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[ Thursday, June 20, 2002 ] [ 11:35 p.m. ] interesting day. i was napping after i got home from the doctor's appointment, and i reeeally can't take naps here cuz there's always SOMETHING waking me up. parents coming in, dogs fighting with the dog next door, brother and his friends if not the bass on his music... GRAAH!!!!! i was woken up 4 times in 2 hours. pekkle woke me up 3 times today. che. people don't like it when i sleep or something! pekkle called, and then steph called. then off to dinner!
lee, steph, and i went out to dinner at furusato, which was really good, but kinda pricey x_X i remembered that pms totally screws with my appetite and yeah... couldn't eat as much as i normally do, but it was still really good! =D so we dropped steph off after dinner and lee took me to the mall, and we talked while just browsing around. i saw my dear irene there! XD she was there with ting and charlene, but lost them and thas when she found me ^_^ de, afterward, we drove around till we got to the san jose museum of art. my first time there, WOOHOO! but yeah, it was pretty interesting~ =D we both really liked the glass messes hanging from the ceiling ^_^ i want the blue one! we went into the fairmont and lounged there, too~ quite nice XD we were outside on the way to the car, and i got my first real good look at a really tall building while standing at the base of it ^_^ i wanted a camera... but yeah! i go to sf, but when i go, i don't take the time to stand at the very bottom of a building and look straight up =O so it was pretty fun XD god, i sound like a little kid. =_= so yes, it's off to rest for me, now!~
i was sleeping like a rock when my brother came into my room and woke me up at 10:45. "noona, it's 10:45, i have to go to work". needless to say, i was not in the best of moods being woken up that way. even worse, it turns out that he didn't even HAVE work today! that bugged me. =_= i got home and right as i was lying down to relax, i get a phone call. maa, ikka~ i go to lunch with pekkle and then go to my doctors appt.
yes, phi and i are both totally pmsing and it's obvious as hell. =_= she got mad at me last night, though i don't really know why. my hunch is it's cuz i didn't tell her details on plans for later today. =_= maa, ikka. she's gaki. gaki's can be like that. it's the pms i tell you.
my mind's been pretty restless lately. attention span's been shortened a lot lately - must be the lack of school. the past few days went by like forever, but time's still going by friggin fast. i've been slipping into my own world so many times now, and whatever's in front of me kinda disappears and i only see and hear my own thoughts... when i snap out of it, i dun even remember what what going on a moment before so bear with me if you're talking to me and i start to blank out. scattered, disorganized thoughts... wow, sounds kinda like schizophrenia. x_X i'm mentally stable, yes i am.
pmsing. i should be starting my rag reeeeal soon.
howaaaa at lee's house and we're having fun with his tv!! XD steph and phi are here too and we're gunna watch excel saga soon XD ato wa...l i'll go watch ring at home cuz steph's been telling me about it for a while now so i finally rented it spontaneously and i'm gunna watch a horror movie for the first time in a looooong time~~~ and i really like this laptop XD KEEEEEE!!!! lunch was great, too =D the conversation when a bit... o_O;; yeah... not the typical lunchtime conversation. and i was gunna go get cloth for pekkle's aoshi costume, but i didn't have picture reference with me so i couldn't ;_; didn't know what colors to get and stuff, but yeah~ it shouldn't take TOO long ;_; ne? ne?
i like the way lee drives XD sharp turns and high speed on manual~ steph was kinda falling asleep in the back for a bit, but i found it QUITE amusing~ low profile tires...mmm.... =______________=
i had a little chat with mom this afternoon and i feel a little better about telling my dad about college. mom's not pissed that i'm going to de anza, she was actually kinda ok with it. just said that dad might not show he's pissed, just the first thing that would come to his narrow mind is his fuckin ego. dad has a big ego. he's a narcissist, and i'm dead serious. how would he tell his friends that his little princess goes to a community college?? oh no! he raised a failure! i don't care about being called a failure anymore, cuz i know i am. mom said in the traditional korean standards, i'd be the delinquent that never got anywhere in life. i don't care. "anywhere" means doctor or lawyer or one of those well paid people.
