Monday, May 31, 2004

02:20 a.m.

Words. Contradictions. Irony. Whatever.

I read an entry in a blog, which i came across at random. boy, did it trigger emotions. the things i thought buried so deep inside seeped vividly through my mind and my heart. it's amazing how memories that are long forgotten could catch up with you in just a short moment. and it takes only that much to trigger it.

The power of words.

everything she said sounded so familiar. simple words but they truly came from her heart. for a moment, i could feel the agonizing pain i once felt. for a moment, i feel the loss and emptiness.

but that's in the past, no? time healed the wound and it left a scar that remains. it's time to pick yourself up, hold your head high and move on, with whatever strength that left in you.

contradictions whirl by all the time. you think you don't want something, and then you realise you do indeed have some hidden yearning for it. but then you decide that, it, isn't what you need after all and that for now, you'd be better off without it.

now i know why people question what they really want.

perhaps, we shouldn't get stuck at these unnecessary crossroads in life. perhaps we should just move ahead through the path that's meant for us and, as they always say, go with the flow.

anyhoos, 4s class gathering on saturday was fantabulous.. 'cept for the incident that happened towards the end of the bbq. i'm sincerely hoping for the best for a friend who undoubtedly needs the most support she can get. pics are up and cya'll at the next gathering in one and a half years' time, as promised by pohling.

oh here's something worth pondering on before it slips my mind. i was chatting with weijian earlier on how most girls are touched by the little and simple things. and he said "how can something so complex be moved by something so simple?" now, that's something i never realised but i like that. very rhetorical indeed.

the ironies of life. hurhur.

i'm rolling my eyes.

"Sing the words, a melody and hope that you'll believe me.
Here's another song for you so this one this one makes two.
I still don't know where to begin.
I'll just leave it at this."
- Playing Favourites by The Starting Line

Saturday, May 29, 2004

10:15 a.m.

To a friend.

honestly, i really don't know what's happening. if there's anything in my life that is unsettled, this would be it. i haven't talked to you in the longest time and i don't know why. i assume it was your decision and i respected it. an attempt to maintain the status quo. good or bad? i know not.

I shan't even bother telling you i really care because at the end of the day, i'm just the one who is causing you pain.

if guilt is the response you were hoping for, i must say you've done a pretty decent job.

Friday, May 28, 2004

07:00 a.m.

Healthy. Vitamins. Important.

so i was down with what the doctor jokingly labelled as the 'soccer fever' and that was only because i fell ill after watching the champ league finals. and no, i didnt fall sick because monaco lost. i guess porto deserved their win, since they convincingly beat monaco 3-0. besides, i did get to see mori smile. so that was all that matters. well, the players did play a good game, apart from those few screw-ups that led to porto's goals. they nonetheless continued their undying attempts to score even though they were left with 15 min to the end of the game, with the score 3-0 against them. cheers to the team that didn't win.

and uh.. also to the team that won, of course.

did i mention i felt disgustingly weak yesterday? i bet there's some funny bug floating around these days. well, not literally but you get the idea. or we can all blame it on the weather. everyone seems to be falling sick lately. can't believe my immune system is running low these holidays. been under the weather twice in 3 weeks (eeks!), 2 totally different cases with only fever in common. and never fall asleep with a gastric stricken stomach 'cos you'll only wake up feeling horribly, awfully nauseous.

okay the drowsiness of the medicine is finally sinking in. good morning, world.

Thursday, May 27, 2004

02:12 a.m.

Alias Ends.

and the next season will only be aired in January 2005. what is it now.. May? oh jeez.

seems like all i've been doing is raving on and on abt tv shows. i still don't consider myself a tv addict though. if i had been patiently watching these shows on channel 5, i'm sure my "feedback" wouldn't seem at all that intense, considering it's the holidays now.

caught the season finale of Alias a while ago. there was some closure fused together with a climactic ending. haha. talk about contradictions. i'm kinda glad it wasn't one of those episodes that elicits "explosive" response from viewers (like "oh my GOD, i can't believe it"). it's 2+ in the middle of the night and the last thing i need is to get high and excited over the revelations in Alias.

sigh. what would i do without Alias for 7 months? it's my all time favourite. well, gilmore is too. but you can't compare gilmore and alias, they're from two totally different genre.

oh oh, my hot mocha frothe was so yummy. now i'm wide awake to root for Monaco. or Morientes, rather. i will pathetically settle myself in the sofa outside and watch the Champions League finals all by myself.

sad, isn't it?

okay match is starting. i'm hoping to see smiles on mori's face after the match. wheeee..tata!

