i went to pick up heidi yesterday at sc. we came back, got some tea, and went to pekkle's place to play video games~ <3 jack was there, too~ played much puzzle fighter, beatmania, keyboard mania, and finally beat fatal frame! good job, jack! i was actually getting kinda irritated at how he kept pausing every 3 seconds on the last night cuz of new noises or something moving... cuz i was hungry... and i wanted food... or progress made in the game. so yeah. we got food ^_^ was happier then~ made a spontaneous trip to golfland cuz heidi wanted to play air hockey ^^;;; she kicked all three of our asses..;; back to pekkle's we went. and spent the night. it was.... a long night.... and since i didn't want my mom actually calling heidi's house (cuz i told her i'd be there for the night) to "check up on me", i went home around noon to "pick something up" and then went back to pekkle's. more games. food. more games. yeh, we deep-fried our brains this weekend. and i have an art midterm i really need to get my ass moving on.

it's a nice thing to notice that everyday little bits at a time, i'm feeling a little bit more free. what am i talking about, you ask? well... when i like someone, i don't feel too great cuz i have this emotional restraint to someone... i dunno how to put it into words... tonikaku, when i don't like someone, it's great cuz i feel totally free. but ever since i started liking sean, it's like i've been caged up by my feelings for him, and getting sick. i'm getting over him, though. i doubt he cares about how i feel for him, he won't be hurting me anymore. i dunno if he worried about that kinda stuff to begin with... sean, i dunno if you know it, but you've changed a lot since i first met you... sorry things had to turn out this way... i'm totally cool with you, though~ even if it's a one-sided thing.

i'm tired. my eyes hurt. i'm gunna take a shower and work on my midterm. eat. midterm. sleep. class. lunch. class. work. midterm. sleep. midterm. eat. class. work. midterm. midterm due wednesday morning. joy? not really...;;;;; i'm so screwed. sore ja! mirae signing out till next layout!

- dreaming far away

~ Friday, November 15, 2002 ~
~ 9:39 p.m. ~

um... yeah, i won't talk about class. and.. work... i won't talk about that either. as for this weekend, i wonder if i'm supposed to pick heidi up tomorrow? if she wants to come, thas fine. if not, thas ok, too. and sean's coming back, too. i wonder what i'm gunna do ~_~ should work on my art midterm sometime SOON since it's due WEDNESDAY and i haven't done much of it...;;; hauuuuu... and i wonder when pekkle's getting home cuz i wanna play fatal frame but i can't go if he gets home too late. ::haa:: the drawback of having so many guysfriends: there's no way to stay for a video game sleepover. ::sigh:: i'd use a girlfriend's house as a coverup, but dood... my girlfriends are away for school. like... all 4 of them =_=; grr... i made a new oekaki. and updated gallery last night. i wanna make a new pitas layout. i think i'll do that tonight. iei~ tomorrow's saturday~ i get to sleep in~ WOOT!

- dreaming far away

~ Friday, November 15, 2002 ~
~ 12:16 p.m. ~

- dreaming far away

~ Friday, November 15, 2002 ~
~ 11:56 a.m. ~

woot~ sean called last night~ though i have no idea what for o_O; ok.. i think i'll shut up about that now. DOOD! i had the weirdest dream! i was in a hurry walking through a part of this one town, kinda like downtown sf only cleaner and a little more spacious and lots less people, and it was raining like mad but not cold and i was trying to get somewhere when i realized that my hair's gunna look like shit when i get to whereever i'm trying to get to cuz mirae having wet hair is BAD but when i touched it it was dry so i just relaxed and kept going and it seems that jack lives somewhere else now. heh;

- dreaming far away

~ Friday, November 15, 2002 ~
~ 12:15 a.m. ~

What Type Of Anime Character Are You?
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What Kind of Virgin Are You?
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You're ice! You can be very cold and distant and you are NOT a people person. You're pretty mean but you can be nice...to a select few.
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.... put all these together and you get me? o_O; dood, the 1st one is just COINCIDENCE....

