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. . . Wednesday, September 10, 2003 . . . 1:27 a.m. . . .
the past couple days of drama (not my own) have settled down a bit, things are cleared up, and now i'm just waiting for the dust to settle. thank god it stopped today cuz i was really starting to reach my limit. dahoon wasn't too happy about the fact that certain people kept calling throughout the day. mya <3
as for my side of life, no drama, all good. for the most part. daily life is still the same ol' go to bh, meet up with people, go out to eat or drink or shoot pool or invade someone's house or any combo of the above. i need a job. other than that, i must finish my upcoming pitas layout, continue on brainstorming for my yet again altered manga, sell stuff on ebay, and finish school stuff. ugh... need another cold shower. at this point, i haven't taken a warm one in weeks.
. . . Sunday, September 7, 2003 . . . 1:21 a.m. . . .
just as you think you helped someone solve a problem and all is good now, someone else has to get all pissed off at you saying, "why didn't you tell me anything, mirae??" what the fuck am i supposed to do? her problems are not my business, i was just giving my opinion on the situation cuz it was asked for, and she made her own moves based on how she felt about it. it wasn't my place to say anything about the situation to anyone, and the whole thing went by so fast i didn't even know what to do. the timing for certain things were off, and i can't do anything about that. friggin a.... why get pissed at me? cuz i didn't tell something that wasn't supposed to be told?? god... on top of that the people i need to talk to are busy. SLDKFJALS;KF ....
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other than that i had a nice day. too bad it ended on such a shitty note.
. . . Wednesday, September 3, 2003 . . . 2:06 p.m. . . .
fuhahahahaha yesterday was good fun. i went to jason's and we raided dahoon's place where john was, and then went to taekwondo~ i would not be surprised if someone broke their foot... x_X; after that we went to lollicup and migrated over to champion where i ALMOST won against pan... couple people wanted to go to noraebang so dahoon, jason, john, bundy, paul, simon, plus 3 other girls, and i headed over to rosen, but they were being asses about our age (i dun think i ever wanna go there again) so we went to some other place i dun remember..... it was fun! and cheap! :D helen is intimidatingly good at singing. i didn't want to sing after her, and she was the first ._. but i was convinced to do a duet with her for "when you believe" by whitney houston and mariah carey... T_T hauuu... time really flies when you're in nrb.. it was 1 before i knew it o_O; i'm laaaaaaaaate!!! but thas ok. mom hasn't said anything about my constant 20-30mins tardy or 1.5hour the other night. mya.... ikka.. mebe she'll bitch at me later if she remembers. or if we're ever home at the same time. she's always sleeping by the time i get home, and i'm always sleeping when she leaves for work. so before yesterday, i hadn't seen her for about 3 days or so.
dood my dreams are getting more and more messed up as the days go by. prolly says something about my subconscious, and it's not good for me!! T_T dahooooon!!! dun leave meeee!!!!!!! ::sob::
. . . Monday, September 1, 2003 . . . 2:19 p.m. . . .
whoaaaaa... it was a goood weekend, mang! heidi and michelle came over for a couple days and we met up with dahoon bundy jason and john~ pan was there for a while, too. we went to eat, pool hall, got boba, went shopping, party at paul's, shtuffs like that~ XD twas fun! but now i'm bored outta my mind cuz heidi left and feeling a little sick from eating. there's no pleasing my stomach nowadays =_= when i get hungry, i eat, but when i do, i feel sick. GAH. ew...... there's a bottle of chamisul sitting next to me and a shot. it smells like shit. ::haaaaa:: SOMEONE HELP MEEEE!! I'M BORED!!!
. . . Friday, August 29, 2003 . . . 11:59 p.m. . . .
wednesday i hung out with dahoon jason and john. had food, boba, and then played soul calibur 2 at john's house till i had to go home. oddly since that afternoon till yesterday night, i felt pretty crappy. i dunno if depressed would be the word for it... nnn... inadequate? i'm sure there was disappointment mixed in there somewhere, but hey, it was prolly one fatass moodswing, yes? today was better. i went out and chilled with them again, only this time, BUNDY CAME!!! long time no seeee~ played sc2 again for a few hours and then went out to eat pasta. the waitress there liked to talk about kimchee ramen o_O; sooooo after some digesting outside, we headed back to john's where i got my car and went to dahoon's place. fell asleep from food coma, was woken up and played RO for a bit. hehe~ yeeeep games are fuuun~ i need to get better at them though -_-; must master the fine art of button mashing. hai. i shall go RO now! must catch up to dahoon!
