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-Friday, April 19, 2002- -9:20 p.m.- - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
- and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
since the last update? not too much has happened. phil-nii and aunt left for korea yesterday morning. just wondering, is it odd for a cousin of the opposite sex and 7 years older than you to come into your room to wake you up and end up crawling into bed with you? ;;; i thought it was a bit unusual... but it was really cool to be able to see him again. i only get to see him once a year IF i'm lucky. -_-; my aunt left me $20 for me, too! =DDDD oh, my family went out to dinner for my brother's bday, and i expressed my opinion that all the guy cousins i have on my mom's side of the family are all hella good looking and hella nice people. my mom brought up the point that mebe thas why i'm so picky when it comes to guys. i think the bishie have more to do with it, though. >_< on the short drive home from school, my mind started wandering and i found myself thinking of phi and steph and pekkle. mune ga gyuuuuuu to shita. i'm really starting to miss them. must not think of them. must concentrate on other things. must busy myself. must not get lonely and mellow and feel like i'm all alone just cuz everyone's far away and heidi never talks to me anymore. i'm not feeling lonely, of course not, i have my anime to keep me company, yes i do. - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
i have my independent study final tomorrow. and i still have to finish connie's dress. and i have a japanese meeting tomorrow. coffee... i have no idea where that came from. they're still in japan... and i haven't been home very much so if they called, i missed today's call... i'm alone till monday. the feeling of lonliness is starting to settle in. i'm gunna be in bad shape by the end of the week...;;; - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
too many things to do, too little time. i'll definitely be driving down to ax at this rate. it's my brother's bday today and i'll be out to dinner in a while. until then, i think i'll be productive and try getting some hw done, and then work on connie's dress whenever i can. PEKKLE, i can't work on your coat if you're not here. >_< gomen! - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
i miss my gaki and kaijuu and pretty boy... - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
before that, though, i woke up 11something, took a shower, went to jack's house, and we went shopping for his cosplay fabric. we went to the imahara produce place next to joanne's cuz jack wanted okashi. then we went to qcup, his house, and chilled there. i fell asleep until it was time to go to work. work went by ok, my hands were shaky for some reason though. i'm still really full x_X; i think i'll go to bed really nice and full for the first time in a while. i think i wanna change my sheets though (since i'm not sick anymore). ^_^ IEI <3 gaki, good luck with your mission from jack, and steph, help her with it. i'll be ok without you guys for a week. after that, i might start crumbling down x_X. tonikaku! nitenite! XD - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
......they're going to japan tomorrow..... i'm gunna be without them for nearly 2 weeks... am i gunna be ok....? this'll be my college trial. however i handle this will be however i handle it in college, times however many weeks of separation there are between visits. i did give my 3 best people hugs before i left them, which makes me feel a little better, but still.... ::haa:: you guys BETTER have fun over there, and i'm EXPECTING at LEAST 10 phone calls!!!!!!! - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
- and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
he still calls me kiddo....;;; maa, ikka... i think i'll go for soup later... and then chocolate. - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
well... sorta slept. i kept waking up literally every hour. my body felt like 105degrees. trust me, that was not a normal fever. blankets felt like they were gunna catch fire or something. and i kept havng these dreams that pissed me off cuz the whoooooole night, they were hazy dreams about the goverment and some sort of political puzzle and i wasn't allowed to wake up or have other dreams until i finished it. pissed me off. there was another dream where my dad was sitting in my 6th period class for some reason, and we were walking down the hall to go home. i forgot my bag in the room so i went back to get it. dad was turning the corner and i tried catching up, but my legs felt like gravity increased on them by 10 times, and i couldn't move. i stayed in bed till 12 something. i had no choice, i couldn't walk. which made me komaru when i had to go to the bathroom, but i made it on time. somehow... i can barely manage to stumble a few feet around my room. time is going by a day at a time. it feels like 5 to me but it's actually 3:22. i feel like shit. - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
