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. . . Thursday, December 30, 2004 . . . 11:59 a.m. . . .
the fact that i lost my wallet is haunting me in my dreams.. i dreamt that i lost my school bag and the people who found it wouldn't give it back to me unless i went with them to all these places. i just wanted my cell phone, and in the end, i don't even know if i got i back. well... i did everything i could. all i gotta do now is replace my license. until then, i guess i'll only be driving for my mom (who doesn't know i lost it).
i've been thinking.. i might end up changing my major cuz i don't know if i can handle art. i thought it was a block, but maybe i'm just falling out of it. the drive to handle the committment, time, work load, or even the competition isn't there anymore. maybe i'll just leave art as a hobby and major in something else. what, i don't know. maybe japanese. minor in korean. learn other languages on the side. when michelle first said she was changing her major to marine bio, somehow that totally clicked in my brain as "DUH" cuz i love the ocean so much. but i'm not saying that i'll be going into marine bio, i just don't know anymore. i'm lost. i guess i still have time to think about it.
i miss my friends... i'll be playing with you guys more cuz i've just been sitting on my ass letting us grow distant. i say i wanna play, but i never do anything about it. neglecting friends cuz of boyfriend.... so sad how i've become something that annoyed me before. i'm sorry, i'll be good this time ;_;
彼氏と言うと。。。俺やっぱdahoon に相応しくない。 あいつは俺の為に何かをする。 ここまで来たり、 友達とはぐれたり、 いっぱい飯に奢って貰ったり、 したい事一緒にしてくれる。 たぶん俺が言うから運動するんじゃないかと思う。 願いならなんでもきいてくれるし。 でも俺は何をしてあげられたの？ なんで俺の事好きなの？ なにも出来ない俺の事なんか。。
mom wants to buy a dvd player for the big screen and is pretty excited about getting one. hahah it's cute X3 she went to sacramento on monday and came back last night. i had no idea i'd be so fucking bored or lonely without her around. even if she's at work, it's still some comfort to know she'll be home in the evening, and though we don't talk much when she IS home, it's still nice to know that there's someone in the other room. やっぱ独りじゃだめだな
. . . Tuesday, December 28, 2004 . . . 03:24 p.m. . . .
aaaaaa....... someone save me from this hell of boredom please!!!
i lost my wallet somewhere on the snow trip. stressed? you betcha.
. . . Sunday, December 26, 2004 . . . 06:43 p.m. . . .
mmm... i'm not complaining that i had a bad holiday, but damn. wtf are my dad and brother thinking? they don't even call on christmas? mom grows increasingly unhappy, and i don't know what to do. dahoon saved me yesterday from going into a depression slip, though he prolly doesn't know it. oh well.. i guess i'll make another faux masterpiece..
. . . Saturday, December 25, 2004 . . . 01:07 a.m. . . .
merry christmas everyone~! ^______^ hope you have a fun, safe, warm holiday~ <3
i love you dahoon~ <3 XD
. . . Wednesday, December 22, 2004 . . . 11:42 p.m. . . .
tadaimaaaaaaaa~~~
i disappeared into the mountains of socal where there was lots of man-made snow and some natural snow. woot for snowboarding!!! i admit, i was disappointed in the lack of actual boarding activities. total time added up to about 2.5 hours out of 3 days. but hey, those couple hours were good times X3 my head took a couple bangs and my wrists died, but i was all good the next day~ stretching = good times. legs are totally fine, but my arms, neck, and back sides are so sore. my ass is pretty bruised up, too x_x; played mafia, watched dvds, partied, etc etc~~ weshouldgoagainsometime!!! XD
sleep lackage = win! .. or not...
this trip made me realize a lot about relationships. stuff that i probably shouldn't announce to the world. but i can at least say that hoon's too good for me ;_; and it's a miracle that he hasn't left me yet T_T ::sob:: i love you beb!
and with that, i shall catch up on sleep considering i may have totalled 6 hours in 3 days.
. . . Saturday, December 18, 2004 . . . 08:43 p.m. . . .
so i'm back on the socal end..... ~_~; at least the traffic wasn't as bad as thanksgiving weekend.
i was walking prince when i looked up and thought, "wow... the stars are really twinkly tonight... ...... wait a sec... STARS?!?! and WOW!! the sky's BLUE!!!" it was a pleasant surprise.