::haa:: so it's now father's day. though to me it's still saturday. mom hasn't told dad about the csla thingie. she says i have to tell him myself. mebe i can just go through the motions and when i get that letter of rejection, i'll tell him my grades went down i didn't try cuz i didn't want to go. and to tell the truth, i'm seriously getting more and more content with staying here and just going to deanza and transferring to aisc after i get my units in. it'd save my parents a lot of money, too. and that's my main concern right now, cuz noone really knows how much of a financial hole we're in right now. i'm not about to go into detail, so i'll leave it at that. so... everyone's about to go their own ways now, eh? i've read 2 blogs where people were giving their last words (i dunno how to put it...;;) it's kinda depressing cuz it's like saying goodbye forever. or something like that. and i cringe at the idea. so i'm not write anything to do with that kinda stuff cuz i don't want to say goodbye, and i know i don't have to cuz i'll be going down there whatever chance i get. ....................
and that just hit me kinda hard right now... the reality of how hard seeing each other just might be. but still! it's not like it's forever, so i'm just keeping it at "see you later" with a smile. nakiwarai kamo shiren ga...
pms sucks.
I GRADUATED!!! I'M OUTTA HIGH SCHOOL!!! WOOT!! after much avoiding parents and taking refuge at pekkle's i finally got to graduation and now i'm DONE!! yeah, my parents were there, and my dad didn't really act like he knew about the de anza thing. mebe he did, mebe he didn't. i dunno. my aunt, grandma, grandpa, and brother popped up outta nowhere and all hugged me. i got presents from everyone (minus brother), and after taking pictures for a coupla minutes and hugging some people, i rushed to mv. phi steph kenji chris michelle kevin robert jack abby cyrus wilson kathy lisa jack albert and everyone else were graduating and i wanted to be there to see them! and i saw most of them~ <3 it was cold x_X and i called pekkle out to join me in watching them~ i went to steph's house and her parents took us out to dinner!! XD really good chinese food made french style?? o_O; i dunno, either way, it was really filling and i loved it! XD XD XD i'm doing e-kara with her tomorrow~! <3 <3
as for tonight.. man, i'm tired! X_x running around allll day, going to 2 graduations, dinner, and just having fun the whole time is pretty tiring... so i shall retire to bed now... NITENITE! XD NO MORE HIGH SCHOOL FOR MEEEE!!! wow i feel so grown up ;_;
today was the last day of finals, and at the same time, the last day of school. i went home to grab my cell phone and something to eat when break came along. i told mom i had grad rehearsal and was gunna hang out with friends after that. and that i had something to talk to her about right before grad rehearsal. she figured out something was wrong and i told her that i might not be able to go to csla. as expected, she got pissed and it was more than obvious that i was officially a failure in her eyes cuz as i was leaving, she said something along the lines of "i want you to come home straight after graduation practice! you can't even get into a stupid csu, what makes you think you can go out and play?!" well, what's she gunna do with me at home? make me study? funny. i was driving my way back to school and i started crying. parental pride going down the drain. i had to sit in my car for a bit to calm down even after i parked. i cried again in my 2nd class. finally class ended and i ran into tim and derrick and josh and peter. we finally made it through high school. but i was still feeling pretty shitty from earlier, and i started crying again. tim tried comforting me, "aa, can't show anyone that you cry, eh?? it's ok ::hug::" ..apparently he thought i was crying cuz of graduation and everyone going away. effort appreciated, though... i ended up going out anyway. cosplay with people, and then it was out to dinner and then ak, pekkle, and heidi went to pekkle's to relax for a while. i have library thingies to settle tomorrow before noon. but i dunno what happened to my physics book - i might have to pay a possible $80 fine or i don't get my diploma at grad. shit. i only have $40... i need a bank of tomodachi right about now...