since i went to bed hella early, i woke up hella early. before 9. o_O; whoaaaaa i'm back from the dead. dood! o_O;; my mom was leaving to drop my brother off at a game tournament while i was making food, and she OFFERED to give me lunch money for work! and just yesterday she told me she'd raise my school lunch money to $30 a week! o_O;;; mom.... are you on crack?? why are you being so nice?????? yeah.... i get a bit scared when she's nice like that... but i guess it's cuz i'm going off to college and it's pretty much her last chance to be nice to me for a while ^^ much appreciated effort~ work went by waaaaay too slowly. i thought i was gunna die. my allergies started acting up like hell in the middle of the day for some reason, and i sneezed endlessly. i feel like my voice changed from so much sneezing though phi and steph say it's the same. either way is fine, but i hate my voice to the point where i vowed to myself that i'd stop talking for a whole day someday so i dun have to hear it. i wonder when THAT'll happen? anyway, had crepe for lunch at qcup with steph, talked with nii-chan for a bit, and sneezed some more. i was steph's ride home. nii-chan was in his car next to mine with tetsu-san and a nee-san that works at kino's. they were talking and eventually going to decide where they were gunna go to eat dinner, and i found out later that they were waiting for tom-aniki. steph and i talked with nii-chan till about 9. then it was time to go home~ i had hotpot at her house ^_^ oisikattaaaaaaa~~ nde, dropped stuff off at phi's, came home to empty house (iei!!), and now i'm sitting here on my rear end vegetating. ^^;;; spring break this coming week!! XD XD XD i hope to get a buncha drawings for ebay done. lots of them. also gotta get other auctions up, help manage about 3-5 other cosplay, make my own cosplay, make connie's jr prom dress, go to movies, and yeah... ::haa:: i still have a ton of anime to burn, too. is there anything else i need to blab about? if there is, i'll make another boring entry ^^;;; sonja! - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
i got my car back today. the passenger door opens now, but the window doesn't. ::sigh:: those carshop people get paid to fix the car and reconnect everything. well, they apparently didn't reconnect the power for the windows back into the door. and something's sticking out from the bottom of my car that isn't supposed to stick out. man... all this car crap is taking a lot of time. but at least i have it back, and not that piece of $#!t impala. i really don't like that thing. i have this incredible urge to just go out somewhere, but i dunno where. i haven't been in my car for a long time and yeah... oh.... i think i'll go get some blank cds. iei. - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
- and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
i just got home from shopping with heidi, and i must say i understand how guys feel when girls drag them to the mall. i wasn't in the mood to shop today cuz i was so tired... before that, i went to rop and sat on the rail outside the whole time while thinking about college and school and home and everything. then went to qcup with gaki and her brother, and then went to fry's with them after that cuz she wanted to look at the laptop she was planning on getting. i dunno why i went to fry's... i drove a lot today, and i'm upset cuz my mom was too lazy to go get my car so i have no car till tomorrow afternoon. i'm not going to rop cuz i have no ride. which is fine with me. i can sleep. joy. today overall was an ok day. it would've been good if i hadn't been so friggin tired. and with that, i'm gunna go to sleep. nite. - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
i burned a cd for connie. it's funny how she's pretty picky about the music she listens to on burned stuff. i went to derrick's house to work on japanese project with heidi, ben-chan, and derrick. the pork was pretty good. so was the kimchee ramen. yakisoba looks like cchacchamien but tastes really different. had a few laughs with ben making remarks about random stuff. and then i called home just to let my parents know that i wouldn't be home for another hour or so. well... first thing mom does is bitch about how she wants me to take my doorknob and replace it with the old one. i'm thinking hell no. she "doesn't want any locks in the house". why, so she can barge in anytime she wants? fuck that. it's like i'm the only one that isnt allowed to have a lock on her own door. i'm sick of smelling my brother in my room even when he's not. it's the worst sense of invasion ever. not to mention even when he DOES use my stuff after i ask him NOT to while i'm not HOME, he doesn't leave things the way they were before he came IN. the mouse and keyboard are on top of the desk with all my stuff pushed aside and i dun even know where things are. it pisses me off. for obvious reasons. why is i whenever i think i did something good for myself and tell my mom about it, she always gets mad at me because it's inconvenient for HER? or it's "not efficient use of your time"?? if i make a drawing i'm actually proud of, she says 'you could've been using that time to study'. if i tell her i bought something like a webcam or wireless mouse, she says 'you don't need that kind of stuff, what a waste of money'. if i tell her i want to do something like become an artist, she says 'artists can't be successful'. if i tell her i plan on putting blinds on my window, she says 'no, it doesn't match my style'. if i get a lock to secure my privacy, she says 'take it off as soon as you get home, i don't want any locks in the house'. what, i'm not allowed to put anything new into my room anymore?? screw it.