- dreaming far away

~ Thursday, November 14, 2002 ~
~ 10:46 p.m. ~

class. the usual. boring. pointless.
work. seems different everyday. everyone was commenting on my haircut. tokiko looked like she was about to hug me or something o_O; tom stared at me for a while and yeah.. later on kept commenting about how grownup i looked...;; i dunno if thas a good or bad thing, though. paul from way back in junior year came to mitsu. it was nice to see him again~ he looked really good... o_O oh yah, people were giving me food here and there o_O tokiko gave me andaagi, chenyi gave me cookie, matt gave me cookie, satoshi gave me this one azuki drink thingie, and OH YAH we have a new worker. ieeeei~

so. after work. was fatal frame time. uh....... i screamed again. cuz i hate it when things pop out at you when you put your flashlight over them. which is why i prefer to be rid of flashlights in dark places. i also hate it when people friggin crawl. people. crawing. NOT COOL! but i think i'm just freaked cuz of pms. more like i'm desparately hoping that's it cuz i don't want to start getting weak cuz of my own stupidity in the subconscious. dammit. guys break me down... but yeah.... more fatal frame tomorrow. ugh...

auntie's staying over tonight~ iei! good timing cuz i'm kinda freaked from the game x_X; i only feel safe in my room... i was getting a drink from the kitchen the night before last and i pretty much just ran back to my room. shut door, and feeling of security kinda took over. ..till i looked over to the base of my bed. pitch black. notorious for things popping out of it. chikushou. so when i was about to go to bed, i literally jumped into it. had.. a pleasant sleep, ironically. heh;

- dreaming far away

~ Thursday, November 14, 2002 ~
~ 1:14 a.m. ~

aiite, so i get outta school and come home since jack was still sleeping. went back out when pekkle got home from school, grabbed some dinner at baja fresh, and then off to jack's to play more fatal frame~ it wasn't AS scary since it was still kinda light out and CS was being played on the computer right next to the tv, but when things got dark, it got bad...;; friggin ghost scared the shit out of my cuz SHE was friggin CRAWLING OUT from UNDER A DECK that i was RUNNING BY, and i got scared so BAD that i actually SCREAMED, THREW the controller down, and SOBBED on the bed. jack seemed amused. pekkle got scared more by my scream than the game. i think. but.... dood, that was NOT cool... i dun enjoy crying from fear =_=# time to go home. 9:30.

on a happier not so creepy note~ oekaki's fun ^_^ i got 2 done today. it'll be in my gallery sometime. too lazy to put it on pitas right now ^^;;;; nde.... i'm hungry, but i can't get food cuz i'm too freaked out to go downstairs right now. yes, definitely pmsing. gimme a couple weeks and i'll be back to my old balls of steel self. ^_^

- dreaming far away

~ Wednesday, November 13, 2002 ~
~ 1:39 p.m. ~

it's cloudy outside. and i'm supposed to go play with jack and pekkle today so i'll just wait till pekkle gets outta school and we'll see what happens from there. expect me to come back tonight a bit shaken up from that godforsaken game =_= in the meantime! i shall do oekaki! XD oh. classes were interesting today. i kinda sorta like how my stillifes are coming out in art. kinda sorta. i can almost feel myself improve. and..... japanese is a bore as usual. there's this guy in there that's pretty intimidating when you first meet him, yah? and he's pretty cold to almost everyone in the class except these 2 kyoudai, and me. talks to me a lot. and... yah... ^^;; he's interesting. i was drawing and telling him about how i slacked off in high school, and he said "oh really?? that would've been interesting to see." why? "cuz i would've liked you back then, too" ...::drawing slows down for a split second:: ....

i wanna go out. oekaki. i'm so screwed for my art midterm. forcing yourself to draw is BAD. BAD BAD BAD. i shall.. go now... ~_~

- dreaming far away

~ Tuesday, November 12, 2002 ~
~ 11:46 p.m. ~

yesh, it's time for a new start, OU! and this hair's also gunna take some getting used to. maa, ikka. yeh, i cut my hair. it was really scary, cuz when i get outta the shower, i ruffle my hair with my towel, and when i did that, it looked like tidus o_O;;; kowakattaaaaa.... so yeah... combs are a very good thing. i'll be bleaching streaks into it later on. dun ask why i did it. it was an impulse thing. i just felt like it. it could be the result of pms. and honestly, no, i can't believe i just chopped off my hair... i hate how it's wavy...;;

on a different note! jack and pekkle called right as they were getting outta the theatre from watching 'ring'. interesting. i'm picked up a few minutes after that call so we could go rerent fatal frame and find out what's in that godforbidden well. i hate wells. since i have no work tomorrow, i shall go with jack and pekkle to try finishing the game. that damn well... jack HAS to know what's in it. =_= che.... i just hope i won't be controlling the whole time ~_~;;;