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

02:51 p.m.

Dosage of tv shows depleting.

yes, i will eventually die. won't we all?

I just found out that the latest episode of gilmore i watched last week was, apparently, the season finale. it was a good episode but that wasn't how i wanted things to end. i was expecting more. more, more, more! like what's gonna happen next. there's a HUGE question mark. no wait, there're a few huge question marks. well, of course the upside to this is there is definitely gonna be a next season. there'd better be. or else..

so, gilmore's done. friends, done. the oc, done. smallville?

Smallville's done too. caught the last episode last night. i don't think there will be a next season.. i mean, judging by how the ending went, there is no way the story can ever continue its line. i'm so tempted to write a commentary of my own, just for the sake of channeling out whats in my head. after all, this is my space.

but..

i shan't. for the sake of those who're currently following the show on tv. i can only think of one person right now and i know he reads my blog. Robbie, you owe me big time. i can't even go "argh" or "yay". i can't even say i loved or hated the ending. cos anything i say would be a hint.

dammit.

so smallville's done too. there's only one more outlet i can seek enjoyment in. Alias. *drama alert* and guess what? THAT'S GONNA END TOO. i just finished downloading the last episode of the season. no idea if there's gonna be a next season. one more tv episode left. and i'll be left with nothing for the rest of the holidays. i can always watch it now but i shall savour that episode for tonight instead.

i'm real slow at reading Sophie's World. only halfway through the book, after so many days. There's so much philosophy to digest, i must say it wasn't really enjoyable. but because i want to know what happens next, i have to read on. i'm not sure if it's biasness on my part, what with me screwing up my philosophy module, but philosophy isn't at all that great. personally, the things some of them say are gibberish. yes, not all philosophers are nonsensical. but personally, i think people at times question more than they should and make something out of nothing. indeed, ignorance is sometimes bliss.

oh, Polly's birthday pics are finally up, although we had it back in April. was too lazy to load the pics off my cam. :P

"maybe I'm amazed at the way you help me sing my song,
right me when I'm wrong,
maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you."
- 'Maybe I'm Amazed' by Jem

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

02:57 a.m.

Hilarity

My conversation with fir. i really thought the ending was funny.

alatariel says:
man the red coat is gorgeous
Ecalyte says:
ahaha
Ecalyte says:
want it?
alatariel says:
but we dont need coats here
alatariel says:
too hot.
Ecalyte says:
aiya act sat nia
alatariel says:
hahah whats sat nia?
Ecalyte says:
u know what is nia right ?
alatariel says:
no?
Ecalyte says:
like...
Ecalyte says:
nia is like
Ecalyte says:
"only"
Ecalyte says:
like
Ecalyte says:
$10 niaaaa
alatariel says:
ooh
Ecalyte says:
only $10 la no big deal
Ecalyte says:
wah liew, like that niaaa
alatariel says:
and.. sat means...?
alatariel says:
saturday?
alatariel says:
past tense for sit?
Ecalyte says:
sian.
Ecalyte says:
bakero.
Ecalyte says:
act sat.. is to act damn on like that
Ecalyte says:
aiya, hard to explain
alatariel says:
is it pronounced as
alatariel says:
sart
Ecalyte says:
yea
Ecalyte says:
something like that
alatariel says:
and not sat (past tense for sit)
Ecalyte says:
yea
alatariel says:
sat sat
alatariel says:
i know that one
Ecalyte says:
what does it mean then
alatariel says:
heard it in some school cheer
alatariel says:
sat sat!!!
alatariel says:
-_-
Ecalyte says:
AIYA NO LA
Ecalyte says:
different meaning
Ecalyte says:
OMG.
alatariel says:
HAHAHAH
Ecalyte says:
i could slap u right now

Monday, May 24, 2004

02:18 p.m.