ben: i can tell you won't be spending much time around here during vacations in college i think all this pms is getting to me. feeling so incredibly ew it's not funny. i don't like my mom. i don't like my brother. notice how i don't use the word "hate" because i'm prolly already gunna get enough crap about saying that kinda stuff about my family, esp since i'm a girl. i noticed that society accepts it when a guy says he don't like his family, but when a girl says it, it's "wrong". wth. ok.. at this point, i just wanna sleep and leave the house first thing and just go somewhere for a while before i have to come home again. but my car's coming back from the shop tomorrow at 5something, so i HAVE to be home. then it's back out. - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
- and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
- and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
on college note. i wonder how i'm gunna pay for those apartments if i dun have a roommate? even if i do find a roommate and things turn out kinda weird, i might end up having to share a bedroom with that person. o_O; sore wa iyadaaaaa!! ....... does this mean i gotta go to csula...? i can do one of the following: ...funny how i don't like the sound of either of those. planB's safest, ne? nnnnnn.... ::haa:: i hate being the older in the family. oh the things i'd do to be a freshmen again... man i sound old... i'm getting depressed... i need a hug.. ::haa:: ._. - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
my mind must be moving at a million miles per hour or something cuz time seems to be going waaaaay too slow to be realistic. i seriously doubted the clocks today at work. things that happened just a few hours ago feel like the other day. yeah, warped sense of time. weird things happened at work. this one guy left his wallet in a cart with all his stuff, and when he came back, everything was gone and he was flipping out cuz he had $900 in the wallet. then he accused mike of stealing it. he was yelling at the whole store pretty much, and i was thinking 'dude, how stupid can you get? you're yelling at everyone cuz you left your own stuff unattended'. iiiidiot. mike seemed to be in a good mood today though. he talked more than usual, and it wasn't lecturing or anything either. feet hurt... ow... nde... connie's gunna come over tomorrow so we can work on her prom dress. iei~ i'll get a lock while i'm at it. must get sleep tonight. i didn't notice how bad my bags were until i got to work, and yeah, REALLY bad. thank GOD for makeup o_O; i looked somewhat alive after my makeover. i dunno what's wrong with me, either. my right eye's been bothering me for the past few days and it looks kinda bruised. annoying me... ::haa:: lots of things annoying me lately... i'm definitely pmsing. - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
- and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
so she came over after rop to watch it. and just as i thought, she cried, too. ^^; quite a nice show. so much is packed into 1 episode that when the half-episode mark comes up, you think "......that was only half an episode???" so it's quite nice =D nde... we talked for a while and discussed living arrangements and furniture stuff on the floor plans. quite nice, though she got a bit frustrated cuz some things didn't work out with the tv and sofa and the way things were in the floorplan ^^;;; i find myself stuck in time when i want it to go faster, yet, at the same time, i don't. things that happened just yesterday feel like weeks ago. things from last week feel like months ago. gaki watching ayashi no ceres here this afternoon feel like yesterday or the day before. my sense of time is warped or something.. i used to have really good time perception, too... wonder if i hit my head once too many times or something...? ::haa:: pmsing... major mood swings, so everyone please watch out. ~_~ - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
oh, my mom finally openly consented to my going to art school~ XD she asked if i knew about art center. ;;;; i think she talked to her art teacher or something cuz i KNOW she's never heard of it and she forgot the name so she went to her purse to check the note she wrote it on. uhhh... yeah.. so i'm gunna go to aisc ^_^ and i'm gunna apply for both fall and spring semesters, just in case i can't get into fall, mebe i'll be able to get into spring, right? i need maaaaaaaajor progress on my portfolio... nde~~ i'll be working during the summer, fall, and winter while i (hopefully) stay with gaki, and work on getting my skills up to par and get a part-time job. as of right now, thas my fantasy/dream life for the rest of the year. i wonder how realisic it is without my knowing it...? if anyone has any idea, please whap me over the head with reality, whether it's a good or bad one. oh yeah, rent-a-car was interesting. it took me a minute to figure out how the basic functions of the car worked this morning while i warmed the car up to go to school. i got the jist of it. as for the handling... uhhhhhhhhh... let's just say i can feel the difference in the weight, turning, suspension, braking, and accelerating. better suspension than my car, yes, but i REALLY don't like how it feels so heavy and how it's SO FRIGGIN BIG! i almost didn't make that one u-turn that normally woulda been a piece of cake in my civic with plenty of room to spare >_< maa, thas ok. i just hope i dun need to drive that thing around for more than a week... ::haa;: speaking of cars, i need a cd player in mine. trying to operate a portable one on the passenger seat can be quite dangerous, yes? plus there's no friggin esp. =_=; tonikaku... since i feel better after watching some (really angsty bloody violent sad and bitter yet happy) anime, i shall be productive and do my homework plus independent study. i'm quite content. as long as i don't think about college, i'm content. must... take life... one thing at a time... ::haaaaaaaaaaaaa:: - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