i thought this time of year was supposed to be least stressful. maa, i brought it on myself so i can't complain. i'm gunna read yaoi till i fall asleep, and then i'm gunna try getting my library thingie settled... also gunna go with plans as if i could still go to csla, which means i need to get housing apps in!!! AUGH!!! but parents are taking care of that supposedly, so yeah... i wonder if my dad knows about it yet? i bet anything he's gunna hit me when he finds out. something he hasn't done since i got outta middle school.
ironically, i don't feel euphoric like the song. i have a trig final to study for, i still don't know if i can get into csla, and if i don't, i don't know how i'm gunna tell my parents that i'd like to go to de anza... they're seriously gunna kill me. but then i can tell my mom "i'm not going anywhere so you don't have to hold in all your anger/impatience with me for another year or so". i can tell my dad "you don't have to give me money when i ask for it cuz a failure like me doesn't deserve it". in that case, i guess i can forget about a graduation present. if i go to de anza, the worst situation would be somewhere along the lines of being treated like shit by my parents while i go there and possibly having restrictions put on me. in college. how sad... but then again i'm a sad case of a daughter raised in saratoga by asian parents. i still feel bad for them cuz i didn't grow up to be what they wanted me to be. but going to a community college doesn't mean i'm a complete failure, does it? i can still transfer, and when i do, it'll be straight into aisc after a year or two. hopefully. same thing as transferring from csla, only cheaper? and more convenient? i need more confidence in telling my parents... ::haa:: i enjoyed getting along with mom. i guess it'll be back to fighting like cat and dog again pretty soon.
on a happier note, akg, lisa, and kenji went cosplay shopping~ we got stuff DONE! O_O we were so proud of ourselves cuz we were so productive and kyo's costume is pretty much finished~ kenji left early, and after shopping, us girls headed off to pekkle's house to show him the shirt and bracelet stuff we got him! iei! a bit of driving people around, and the next thing i know, i'm swimming at seven springs with phi and pekkle. he's really pimpin, dood. i have my fabric for kagura. still gotta finish subaru coat and start aoshi costume. ::haa:: majorly pressed for time. as you can imagine, i'm not feeling top condition right now. telling my parents about de anza would lift an unbelievably huge weight off my shoulders, but i think i should wait till at least tomorrow afternoon. right before graduation. but i dunno if that'd be good timing or not. i dunno... doesn't matter cuz either way, they'll be pissed as hell. phi, i think i might get ulcers from stressing about all this crap. might cough up blood. iei.
.......i hate physics. the test went ok, but i still didn't get an A, which is what i need to get a C in the course. as of now, i have a C in psych, C in trig, A in japanese, D in physics, C or D in econ, and B in english. i dun think i'm getting into csla anymore... ;_; i'll prolly end up going to de anza, and that doesn't really bother me cuz i dun wanna go down to la to the point where i'd do anything to go... it's just telling my parents that'll kill me. if they don't kill me first. it's this whole parental pride thing and how they raised me and all that. i feel kinda bad for them cuz i know they tried but they messed up on me. i guess it's common for a lotta families - the first one comes out messed, but the 2nd one's ok. i sense a trend in my friends, too. heidi's an exception. maa, i'm sure i'll do ok in a couple years. right now, i just kinda wanna stay here...
ato... i'm gunna go and swim now. night swimming is a good thing, yah. i'm hearing about an eclipse that went by, but i guess heidi and i slept through it with our what... 4 hour nap? ^^;; wasn't enough for me, though. but heidi DID get me fruit when i wanted it! XD nyahaha manservant~ <3 but yeah... i'm gunna go and swim now~ <3 lift me spirits. yes. byebye.