- dreaming far away

~ Tuesday, November 12, 2002 ~
~ 12:34 a.m. ~

after a looong weekend of much playing, watching different versions of 'ring', playing video games, going to arcades, sleeping, ki ni naruing, and some other stuff, i feel about 50 years older... have no idea what that means, either... i hate wells. and i want a camera, but i don't wany any pictures taken of me. nooo thanks. wow..... i'm really tired... and it's gunna be weird sleeping by myself tonight. nanka iya... since i have class tomorrow, i shall recharge my physical batteries and see if i can get some sleep......

- dreaming far away

~ Monday, November 11, 2002 ~
~ 7:03 p.m. ~

ok, even though i slept around 4 last night, i still managed to wake up around 10:30 and feel perfectly fine. drove sean and dahoon over to golfland, stopped by my house, went back to golfland after stopping by pekkle's, and then it was off to malibu we went. heidi included. we met up with elo and ed and played at the arcade~ oh! and heidi and we went onto the go karts. OMFGITWASSOOOOMUCHFUN!!! O_o i love the turns XD and heidi was screaming and laughing at the same time XD KYAHAHAHAHAHA it was so fun! XD i wanna go back =D played some air hockey and off it was to home. dropped her off at home so she could have her dinner with her mom. i came to pekkle's. now i'm about to go back OUT and pick her up. ~_~;; heh...

- dreaming far away

~ Sunday, November 10, 2002 ~
~ 9:18 p.m. ~

ousu. i'm still in sc. apparently i'm not allowed to come back next month because i'm here right now. whatever. not like i care. just had curry and it was really good, but x_X;;; i'm so full.. can't eat anymore.. hauuuu... nde! i watched ring2 and rasen. those were pretty interesting. and i also got to watch the newer japanese version of ring. iei~ wasn't as scary though. eeetto... didn't really do much today. slept a lot and watched some tv, doodled, and yeah... prolly gunna sleep some more in a bit. must... hanashi suru... i guess i'll hakkiri know by tomorrow. which reminds me, i'm going to malibu o_O;

- dreaming far away

~ Saturday, November 9, 2002 ~
~ 11:13 a.m. ~

long... past coupla days... work yesterday was a pain cuz the phone lines were doing and credit cards wouldn't go through, so for about 5 hours i was telling everyone that got into line that we couldn't take any kind of cards, and... that was annoying. cuz the bitchy ones always got mad at me like it was my fault. oh well... w/e... =_= thank god i'm not working this weekend cuz i heard the lines wouldn't be fixed till SUNDAY EVENING?! O_O yah THAT would be bad x_X;; so i'm quite happy with not having to work there. tehe~

nde... i went to pekkle's house and we (jack, pekkle, and i) played fatal frame for a couple hours. it's a really fun game, only i dunno what i'm supposed to do, so i was just doing what pekkle and jack were telling me to do. and... it's a ghost haunted house freaky game, and the thing that makes it freakier is that it's based on a true story and the house really exists in japan. so there are these ghosts you gotta kill and stuff and.... the fact that one of them is bent over backwards and scary looking and constantly popping up outta nowhere kinda got to me so i spent the night at jack's again x_X;;; hauuuu...... we went to sleep pretty early cuz for some reason, we were both really tired ~_~

i slept really well. until in the middle of the night, a certain someone kinda went ::GLOMP:: onto me. O_o;;; haa??? apparently he was still half asleep and dreaming something, and he thought i was awake. and then a moment later, "...oh shit, did i wake you up??" lol it was kinda weird but i laughed in the morning ^_^

so. i get home around 9something, brother's home, tell him i won't be back till sunday, take a shower, get outta shower, get some stuff, and then drive the freakish drive all the way up to sc. it's pretty cool how the weather cleared up ^_^ unun, quite happy~ so now that sean's outta shower, i go play~ oh yah! i think i might go to watch 8mile tonight! XD iei!!