. . . Wednesday, August 27, 2003 . . . 10:54 a.m. . . .
ugh.... i feel like i slept too much even though i couldn't have gotten more than 9 hours. mebe i shouldn't eat so much right before i go to sleep... last night we celebrated priscilla's bday at chingoo~ talked with john outside for a while cuz all the cigarette smoke was starting to give me a headache. the party ended at 12, almost everyone came out drunk as hell. jason gets really whiny hahahah ^^; funny guy. almost felt sorry for him when he was all pouting and said "... :( can we stay a little longer? just a little T_T" hahahhaah noraebang woulda been fun right about then, too >_< too bad bundy didn't go... he's disappeared for several days now... BUNDY, ARE YOU OK?!?!?! ::haaa...::
heidi and michelle are gunna be down soon!!! XD XD ieeeiiii!!! we can go plaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy~~~~ somewhere~~ dunno where~~ XDDDDD LIVE AT MY HOUSE FOR THE WEEKEND!!! man... i wish i had a console...
. . . Monday, August 25, 2003 . . . 11:15 p.m. . . .
i had one of those days where you realize things about life. when you're driving, all you can really do is think so i had time since going to bh takes about an hour. dahoon, jason, john, and i went to sushi mac for dinner. $2.50 per plate, doesn't matter what's on it. niiice~ their spicy mayo's really good~ nde, pan joined us to go watch freddy vs jason. that movie was more funny than anything else. all that violence and shit was pretty unrealistic and overdone, but the humor made up for it. all the girls in there had really obvious breast implants. it bugged. alright... i'm exhausted... g'nite.
. . . Sunday, August 24, 2003 . . . 6:34 p.m. . . .
my mom had another one of those talks with me about what our family/financial situation is and stuff. makes me dislike my dad even more. i won't go into further detail on that. stuff like that makes me feel stupid for getting all pissy for being woken up cuz she can't figure out how to print out email or empty the trashcan... =_=#
and then to lift spirits, she dragged me out shopping. i didn't feel like going, but went anyway. you know something's wrong when you can't enjoy walking around a mall when you usually jump at the chance to go. i was extremely bored except when we went to eat at the rainforest cafe, which was quite interesting. it rains in there. and they have fish taaaaaanks *_* looked like a mini aquarium *____* while we were waiting for our food (which took forever and wasn't the best in the world), i taught mom the rules of playing push-the-sugar-to-the-ledge game. the one jason always loses when playing me XD lol it was interesting how my mom got so into it. hahahah she lost 4-1. but no, she didn't eat them. =_= che... despite the boredom, i think we got some mother-daughter bonding done.
i had a weird dream, something about being taken hostage and last minute confessions...? very dramatic. must've been the effect of the phone call last night.
on a lighter note, HEIDI'S COMING DOWN FOR LABOR DAY WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!! XDDDDDDDDDD KYAAAAAAAA MY BEIBIIIII!!!! we shall go TEAAAAAAAAAAA XDDDDDDD LIKE THE GOOD OLE DAAAAAAAYS!!!!!! KYAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
. . . Saturday, August 23, 2003 . . . 9:58 p.m. . . .
hahahahaha dahoon told me last night the reason i feel sick all the time nowadays is cuz the air here is bad. YES! IT SUCKS ASS!! i feel enlightened~ the sky's still clear everyday. myahaha~ today was another day of RO binging. still have a loooong way to go before knight. and priestess. congrats to shino on making priestess! ^_^ i backed up about half the files i needed to back up on my comp, and will get bundy to put winXP on it. hai. plug and play is good. hai. THIS BETTER WORK T_T i miss being online on my own comp with noone to kick me off T_T i have commission to mail out, auctions to put up, files to back up, comp to reformat, and dahoon has 5 days to get his license. iei~
i can tell dad's bored. he watches tv all day and surfs the net. whatever happened to getting a job??? isn't that the reason we moved down here in the first place?!?!?! WHY ISN'T HE FUCKING DOING ANYTHING?!?!!?!?!??!?!?! lkasjf ;lksajf ;lkasjf ;laskjf ;ls ::haaaaaaaaaa:: .... i was trying to teach him how to work the laundry machines yesterday. i told him what does what and what you needed to set it to depending on the amount of laundry, even though everything was clearly labeled and completely self-explanatory. a 1st grader could figure this shit out. ["ok so you turn it this way and set it here...?" no, you gotta turn it this way, clockwise ::makes motion with hand::, otherwise you're not setting anything. make sure the marker it set here, cuz the other functions don't matter for normal laundry. "ok so you set it here..." NO. HERE. i just said the other functions don't matter. "k so turn this way and set it here..." NO! i just said clockwise! otherwise you're not setting anything.] lskjf;lkajs ;flksdf;lkj omg... it was so frustrating... he was staring straight at it and nodding, but was completely spaced out half the time. fuckin a... f;lskjf ;lskfj ;ls someone teach me how to have more patience with parents.... i think my time to learn is waaaay overdue....
