. XD) and i actually started with a new script...so now instead of beginning with neji-san going "blah blah blah angst" and yukihoshi-san going "blah blah blah angsty angsty angst blah." now it goes...HINAGESHI: "blah blah blah angggsssssttttttttt blah blah!!" ..... if you have absolutely no clue WTF angel revival is, i think i left the link on the left hand side, so just go on over and look at my horrible art skill that i had in 9th grade (which hasn't gotten much better since then." :D check out my guestbook! now you can insert your favorite main character...and you don't have to type in the http:// anymore......but that means that if you actually do type in the "http://" your website won't work >_____< (anger) okay okay, i' ll stop there. i really really want to write/draw that leopold and loeb comic nowwwwwww~~~~~~ loooooooebbbbbbbb leoppoooolllldddddd......DISCOVERY CHANNELLLLLLLL~~~~~!! *hearts the discovery channel* A drop of blood fell on Friday, March 26, 2004, at 11:42 a.m.. Yo~ ^__^ Time for weekly pitas post! (because anqi tells me to!) NEWS UPDATE: I have officially creeped out dslam with my crazy pikachu, pokemon obsession and Leopold and Loeb (Crime of the century! *heart heart*)... (note: i actually don't have a pokemon obsession XDDD i just got bored and we were drawing crazy things on im) ....anyways....yes. Yay! i failed all of my history tests and stuff...but i got an A on my chem test huzzah! ^0^ and i got a sticket too! ..... LEOPOOOOLD!! and LOOOOEB!! DAMMIT! I typed a fuckin' huge babble about making a comic about those two but the goddam FUCKING escape button is right above the ~ button, so i have accidentally hit the goddam esp button like 7 times now!! SHIT THIS ANGERS ME!! but yeah. Leopold and Loeb~~~ (heart heart heart heart heart) That would make such a great comic....two genius guys believing in the ubermesh (sp?) the superman theory that they are superior and can get away with anything...including murder....with loeb just going along with the plot because he gets sex. <3 okay. before i press the escape button away..... A drop of blood fell on Thursday, March 25, 2004, at 11:14 a.m.. yay! Yup yup! Amazingly enough, update (finally after like a year...) I'm actually kinda working on the next page... Only kinda because i have 1 quiz and 1 exam tomorrow, 1 exam on thursday, debate thing due on thursday, and first part of group project due on friday. just thought you all needed to know. A drop of blood fell on Tuesday, March 23, 2004, at 08:04 a.m.. XDDD *kicks stupid mac* dammit they put a restriction on here so i can't install anything...i can't even change the time >____< (it is very annoying. at least it better than my other computer. it was more than 4 hours fast...O_O) But yes anqi anqi! i found a web irc thing :D:D:D I can actually go on irc now! yay! so if you are ever on irc during 3rd or 4th pd. ...i should do homework or something now. ladeeda. hmm i want to work on my pipecleaner hat. It's got 2 pipecleaner crosses now. One white and one white with black stripe. XD A drop of blood fell on Tuesday, March 16, 2004, at 11:54 a.m.. ladeeda anqii~~~ you need to figure out how to get im on your ipaq or something~~ I'm always sitting in vis com bored outta my mind. i mean -- it's like 3 hours long. i sit there and i check my website for hits. seriously. everyday. (9 today so far). and i also try to check my keenspace logs (which don't really update until I get home XD since it updates at like 10 PST. which is our 1 or so.) and then i check the cosplay.com forums and al's pictures for picturse of mimi, ryna or me. (he has 5 of our apocripha, 4 of my kaoru, and like 2 of neji) It makes me really bored, and i know you're sitting there reading fanfi.....err i mean. educational data about the prehistoric fish "Mikrotroph". *sigh sigh* :D:D.D:D anyways. XDDDD Mastress is my hero! She gets everyone to write her fanfics and draw fanart. XDDDD Apparently Mimi is writing an apo fanfic for her! (and i'm drawing fanart...along with everyone else. XD) (maybe i should help you write that blue ranger comic using stick figures...which would be quite intresting O__O;;;;;) Y'know. I could be inking right now. or trying to fix the design for Carlton's EGA costume, but i'm lazy and i felt like asking you to someone get IM or something. (...yes, i have to adject carlton's ega design because i didn't think that he'd be so light!!!) uh. okay. i think i might have something to