too much happened today... dying... kazuto and i went out to mcd's for lunch. i did my physics during rop, went to le select after rop, went to phi's house to re-record their radio drama with them, and spent nearly 5 hours on that thing. within those 5 hours, akg had a drool-over-bishie session while kenji sweatdropped nearby, phi had a 10-minute laugh attack, akg + kenji all screamed into a mic for a while, kaijuu spasmed everytime something touched her arm, 4 different kinds of tea were made and drunk, and 3 people at a time all lounged around the room with a certain akuma frequenty slipping in and out of consciousness. ^_^ nde, around 10:30, we still weren't totally finished putting the sound effects and bgms in, but 95% done, ne? so gaki's working on the last part and i'm cheering them all on. kenji gave me a ride home cuz my car's FINALLY IN THE SHOP and it'll FINALLY BE NORMAL AGAINNNNN!!! ;_; in the meantime, i'm driving a rent-a-car. chevy impala. silver. when i first heard i was driving one of those, i was disappointed cuz 1) it's not a japanese car, and 2) i pictured my cousin's really old '80something impala that ran like crap. i was like O_O i'm driving one of THOSE?!?! well... when i came home, i took a look at it and i must say, it actually doesn't look too bad at all. now i wonder how it runs...? if it'll drive like my civic, i'm gunna have lots of fun! XD tonikaku... i'm gunna go rest my tiny little brain now ~_~ - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
work was long today, and heidi ended up not going. dork. gaki and i had the same lunch, she got more cards and i mooched off her rice while she mooched off my udon. tehe. there's a new guy named nick, he does courtesy. really quiet, i think he's white, i dunno mebe half? saa. hmmm... yuuta-kun, nii-chan, aki-kun, ken-kun, kazue, buddha, etc were all there, so i had people to talk to~ tomorrow... i wonder if i'll be getting any new anime...? - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
OH!!!!!!!!! i can use ebay now!!! O_O IEI!!! my 2nd source of income is available again!! ;_; sonja! off to set ebay up for myself! XD - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
everyone's been biting my head off today and i'm not having a good day. dad and i had a quick morning dialogue before i went to fill my tank with gas, and then it was off to school. the anti-gay video shown in psych pissed me off cuz the people in it were really narrowminded and they twisted things around and yeah. didn't like it. the rest of the day at school went by ok, and i got to rop a few minutes early cuz i didn't float around school after 6th. i saw jack and glomped onto him, and he was apparently in a bad mood so he yelled at me, which didn't make me feel too good. ok, apologize and leave him be, so i went into rop. philana kinda bit my head off for asking steph why she was listening to sailormoon cds cuz they were really random. she brought them for sound effects for a project. i didn't know that. got tea, went to mitsu to see tom-boss and talk for a bit, and talking with yuuta-kun made me feel better since i was feeling pretty crappy. then it was off to econ video. ::sigh:: i must be pmsing. otherwise having my head bitten off wouldnt've effected me so much. i treated myself to some senbei, a dorayaki, and 2 manga. paycheck comes tomorrow, i have only 1 assignment for hw, and i'm feeling a bit relaxed. i have my hair in 2 braids cuz i was bored outta my mind during the econ video. any other random thoughts for the moment? i still have about a million programs to get back into my comp. ::haa:: - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
as soon as i came home, i had to go pick up my brother. which irked me. very much so. i was tired and sleepy and grouchy, and hearing my mom say "go pick up jinho" first thing didn't make me very happy. and then i came home, had a chat with mom, came into my room, and cried. that's what happens when i try to talk my mom. about anything. esp when it comes to aisc. i don't see why she has to make it so hard, she makes it sound like general ed's everything and the sole goal in life that narrowminded woman. she doesn't care about my personal opinions on the school, she doesn't care about why i want to go there, she doesn't care how good their programs are, she only CARES about fucking general ed and says aisc won't provide "a good enough foundation". well you know what? i say shut the fuck up because art's more important to me than math or science, and let me go to the school of MY choice cuz i'm living MY life the way I want, and you can live yours the way YOU want.
i was still pretty peeved even after cleaning my room and organizing stuff while listening to loud music. my dad came home a while later. ...my dad can be pretty damn cool. and with all that crying, my eyes are dry and tired, and i'm tired, too.. i have math and japanese hw to do, and i think i'll do those, take a shower, and then sleep... i have flowers in my backyard that give off a really nice smell during spring and summer. that smell is currently filling my room, and it's SOOOOO NATSUKASHIIIII of fanime and ax cosplay late at night!! o_O;; cosplay all day and till the crack of dawn. THAT was fun. ahh... the good ole' days... - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
iei! i just finished my independent study lesson for the day~ ok. i talked to my dad about going straight to aisc after high school. told him it's better than transferring from csula cuz i still get GE at aisc, i can concentrate more on art at aisc, it's closer to where i wanna live, it's closer to all my friends, it's a nicer area, it's a waste of time if i go to csula and do GE there with less progress in artistic ability and then transfer, also a waste of money to do that, and like phi, i wanna be at a high level of talent at a younger-than-average age. sure it's a bit more expensive, but that's hardly an issue. the work aisc'll give me is work i'll WANT to do, not GE that i'll put off till the last minute. well... after a long talk, dad said it was totally ok with him as long as i knew aisc is where i want to go for sure! =D now i gotta convince mom to let me go. and then it's applications and portfolio. ::siiiigh:: i talked with gaki pretty much the whole time we were at q-cup about all this. living arrangements, going to aisc, all that stuff. we talked about the possibility of having to live separately for the first year or two - me in la, her at aisc, steph at uci... living for me and phi would most likely be pretty hard to deal with emotionally. inside i was screaming IYADAAAA!!!!!!!!! at the idea of being separated, but at