. . . Friday, August 22, 2003 . . . 12:45 a.m. . . .
kyahahahahaha whoever thought a day with the intent to ro binge would turn out so great? it all started when i woke up around noon, and i started playing RO. michelle joined me after a little while XD XD i tanked! on my own chara! for the first time! XD i felt so proud~ ^_^ she had to go soon after though... apparently, so did i, cuz i left around 4 for bh to chill with dahoon, who i hadn't seen for 2 days. 2 days.... it's been unheard of since i moved. we invaded bundy's place and headed for panda express when about half way there, we turned around to get jason. hahahahahaha poor bundy... he drove ^_^ thanks much~ food at panda, boba at lollicup (where we had fun with the melted wax in the candles and jason's lighter), and then spontaneously decided to go karaoke! they call it noraebang around here ~_~ it's a korean thing... song room. myeh~ dood, i had no idea going as a 4-person group would be so much fun XD jason's awesome at rapping, and dahoon's sexay when he sings *_* i couldn't hear bundy, man -_- and he didn't really sing, he just kinda backed up whoever had the mic. sing next time, man! :D of course, it was nothing like when akg went karaoke, heidi and michelle duetting with me~ did 'seasons' just for you, heidi! XD so yeh, got out around 11:45ish? i didn't care if i was late ^^;; got home around 12:30. a one-hour trip made in half~ :D highways late at night are nice and empty. well... sorta... but yeh..
so................... when i got home................ nothing seemed different. or unusual. except i noticed the hallway light was on upstairs. and then i heard someone clearing their throat. it was dad. .... dad came back?! o_O; wth?? i dunno how long he plans on staying... we said hi, he asked how things were going, and asked for my email. which means he'll be leaving again. and i think i'll get outta here as fast as i can tomorrow. i assume he's taking his computer, so i prolly won't be online till i get my computer reformatted.
. . . Thursday, August 21, 2003 . . . 01:57 a.m. . . .
i binged on RO today. half the time i was hunting, and the other half i was helping people and chatting. it's great. lvl30 support aco being tanked sohee. it's even greater. :D and i've never seen so many munak and bongun in one place before o_O; was scary... so other than RO, i haven't been up to much today. dahoon went out to drink and there was this gut wrenching feeling i got when he told me. simple thoughts induce gut wrenching feelins, too. not a pleasant thing when your stomach feels heavy... ::haa:: i'm back to my daily bowl of rice eating habit again. lost appetite. dunno why. geh.... T_T
. . . Tuesday, August 19, 2003 . . . 10:50 a.m. . . .
nya??? mom's working now?!! wow~ i'm happy for her. this means i get the house to myself once in a while myahaha. i plan on staying home today. and possibly for a while? going to bh everyday puts a strain on my car and mileage, plus i think i may be crowding dahoon so i give him space. got commission to work on, computer to fix, sjsu stuff to handle, work to find. ::haaa:: goddamn i keep losing the things i wanna say... if you wanna relieve stress, you can draw, or play piano.
12:47pm
if girl is going out with guy A, then is it ok for guy B to tell her he likes her? what if guy B is guy A's friend? what's girl supposed to do? btw...... i'm not the girl in this hypothetical situation. it's for my manga T_T
9:05pm
http://www.geocities.com/kanojo_no_choco/sailorv.jpg
took me all day x_X; got a headache from staring at a screen for so long... this be commission of sailor v, just finished.
