i don't think i'll be making a new layout anytime soon >_< i apologize for the agonizingly boring presentation.
name mirae
alias kanojo, akuma
age 20
bdate march5
ethnicity korean
location ca
email kanojochan@hotmail.com
. . . ARCHIVES . . .
. . . ocha: art gallery . . .
hobbies anime/manga/game, doodle, eat, web design, seasonally cosplay
likes dahoon, RO, sweets, watching water, walking around malls, simpler things in life
dislikes TABS, driving, computer problems, hot weather, drama
food sushi, pasta, korean bbq
drink milk tea, iced mocha, guava nectar
hangouts beaches, cafe's, peoples' houses, parks
anime ayashi no ceres, fruits basket, gto, yami no matsuei
manga yami no matsuei, x/1999, chobits, kamikaze kaitou jeanne
links
aestheticism
clamp-net
html goodies
ichigo music
melon-pan.net
nobuo uematsu
oekaki central
phi bbs
ragnarok online
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note to self: do not have milk tea first thing in the morning. ever. i had this dream that i was 12 and at a camp thing (like ymca) with a bunch of other kids my age, and we were running around when my stomach started hurting. so this one counselor took care of a whining me. he was 24. fast forward to present day, i'm about to move to some far away place, and he shows up at my house while i'm loading the car, telling me that he's been in love with me since that time at the camp. he is 32. /wtf
soooooooooo........ yeah.... i've been watching elfen lied the past couple of days, thanks to cong and zaro~ ehm..... as of episode 10 (out of 13) things are going steadily. it's a good concept, but the plot's kind of weak. and some of the content is.. really disturbing.. and i'm not talking about the flying body parts or the blood (though it did catch me totally off guard at first x_X;). but the cruelty shown.... i swear sometimes i fucking hate humans. after watching for a bit i feel .... not so good... but something makes me want to keep going..... still have yet to give it a rating. i think i'll start watching anime again, seeing as i have 140 gigs to kill. kimi ga nozomu eien, anyone? >D gundam seed/destiny, ah my goddess movie, full metal alchemist, fullmoon wo sagashite, tenjou tenge, and wolf's rain are also part of my list. oh boy... imma need another HD after this... the semester's ending really fast and i'm not ready to leave the bay. i move back down to fullerton on the 18th. i still have really mixed feelings about that. aa.. mebe this anime's not good for me. i'm feeling really emotional..
woke up 8:30, helped mom with a bunch of stuff till 11, headed to LA around 12, lunch and shopping with hoon till 2, left LA around 2:30 for santa clara. i arrived here at 10:30. what.. the hell.... is up with traffic?! it was insane. twice on the 5, traffic was stopped for so long that i just turned off my engine. 8 hours.... for a trip that should have only taken 5..... needless to say, i'm very tired and "somewhat" cranky. it didn't help that when i called dahoon to tell him i got home ok and to talk and play and get un-cranky, he was already at karaoke with a bunch of people. that... didn't feel too happy for me. maa.. at least he's having fun i guess......? still can't get rid of this feeling of frustration. mebe i should just sleep on it.. for i am beyond tired... i HATE. HATE. HATE. holiday traffic. on a lighter note.... iei~ school tomorrow~~ :D and yes, i'm honestly happy about it cuz i get to see my friends~ i love. my computer!!!