. . . Saturday, December 18, 2004 . . . 12:00 a.m. . . .
packing and cleaning. sigh......... i'm gunna miss you guys ;_;
. . . Wednesday, December 15, 2004 . . . 08:43 p.m. . . .
kyan~!!!!! this saturday's gunna be fuuuun *________________* XDDDD <3 my hoon!
tomorrow's gunna be d-day. gotta write my paper on purgatory and study for psych final. i tend to fail the tests in psych somehow.... but my meteorology final went fairly well! :D so~ i SHOULD be ok~ and while we're on the topic of school, i also got registered for 3 classes at fullerton college this morning. i'll prolly register for a math class after taking the placement exam.
aa~ *____* full of rice, kimchi, and korean bbq <3 i am extremely satisfied. now if only there was icecream sittin around somewhere, i'd be set to go.
. . . Tuesday, December 14, 2004 . . . 11:18 p.m. . . .
tea with cindy in the morning. she met some of her guildmates. good times.
countdown to socal is speeding up. it's already tuesday. i don't think i'm ready to go back.....
wamu doesn't charge non-wamu bankers to use the atm. BofA charges CUZ you used a nonBofA atm. wtf.
"true" by ryan cabrera is stuck in my head. quite soothing... nice song.
i was running through this huge indoor school, and there was a fire somewhere so people were evacuating. i heard that exploding popcorn machines started it all. when it was put out, i went to this mini auditorium place where the preschoolers were. they were making popcorn. and the TA's were looking the promo picture of the machine open-mouthed. then the machines started exploding and coffee spouted from the middle. and.... that caused another fire, so we were all running out. i got lost in the school, and instead of trying to escape the fire, i was now trying not to get killed by a bunch of half human half monster things on motorcycles. i ran to this abandoned town that was lit only by the moon. there was a girl in one of the houses that was packing a backpack for me with random stuff, and she told me to take it and go to the house up the mountain. THE house that appears in my dreams whenever there's a house involved. went in and took the secret passageway that slopes downward into the storage closet of the underground den. kinda like a laundry chute.....
dun remember what happened after that.
........ no.......
i'm not ready to go back....
. . . Saturday, December 11, 2004 . . . 09:58 p.m. . . .
ieeeiii for playing with people~ it's like people splurge between finals and going home. yesterday was my date with heidi (TENKS FOR THE EARRINGS!! XDDDD <3), then it was chillin at pekkle's. today was play with bryant and then stephanie~ aa.. i missed coffee dates. the kind where you sit there for like 2 hours just talking about everything. i think we could've gone for another 5 no problem X3 tomorrow's gunna be play in the daytime, and then evening-night will be benkyou time for monday final. gawrwrrr...
nde... something's wrong with me again and i dunno what? o_O; cuz things that shouldn't bug me so much DO bug. a lot. like stuff with dahoon. and -little- conflicts between people here and there. and NO, i'm not pmsing. it pisses me off when guys think "she's pmsing" just cuz girls get upset over something even if it's little, like we're not allowed to get upset.
k that was mebe overdoing it, but i just had to get that out.
somebody help me with my hair....... it won't stay straight once step outside.......
. . . Thursday, December 9, 2004 . . . 10:43 p.m. . . .
new pic~
inspired by phi when she told me "draw more~!!"
so here is the result of how i felt.
. . . Thursday, December 9, 2004 . . . 12:15 a.m. . . .
oh man........ i hadn't done homework in bulk loads like that for so long.. 2 projects due tomorrow and i just started them both this afternoon. i'm pretty burnt out. dahoon that turd said he'd call but he hasn't!! i'm disappointed... very sad indeed. but yes... school's been keeping me busy with this and that. i need better time management. and my friends at school just get more and more fun T_T i'm gunna miss them...
yesterday was dinner and catch-up time with satoshi. i like how we always learn new stuff from each other everytime we meet. and considering he's one of my closest friends, i find it weird how him and hoon have never met. kondo shoukai suru kara socal ni kina~
i love my new keyboard~ :3 happiness <3
i have nothing to blog about these days. my head is empty as the summer sky...
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