man, walking around all day isn't the best thing for my mood. but i DID have fun~ i went to frisko! it was akg, plus g's brother, cousin, and heidi and pekkle, too~ solomon and i drove since we had a lot of people, and we headed to japantown~ after that was metreon and union square ^_^ there was various shopping done at random places, like the toy store, playstation store, starbucks;;; heh, it was fun~
so i got home about 30-40 minutes later than expected, but my project group didn't seem to mind too much. we finished the taping in 3 hours, which is pretty good. and then tomorrow it'll be all day studying physics while editing that damn video. x_X it's not gunna be a good day for me. ::haa::
my alarm went off and i was washing up when heidi called. towel, got it. i packed towel, cds, sunblock, pencils, paper, and my usual purse. then it was off to school! ok, it wasn't exciting, but the whole senior class got the panorama pic taken and then some moms from the pta made breakfast! it was really good... lotsa fruit, too! iei! after lounging around for a while, 6 yellow school buses pulled into the parking lot. heidi and i got into the last one. one of the buses stalled on the highway....;; woohoo, santa cruz beach boardwalk! HOW many years has it been since i've gone there?? too many. heidi and i trudged for a while along the beach while the group of 15-20 or so looked for some place to settle down. it got irritating how they couldn't make up their minds. eventually we got a spot waaaay out there, and got sunblock on. me, heidi, and jeff went shopping for swimsuits cuz i wanted a new one. man... those places are expensive. but i got one. more like... 2 pieces of one...;; bikini... bright and dark blue...;;; i felt so naked, but got used to it after a while. the hjm-gumi (heidi-jeff-mirae) went on 3 rides and had a snack or two before we turned back to go to the beach. jeff and i wanted to ride more rides, but oh well... whatever. hjm turned into hjmb (heidi, jeff, mirae, ben) so we got lunch and played volleyball for a while. we all stripped to swimsuits (except heidi who of course, kept her shorts on, but for her, shorts in public are an accomplishment! and 2 piece in public for me is an accomplishment, too!), and played v-ball in burning hot sand. i wasn't too crazy about that part. but then it was all good cuz i raced ben down to the water. which felt REALLY good! jeff and heidi were following, and the four of us swam around and had a good time~ then it was time to go.
we got stuff to munch, and then got on the buses. heidi went off to a concert with jeff while i sat around at home recharging myself. i tried taking a nap but my body wouldn't let me. i dunno why... dinner time! ramen while watching eva. i like that show. tehe~ heidi's coming over in a bit to sleep over. then it's off to sf tomorrow! iei~
i usually don't let dreams get to me. but there are just some things that gotta be more than coincidence. there are the consistent settings, like this one forest type place, a house, and shopping mall... it's like i have my own little world in my mind that's always the same... anyway, that's not the thing that gets to me. the thing that's getting to me is how i've had the same dream for a while now... not every night, but pretty often. it's pitch black around me and totally silent. i don't know if i'm standing or floating, cuz i can't feel myself. my body had gone numb, though it didn't feel weird or anything. and there's someone in front of me. dark pants and white shirt... i don't know who it is, i can't see anything above the chest. don't know a single thing about him/her, except the fact that he/she is really important to me. this person then starts walking away. i can see my hand reaching out and i know i'm crying out to them, but i can't hear myself... and when i reach them, my hand goes right through. the first time i had this dream i tried grabbing the hand, but after that, i always went for the shirt... the even creepier part is sometimes i wake up with my hand out in front of me as if i were really grabbing for something. i even woke up when my hand fell back onto the bed... i'm afraid eventually it'll turn out to be one of those dreams that scare me so much that i cry and fall into a depression for a month... that wouldn't be cool...
i was working on a group project for english, and we went to sanborn park to shoot the film. well... there were hella mosquitos there and i got bit like hell and it was hot and i was hella irritable. i feel bad for my group members. i wasn't in the best of moods today. not to mention there was something up with my phone, so it kept hanging up on steph and philana when they were trying to ask me for cosplay info. really annoying... on a positive note, i got my digicharat coin purse, and took a 1hour nap. iei.