the same time, if things turned out that way, i wouldn't fight it. of course, i can always alter the way things turn out, and apply for aisc like.. NOW. which i plan on doing. then i can live with gaki in a delmar apartment, which i'm sure is still rather nice. my dad said i'm being spoiled by going to a private art school and living in an apartment and being in socal with my friends in a niiiice area. i know i am, and if things turn out well, then i'm also really really lucky. but at the same time, if i wanna work animation or illustration or chara design at a company, going to aisc (or the like) is something i kinda have to do. living with gaki's like 2 bonus points, being near the beach and irvine is another, and living practically next door to aisc's really good too. and everytime i look through the book for the programs, i want to go more and more. if i don't get in for fall, i'll apply for spring, iei~ - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
ok... i must say that waking up at 5 in the morning to go to orange county and drive/walk around all day isn't the best thing to do when you have school the next day. i'm tired as hell, my feet hurt, i still feel sick from the car and plane and ugh... any mention of food and i'll hurl... it was quite a productive day, though. akg plus gaki's dad (whom i thank SOOOOO much for going with us!) went to orange county to look at the uci campus and laguna beach area and aisc. lots of driving, lots of walking, lots of talking, lots of planning. o_o; pretty much overwhelming, but i'm glad i got to see the campuses and i especially love the apartments. ^^ oh. if you are the type of person that must live in high-tech society (like akg), DON'T live at laguna beach! o_o; we were pretty much traumatized by the every-9-out-of-10-buildings-are-galleries concept, no fast food, no grocery markets, no chain stores, no mitsu, no restaurants (except few small cafes), and no electronics stores. PLUS everything there was HELLLLLA expensive. $7.50 for an avacado sandwich?!?! nooooo thank you. the further AWAY from laguna beach you went, the more signs of civilization/silicon valley you saw. you know, banks, convenience stores, fast food, stuff like that. and dood, it was 11ish or so when we were there and literally 90% of the stores were closed!! it's a monday and they're CLOSED?? O_O;; i suspect those people are really laid back and are closed on weekdays, plus sunday, which equals to one work day a week. uhhh.. gas and rent is really high, too... we asked the guy at aisc about it, and it seems they all open around 10 and town closes down around 11. apparently it's packed during the summertime with tourists. the beach was really clean and nice and quiet =D uci gave me a headache, and driving around so long made me really tired and kinda nauseous. gaki and i fell asleep in the car for about 1-2 hours. we ended up not getting outta the car at uci...;;; lunch. was good. japanese restaurant. XD the bento there was cheaper than an avacado sandwich at laguna beach and those boxes were GOOD! we met up with wayne-sama at the irvine spectrum shopping center. HELLLLLLA nice place, dood!! outdoor mall with lotsa stores and really clean and pretty and well designed and everything! the people there don't leer at you like they do here, too! o_o THAT was a bonus~ it seems the akg living arrangements'll be changing a tad, and though i don't like it as much, it's for the better and i shall compromise with it. i found that i can be pretty independent and i can take care of myself reasonably well. but only on short term. short term meaning about a week. if i had to live longer than that without philana or stephanie with me, i wouldn't be able to do it because i can't stand being alone. yeah sure, a few hours alone in my room or something, thas no problem, but when there's more than 10 minutes distance between me and them and i can't see them at least once a day, i feel really insecure and i become weaker than i already am. thas bad. thas really really bad for when i have school and trying to cram as much general ed into one semester at cal state LA as i can so i can transfer to aisc by spring semester. i'm stressing a lot about living arrangements cuz if nobody's living at club laguna, i have to be on my own at csula - pretty damn far from laguna. i don't think i can handle that... being alone... ::shudder:: anyway... yeah, gaki's living arrangements and mine pretty much revolve around each other, but she makes the call so i'm just waiting for her to make her decision. take your time, gobo-legs~ <3 and since i am tired as hell and my eyes are hurting my brain and i have school tomorrow and i'm insane for typing this up when i should be sleeping, i shall now go to sleep. - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
WAAAAAAIIIIIIII!!!! mamo-chan came over to get my computer set up today, and it's REALLY FAST!! ;_; ureshiiiiiii!!!! sore ni sore ni!! i have windowsME and and and lots of memory and ;_; hauuuuuuu!!!!! had ramen for lunch and udon for snack, isn't that great? but yeah, not much happened today other than computer upgrading stuff. =D i watched him put everything together and install a buncha stuff and i have norton anti-virus now! ;_; my computer's safer than before now! ;_; and i dunno if gaki's gunna come over tonight, i dun even know how things are gunna work tomorrow, so yeah... but that's ok! i'll be updating stuff on my comp and i'll be happy ;_; ::uru uru:: pekkle! matt! brace yourselves cuz i'll be raiding your computers for anime! XD - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