- dreaming far away

~ Friday, November 8, 2002 ~
~ 1:04 a.m. ~

the power was out at home when i got back from work. it was... REALLY dark. and i kept thinking something was gonna pop out at me from the black.. blackness...;;;; got candles lit and when i went to my room, i tried turning my comp on but it didn't turn out too well since... well.. there was no power x_X;;; so i called jack and he said i could stay over at his place for a bit cuz there's POWER here! XD IEI! since when did i need electricity so much? o_O;;; anyway, here i am. kinda grieveing over the loss of tablet use since i can't use it ;_; but it's still okke~ had dinner so it's all okke! i'm spending the night here since it's lonely at home ._. with no music, no comp, no nothing... and... yah................. MUST FINISH OEKAKI!! O_o

- dreaming far away

~ Wednesday, November 6, 2002 ~
~ 10:39 p.m. ~

died waking up at 7:30, but i managed. i never regret waking up to go to art class, cuz it's always interesting. iei. ortho appt right after that, lunch at home, back to jp class to take quiz, and then free for the day! which i spent going to the beach and then to ucsc. someone was wearing aqua di gio in my art class and i decided '...I'M GOING TO SC' that moment.

kinda sucks how when i got there heidi and sean were more mellow than usual... the last hour of my being there was spent sitting (painfully restless) listening to a business meeting thingie that heidi ryuta and dahoon made me listen to. it was pretty interesting... but there were other ways i would've liked to spend that hour. i'm planning on going back sat and sun. iei for no work on monday.

remember back in september when school started and i was ranting about how 'i'm so happy and content' with life, yah? well... i was. until i started liking someone. a LOT more than i thought i did. and along with it comes the pain loneliness uneasiness and jealousy of koi. it seriously sucks. but yet, when you're with that person, it's sheer bliss. it's frustrating how i can't say he 'belongs to me' cuz he doesn't. damn.

must doodle to vent. oekaki, here i come.

- dreaming far away

~ Wednesday, November 6, 2002 ~
~ 1:03 a.m. ~

ok. finally done with the oekaki that took ALMOST 4 FRIGGIN HOURS and it STILL looks like CRAP but that's OK cuz i DON'T CARE ANYMORE X_X; i rushed the green cuz my hands were seriously about to break. i have much to update on my gallery, which i am doing as i type this. well.. sorta... as for tomorrow, i have a busy morning but after my jp class, i'm home free. no work, WOOT! i'm debating on whether i should go up to sc or watch jack and pekkle play scary video games. both sound quite appealing... i dunno. i'll let spontaneity take over me tomorrow, IEI! ...off to work on gallery!

- dreaming far away

~ Tuesday, November 5, 2002 ~
~ 10:04 a.m. ~

had... quite a crappy night. didn't get to sleep for a bit cuz my aunt was here and i dun like it when people other than a select few are sleeping in here. had weird dreams that kept me feeling funky when i woke up, dun remember what they are now though i remember michelle, heidi, and sean were in them.... and it's cold. why. is it so cold. got class and work today. class and no work tomorrow. shall i oekaki some more? i shall... must catch up to phi and steph... though i bet they're evilly planning to keep going on rampages to keep me from catching up =_= yah love you guys too. tonikaku.. i'm gunna go shower and eat something before i'm off to class. ::haa::

- dreaming far away

~ Monday, November 4, 2002 ~
~ 11:00 p.m. ~

i had the hardest time getting outta bed this morning X_X;; omg..... it was so cold... and i was soooo tired... UGH.. but yeah, i dragged my freezing ass outta bed anyway off to class i went. and... had a grand time? not really.. i was out of it. so i came home to eat lunch, and then go back out to japanese class. came home to get my cell phone since i seem to be forgetting it at home a lot nowadays. wow there must be something wrong with me. GAH! i can't type... anyway yah, when i got home, my grandma, aunt, and uncle were here. o_O;; whoa... that was fast. uncle came from korea. and..... grandma's here. guess what that means? i lose more weight since i can't eat after she goes to sleep. which is usually around 8. or 9. today i got lucky and it was about 10. x_X; weight loss... joy?