There's Something About Anna

woke up at one today. did some laundry and watched some mtv. caught Hanson's "Penny and Me" music video again. oh my, Anna is so hot. yes, to all Anna fans out there (read: the oc), try to catch this music video cos she's lookin real hot there :)

It amazes me how most guys i know are attracted to Anna instead of Marissa (again, read: the oc), what with the latter being the typical, beautiful, long haired, hot-looking brunette. Instead, they prefer the short hair, spunky, free spirited Anna (okay she's blonde, but in this case, i dont think that matters really). she's always so sure of herself and she exudes so much confidence. plus, anna has got great legs. the best legs i've seen so far. to-die-for legs. of course there are exceptions, who think mischa barton is hot. aye, she's beautiful alright but she doesn't have the x-factor like anna does.

Bear in mind, we're talking about actresses here and thus, we could be a lil biased since we're judging them through the characters we see on television.

But if we take the character factor off the picture, Samaire Armstrong a.b.k.a Anna still looks hot.

oh my god.

I think i like her.

"Confidence, Cohen. Confidence." - Anna

Monday, May 24, 2004

12:25 a.m.

It was a Sunday

I watched something this afternoon, something I avoided watching ever since it happened but because my brother persuaded me to see it, i relented. and i really shouldn't have because it left me profoundly disturbed.

i don't wanna not talk about it.

tonight, i ran my usual route but this time, i did it in the opposite direction. it's funny how running different directions on the same route can make you feel different. figured i need that change. getting sick of knowing what's coming up next. it's like knowing what's next when you read out the alphabets from A to Z. but you wouldn't immediately know what's next if you read it backwards from Z to A.

well, at least, i dont. if you do, i'm really happy for you.

did i mention i love my granny? she's sooo funny and she understands my corny remarks and my jokes. there are moments when we look at each other in the eye and we'd burst out laughing. anyhows, had an interesting chat with her this evening. discovered a lot of things, things i never knew. when you think you can't get the girl, skip the mummy, just suck up to her granny. oh boy, i don't think that'll ever work. but i must say it's worth a shot. hurhur.

Listened to Eminem's "Kim", presumably a song about his ex-wife, who cheated on him. man, the way he sang it sounded sooo painful. and the ending was rather disturbing. i think he strangled her. there was this strangling noises made by her. eeks.

"I hate you, I hate you,
I swear to god, I hate you.
Oh my god, I love you."
- "Kim" by Eminem

Sunday, May 23, 2004

02:29 a.m.

Sometimes

Sometimes I feel numb.
Sometimes my limbs move, but they don't feel.
Sometimes I wake up without really realising which side of the bed my head is on. Not that i care.. but then..

Sometimes I drink coffee without really tasting it.. read the news without really understanding it.
Sometimes I look at the time, and I never wonder why it should move so slow.
Sometimes I know it does, and then i'll stop and think.
And then I'll walk away like it wouldn't matter anyway.


Sometimes everything goes on, like nothing ever happens.
If anything does happen, then it's the way it should be.
Then it doesn't matter if anything should happen. So nothing ever happens.
Sometimes I question, but never really wait for an answer.
Sometimes I reply and won't even remember what people asked me.
Sometimes.

Sometimes I'll hear your name.
And for a moment everything'd stay still,
before seconds and space'd seem to swallow me up whole once more.
Sometimes I wish it was for forever.
Sometimes it felt like it was.
Sometimes silence is deafening, but I won't close my ears.
Sometimes memories are like tattered cloths, but I don't throw them away.
Soemtimes feelings seem like past empty echoes, but I hear them anyway.
Sometimes fate seems like a long winded lady, and still I listen.
I listen anyway.

But sometimes..
just sometimes I'll hear from you.
And it's spring again.
And I'd fall all over again.. and again.. and again.. Sometimes.

This poem is written by a good friend of mine, who didn't want his name mentioned. I think it's lovely. I managed to get his permission to put it up on this blog. Thanks, E..!

Saturday, May 22, 2004

03:14 a.m.

DBS shit

i'm upset.

over frivolous things, really. which is why i shant bother blogging them down. and oh, never ever call up the DBS hotline if youre hoping to get hold of the stupid telephone operator. to think they even call it a 24-hr service hotline. service? who the hell calls up the operator at 3am in the morning, up to a point where all the operators are full and unavailable? the least they could do is tell you to call back another time instead of making you wait like a stupid idiot with a phone in the hand.

I was never the one to believe in signs but this time, i can't help but feel that this is a sign nothing's ever gonna fall in place these few weeks.