i can't believe i'm going home today ;_; i didn't get to spend enough time with my bedddd!!! T_T maa...... i guess it's ok cuz i'll be moving back down in a few weeks anyway.. which..... i'm not too sure whether i'm happy about it or not... so................ i got my new computer on friday night. and you know what? ITSSO SEXAY!!! TT______TT i dun think i'll be getting over it for a long time. i'll rush home just to be with it~ and dust it off~ and all that good stuff <3 now i gotta save up for a new monitor x_X; yesterday i went out with dahoon. anditwaspossiblyoneofthebestdaysi'vehadwithhim!!! you know why?? CUZ HE DROOOVVVEEE!!! XDDDDDD he came to my house, we chilled and played with my computer, went to the mall, went back to LA, meandered around, and then he dropped me back off at home~! he did aaaaallll the driving XD and he's not half bad at it, either X3 it was so great!! XD <3 and i'm also reeeeally looking forward to the snowboarding trip~ 15 people stuck in a 3 room cabin. HAHAHAH it's gunna be good times~ i'm back to smelling like my high school self again. cucumber melon~ *_*
ok so mebe i'm not computerless for the weekend >_>; so i had this dream that i was at a huge community college. i was with ting, irene, and emily? o_O;; long time no see, guys. so anyway, we were chillin when a teacher sends me, irene, and emily on an errand on our way to the next class. we had to get a file from one of the special ed teachers. the hallway down was dark, and there was something slimy on their doors o_O; looked kinda like a basement storage room. the classroom looked like an auditorium. got the file, and i didnt feel like going up the stairs again, so i pulled a lever on the wall that said "pull for elevator". RIIIIIIING!! shit.... that was the sound of the emergency bell. i look at the lever again and the writing says "pull in emergency". =_=;;; so the three of us are laughing and running up the stairs like mad. before we know it, we're on the 8th floor. took a real elevator down, and then went to another auditorium for another class. i had a performance to do with a group and they were about to perform NOW. shit.. we hadn't even practiced it all that much. but it went ok i guess... curtains fell, and class was out. backstage, we had all this stuff to do, so i was going about my own business when this dood grabs my ass and i turn around and smack him. went to another lecture where they showed a video. by the time the class was out, there were only a few people left.. out of like.. 300...;; dahoon called and said he'd come find me there, but he never came ;_; i was afraid that he had run in to some cute girl and gotten distracted with her. i was sad and left. omg...................... why..... do i have.. the katamari nah-nah..... stuck in my head......... WHYYYYYYYY!!!!! since WHEN!! this makes me sad... T_T
hello world, i smell like cucumber melon from bath and body. didn't realize how much i miss the scent. and it takes me back to high school days. good times. CONGRATS MY DARLING DAHOON!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 you can drive legally!! XD and now.... the real fun begins...~~ YOU will be coming to ME for the next YEAR AND HALF!! yes. that is the only way you can make up all my driving to me. you'll love it >D ufu~ <3 ufufufuu~~ <3 OKAERIIIIII to phi~ <3 and i wish everyone a happy thanksgiving ^_____^ ~mirae
man... what a weekend. friday night was great~ good fun, but next time, cindy recommend us something less ghetto :D so after talking about it for god knows how many years, heidi and i finally got to go clubbing together XD good times good times *_* then saturday my computer died. i died with it. it was brought back to life this afternoon. as was i. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU PEKKLE TT_______TT i miss dahoon. a lot. this makes me sad ;_; cuz i miss him a lot lot lot lot more than i normally do. this is not cool. HOWEVER!! i get to see him on tuesday night. for he is coming up with bundy~ and THEN! i shall kidnap him from santa cruz on wednesday and trek back down to socal, where mum awaits thanksgiving togetherness with daughter <3 so much car-riding for hoon.. my poor beibi ;_; i shall be back up in the bay on sunday night. after that... it's killer school schedule.................................
MY GIRLS AND I ARE GOING CLUBBIN TONIIIIIIIGHT~~~!!!! XDDDDD KYAAAAAA KYAAAAAAA~~!!!! aside from that, i had this repeat dream last night that i was on this little fishing boat, and someone on an inner tube was bringing me my swim suit, and he was making his way to the boat. well.. a fish jumped out of the water, flipped him over, and he dropped the stuff he had with him. my swimsuit went to the bottom, which was only like.. 20 feet below or something. i kept swimming into the coral reef around it. i dun remember what happened after that. i remember looking out a big window at a forest or something. and being on a bunch of rocks where waves crashed. hmmm... mebe i'll draw that o_O; fuhehehe X3
i started my rag today. that explains the crappy moods, backaches, and cramps. good times... =_=
so despite a really rough past few days, i'm feelin pretty good right now~ got a commission finished and having fun chatting with my cousin and darling baboon-hoon XD <3 yesterday: jack helped me semi-relive high school days by going to pekkle's with me and we played fatal frame2 on teh xbox. sunday: my cousin came over and we did some catching up while window shopping at the mall XD friday: played with cindy <3 these few hour breaks from feeling like crap got me through the weekend quite nicely. shoulders in pain. massage plz! :D
bleh.....~ zaro got me hooked on to "aishiteruze baby" the other day. iei for binge. now i just gotta get fma somehow... communication. i've been doing a lot recently when it should have been done a looong time ago. stupid me... since my aunt and uncle are back, looks like i can have homecooked meals again ^_^ ieeeiiiii~~ since the food i make is either too bland, too rich, or just plain gross, it's nice to have someone who knows what they're doing make something *_* hearts my aunt!
stuff to look forward to: i love cindy <3 she's mine! MINE!!! >_<
the concept of "family" is dying.