work was slow. i was in a good mood for some reason, and it made me even happier when i got off work and ken-kun hooked me up with a planner and erasers ^_^ iei! and even happier yet when sean called right as i was leaving the store XD iei!! got home, and relatives were still here, yah greeted them, and then it was time to eat. and... yeh....

showed my aunt some of my art in my gallery. put up 2 stuff at oekakicentral. and.... now i'm feeling pretty down. i dunno why. i think this is the last dip my pms takes before i go back to normal since yesterday was my last day. too much info, yes, i know. but yah i'm feeling pretty lonely right now. ~_~ hauuu... sean stepped out somewhere, phi's working on her essay, steph's not online, heidi's out with oakes guys, michelle's not online... hauuu... it's times like this i crave tabako. BUT! i won't! >_< must resist!

to go to sc this weekend, or to not go to sc this weekend...

- dreaming far away

~ Sunday, November 3, 2002 ~
~ 10:58 p.m. ~

this weekend was OH SO NICE! first off, MICHELLE CAME HOME XD XD ::spaz:: and heidi was here, too! XD and so was sean!! <3 nde! jack came home this morning, and and and the BEST PART IS I DIDN'T HAVE TO GO TO MITSUWA THIS WEEKEND!! WOOT!! ^______^ nyaa~~ last night heidi, michelle, elo, sean, and i went to watch the ring. and.. dood... it had nice special effects =P heidi was squeezing the life out of peoples' arms like she always does at horror movies =_=; i could feel her jump everytime x_X; and after that, it was us 3 girls at my place, and we were just chillin. till after midnight =_= THAT'S when things started to get... weird. we were all laughing till our faces and stomachs and heads hurt ^^;; it was quite fun. ::crawls around on floor:: hehehehee XD so this morning was quite gruesome for me because i woke up cold yet feeling a bit sticky. that's what happens when you have 3 people in a full size bed and it gets cold at night and you wake up sweating for some reason. yes, it's quite nasty.

us 3 have lunch with jack, and then go to marina so michelle could get some food. ;; off to heidi's house we went. there was a moment of spontaneity and we went to qcup to get a crepe ^^;;;;;; picked up sean, and it was back to sc. ~_~; ::haa:: since i had a less than fulfilling night, i took a short nap. before and after dinner. it was quite nice *_* floated around for a little more and then came home. took about 40 mins. pretty good. i passed by a cop real fast and i didn't realize it was a cop till i was next to it, and there was a moment of panic and i slowed down x_X; thank GOD he/she turned the corner. didn't even seem to notice me. geh......................

so now that i am HOME, i shall... get started on my art midterm and.. eat something...

- dreaming far away

~ Friday, November 1, 2002 ~
~ 11:57 p.m. ~

sure, i may not be feeling very well, but MICHELLE'S HERE SO IT'S ALL CHO BERI GUDDO!! XD XD XD IEIIIIIIII my darling's home ^_^ got off work and went straight over to her house, and when she opened the door, she totally spazzed and there was much laughing and spazzing and glomping involved XD love you too! it's funny, she just grabbed her backpack and we pretty much left right then and there ^^;;; after she said bye to her brother...;; apparently she's spending the night tomorrow night, too o_O IEI! and heidi, too! IEI!!

aahahahhahaha so yeah, we randomly went to the mall (me and michelle) and i was hungry so we went over to the food place, but i realized that my stomach wouldn't hold any food down and michelle wanted icecream but we both had no cash and the atm was being retarded ^^;; so no food... NDEMO we went to the men's macy's on the way back to the car and HAHAHAH they had the aqua di gio cologne from armani XD XD XD it's SEAN! i was hella getting high on it ^^;;; and yeah, sprayed it on the paper they had and i was sniffing it all the way over to the car ^^; michelle was all o_O;; about it. we taped the paper to my face when we got home. ^^;;; nyaaaaaaa~~~ i love that cologne *_*

i was just telling her about a F*CKING SCARY movie clip sean sent me a link to one night, and it's of this one girl crawling out of a tv, yah? nde, michelle was freaking out as i told her about it, and i was looking for the link again cuz i wanted to show it to her, but i couldn't find it x_X; asked elo and ed if they had it but they had no idea what i was talking about ^^;; maa.. ikka.. i'll ask sean for it another time.