Somebody prove me wrong.

Or perhaps, i could do it myself. you know, prove myself wrong and all. for starters, i could wake up early tmrw morning and head to the nearest DBS bank.

Yes, that shouldn't be at all difficult.

On a brighter note (and thank god for that), Gilmore Girls ep 22 rocks. i was entertained throughout. yup, every single moment in the show. my eyes were hooked to the screen and i was laughing. only during the funny parts, of course. this episode truly deserves a thumbs up. actually, Gilmore episodes in general deserve two thumbs up, or an applause.. or a standing ovation. yippee. i simply love the script, the show, everything.

oh hell, i should get some sleep. g'night.

Friday, May 21, 2004

02:29 p.m.

I love my sis.

She's an inconsiderate, selfish bitch, period.

Her friends, they're all she cares about. sure, rebels are COOL. not this one. because she's a screwed up rebel, always using crying as her tool to defend herself. when she's obviously in the wrong, she acts as the fucking victim, crying like she's been mistreated by my parents.

i just wish she'd think of the consequences instead of blindly seeking any possible methods just so she could meet her friends. yes, her life revolves around friends. they make her happy.. oh yeah? grow up, lil sista. go get into an accident and see who remains by your side on the hospital bed.

oh, and also see who pays for the hospital bills. and your freaking handphone bills. my poor parents. she's gonna drive them up the wall someday.

oh wait.. i think she already did!

You know i love you. The least you could do is love them. and show me you do because your actions seemingly tell me you just love hurting them.

Friday, May 21, 2004

11:58 a.m.

The Pretty Thongs

waking up from a luxurious 11-hour sleep felt so good. was too tired to blog yesterday, so i read sophie's world instead. ahmad's spoiler kept ringing in my head while i read the book. damn. anyways, spent the whole afternoon yesterday with robbie in town. bought xuewei her kinky gift, something i dont think she'll EVER wear. then again, we'll never find out if she does, yeah? and i didn't have to drag mr poo along to the lingerie section of the dept store, he was definitely willing to tag along. i mean, it's okay, really.. at least, i know he's a perfectly normal, healthy guy. :P

managed to put up the "comments" thing after every entry. so if anyone's not happy with anything i say, feel free to complain. it's your trash can. after all, trashing out can be therapeutic, yah? really, it's never good to bottle things up, people. hahahha. :P

did i mention i caught my dad watching Animes intently on AXN? and it was really hilarious trying to teach him mandarin 2 nights ago. not that i'm any good but he was really trying to learn the very basics, which i'm pretty sure i already mastered :P i really don't know how he's gonna get through his holiday conversational mandarin courses. poor man.

Bittorrent is on a speed high now. woohoo. this is a sign today is gonna be a good day. i've got nothing planned ahead. hmm a book and a cuppa coffee at the cafe would be nice, don't you think?

"Wisest is she who knows she does not know." - Socrates

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

11:30 p.m.

The Boy

Has anyone ever wondered why they call it "running nose"? you might have guessed it right, i am down with an annoying flu. had sore throat last night and a fever this morning but all's better now. so it was just home for me the whole day.

or so i planned.

At 9.30pm sharp, i decided to escape from the stuffy, confined, four walls of the home, by hook or by crook. decided on dropping by the minimart. the 10 min walk to and fro was refreshingly liberating. the fresh air greeted me once i stepped out of the door. it's funny how my nose stopped running once i stepped out, all the way till i get back, when all i could do for most parts of the day was blow my nose with a tissue. sigh. anyways, took my time walking to the mart, browsed through the stuff without the aid of any shopping list, ended up buying me a huge carton of chocolate HL milk (yum) and walked home. because i didn't feel like being cooped-up at home yet, i settled myself on the swing outside.

As i sat alone, something occured to me. at that very moment, i realised i was thought-less. i had no significant thoughts going on in my head. zilch. i can safely say i wasn't thinking at all. it is the very feeling of not having any thoughts in your head (no matter how hard you try to think of something) in a time that is "conducive for reflections". it felt so alien, yet so comforting. for a moment, i felt totally invigorated, i felt at ease with everything. the whole world around me felt unusually light. for a moment, i felt so carefree. it was just me and the night. and the vehicles and the trees and the grass and the stars. and the boy who cycled along the road and captured my eyes. he was cycling all the way with his arms folded across his chest. i could do that last time, but only for a good 20 metres. That boy did it all the way and he did so smoothly and nonchalantly, yet with so much expertise. i wish i could tell him that he made me smile.