man..... i only updated last night but it feels like it's been days... phi came over to spend the night last night, and she watched about half the sailormoonR movie. no, the r does not mean it's rated r. ::haa:: she got really tired around 11something, so she went to bed, though we ended up talking till 12 or so. she fell asleep pretty fast and i could tell cuz she has this light snore when she's really really tired. o_o; i woke up at the crack of dawn or something cuz it was cold, and i found that gaki likes to take blankets away. =_=; and then the alarm woke us up at 10. it seriously does take that girl forever to get outta bed. we had food before work, and then it was off speeding down the road to get to mitsu. the day seemed to drag on forever... i dunno why, either. i think my mind was just moving at a fast pace. i had a lot on my mind, too. that took its toll later in the day. work finally ended and i brought phi back to my house so she could get her stuff. then it was back to her house to have takoyaki!! good stuff, dood.. heidi came over a bit later, and while she watched phi make takoyaki and eat, i took an unexpected nap. this is where the effects of thinking so much in one day kicks in. so yeah, i was woken up a coupla times from loud chairs and dishes being washed and yeah... next thing i know, phi has her foot on my leg and is trying to wake me up. her foot was cold, dood. so i tried to smack it away - i think i ended up hitting a lot harder than i though x_X; sorry gaki! we had cake and talked about school and our college lives. then it was time for me to come home. i find myself thinking about a lotta things lately. mainly my relationships with people. something's happening to me, and i'm getting emotionally numb to everything, and i dunno what it is though i DO know it's a bad thing. i'm becoming more apathetic about given topics, some of which used to matter a lot. and then there's the whole apartment-living together situation, and how that's gunna work out. then there's heidi and whether she's moving away or not with what reasons, then there are my parents and how things are going with them. generally speaking, things are going really well. if things keep up like this, it's gunna be really hard to leave when it's time to move out. money is another thing weighing on my mind - i need money for ax, college, living expenses.. and i need a job to pay for a lot of that. not to mention my current job as a cashier at mitsu isn't really sufficient for me anymore. i need something new, something different. i can't stand all day and do the same thing over and over. as for a short-term thing, i'm thinking a lot about the trip to LA on monday and whether everything'll work out ok or not. i'm really really looking forward to it and if we can't go, i'll be so disappointed... ::haa:: anyway... thas just a part of the stuff going on in my head right now... mamo-chan's coming over at 10 tomorrow, so i'm gunna go to sleep. tomorrow's gunna be a good day. i'll have my new computer all set up and ready to go after a few hours, and then it'll be my playtime. ::nii:: oh! and i got my age verification from aetheticism~ i have my own login and password and wow it feels like a college acceptance letter~ yeahyeah, i know, i'm stupid, but hey, yaoi's a hobby. ::ni:: ok... time to sleep... nitenite. - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
it's really hard to wake up after a 1-hour nap. it's just not enough! i had work at 4:30 so i set my alarm for 4, and slept at 2:30ish. well... the alarm went off at 4, but it took me the whole 15 minutes i gave myself to get out of bed. that wasn't fun. when i got to work, steph and phi were on their lunch break, and they came back when i got back... i was taking care of a customer when all of a sudden, someone grabs my shoulders from behind and scares the dickens outta me! my BROTHER?!O_O; why's he there?? well, he was at BEAT. the little internet cafe place. i went in there to pick him up today, and it's loud and stuffy and dark and lit with black lights. ::haa:: some people... as for the rest of work... well.... let's just say i didn't have a good time at all cuz i dunno how to count. but yeah.... picked my brother up from beat, and listened to x ost on the way home. i think my brother likes it. ;;; esp sadame, but who doesn't like sadame~ =D then my dad yelled at him for forgetting to bring home some sort of report. o_o; dad's annoying when he yells at people. totally impatient and won't listen to reason. idiot. tonikaku, gaki's supposedly coming over tonight i think. the la trip on monday might have some adjustments made..;; i just hope they're made quick cuz there's only 2 days left before we gotta leave. i'm gunna now listen to music and play around with my computer. mamo-chan still has to come on sunday to set up my new one. x_X;;; DOOD, HURRY UP, WILL YOU!? - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
- and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
- and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
ousu~~ eventful day today~ lots of driving around. nnn, there was school (woohooo! i wasn't late for the first time in a week! XD) and then there was rop. i showed gaki and kaijuu and kenji and lauren my little doodle from trig. never try to wake up akg in the morning or ELSE. ^_^ nde~ we went to q-cup to get crepes afterward~ helllllla traffic and kg were having a fit in gaki's car cuz the light turned yellow while they were backed up in the middle of the intersection ^_^ i could see them screaming from my rear-view mirror LOL~ it took forever to get to q-cup. pekkle came up with "queer cup", which is also pretty accurate, in my opinion. ^_^ nde, when i came home, i went to exchange my webcam for a different one cuz the other one's lens sucked and the pics were really low quality and yeah. didn't like it. -_- as soon as i got home, i called phi cuz her away message was kinda ehhhhh and her IMs were also kinda uhhhhh so yeah. she "hinted" that she wanted me to go over, but i just waited till she confessed and she said "ok! i WASN'T just curious, i wanted to know if you were free enough to come over! ::sob::" ^^;; so i came. and here i am. possibly to spend the night again. lots of things happening at once... poor girl's going through a lotta crap. mebe i'll make dinner for her~ =D assuming i can cook something that won't kill anyone. =_= tonikaku, i gotta help her with her cosplay, so yes~ i shall be off now~ ja! - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
::fuaaaa:: tired... i woke up at 7:30 or something like that this morning cuz the rain was friggin loud. dood it sounded like the world was being washed away or something, i thought there was a typhoon out there o_O; anyway, so yeah, went home to change and then went back to phi's house to make sure she was ok and stuff. she slept. so i just went to school and about 20mins late to 1st period (not like i care). and then took trig quiz which sucked cuz i didn't have my notebook the night before to study from. so i skipped japanese to go to mv to get my notebook from the rop room.