do. (yay! coloring >___< geez. using photoshop and paint shop pro 8 is making me forget all my psp7 functions!!!) A drop of blood fell on Wednesday, March 10, 2004, at 11:49 a.m.. TSK TSK TSK! German girl's page Go there. It is one of the WORST DESIGNED pages I have EVER seen. What? Look familiar? Of course not! I feel ASHAMED to have been the one that she ripped off! IT IS THAT BAD! I am really mad that she can't even use a goddamn style sheet (even though it was in my HTML coding already) So I am forced to point out everything. FIRST she still kept the "...Once Upon a Nightmare..." Title at the top of the browser window. You can say that "hey! Once Upon a Nightmare" is a verse in a Black Sabbath lyric, BUT the thing is that there are no ellipses at the beginning and end of the lyric. If you google "...Once Upon a Nightmare..." My website is the only one with the ellipses. VERY STUPID. SECOND: I used a style sheet as the BG. So if you look at my website, the picture goes all the way to the side. BUT she obviously couldn't figure out how to work the Style Sheet so she changed the picture into a JPG and used a "img src" tag, and changed the size as well. Doing this caused a black ring about the picture and the side of the site. VERY UGLY. THIRD: on the topic of that picture. She did not change my HTML source so it is still direct linked to my website for many of the pages (the style sheet still because I used a "style" tag between the header and body). This is the main reason I found her site, because the keenspace logs SHOW ALL. So if I get direct linked, it will appear. VERY STUPID. FOURTH: The font. She changes from an ugly (times new roman) font to my courier gothic font halway through. VERY STUPID. VERY UGLY. She even made a label above my red box in red. HORRIBLY UGLY. FIFTH: The red box. I used a 70 opacity on my box so that you can see right through to the edge of the wing. It's very cool looking. HOWEVER, she took off the opacity, which leaves a BIG RED BOX IN THE CENTER OF THE SCREEN. TERRIBLY UGLY. SIXTH: On the Practicum page, the entire box and title is move to the right. So that the Practicum title is not even centered. VERY UGLY. (this is also in red) I mean...*:~:*|*:~:*Praktikum*:~:*|*:~:* WTF is that?! It takes up half this stupid line! YOU CAN'T FIT SOMETHING THAT LONG AS A TITLE!! Especially not when it's in TIMES NEW ROMAN. AND THEN: -*:~:Eigene Interessen:~:*- and then *~:~*Mein Bild*~:~* Why the hell can't you even keep the same design? SEVENTH: misspellings. A couple are okay...but not if you're using the same formatting. The linking is the same on each page, how can you randomly misspell "Private" as "Privat" if you had BRAINS to do a simple copy and paste from the other pages? STUPID STUPID! Also, keep one format. DO NOT randomly change from Capitalizing the first letter and keeping it lower case. It's JUST RETARDED. EIGHTH: some of her pages are not linked right. Her personal webpage and email are not linked correctly on many of the pages. STUPIDER!! NINTH: On the bottom of the "Mein Bild" part, you can see the keenspace banner. >____< I've been on Keenspace long enough to recognize their banners. This obviously means that SHE CAN'T EVEN COPY AND PASTE CORRECTLY! PAINFULLY STUPID. TENTH: ~:~ That is the cute little design I use for almost all my links on my website. You MUST add a space between the link and the swirly. it keeps an organized symmetrical look. Such as "~:~Mein" no. UGLY. very. much. so. Also, there is "~:~ Die Klasse." You don't need that extra swirly. That swirly isn't for cool looking design. it is to separate my links. The links are also very uneven. like 5 on line one, and one on the second line. This site is just very. very. painful. I can't even do this anymore because my brain is numbing it is so bad. I seriously feel ashamed to have been the one she ripped off because it is just done so badly!! Yup. I wonder if those Germans have a German Honor Society. Cuz this is seriously infringement of Intellectual Property laws. (I wasn't informed of this, I am not mentioned, and neither is my site.) So if you're reading this...if you want to use my site design, please tell me first. If the cause is worthy, I will send you a clean copy of my design and teach you how to use it. And like DSLAM says, "No offense, but this design is more suited for a gay cartoon. Not a resume site." A drop of blood fell on Saturday, February 28, 2004, at 10:20 a.m.. Archives