"The fair breeze blew, the white foam flew,
The furrow followed free;
We were the first that ever burst
Into that silent sea."
- The Rime of The Ancient Mariner, S.T. Coleridge

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

07:48 p.m.

Enough.

i HATE being home.

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

12:59 a.m.

The Luthers

another episode of smallville just ended. it took me two freaking days to download. bummer. smallville isn't at all great. if you think about it, it's the same story over and over again and i'm referring to the Clark and Lana not-meant-to-be-together love story. it gets annoying. i think what really gets me intently absorbed in the series is the story of the Luthers. it's amazing how father and son is brimmed with nothing but pure hatred for each other. Lex is totally misunderstood by everyone, when all he does is try to do the right thing. There is this talk about having evil in his blood, just because he's a Luther.. that eventually, he will inevitably succumb to evil. as the saying goes, "like father, like son". then again, if anyone had seen his childhood, one would realise that most of the time, Lex is merely an unfortunate victim of circumstances. so the big question is: Is Lex evil? i guess we'll have to see how the show ends, yah.

Did i just type a whole paragraph on Lex? i never knew i was so passionate about him.

muahaha.

Monday, May 17, 2004

10:25 p.m.

The Troy Story

thou shalt not shoot mee..

because Troy was marvellous. it's been hours, yet i'm still overwhelmed by the movie, especially the way Brad Pitt fought. His form was fantastic. He looked SO good with his moves, so.. fluid (quoted from a friend). he's a natural. he even looked good just by staying still while scrutinizing his enemy before charging and executing his brutal yet gracious & controlled motion of strikes and blows. oh. my. god. i dare say he fought better than russell crowe did in Gladiator. or any other actors, for that matter. and needless to say, his body was totally HOT even guys can get turned on. don't get me wrong, i was never really a pitt fan. 'cept for the time when he acted in Meet Joe Black which was, ironically, a movie i did not catch. oh yeah, Eric Bana was really awesome. and poor Orlando Bloom. His shiny reputation built up from the outstading trilogy might possibly be on the verge of being tarnished because of his role in Troy. but oh well, it wasn't that bad. okay, it was but hey let's just close one eye and focus on his very much admired expertise with the bows and arrows, something he should just stick to for the rest of his life. okay, i really hope i won't have any Orlando Bloom fans or family members chancing upon this entry. For what it's worth, i love Legolas in LOTR.

okay, enough of Troy. just make sure you catch it, people. anyways, hung out with ahmad at coffee club.. funny guy but i still think i'm funnier. sorry, dude. ;) haha i can't get anymore self-absorbed now, can i? oh come on, it's the holidays! (???)

okay i think it's a post-dinner thing. one advice -- never ever type an entry after a late dinner, you'll lose all sense of coherence.

"Peace is for the women and the weak." - Agamemnon in Troy

what a bastard.

Monday, May 17, 2004

02:36 a.m.

The Patriot

Meng has a blog now for him to do all his bitching. Why am i not surprised. :p caught The Patriot on channel 5 earlier for a whole 3 hours and read my book during the commercial breaks. how productive. it was, indeed, an attempt to stay away from the laptop as much as i can.. a very sore attempt at trying to make up for my outta-my-mind boring day which was mostly spent facing the laptop. well, i just thought my day had to be spent doing something else as well besides complaining to the poor online victims that i was bored outta my brains. so now, at least there was the tv. and the book. yup.

The Patriot was immensely depressing. sure, the ending was supposedly a happy one but oh, so many died in the story. totally depressing. I ended up sobbing while watching Susan run up to her daddy. man, that was SO sad. now, here's the irony. my sis was in the room at that very moment, crying while watching episode 21 of the oc. the episode where...

haha, thank heavens naj isn't so mean. currently listening to Dishwalla's songs. pretty much downloaded the whole album from meng's lappie many weeks back. Their songs are pretty good, i like. thumbs up. and so is Jem's "Flying High" and "Maybe I'm Amazed". Good stuff, I must say.

i had better sleep soon, for fear of waking up a little too late and leaving poor ahmad in town all alone. haha. Troy tomorrow, i know it's gonna be an awesome movie. Shoot me if i'm wrong.