when i got to mv, the weather was quite nice. it was brunch and people were all over the place. i saw jack and ran up behind him and glomped him. he had the most puzzled look on his face until he saw me. i eventually got my notebook and drove back to my own campus.... and... had really odd timing from what i hear. it was still 3rd period (japanese for me) and the class was arranged into a buncha little groups to do tiny mini skits for the test tomorrow, and i apparently walked in just as my group was komaruing about what to do without me there...;; heh;;; after school it was ROP and WHOA gaki was there o_O; i totally didn't expect her to be, but she was airbrushing her glove and pekkle was there so i made him come with me to my car to get the love letter heidi wrote to him. and i made him say 'please' before i gave it to him ^_^ he gave me a really weird "heehh" when he finally got it in his hands. o_O;;; henna yatsu... after rop, gaki, pekkle, and i went to queer cup for crepes~ >_< those crepes are pretty good~ though they took a while to make -_- nde~ after we ate crepes, we got chicken~ =D had a lotta food. i also got a webcam. ray finally came over after talking about coming over for who knows how long >_< but yeah~ we had a nice talk and i made him massage my shoulders for a long time ^_^ thanks ray~ so thas pretty much my day. i have to finish my physics hw and then do my 2-3 hours of independent study. man... i think i'll be up till at least 1 tonight. something i haven't done for a few nights now. o_o; but yeah..... gotta get moving on this >_< ja~ - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
school was the usual, though there's a japanese project and we gotta make a picture book. a big one. o_o; HEIDI AND BEN-CHAN AND DERRICK ARE IN MY GROUP! and i was scaring derrick about making it another kodocha thing during lunch ^_^ soph year heidi and derrick were in my group for a puppet show, and it was the first 10something episodes all crammed into a 15minute puppet show!! XD XD so yeah, after that, i think derrick got scared about working with me on projects ^^;;; lunch i went home to eat. =D and i think i'll be avoiding starbucks in the morning for a while just in case i see HER mom again...;; though MY mom made me a mocha in the morning before i left! XD and she was totally calm about my being late o_o;; i think she's like... totally mellowing out about everything now. after school~ gaki and i took spunky out for a little walk/jog today (which reminds me, i still have to do my situps). we went to a part of seven springs gaki hadn't been to yet, and dood, there were NICE houses there! o_o; and the end of the court was blocked by an iron gate. and dood... who KNOWS what's down the road that split at a sign that said "office" -_-; stretching was interesting too. atooo... oh! had udon and cold chicken and edamame and tea for dinner while watching simpsons and angelic layer~! =D hadn't seen those 2 shows for a loooong time. and then we had STRAWBERRIES DIPPED IN CHOCOOOOO!!! XD after that was gaki's cosplay session and listening to ccs dramas and music while i did my physics homework. and... i didn't get it... and when i don't get things, i get scary. i think i scared her, too... she gave me funny looks every now and then...;;; her cosplay's coming along well though ^_^ atoo... after hw, i kinda sorta doodled for akg's contacts page, but not too much progress... it seems that i will be spending the night at phi's tonight. her parents aren't home and she's not feeling too secure alone, so i shall try to keep her company. and i'll be borrowing her shower soon. =P as for tomorrow, i plan going home a bit before school to change (i'm BEYOND SCRUBBY right now) and i also plan on skipping japanese so i can go to monta vista to get my notebook that i could've possibly left in the rop dark room. ::sigh:: ._. - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
i had a weird dream last night that heidi gave me a bday cake during this one group discussion thing in a random room. she dragged me off to the corner and gave me a never-melting ice cream cake! XD i remember skewering it with a fork and we both ate it, but other than that, i dun remember anything. other than that, there was ANOTHER weird way to start a morning. i went to starbucks for my frequent coffee, and while i was waiting for my frap, a middle-aged woman walked in. and..... i'm hoping to god i saw wrong or there's just someone on the planet that looks almost exactly like her, but i saw my teki's mom. at the starbucks 2 mins away from my house. and..... if that means it's cuz she lives somewhere around here, that might also mean that SHE might also live somewhere around here. and... that means there's going to be another problem in my life, and yeah... i won't be very happy knowing she's anywhere near me. and the lady gave me that look... you know, the kind that says you recognize someone but you're not 100% sure it's them. i got that look when i accidentally made eye contact with her... somewhat related to that incident, i was also thinking earlier that i was saved (from being totally corrupt and off to do drugs and smoke and drink and have sex and flunking outta high school and being more of a delinquent than i am now) when i started hanging out with the people i do now (at and outside school). they were my restraints when i felt like going off to do something beyond stupid like going out with people i didn't know and getting myself screwed over in possibly more ways than one. and i'm sure some prolly don't know it, but i'm very grateful. ;_; arigatou minna.... daaaaaaaisuki da yo! ok, off that topic of mirae getting all weird and emotional..;;; OK! it JUST sank in that as college gets closer, i'm gunna get busier and busier. even if independent study finishes, i still have school, work, cosplay, ebay, and keeping life in order all at the same time. plus there's the moving out factor... ::sigh:: gotta get moving!! - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