mannn... really nostalgic song x_X; for the past few days i've gone swimming. i must say, i prefer my pool over anyone else's, anyday. especially when that other pool is used by dozens and dozens of other people. it gets warm and like ymca water. NASTY-AS-HELL. but mine's all cool and clean (except for plant stuff floating around randomly), and DEEP. good stuff.. physics is gunna bite my ass on finals. my parents are gunna get pissed at me. let's get off that topic. i met up with jon yesterday and we went to downtown los gatos and took a walk. talking with him is never boring ^_^ the philosophy stuff kinda flew over my head, so we started talking about people and human psychology and stuff. later on we got into the topic of sex o_O;; THAT was interesting. it's funny how i can talk to him sooo freely about pretty much anything. i dunno why, either. not like it's a BAD thing ^_^
tonikaku, it's been a long day, i have senior day tomorrow, senior beach day friday, sf trip saturday, study like hell on sunday, physics final on monday, and after that, it's smooth sailing. damn. i wonder what my econ grade is now that i've missed 2 hw videos and the extra credit video. pekkle, sorry about the sadame thing... i guess it wasn't a good choice of music... (ironically, i'm listening to it right now). ok, sleep. nite.
senior prom last night! XD it was sooo much fun!! though the first half of the day was quite stressful X_x; i woke up at 9:15ish, and realized that i had to do my own hair before anything else cuz i'd have no time later. rush rush, i pulled off a quick semi-lulu style which turned out not too bad. olivia's hair and makeup went smoothly, but ting's hair was IMPOSSIBLE, DOOD!! O_O after spending about 2 hours trying to do something with it, we decided to go to a salon =_=; it was pretty depressing cuz i couldn't do ANYTHING and i KNOW she was getting frustrated as hell. we ended up missing our makeup appointments, but it was all good cuz ting liked her hair and mom managed to do our makeup for us~ XD then it was time for pictures. it was pretty emtpy when kevin and i got there, so we took our pictures and hung out with people for a bit. he took me to starbucks, too~ =D then to gavin's house for the limo which... was cool until i started feeling sick X_x; gavin, ranwei, jeff, jen, tiff, tommy, kevin, and i were all in the back babbling about random stuff. the pier... was windy. and pretty cold, too. x_X; kevin lent me his jacket. we met up with our usual hangout group and checked in. i totally forgot the bid included disposable cameras! XD i was happy cuz i totally forgot to buy one. the boat was a snug fit with everyone inside... dinner was TINY but for some reason it was enough for me. and dessert was GOOD O_O;; raspberry double fudge cake, brownies, cookies, and dood that stuff was really rich! the shirley temples there were hella good, too~ XD the yacht left port at 8something when it was supposed to leave at 7:30, but oh well. noone really noticed =P we were all eating. ^^ the view was hella nice! sunset, city, water...~~ nighttime was clear and you could see the stars and everything! XD cool and windy, but that was a good thing for me ^_^ the dance floor was on the 1st level and hella small. it was made to fit only 50ish people, but about 200 people managed to squeeze in and dance dance dance~ <3 after about an hour and half of straight dancing, it got a tad hot for me so i went outside to cool off. nyehee~~~~~ it was niiiiice~ <3 <3 supposedly cold and windy, but it felt reeeeal good to me~ XD jeff was outside, too, at one point~ we chatted for a bit and it was cool cuz i hadn't talked to him for a long time. dance dance dance la la la la la it was all good and fun when the next thing i know, it's 12:30 and time to dock. i take some last minute pictures with a buncha people, and then met everyone at the limo and let's get back home! we turned off the lights in the back and it was dead silent in there cuz everyone was so tired x_X i fell asleep... we got back around 2ish and i went home. shower. must. shower. feeling. hella. gross. ew. must. get. clean. so i showered, had some food, checked webs, and then went to sleep. i dunno what time... between 3-4? x_X; i was out like a light.