Good night, world.

"Aim small, miss small." - The Patriot

Sunday, May 16, 2004

03:32 a.m.

Chasing Liberty

just finished watching Chasing Liberty, a movie i'm sure no one has ever heard of, 'cept maybe for my sister. i don't even know if they had it in the cinemas here. geez. well, it's basically just another romance flick. nothing great but yeah, as always, they have this feel-good factor. so yuh. i guess i can be a lil cheesy, watching all these silly romance shows instead of going to catch movies like uh.. Troy, which i will soon. i feel the pull, to watch the movie that is (read: bloom & pitt).

anyways, i think i'm into british actors now. not hugh grant but the new ones, rather. like Luke Mably and uh Matthew Goode (i think he's brit), whose face totally reminded me of Matt Le Blanc..okay now, did i get the spelling right? and the british accent? simply sexy. esp when they go "darrling" haha!

right, i think this entry is one of those "mad-posts".. those that are usually caused by getting stuck in the world of consciousness in the middle of a late night.

perhaps, i should try get to sleep.

and oh before i forget, a friend and i were discussing about pick-up lines last night. and i thought this would make a good one, provided you're at some place with a magnificent view.

"You know, it's not enough just to be a beauty. You have to be able to appreciate beauty too."

and that, i got from the movie.

"The things you're scared of are usually the most worthwhile."
- Chasing Liberty

i kinda like this theory.

Sunday, May 16, 2004

12:19 a.m.

Cookie, anyone?

spending the afternoon and dinner with Hans was great. chatting over coffee at starbucks, filling each other in with all the things that's been happening in our lives, it felt good. boring ol' funny Hans. haahaha. made a mental note to keep in touch with him.. like drag him out for more coffee or something. :P had dinner at Subway. i wish i had those meatballs instead but hey, turkey was pretty good too, so yeah. and right now, i'm craving for subway's oatmeal and white choco chip & macadamia cookies. i hate these midnight food cravings.

i want cookieeeee. where's the cookie monster?

i can't believe i just typed that. it's the hunger's doing, i swear.

I did what i thought i had to, i can only hope it was the right thing to do.

Thursday, May 13, 2004

10:32 p.m.

Just a game?

just met up with Joe at the nearby minimart so he could pass me the oc cds he borrowed. we looked like we were in the middle of some illegal exchange. like porn or something. muahaha. and i found it funny when he said he noticed many guys dancing with their crotch(is there a plural for "crotch"?) forward yesterday at phuture. speaking of phuture, omg the place was freaking crowded yesterday night. perhaps, it's the ntu bash. it felt like being caught up in some battlefield trying to leave the dance floor to visit the ladies. kudos to xuewei, who seemed extremely outta-her-mind high and yet managed to protect us from awful crotch-thrusting guys. like clover said, "she's da man, man." hahaha.

i'm so glad i ran into a couple of old friends last night. glad i got to dance with shuyi, the slammin' lady. she rocks, i love her. and ohh, you'll never guess who i ran into outside zouk. HANS! hansie hans. omg, i was so thrilled to see him there, i realised i miss him so much. so much, i think i hugged him thrice. we're so gonna meet up and do some catching up soon. it's amazing how friendship works. some friends.. you dont even think of them often but when you run into them, you realise how much you miss them.

anyhows, a couple of my friends are kinda into each other right now and they look so totally sweet together. way way way too sweet a few of us are getting diabetes. just by watching the two can make us grin from ear to ear. i guess the horribly mean April Fool's joke we played on some people was somehow a blessing in disguise. ;)

And to Joe, have fun with all the babes in Japan!

"Tears will fall and hearts will break
Love's a game we all must play"
- 'Okay' by Swirl 360

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

12:56 p.m.

Farewell, Friends.

i thought twice about typing this entry. but then i thought, hey this is my space and i shall type whatever i please, even if it's a jeopardy to my pride/ego.

i cried while watching Friends. yep, sobbed like a stupid baby towards the end. sobbed and laughed, that is. that's the amazing part. in the midst of all the emotional hoohaa, you can trust someone to say something stupid or hilarious. laughter in between tears. hahaha. and the returning of keys part was so symbolic. i can't believe it has been 10 long years. Kudos to the team who made the show going. i'll always be amazed at how they managed to twist and turn simple words and expressions and make them objects of hilarity. and it would have never been possible without a cast as brilliant as them. it was so sad seeing some of them cry on stage during the pre-season finale Friends special.