. . . Monday, August 18, 2003 . . . 12:00 a.m. . . .
daaaaah~~~ dood the days pass so slowly yet so quickly... kinda scary. slept in till 12 or so, and man, having your window open at night really makes a difference. i slept well. today was the doomsday of being dragged to ktown galleria by mom. it wasn't too bad, though i really would've preferred staying home. but noone lives here other than us two and she doesn't go out much and yeh... figured it wouldn't hurt to keep her company for a while. man... just... don't go grocery shopping on weekends. it's hell. after a couple hours we came back and i played RO for a while until dahoon summoned me to go eat at wako's. we met up with bundy there. oh man. that place has really good tonkatsu. actually i had chicken katsu, but still. it was really. good. norcal people, we should all go there sometime. yesh. afterward we went to bundy's house to chill and get my computer, which unfortunately, could not be fixed. gotta reformat after backing files up. and phi called while i was there!! :D :D :D hisashiburiiiii my looooove <3 <3 <3 we shall play play after everyone moves down and we make plans to chillll~~ <3
that was just about what happened today. i had other thoughts going through my mind the past few days, but i dun remember what they were... mebe i post them later.
. . . Friday, August 15, 2003 . . . 10:18 a.m. . . .
my computer's going under surgery with dr bundy. trying to figure out what's wrong with the networking. if worst comes to worst, i'm gunna have to back stuff up onto cd and reformat and HOPE that works. i miss my comp... i want my music. waking up to nothing is kinda... ew...
speaking of which, i've been waking up really early these days. before 10? and i actually get up, too. it feels like i'm wasting so much time if i sleep past 11. and i dun do anything productive though... i dunno, mebe it's the feeling that i COULD be doing a lot of things, which i prolly should be doing.
job status: the manager at hallmark said, "mebe i can squeeze you into the schedule". iei? ::haa:: i'll need a job to keep me busy. dahoon's going to school in september and i'm so used to going out everyday and seeing him and his friends that i dunno what i'd do on days i don't have work and can't see them. i think life is teasing me. i get to see him for a little bit, and then he's gotta go away. wtf.
11:58pm
mm... long day, but it was fun! well.. morning wasn't really. i helped put up the new blinds in the kitchen. those big long ones that go in front of the sliding door. twas interesting, i used a power tool for the first time in my life. mom screwed it up cuz she just stuck the bit in there without putting it in the holder first -_- now it's lodged in the drill and i have no idea how we're gunna get it out. wonderful, yes? after that i ate a little and was preparing to go out when my mom had me watch some of the news with her. blackout in the east coast, largest one in us history they say. canada was in a state of emergency, and i was thinking 'this reminds us how we take things like power for granted'.
i dun remember how it came up.
mom: jinho's phone bill this month came out to $230. he sent more than 1000 text messages and he only gets 200 free, he spent 18 hours playing games on his phone, went over his minutes like crazy, blah blah blah--- and i got SO mad!
me: .......... i see..........;;;; uh........ truth be told, i kinda need help on my phone bill, too...;;;
mom: .... what? how much?
me: ....twohundredseventydollars.
mom: WHAT?!?!?!?!!?! no!!
thanks mom. nice to know i can count on you when i need you. ::haaa:: whatever... for some reason i'm not stressing out like i thought. mebe it hasn't totally sunk in for me? perhaps i'm in shock? i doubt it...;; looks like commissions need to be put up more.
so i went out to dahoon's for the day, as usual. hooked up my tablet to his computer and doodled. he was disturbingly attached to the pen....;;; i wonder how my comp's doing...? so yeh, we went out with jason a while later to get food and boba. dood, lollicup here is like a cafe. tea, shaved ice, slushies, all that stuff, and you sit down and they serve you! how come the lollicup i went to up north isn't like that?! o_o .......... anyway... we went to the pool hall and played for a bit when a couple guys walked in and started playing with us. met them once before, doudemo iiya. it was a fun day ^_^ like most everyday. minus the phone bill and fact that dahoon's going to norcal in september, i'm quite shiawase and loving life right now. it can only get better when michelle steph phi kenji and kevin move down, yah??
there's been no word from my dad yet. at this point, i haven't seen/heard from him in 2 weeks. and i don't mind my family situation. mebe i'm just numb. or used to it. should i be worried?
. . . Wednesday, August 13, 2003 . . . 12:30 a.m. . . .
ara maa.. prince somehow got outta the backyard and a neighbor just came by to let us know he saw him wandering around the front...;;; dood, you can't hear the doorbell upstairs. i was lucky to be in the hallway. i found him when i went out the back of the yard =_=;
dahoon gave me a wakeup call at 8. i dunno why i wanted him to call so early in the morning, but i guess it was good for me even though i was an unproductive as if i were to wake up at 11. went to dahoon's around noonish or so, and played RO on his super sexay computer. i made a vit swordie! oooh the sexiness of just not being able to die. unless you're suicidal. XD john jason bundy and pan came over later, and we went out to eat and shoot pool. twas fuuun~ i actually played today :D and got jason to laugh, that was fun, too ^_^ it's not good to keep such a serious scary face all the time, man. it's bad for you. just like smoking! un, was coming home when i figured i'd be reeeeeally tired so i called people but their phones weren't on or something so i drove back in a really sleepy zoned out state of mind. not good.... honestly thought i would not make it home. until the phone rang scaring the bejeezus outta me and it was satoshi. we talked for a bit, and then i retired myself for the night and took a shower. but for some reason i didn't want to be in my room, so now i'm back downstairs online. still haven't been able to get bundy to look at my comp. zettai ashita ni suru.