JACK'S COMING HOME SUNDAY!! WAHOOOO!! XD XD XD
OEKAKI'S REALLY FUN!! XD XD XD XD
MICHELLE'S HOME!!!! XD XD XD XD
I GET TO SEE SEAN TOMORROW!! XD XD XD XD
HEIDI AND MICHELLE ARE BOTH STAYING OVER TOMORROW NIGHT!! XD
etto... i think thas it..... teaaaaaa *_*

- dreaming far away

~ Thursday, October 31, 2002 ~
~ 9:55 p.m. ~

it's fucking cold. funny how i only realized after a certain piece of information reached me. i'm not happy about it. blanket... blanket... but yes. a "tad" upset. oh well.... the problem will hopefully fix itself. i just finished another oekaki. i think i'll just post it in my gallery later, though...

- dreaming far away

~ Wednesday, October 30, 2002 ~
~ 11:21 p.m. ~

*_* went to sc, had a good time~ heidi and i had another one of those long heart-to-heart talks. it was quite nice. went back inside when it started getting cold though. and i was planning on seeing the sunset at the beach when the time came, but i was playing puzzle fighter so i guess sunset'll have to wait till some other weekend ^^;;; but yeah... i just started my rag today, and my mood was pretty unstable. there goes about 40% of fun potential -_-; but i still had a good time. watching the guys play basketball was really interesting ^_^ made me wanna play.

michelle's coming home friday!!! ieeei!! play all weekend! and you can meet sean ^^ he wants to hang out~ XD and.. and.. see what i mean by unstable moods?? i'm happy all of a sudden. like.. in a GOOD MOOD. o_O; oh yah, i got my oekaki done!

first time on oekaki..; it was pretty fun, though. just playing around with the bbs and stuff. i wanna try the fanart section next *_* phi.. steph.. i love the bggd collab you guys did... ::drool:: can i eat them?? i worship thee... and you got so many comments on it o_O; wow... more fans to add to your list ^_^ ..... ok, i can feel my pms meter rocking back and forth like crazy... i should go before i post depressing crap...;

- dreaming far away

~ Tuesday, October 29, 2002 ~
~ 8:15 p.m. ~

since my brother's using the 56k line, i'm sitting in my dad's at-home office and using his dsl connection~ nice and fast, i like. but it's still not as nice as my own comp cuz the mouse is like dahoon's - too many buttons that are easy to hit on accident. and the keyboard's weird... and the monitor's WAY TOO BIG and everything on it is WAY TOO BIG and it's FRIGGIN BRIGHT and yeah... i dunno what's going on with people at work. they've been weird lately... but since there are certain people FROM work that seem to read this, i shall keep quiet about it... aaaaa chikishouuuuu....

BUT I'M SAFE FOR NOW!!! because i'm going to sc tomorrow! and i have no work! IEI! take refuge from home!! >_< just... gotta make sure my parents never find out about it. i'll just tell them i went to golfland. tehe~ i shall sign up for oekaki. and i shall contact someone who can figure out how to hook up my dsl. yesh. must do that.

- dreaming far away

~ Tuesday, October 29, 2002 ~
~ 1:24 p.m. ~

ooooh lord my jp class is freaky o_o; we had a midterm today and i walked in late so everyone kinda looked up... ok, that's no big deal... i take the test and when i finish, i turn my paper over and the teacher comes and asks if i'm done, and when i say yes, she tells the whole class to flip to the dictation side cuz there's someone ready to go. the class turns and looks at me. whyyyyy?! i never speak in that class unless the teacher calls on me, and that doesn't happen very often x_X; so whyyyyy?? i finished midterm-san in 15 minutes. ...;; that was one weirdass test.