i woke up at 10something and decided it'd be nice to stay in bed for a while.. though i would REALLY like blinds for my window. i still keep waking up at 8something just cuz of light in my room crappit. before i know it, it's 11:20 and i realize just how crappy i'm feeling, and just as i'm about to hop into the shower, gaki calls ^^; so i hurry through shower, speed to her house, and akg plus kenji goes hiking. it. was. HARD. x_X;; i'm waaaaaaay too outta shape! i haven't gone running for a long time (even though i've been doing situps =D), and yeah.... even if i DID go running, i certainly don't run up a 80degree hill!! o_O; ok, it's not actually that steep, but it felt like it, and i was ready to puke! >_< we got back to phi's, kenji went to pick up a book, and akg went to jamba. iei! steph owes me $9 now. $5 for lunch on sat, $4 for smoothie. we got some of the measurements for pretty boy's trench coat, which will belong to gaki after ax, and then went to dinner at mitsu cuz i was craving udon and takoyaki. said hi to yuuta-kun and tetsu-san and heidi-bobo while gaki stressed about getting to mass. oh.. i drove everyone in my car. i had to take her to mass (which would be out at 6), kenji home, and then back to mitsu. by the time i got to mitsu, it was already 6. che. so it was time to drag steph and pekkle (who was wailing "bye heidiiii ;_;" as i dragged him off) to pick up gaki. she was waiting outside freezing her creampuffy butt off. poor baby ;_; so it was off back to kix's. by the time we got back, all 4 of us (akg plus pekkle) had to use the toilet REALLY bad. and it was funny how ALL the bathroom's in steph's house were taken in a split second. ^^; we worked on some cosplay (haha, gaki and her friggin short shorter-than-mirae's-shorts shorts) and stuffed our faces with food. well... i did. kaijuu-darrrrrrrrrrling also fed me tsoyobing with eggs and it was sooooooooo good! ;_; and she looked so wife-ly! i think she should be the "housewife" of our apartment, dood, not me =_= oh, and gaki and i had a really good laugh talking about a certain s&s fic and a certain part of the human anatomy and yeah. LOL!! pekkle, on the other hand, wasn't having as much fun as we were ^_^; as much as i wanted to stay, it was time to go home and drop pekkle off at his house and fill my gas tank. it was about 8:45 when i got home. and i realized that since i'm 18, my parents can't get do anything to me for coming home late! XD at the same time, i have to make sure i don't pull any stupid driving tricks when there are po around. being 18 has its advantages, but lots of bad consequences, too ^^;; so yeah, today was a pretty good day. lots of laughing, joy frolicking (...ok, not me, but k and g were having fun doing so ^^;;) and teasing pretty boy~ ^^ kenji was constantly off in his own little world reading his d/d book outloud... why outloud? dun ask me =_=;; weekends should be more like today =D - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
KYAHAHHAHAHA i was so dead at work today but toward the end i hyped up cuz i had a can of ucc milk coffee, a bottle of kirin straight tea, and 3 pieces of chocolate ^_^ laughing also helped my mood go up cuz phi does funny things when she's out of it ^_^ she tried to weigh frozen takoyaki in a bag and you're not supposed to weigh takoyaki. i laughed to the point where my stomach hurt. ^^ ::wanwan~!!:: it was all good after work. we leeched some food off deli =D and then came home~ ^_^ tehe~ - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
 You're Kasumi Karen! i came to consciousness at 8:45 (slept REAL early last night). when i turned my head to my right, the light just killed me, and i decided that i would REALLY like blinds for my window. especially over the summer. and i realized that i wake up when i'm not ready to because it's just too bright. ... yes, i'm gunna get my mom to get me blinds. ::haa:: i had a really weird dream. i don't remember all of it, but i do remember that i was at this one beach with my family and some family friends. the moms were sitting on the towels under the umbrella (it was kinda hazy weather), and the dads were just walking around or something. but yeah, the tide was coming up really high really fast, and i was freaking out about getting wet. the waves were really big and looked like fun to play in ;_; so i went to go play with the guys (pretty much all my family friends are guys... i just noticed...) and i had my swimsuit on and everything, but when went down to the farther end of the beach, there was this... omatsuri type thing... i dunno how to explain it, there were groups of people dressed in nice kimonos or just dressed nice, and it was like a pageant thing. everyone was japanese and i bumped into this one girl wearing a school uniform. and automatically said "gomen"...;;; there were some other people around her, and they stared at me while i sorta stared back, and they're like "... she's not japanese..." o_O;; uhhh... yeah ok i just kinda left and ran off looking for my friends. there was a back room. in the cliffs of the beach, there was door built into the rocks or something x_X;;; and there was a changing room behind the door, and i looked in and a girl wearing a really nice dress came out, and the announcer guy said something i dun remember and yeah... i dun remember much after that ;;; the waves were still pretty big, but the pageant wasn't disturbed or anything...; yeah... makes me wanna go to the beach toward late afternoon and stare at the waves for a while. big ones are fun to play in, so let's all go sometime in the summer, ne? - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
- and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
and dude, i'm hungry! >_< but it's 2 in the morning and i have school in like 6 hours and yeah..... need sleep!! i dunno if i can sleep with this backache and i think i'm gunna have cramps tomorrow. no wait, i KNOW i'm gunna have cramps tomorrow. ::sigh:: nitenite everyone ^^;; - and with that in mind, fuuma goes kamui hunting
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