. . . Monday, August 11, 2003 . . . 10:44 p.m. . . .
wow it's still early. the drive from bev hills to home took only 45 minutes. it didn't even feel that long cuz i was on the phone with heidi. and normally the drive's about an hour. it's nice when there's no traffic.
the sky's so different here than in norcal. sunsets are a lot more colorful thanks to the pollution. and then there's the night sky and the moon and the clouds, it's like when you feel you're in a dome and you can see the wall keeping you in. or something, i dunno. cuz sometimes when you look at the sky long enough, you feel like the little snowman in the globe, yah? ... anyway... i dunno where i was going with that.
fear is an element in life just recently constantly shoving its ugly face into mine, and it's not a pleasant view. i haven't gotten anything on my list done. at all.
. . . Sunday, August 10, 2003 . . . 11:10 p.m. . . .
aa... sunday... the day of rest.. only how can it be a day of rest when i can't even sleep in past 9 cuz of construction going on next door with people jackhammering or chainsawing or nailing shit?! ::haaaa:: and yes, this goes on everyday. can't sleep in. i dunno how i manage some mornings sleeping till 11 or so. those are good mornings. i planned on washing my car and cleaning my room and stuff yesterday, but it didn't happen mostly cuz the stress after i saw my phone bill kinda skyrocketed and almost had a heart attack. must tell mom about it. because i can't pay it. but before i tell her, i need to at LEAST job hunt so she doesn't get even more pissed about how i haven't even found a job yet. so far the only job i have is commissions. they're small. current one is a $31 bishoujo portrait. oh crap i still gotta apply to sjsu. giving myself a week to do everything. job, bill, school, wash car, clean room, send out health insurance crap. GAH!! looks like i'm gunna have to cut down on going to bh/la a lot... damn.
. . . Saturday, August 9, 2003 . . . 1:06 a.m. . . .
it's strangely hot. and for some reason i'm having images like flashbacks or memories of someone i dunno. mebe it's the ramen i had. mebe it's the heat AND the ramen. either way it's not doing too much good for me cuz i can't tell if it's just my imagination coming up with someone or if it really happened. i smell like cigarettes. jason and pan, smoking is bad for you. stoppit. i bet mom's gunna think i picked up the habit. cold showers are good for you, man. though guys would prolly prefer not to take them on pain of shrinkage. in rare situations, being a girl is good. this would be one of them.
8:57pm
lesson relearned this moment: don't eat if you're not hungry. that includes when you're stressed, angry, scared, depressed, sad, or anything else that comes to mind. currently, i am stressed. life is good. oh yeah. ::spaz::
. . . Thursday, August 7, 2003 . . . 9:34 p.m. . . .
ou.. back from.. a very long... 2 days traveling. somehow we made it to cupertino in 6 hours, despite traffic, iei. went for sushi dinner with mom and brother, which was cool, and then i went to heidi's to go to product pickup in sf. got to see people, ieeeiii~ spent a few hours chatting with the ladies, something i hadn't done in a loooong time. and then we went to svgl to meet up with michelle, brian, and bryant! after some games, we migrated over to michelle's, where we proceeded to just chill, and play pool all night. allll night. i think i was the only one who didn't sleep, thanks to our death coffee which was fatally sweet. the 2nd cup was worse x_X; i can feel my teeth rotting. satoshi came by later in the morning while everyone was asleep, and we played a couple games. so 9 hours or so of playing pool, and then it was already time to go soon. said our short goodbyes, and it was back to the 6 hour car ride of hell. i slept about 3 hours, and continued to brain-idle the rest of the way home. we were ALMOST home when my mom decided she'd take a different exit off the highway. no, bad, just exit on beach. but no, she just exited. we were lost for about an hour. eventually we found our way back. and got off on beach. ::haaaa:: prince was in total chaos when we got back. i guess he thought we had left him for good. baka da naa... he was so excited when i opened the door, friggin jumping everywhere slobbering all over the place trying to jump onto me, and when i sat down he wouldn't get off my lap =_=;; we went out for a run and i gave him a galbee bone to chew on after getting back. he's still crying in the back. geh.... i'm still hot and sweaty from the run. shower. sleep. good.