for some reason i woke up early in the morning like... 6something for some reason. went back to sleep, only as soon as i close my eyes, my cell phone rings. but it's not 6something anymore, it's 9something...;; i pick up and it's JACK DARLING!!! ....calling from taiwan on a payphone at 1 in the morning...;; ~_~ thanks for the wakeup call? ^^;; so we talked till his phonecard ran out (15 minutes) and then i went back to sleep... with difficulty, thanks to a CERTAIN SOMEONE -_-; but it's ok ^_^ i'm glad you called, so it's all good~ tehe~

say you'll stay
say you're sure
say my heart was made for yours
let our love lead the way
say you'll stay
say you'll stay

- dreaming far away

~ Monday, October 28, 2002 ~
~ 11:45 p.m. ~

kyahahaha had fun "talking" back and forth through aim with heidi and sean ^_^ and WHAT was UP with that "MIRAE HAD A LITTLE LAMB!!" song?! lol i think you guys were seriously killing the mic ^^;;; and then we started sending songs back and forth ^_^ it was fuuun~~~ that would be the highlight of my day.

nde.... i had art today and getting up in the morning just killed me x_X; went to starbucks before class, and off i went. came home for lunch afterwards and missed japanese cuz i was making food. went to le select for tea and i sat and doodled in satoshi's sketchbook for about an hour cuz he wants me to draw something in it..;; when i got to work, i was half asleep, but i didn't have my coffee cuz i was too lazy to go get it - so i was pretty dead the whole day, even though i felt somewhat sane. tom-boss noticed i wasn't really talking as much, and i think he started to worry cuz DOOD he called my cell phone around 9 to see if i was ok! i know jack doesn't like him very much cuz of various things..;; i dunno if it's normal for your boss to call you so often, man...;; and PLEASE don't say you think he likes me x_X; noooooo thank you! he's cool, i like him, but i think calling at random and giving presents for no reason is... a bit over the line, yah? o_O;

that would be the picture i was talking about earlier when i was saying how i was inspired by hikari. i shall be a "brave child" and redraw it, and color it with COPICS O_O let's hope i don't pass out from the fumes @_x;; WOO!! but yeh... it's a long story behind the leg thing, but to make it short: she wasn't supposed to be wearing clothes and the leg thing.... well... yeah, i think you can guess WHY her legs are positioned the way they are ^^;;;; tonikaku.... yeh...

nyehehe~ sean called me last night to say g'nite~ even though it was like... 1am and i was already sleeping but it made me happy ^_^ NYA! he just called again ^_^ happier~~ aiite... SLEEP! is GOOD!

- dreaming far away

~ Sunday, October 27, 2002 ~
~ 9:50 p.m. ~

tadaima!! just got back from taking sean and ryuta back to sc ^_^ and i stayed for dinner, and DOOD it was hella good *_* no, mom and dad dunno i went all the way over there, but i told them this afternoon i'd be back by 10, and here i am, back by 10, so no complaints ^_^ iei! dood, i'd never been so into a baseball game before. i actually watched part of the world series and o_o; the giants lost 4-1. o_O; poor elo was pretty down about it... sean took it pretty well, i think...;; everyone else was in the kitchen making food ^_^ gochisou! nyuu~~~~~ had a good day. fufufufu ^_^ i feel bad cuz i didn't really help clean up ._. next time i go over, i'll do all the cleaning XD YOSHA, IKUDEEE!!

- dreaming far away

~ Sunday, October 27, 2002 ~
~ 12:56 p.m. ~

nyuu... hasn't been much of a day considering i only woke up about 2 hours ago... took heidi home so she could have lunch with her mom, and i'm expecting her to at least call back so i know what's going on. we're supposed to get pet fish, but i dunno if we'll be able to do it today. plus i dun wanna keep spending money... -_-;; for some reason i went to vallco to kill time. remind me never to go there by myself, cuz it's hella freaky now. there was this guy that kept staring at me and when we passed each other, he said hi o_O; thas... not something that happens to me...; BUT OH! there's this new little store that cells crepes and pearl tea and candy and balloons ^^;; kinda wanna check it out next time. assuming there is a next time -_-; hauuuuuu i wanna see seannnnnn ;_; ok... on with the day....