nyeh... i woke up around 12:30ish and heard multiple voices downstairs. i think my aunt's here... there's a feeling tugging at me that says "BE PRODUCTIVE!!!!" and i'm starting to stress about my physics and trig grades, which might keep me from going to csla. ;;; i might have to go to de anza.... and if i do, my parents are gunna kill me. but if i DO go to de anza, mebe i can go straight to aisc after getting enough credits! ....i dunno x_X; I DUN WANNA HAVE TO LIVE HERE ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!! and it's depressing to think about phi and steph moving away, too. whether i stay here or go down to csla, it don't matter, it still depresses me. ::haa:: i want a shirley temple right about now... ;_;
LSAKDFJ;SLDKFJ;ASLDKF;ALSDKFJ;LKSDFJ
that... would be my pms relief for the next few minutes. i wonder if i should go to the barbecue tonight? i wonder if i should get a yearbook? ting's supposed to call so i can do her nails for prom. ...prom.... it's TOMORROW. but it hasn't really sunk in either. hmm... it's gunna be a busy day tomorrow... busy but FUN! i get to dress up. NEHEEEE!! OH YEAH gotta ask mom for picture money, too. x_X
oh. my. god. SO friggin tired and sleepy and hungry.... i took a 1hour nap before i went to irene's house to go swimming. it cooled off by the time 4:30 rolled around. a bit disappointing since i wanted it to be hot for swimming, but it still felt good~ i hadn't gone into a pool for a long time x_X hisashiburiiii... phi and steph were having some communication problems getting steph home, and i was the middlewoman. x_X; that was....interesting. phi's pissed and steph's prolly scared right about now. as for me, i don't really care, i just wanna eat something and go to SLEEP. but i gotta shower before i do either of those. ::haa::
prom is in 2 days. it's not sinking in for me yet. it's on a saturday and i can't sleep in cuz i gotta do olivia's hair, makeup, and then ting's hair after that. then it's tons of other things x_X tehe~ this is gunna be fun ^_^
it was HOT today. heidi came over to watch furuba, and phi came to do hw. we were eating some food earlier and since phi and i are both pmsing and it's hot and we're tired and stressed and hungry and sweaty and irritable as HELL, ::inhale:: .. we were biting each other's heads off.
heidi and i got a good laugh outta that. so we sat in my room for the rest of the afternoon/evening and yeah... heidi watched furuba, phi wrote her journals, i drew. it was hot. we are now lounging around my room eating. my brain's screwing over on me again. joy...
dood, i just spent the past half our or so doing my math homework! i have 5 packets to do and they're due thurs morning, and i have 2.7 more to go. that means the 2 i finished took about 15 mins each, but it felt like a lot longer than that. crap, if life continues like this, i'll feel 40 by the time graduation comes around. it turns out that i WAS pmsing this week. that would be the reason for why i've been upset/confused/in denial about something. irritability levels were really unstable, too. now that my rag started this evening, i'm starting to get backaches. this sucks. yesterday i spent a few hours with steph, and we went to get icecream and then valley fair, where she bought some shirts. then i went to phi's cuz she was feeling lonely and had some sketches to do and needed to go somewhere to do them. we went to fantasia and then sat at the starbucks in barnes & nobles. oh yes, we had a nice chat. she got mad at me, and i confessed how she's pretty much the only person i'm afraid of. funny how... when she got mad at me, i didn't get scared... maa, ikka. we had an interesting time getting back into her house. once we did, we played doa3 on her brother's xbox~ THAT was fun, even though i suck at that game =_=; i sucked even more today. speaking of today, it was just a blur of gaming at kenji's, lunch at kfc, browsing at eastridge, and lounging at phi's. we ended up going home around 7something. and pekkle got yelled at cuz he got home so late on a schoolnight. i feel bad cuz i'm the one that kept him at phi's, and it seems that i'm always keeping him out late and getting him into trouble. i don't think his parents have a very good impression of me, which makes it kinda scary to call his house. if things keep up like this, the safest thing to do would prolly be talking online and not actually hang out... that makes cosplaying a bit difficult... ::haa::
i'm stressed. all of you can expect me to be sick to some degree within the next week or so.