11:05pm
i was thinking in the shower.. why is it that some guys treat the girls they like like crap? they say "i like you" or "i love you", and things are good for a time, but then they just start giving you the cold shoulder or neglect or they go off and play around with other girls while still saying "i love you", i dunno. is it some guy thing i'm not understanding? ....am i making sense? let's say... two people really like each other and mebe even "together" and one were say "i love you so much, you're so special to me and i'm so happy i met you" kinda romantic thing like that, but then they also say stuff like 'i wanna die, my life is shit, nothing's worth living for, everything's pointless, i'm fuckin depressed', makes me wonder if they thought how the other would feel hearing that, since he/she is supposed to be a highlight in life - something good that (is supposed to) make the other person feel life IS worth living for, but then no. wouldn't they feel kinda.. worthless? i dunno... i'm just blabbing.. kinda like a freewrite thing i guess....
. . . Tuesday, August 5, 2003 . . . 11:32 p.m. . . .
... i joined friendster. i have no idea what i was thinking. michelle schemed me into it. as of right now, i have one friend! and she's the one that dragged me to the dark side. so popular i am. today i chilled at dahoon's house. and then we chilled with his friends for a bit before i had to come home early to help mom take out the laundry machines so they could be taken away in the morning. speaking of which, i will be leaving around 11ish for norcal. but i dun even get a full day in cupertino to spend with people. i feel like the whole trip is a waste of my time. the only thing keeping me from staying here would be that i get to see mihbr. noone's sleeping while i'm there, YA HEAR?!
thoughts at the moment:
= i should stop this habit of eating when i get the urge to chew something.
= round trip to beverly hills and back takes about as much gas as a one way trip from toga to santa cruz. just takes twice as long.
= michelle is evil. making me join friendster ::mumble2::
= this computer makes me not wanna play RO. why? cuz the lag is stupid. not just slow, but stupid. how? it'll freeze on me for about 15 seconds, and when i finally move, it's only a couple inches, and then stops again, and when it gets movin, it goes about halfway across the screen in the wrong direction, stops, and then skips its way to where i want to go. at this point, there prolly wouldn't be much of a difference playing on 56k.
= oh frick... stuck with mom in her car for the drive up to and from norcal. someone help me, please.
= slang... socal doesn't use much slang that i'm aware of.. i still have yet to use "grip". i've heard jason use it a few times.
= omg the desktop background just changed....
. . . Monday, August 4, 2003 . . . 12:07 p.m. . . .
finally new layout! gotta love dsl. i was up till 5 and i didn't even realize it until i came back down to RO. i learned it's a lot harder to make a layout when you can't have images. so i just kinda ripped this one off typical xanga layouts. so sad... ooooh~ we have a new grocery shopping system in the house~ niiice... whoa it feels like dad moved out or something cuz we live like he doesn't live here anymore. maa... considering he hasn't contacted us and we dunno when he's coming back, i guess it's the only thing we can do.
11:56pm
dood... my life right now seems like just one big dream. this whole moving thing still hasn't sunk in completely or something. why do i say that, you ask? cuz i fell asleep at dahoon's and when i woke up, i was thinking "where am i? ...what am i doing down here? in socal. oh thas right, i moved... what is this place..." the fact that i get to see dahoon everyday also seems surreal. it's weird cuz i never get to see my bf so often. this might contribute much to becoming a clingy dependent girl.
oh my. ok, girls down here are just weird as fuck. random girl who knows the people i was with at the pool hall comes up and asks dahoon, "oh, is this your girlfriend?" and when he says yeah, she says hi, and then proceeds to put her arm around him and asks for a cigarette. uh. woman. fuckin hands off my man. and he dun smoke. friggin a. dahoon caught me glaring at her.... ._.;;; ::haa:: gotta do something about this over-possessive problem of mine. oh, i met pan today. hahaha he's funny as hell. twas another day of fun with some more korean people. it doesn't feel so weird being around them anymore.
nanka saa.. when we were at dahoon's, i was playing RO while the guys played tekkentag, and listening to them spaz out made me feel all mellowed out and quite content. i have no idea why. shiawase deshita. i guess it's cuz it was something i wanted to do when i moved down. chill somewhere with him and his friends and play video games. myaaa~~
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