Did i mention i'm finally going back to Eusoff tonight? :) kinda look forward to it, even if it's only for a night. Gonna bunk in Margie and Clover's room, thanks guys!

and lunchie calls.

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"Something is wrong with the left..felangie." - Pheobe
"oh my god, the plane doesn't even have a felangie!" - guy in plane.

Pheobe: What's that smile, did something happen with you two?
Ross: Hey I'm not one to kiss and tell..uh but i'm also not one to have sex and shut up we totally DID IT.
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Wednesday, May 12, 2004

01:50 a.m.

Sometimes, you just have to deal.

i watched "How To Deal" for the second time. such a feel good movie. why can't they have any Macons around here? Sometimes i wonder if being too idealistic will eventually destroy you. Then again, i ain't deluded. I do know what's real and what isn't. Doesn't hurt to feel good, yah?

i might just be talking nuts in the middle of the night.

"maybe being abnormal is what's normal."
- a quote from the movie

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

12:28 p.m.

OC no more.

Finished a whole season of The O.C. thanks for the last episode, Meng. and right now, i'm just waiting for the download of the last episode of Friends to complete. it's the end of the end, man. last episode of the last season. The end. sigh. now i know why meng seemed to be in such a melancholy mood yesterday when we all met up. he probably watched Friends before he came. i have a bad feeling it's gonna be yet another sad ending. and the oc.. i shan't say anything. don't wanna be a prick and provide all the spoilers.

perhaps, i am a tv addict after all.

Sunday, May 9, 2004

06:58 a.m.

Stuck Awake

see, the problem with sleeping early is, I usually end up waking up at an unusual hour. it's freaking 7am and i'm stuck awake. Waking up, my first thought was "i'm a scum". no idea why, really. i don't remember what dream i had or whether i even had any, but my, that must have been some dream. And even weirder was my next immediate thought, Robbie Williams. hahaha. Things can't get any more bizarre. And i shan't even bother pondering why my unconscious state just insulted me.

so here i am, typing away with a horrible ache in the legs, which usually happens at night if i don't cool down properly after an exercise. The odd thing is, i didn't even exercise yesterday. i wish i did, but i didn't. unless you consider walking around town a form of exercise. okay funny thought: Can you imagine someone having to warm up before going out shopping and cooling down after that? hahah! right, okay. i think i'm gettin' delirious. let's not digress, shall we? Back to what i was saying, my legs are aching so bad i mistook it for a stomachache. seriously. well, at least now i know it isn't.

before i forget, Happy Mommy's Day all. I got mine a bouquet of flowers, safely kept in my aunt's fridge upstairs. they look so pretty, thanks to the florist. and it was a man! amazing, isn't it?? ok, forget i said that. let's not be stereotypes, yeah? anyhows, he arranged the roses and the 'baby-flowers' with such expertise and mastery he didn't even look like he was concentrating on the flower arrangement. it almost took my breath away. hahaha. almost.

my goodness, i think i am turning bonkers.

Perhaps, now is a good time to attempt to sleep. and hey, i might even find out why i was being scolded a scum by her. okay, her sounded scary, i wish i hadn't typed that. tsk, these seemingly freudian, psychological conflicts..

okay, let's not go there. just some psychobabble shit.

Saturday, May 8, 2004

01:36 p.m.

Shakespeare Sonnet

"O me! what eyes hath Love put in my head,
Which have no correspondence with true sight;
Or, if they have, where is my judgment fled,
That censures falsely what they see aright?"

Saturday, May 8, 2004

12:04 a.m.

Where's my prince?

my sis is crying on the phone. like sobbing uncontrollably. sobbing and crying.. real hard. and talking at the same time. doesn't sound too good, ay?


on a brighter note, ice-skating Monday! how exciting. i'm kinda looking forward to skating on the ice again. not that i'm any good but i love the feeling of sliding on the ice. let's hope the rink isn't crowded on monday. :P

argh, she's not just sobbing. she's crying. loudly. my ears are starting to feel the irritation from her crying, no kidding.

watched The Prince and Me this afternoon on my lappie. like margie said, the show is simply too good to be true.. and i shan't disagree. Nonetheless, it's heartwarming alright. i was grinning from ear to ear. esp during the discussion on that shakepeare poem. like awww? *bimbo alert* plus, the guy is cute. those eyes and dimples. i could just swoon all day. i think i'm a sucker for Luke Mably. he's cute, he's cute, he's cute. okay, enough said.

i'm a lil excited abt doing fencing next sem. clover said she'll join me. awesome.

earphones! now, why didn't i think of that?

