Thursday, March 31, 2005

09:28 p.m.

I can only imagine

I happened to chance upon a friend's friendster profile. She was an old friend from Cedar. Not long ago, I found out that her boyfriend passed away sometime late last year and if I'm not mistaken, it was a sudden death. Reading her friendster profile struck me hard. I remember how she referred to him as "my boyfriend" when I talked to her recently and how she nonchalantly said "oh, he passed away last year". She seems okay now but underneath those smiles and laughter, I can only imagine the pain she's going through. I saw photos of them together and it made me imagine what it would be like to be in her shoes.

I would have been devastated. You know, just imagining it is painful enough.

I don't know how she did it but she's amazingly strong. I honestly consider myself to be comparatively stronger than others but if that were to happen to me *touch wood*, I think I would fall apart.

Dear God, please keep my loved ones safe and sound.

Sunday, March 27, 2005

08:19 p.m.

Rolly-polly me.

Since no one else is back in hall yet, i shall whine here.

hey everyone, here's the thing, i am feeling extremely fat and bloated. been munching all day long, one snack after another. oh, i hate these cravings. i look so bloated i'm beginning to think i can't see my waist anymore. =(

i'm definitely not feeling too good about myself right now.

fret not, naj.

once my dinner is digested, i shall embark on the pgp route. besides, i haven't run since thursday night and have been binging ever since. yes, i will go for a run and i will feel a lot better thereafter. all is good..

except for the fact that i can't tie my hair! here's the thing.. i went to rebond my hair yesterday and i believe that, (please correct me if i'm wrong) on top of not being able to wash your hair for two days (that's just.. yikes), one of the cardinal rules of hair rebonding is to avoid tying your hair for a few days.. which means i have to run with my hair all over the place!

okay, that must have sounded somewhat bimbotic. and yes, i rebonded my hair. just typing that out makes me flinch. i kinda told myself in the past that i'd never go for hair rebonding. i mean, why would you want your hair to be stiff straight? it's not very pretty, y'know.

under normal circumstances, i would never go for hair rebonding. but a really bad haircut on wednesday me do it. i shan't go into details on how bad it was. it was so bad i had to make some major reparations to salvage the situation. and that could only be done through straightening my hair. plus, i'm kinda enjoying my stiff straight hair. it falls into place no matter how much i mess it up!

besides, since everyone else is perming their hair these days, i might as well do something different, ay? :P

truth to be told, i don't mind getting my hair permed. but let's not get started with all these hair matters, yeah? i've got other more important matters to attend to, one of which, is my health psych text. to think i just spent 20 minutes typing an entry of frivolous matters. jeez.

okay, gotta run. ciao, all!

Saturday, March 26, 2005

01:14 a.m.

The one with my cousin.

nafis: (to adrian) you're the king of the palace.. i'm the prince.
adrian: ok!
me: then me?
nafis: you're the princess. the prince saves the princess!
adrian: can i save the princess too??
nafis: no! you're the king! you don't save the princess. the prince saves the princess and the prince kiss the princess.
adrian: ...

my poor king. not only did he have to endure my cousin's constant bugging, his princess (that's me! :P ) was stolen as well.

and oh, i didn't really have to babysit for two (refer to previous post). i was dead tired the whole afternoon he had to babysit me instead. sigh. thanks darling.

Thursday, March 24, 2005

04:54 p.m.

msn conversation with liz

liz- feeling schizo. says:
you doing anything?

liz- feeling schizo. says:
i mean this weekend

alatariel - my fireman is so cute. says:
hmm planning to bring my little cousin out tmrw to catch the pooh movie.. other than that, no plans as yet

alatariel - my fireman is so cute. says:
well, except, of course.. revision. hopefully.

liz- feeling schizo. says:
awww so cute!!

liz- feeling schizo. says:
is pillay coming with you? that would mean baby sitting for 2!!

hahaha! well said, liz! couldn't have said it any better ;)

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

12:58 p.m.

Life.

It's funny how things work out. As the saying goes, expect the unexpected. As flawed as it sounds, you gotta go beyond the surface to really understand the meaning of it.

so i'm in love. but we all know shit happens. don't get me wrong. i am really happy and everything's good. but indeed, life has its ups and downs. Figuratively speaking, you just can't prevent the shit from falling. i can't help but recall what Elizabeth Henchard said in 'The Mayor of Casterbridge'.

"And in being forced to class herself among the fortunate she did not cease to wonder at the persistence of the unforeseen, when the one to whom such unbroken tranquillity had been accorded in the adult stage was she whose youth had seemed to teach that happiness was but the occasional episode in a general drama of pain."

do we all have to live life knowing that, inevitably, we would eventually be struck by episodes of pain? and that if it doesn't happen now, it'll happen to us someday? It may sound like a rather depressing and pessimistic view on life but, to some extent, there is truth in it. We know that all too well.

It is without a doubt that things happen for a reason. Perhaps, having a tinge of pessimism amidst the abundance of optimism would do us good. Perhaps, it gets you more prepared to face the trying possibilities of life. Perhaps, i shouldn't even be wasting my precious time thinking about this.

I think I have mentioned this before in an old blog of mine.. that should anything devastating befall me in the future, I will cry, I will falter, I will fall.. but I will also pick myself up and walk on. I will survive.

And to my dearest friend (you know who you are), you're one tough chick and you know it. I'm just a door/call/scream away if you need a friend. Being an ardent Liverpool fan, I'm gonna have to say this to you..

You'll never walk alone.

*hugs*

Sunday, February 27, 2005

02:19 a.m.

Everything seemed so wrong but

You always make things right.

:)

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

01:20 a.m.

Freedom or Contentment

Hello again. It's been a while. IHG's over, 'twas undoubtedly a memorable one.. i shan't say more. Also, Eusoff Hall Dance Production was held last Friday at UCC and that was definitely a blast. click here for pictures!

Now it's back to living the life of a student. No more dancing, no more cheering your hearts out while watching your teammates play sports every evening. Now it's just back to the books and readings. Mid-terms are just around the corner (this Friday, to be exact) and i've only managed to complete one reading. That's pathetic. Plus I've got a presentation and a term paper to complete within the next couple of weeks. It's funny how i tend to blog more at times when i'm supposed to be doing work. but hey, i'm only human and humans do get distracted. plus, i'm assuming humans don't like to study. Hehehe. :P

okay, i just have to blog this down, don't ask why.

***

At BK over dinner. DJ on the radio mentioned something about calling the station should you have any relationship problems.

me: So, do you have any relationship problems?
him: yes. i can't get enough of my girlfriend.

***

Oh, he's just sweet like that. Now back to my readings. Good morrow, all.