something's wrong with me. lately i've been so tired, like i'm so close to just binging on the fun stuff and dropping everything else. the family crap, distance, drama of other people, or inner conflicts - everything just dropped. i want to vegetate, play pool, go shopping, and chill with old friends. take me away from reality please.... but as tired as i am of all the stuff surrounding me that wears me down, i can't bring myself to turn away from any of it. it's like feeling like you're not getting enough air on a clear cool day, even though you can breathe perfectly fine. it's like a subconscious suffocation that you can feel, but can't really put your finger on. i feel caged....
i'm aliiiiive!!! man..... i swear, no more LA till the semester ends!!! so HOON, IF YOU WANNA SEE ME, YOU BRING YOUR ASS UP -HERE-!!! ............ it was a good trip :D happy belated to my dah~ling~ plz don't die from that cake......;;; i mean you can't even take 5 shots. what makes you think you can hold the cake down??? jk <3 somehow this weekend wasn't as light-hearted as it should have been.. but i think it was good for my mom that i was there. <3 mommy~
i came home from school and found that the dog had puked in various places. my grandpa was apparently quite skeptical about the fact that i made money by selling drawings online. so he had me show him my works. and i demoed how i went about making them on my tablet and stuff. he was impressed :3 and said he'd have to go tell grandma about it, too X3 <3 in other news, i will be heading down to socal again. mom nagged about how it's not healthy for my car. but she knows i'll be going down, whether she likes it or not, so might as well just give in before i decide to stay at a friend's house ::gasp:: or worse, her BOYFRIEND'S house! ::gaasssspp!!:: such a taboo. my brain feels quite fried from studying 2 chapters of geography -_-; this is more like social history or something, man...
i got a 90 on my religion midterm o_o; guessed on a lot of the questions, and didn't even finish the essay o_O;;; it required a deep intellectual analysis about 2-3 pages long on a given prompt. mine was a page and half, and just stopped short in the middle of an idea.....;;;; despite all that, i still got an A. wow.... XD;;;
i forgot to post my wedding pics! and i actually didn't know i'd be getting married that moment, either o_O; it just... happened o_o;; kinda like how me and dahoon just.... happened............ ;;;; /swt2 XD <3 i noticed some people just don't handle stress very well. they lash out at everyone over little things because of this one problem staring at them in the face saying, "DO SOMETHING ABOUT ME" and instead of trying to relax and clearing the mind, they just flip out and people end up getting hurt or upset. doesn't help the situation now does it?? quite saddening, really... lately my dreams are of being in enclosed spaces. the other night i was in a living room full of water and swimming with a bunch of people. it looked like a coral reef. last night i only remember being stuck in a room like a prisoner. myeh... i really like this being home alone thing. it's so quiet with no interruptions or disturbances. doing chores is almost enjoyable.
tszAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!! XD thursday morning: (700am contemplate going to LA for the weekend to see my dahoon, so i text message cindy) --> (morning class) --> ("ok, let's go then. get ready, i'll see you in a few hours") --> (things to do) --> (departure from santa cruz by 4pm)
OMG i missed my bed so much! TTOTT good times indeed. i love last minute trips.
my aunt and uncle are leaving for korea tonight. sfo, here i come.
everytime the fax machine clicks on, i get dced. but that makes no sense cuz the dsl shouldn't take up any phone lines. wadafa.....? dahoon text messaged me and asked me to marry him. on ro. so of course~ :D but i had no idea that it'd be done right then and there. sooo.... the whole guild and other friends missed out on the wedding.....o_O; i got some nice screenies though :O and cong.. zaro.. you guys need to understand that hoon isn't gunna marry you. ever. ever ever. cuz mirae > you. it was then that i got the phone call "we're at the theater" for juon. shit. waaaaaaiiiiiiittt!!! gimme some tiiiiime!! i just got marrieeeeeeeeddd!! TT____TT jack ridicules me. but it's ok. i got my revenge. kinda. i definitely recommend "the grudge". hollywood made the smartest move ever by keeping the original director and 2 main characters. asian horror with hollywood effects. it was great~ tears actually came to my eyes. but the rest of the audience was being fucking stupid, all the girls were screaming at the littlest things. and people wouldn't shut the hell up. gahd. why'd we have to go 2nd night? whyyyyyyy?!??! i am tired. i lack sleep. because last night i partayed till 3-4am and got only 6 hours or so. good times indeed.
so with the homework and test splurges come and gone, mebe i can relax for the weekend.
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