aaa, the beauty of spontaneousness! heidi came over last night after leaving pekkle's house from dinner~ welllll around 10:30 i decided i was REALLY bored and wanted to go to the movies, and wanted to see insomnia. heidi totally jumped with the idea and we dashed outta the house to go pick pekkle up. it turns out that my spontaneous idea to go to the movies came about 10 minutes later than preferred, cuz the only movie we could catch was at 12:50 at the mercado o_O; so we hung around for a while, and pekkle got into a little predicament with his mom so we had to go to to jack's house to clear stuff up x_X; we hung around there for a while, where i ended up falling asleep again... i didn't think that morning would've affected me so much x_X; anyway, the heidi-pekkle-mirae gumi went to the mercado. it was a long movie even though it was only 2 hours. the hpm (heidi-pekkle-mirae) gumi then all went to mirae's house and went straight into the kitchen for ramen. at 3:30am. i was feeling a bit outta sorts and all kinda thoughts were going through my head... i think i'm pmsing. i must be. my emotions are going on a roller coaster again. so hpm gumi talked till about 5. and woke up around 10-11ish? i kept waking up during the night.
now that i am extremely bored at this moment, i am desparate to go out somewhere and have fun. going to eastridge tomorrow, but nothing to do todaaaaay =_=!
my phone woke me up. it was pekkle and he called to check up on me. ^_^ how sweet~ and then the doorbell rang a while later. uhhhh... heidi and pekkle were at the door and i was in my robe o_O;; so i got dressed and we hung around for a while. phi called my cell later in the day and she whined to go out somewhere and we picked her up. pekkle's mom and sister made meat loaf and veges and it was really good~ XD i got my ass whooped in capcom vs snk cuz pekkle's.. kinda good...;; and sometimes cheap! =_= but yeah..
makes me happy to know my friends care enough to come see me when i'm not uhhhhhhh myself? ^^;;; tonikaku ureshii~ <3
what a shitty way to start the day...
 Fuuma/Subaru -- Twisted! Very twisted! A beautiful couple, but usually involves no love, even less tenderness, great sex, and a lot of arguing. Which X Pairing Are You? ....interesting. work was waaaay too long. too many people forgetting their stuff and running back to get it last minute, too many people forgetting their money so they have to run off to find their friend bank, too many people behind those forgetful people and getting mad at ME for it, too many PEOPLE!! i don't like customers. most of them treat cashiers like $#!t. oh well. i'm only putting up with it once a week, so it's not all that bad. i think i might also work at utsuwa - extra paycheck~ =D ax moneeeey~ <3 <3 <3
heidi and i went to pekkle's house to watch iron monkey. the action was hella good, but the last fight was really frustrating with all those bamboo poles >_<+ we started watching GTO after that, but i kinda... fell asleep...;;; pekkle woke me up and i think i pushed his hand away, i dunno x_X; cuz i remember my hand falling after i came to consciousness, but it fell from above my head......;; ANYWAY! i've never heard him speak in such a soft voice before o_O; quite soothing. wish people would wake me up using that kinda voice and not a "MIRAE!! AREN'T YOU GOING TO SCHOOL?! GET UP!!!" =_=+++ ::glares at mom::
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yeahyeahyeah, i'm not a guy but who cares~ XD uhhh i think starwars really got to me... i had a weird dream about assassins and pekkle protecting me from them x_X;; the only part i remember clearly is being in a really big office building, and something was coming at the window but before i knew what it was, he was already covering me. i dun remember anything happening, though o_O; pekkle, don't mind my dreams, ne? ^^;;;
uwaaaaaa----!! i wanna go to the beach!! ;_;
...... phi got the same thing.... but she doesn't make a good sakurazukamori!!! o_o;; HAHAHAH and pekkle got fuuma despite how many times he kept changing his answers! XD so that makes him my aoshi from kenshin, my kyo from furuba, and my fuuma from x.... ^^;; coincidence?? speaking of pekkle, him, heidi, and i went to watch star wars~ it was pretty good, but THE ENDING PROVIDES NO CLOSURE so it was pretty frustrating =_= and it's been so long since i've sat through a movie comfortably! like... my mind was at peace instead of wondering if the guy sitting next to me is gunna try anything everytime he moves x_X; that kinda experience is not fun at all.