- dreaming far away

~ Saturday, October 26, 2002 ~
~ 9:36 p.m. ~

WOOT!! good day! yah.. started early cuz i had to go with heidi to get ed's bday present at valley fair, and then we met up with sean at starbucks so we could go to FRISKOOOO! XD getting to elo's place was a piece of cake, so we hung out there for a while, and then went to japantown for lunch and just chillin~ elo took us to the little mini beach that was about 4 blocks away from his house, and man... beaches should always look like that *_* big waves overlapping each other... hauuuu *_*_*_*_*_*_*_* was so prettyyyyy... heidi and i were glomping onto each other nearly half the time ^_^ tanoshikatta~ and so back to elo's place we went! him and sean watched the world series. heidi and i fell asleep since we were tired and baseball games didn't interest us ^_^ it was a nice nap~ so back home we came cuz heidi had business to attend to. nyehe~~ and she's spending the night! XD gotta pick her up after her stuff is taken care of, though...

ah! i got hal's as long as you love me album ^_^ it's quite good. i'll get her other album later *_* nyu~ i'm in quite a good mood~ chocoleeeeto!!! XD KYAHAHAHA!!

- dreaming far away

~ Friday, October 25, 2002 ~
~ 2:21 a.m. ~

i feel oh so productive cuz i took down about half the stuff on my walls and i adjusted the lights so they're working now and my room looks a little less padded-room-like~ iei! it also looks.... smaller ..... for some reason. oh well, thas ok. i was in a calendar frenzy earlier and i'm gunna get the x, chobits, and yami calendars for 2003. byebye next paycheck...;; i think i'll get january's ribon and asuka just for the calendars ^^; lol nde... i wonder if it's just me and mebe my pms is making me overanalyze things a bit much, but i feel like when i start leaning, whatever i'm leaning on starts to push away. iyada naa... i think i'll just sleep on it. things'll be better after i get some sleep, yah? .... hopefully... 'yasumi.

- dreaming far away

~ Thursday, October 24, 2002 ~
~ 7:42 p.m. ~

i am currently eating food a little too fast for my own good, but i don't care because i'm hungry and i haven't eaten all day. my alarm woke me up at 11:30. and that's odd because i'm usually conscious by 10 or so. maa.... ikka..... straighten hair, go to class, get told by someone in there: "i always notice when you're here and when you're not. i never notice anyone else except mebe him, but i always notice you." me: ".... eh ^^;; thanks??" him: "and you look better when you smile" ........................... uh... ok...;; on with the day... i have no idea how many comments i've gotten about my nationality at work. there was this one guy 'are you chinese? japanese? vietnamese? philipino? mexican? ..what are you?' =_=;;; and then there were a handful of other people asking me if i was chinese or japanese...;; korean didn't seem to pop up anywhere in their minds. =_=; i've noticed something though. if i have a can of coffee before i work, i'll be in a fair mood for the day.

i caught myself thinking about saturday's frisko trip a lot. and jack and sean. grr... i can feel myself leaning, though... i just hope i fall soon. =_=; someone's gunna have to catch me when i do. oh yah! i started this drawing in class that was inspired by hikari. i shall scan later. tehe~

- dreaming far away

~ Wednesday, October 23, 2002 ~
~ 3:09 p.m. ~

when you're swaying back and forth, eventually, you'll fall over in one direction, right? hopefully i fall over soon cuz i'm not enjoying having to face that fact that i gotta choose between people... i'm starting to tear up. AUUUGH!! NO!! DOOD!!! PMS! that's the only explanation to this! yeh, i'll give myself till next week to think the little monkey to death and be pulled by 2 different forces -_- and i'll make a decision. can't keep leading on when i'm stuck... deadline: sunday! don't worry, i'm not rushing...

- dreaming far away

~ Wednesday, October 23, 2002 ~
~ 5:19 a.m. ~

yes... it's 5:20am.... and i'm kinda tired but not really. i finally got my new pitas layout done. the outcome was nothing like what i had in mind a couple of days ago, but hey, i kinda like it so it's all good, yah? i have class at 12:30. i gotta be outta the house by 12:15. i gotta be up by 12. this is gunna suck. but yesh... i shall be going to bed soon now that i have accomplished my goal. OMG i still have japanese hw to do and it's due at 12:30. ok.... must work on now x_X;

- dreaming far away