"The sun itself sees not till heaven clears." - William Shakespeare

Friday, May 7, 2004

02:37 a.m.

I hurt you.

I've been a bitch.
Three people.

Perhaps, honesty isn't the best policy after all. And all because I wanted to do the right thing.

Good job, girl.

Thursday, May 6, 2004

04:41 a.m.

Mori rocks.

Cheers to Monaco, they're going to the finals! Nah, i'm not a fan of theirs but i was rooting for them during the match just now against Chelsea. Chelsea scored the first two goals in the first half and Monaco scored a goal in the last few seconds of the first half. The second half saw an unexpected twist of fate for chelsea as two of their goals missed by a margin and my mori scored! fernando morientes, the reason why i stayed up to watch a match i have no vested interest in, has this amazing habit of being in the right place at the right time, as if he has this instinctive ability to place himself at the right spot to receive and ball and smack it in. well, he did miss a few close shots earlier but made up for it in the 2nd half. and his hair is a tad too long. heh :P

and that, ladies and gentlemen, was my commentary.

Good morning.

"The evidence will always speak for itself." - CSI Miami

Wednesday, May 5, 2004

08:04 p.m.

Books and Usher.

just got home from the mall. i finally got this VC Andrew novel i was eyeing yesterday at Kinokuniya. i know VC Andrew's like totally out, i mean, the last time i read her books was in secondary 2. but trust me, this one looks pretty interesting. was tempted to get it from Kino yesterday but didn't. dropped by watson's and got the things i needed. was wondering what to get for my 1 yr old cousin for his birthday tmrw. buying birthday presents can be such a pain. especially when you can't decide what to buy.

now now, i shall stop nagging. in about 15 minutes, i'm going out to run. yeah, baby. burn all the fats out, RUN. oh, did i mention i saw a novel entitled "I am a cat" at Kino yesterday?? How cool is that. it's written by a Japanese author. apparently, the narrator in the book is a cat (surprise!). hahaha. someday, ill get my hands on the book. someday.

did i also mention i hate running?

I have this sudden urge to go clubbing. i think it was Usher's music video. perhaps, next week, ay? this is what holidays make you do. without anything productive to do at home besides reading my novels (go on, call me a loser), holidays spur you on to do things you've never done before, things you never thought of doing. Well perhaps, you have but it's somewhere back in time and somewhere at the back of your head. too minute a detail to be given any attention to. things like.. fencing. yup, i made a resolution this afternoon. next semester, naj is gonna do some fencing. :P i wonder what's next. hmm, how abt kung fu? yeah. kung fu's good. :P

sometimes, i surprise myself. sigh.

oh well, gotta run! (literally)

Wednesday, May 5, 2004

12:47 p.m.

Her Revenge.

okay, this blog if halfway done. frankly, i have no idea what to do with the sidebar. ah well, i'll think of something soon.

anyways, a group of us watched Kill Bill 2 yesterday. 'twas pretty good. entertaining, yup. i just thought Uma Thurman didn't look that good doing those kung fu moves, perhaps, because she looked too skinny. She does good with the sword though. The ten point palm-exploding heart technique was really cool. makes me wonder if it really does exist. you think? now, if it does, that'd be awesome. We can all perfect the technique and perform it on the meanies in the world. muahaha. shoo shoo take the 5 steps and gooo.

i think i'm a little high.

i woke up this morning to the wierd sound of moving chairs upstairs. and the downpour outside, of course. the refreshing feeling of taking a shower together with the cool weather felt so good. for once, it didn't feel humid. and i could almost hear the winds howling from the balcony. sadly, the rain is subsiding right now. please let it not stop raining. this reminds me of the agreement my friends and i had to dance in the rain. hahaha. we never got around to doing that, did we?

oh well, someday.
someday.

"Revenge is a dish best served cold"
- Old Klingon Proverb