phi pointed out a while ago that all i do on pitas is just tell what i've done that day. i noticed that a while ago too, but that's cuz i get scared of putting inside stuff out in the open. well... know what? i don't care anymore! i'm gunna put how i feel and if people don't like me for that, that's their problem~!! XD yoSHA!!! i feel so much better after saying that! =D the cold shoulder to strangers is getting stronger! O_O is that a bad thing?? i guess not ^_^ that makes life for me a lot easier~ <3 <3 and yes, i'm selfish like that, but that's how i am so KYAHAHAHAHA!! i have found that forcefully telling something to my mom doesn't do any good when convincing her of something (i speak from past experiences x_X), and if i compare her to me, that's how i am too, which would explain why i never listened to her when she yelled at me ^_^ nde na, we've been getting along really well for a bit now, and it's making me quite happy~ the point? well i talked to her about how my brother always restarts my computer without taking proper steps first, and i explained to her that my computer will die if you don't restart it PROPERLY and how i have my computer password protected for startup AND screensaver because i don't want my brother using it for obvious reasons. he somehow breaks every computer he touches. so i convinced her to lemme lock my room while i'm out! XD the condition? she gets one of my room keys in case she has to come in for emergency reasons, BUT she promised she wouldn't let HIM into my room for whatever reason unless i come home past 10pm - in which case, she'd let him in for half an hour to do email and brief chats~ XD i'm totally content with that~ <3
WAAAIII~~~ senior cut day's on tuesday~ i get a 4day weekend! XD ureshiii~~~ i think i shall go shopping! XD atooo... tomorrow i might go to watch starwars with pekkle~ anyone else wanna come? i heard the actions scenes were good, but what about plot? o_O; maa ikka~ DEEEETO DAA~ XD i kinda feel like i'm on a high of some sort right now o_O holding hands feels good! O_O i never really noticed till just recently... yes, i know that was random. suki na hito? nah, just friends ^_______^
yoSHA!!! new layout!! and it didn't take hours and hours like a lot of my other layouts! =D i'm getting a thing for simplicity now. mebe it's an unconscious attempt at conveying how i don't like complex things much. >_<
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kiraku na akuma v17 is just a random doodle i made on photoshop, and thought typing the text instead of writing it would look better. it does. translation to the insert: i was happy that moment, you held me softly and warm, and whispered 'i'm here', i love you more than anything.. then i woke up..." i say japanese sounds much better than english in some cases x_X;
atashi: name: mirae aka: akuma, kanojo age: 18 bday: march5 zodiac: pisces job: senior @ toga high, cashier, artist email: kanojochan@hotmail.com aim: kanojochan life: akgstudios, archive
soshite: interests: anime/manga, draw, eat, sleep food: sushi, (almost) anything w/ rice drink: tea, coffee, juice music: bgm, sakamoto maaya, utada hikaru, gackt anime: weib kreuz, fruits basket, ayashi no ceres manga: various yaoi, chobits, yami no matsuei, x likes: fun stuff, clear warm weather, beaches, hanging out with friends dislikes: annoying/immature people, milk/soda, loud noises, school scroll/poster/calendar count: 40+ car: 2001 honda civic lx
projects: - kimi ga suki dakara hitori ni shinai - aisanai kokoro - 4 cosplay costumes - saving money for ax - akgstudios - my life
links: steph darling: kaijuu ga iru phi honey: 0 gravity
heidi: my paradox kenji: eien no yume kevin: eien no yoru pekkle: too much information jack: culex connie: phoenixwing |
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