VECTOR by sakamoto maaya told myself for a long time don't go there, you will only be sorry told myself so many times i just had to take a look in those faraway eyes
in them i saw a longing for something maybe i couldn't give it said "it's all in my mind it aint nothing"
don't say that don't say that darling no don't say anything at all because i've seen it now i can't pretend anymore "it aint nothin"
do you know what i mean? and have you seen it to? do you know what i mean? do you know? and i'll do anything just tell me what it means cuz i can't live in doubt anymore do we try or do we just say goodbye?
if you'd rather be somewhere that's not here then you just gotta tell me cause there's so much more to life than pretending
don't you know? don't you know? darling for you i'd do anything at all i wanna be with you but that look in your eyes tells me something
do you know what i mean? and have you seen it too? do you know what i mean? do you know? and i'd do anything just tell me what it is cuz i can't live in doubt anymore do we try or should we just say goodbye?
i wanna know, can you tell me? i wanna know, will you tell me? is it hello, is it goodbye?
i gotta know, won't you tell me? i gotta know, you can tell me is it hello, or just goodbye?
i gotta know, can you tell me? i gotta know, will you tell me? is it hello, is it goodbye
i gotta know won't you tell me? i gotta know you can tell me is it hello is it goodbye?
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absent-minded niche || kiraku na akuma v8.o |
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new layout done. its the end of the month (almost), and i won't be here to put it up on the 1st of july, so i thought might as well do it now, ne? good distraction from all that bothers you~ ::smile:: still have tons of stuff to do, though..;;;
wow. 5 days left. i still have things to get done. i dun think i need any more emotional strains on me with all this stuff going around. being unhappy while you have things to be rushing isn't healthy. i have work tomorrow from 2:30-8:30. wonderful...
work was long. it was only a 4-hour shift, but it seemed to take forever. maybe it was cuz i was hungry for the first 3 hours of it. =_=; but i had inari sushi and milk tea, so all was good after a little while. i met this girl during my break - she was wearing wings on her back and walking around, and when she sat near me, i asked her why she was wearing them. she said they were for a school project, and she goes to a tiny little animation school in sunnyvale. and she's gunna be staff at ax!!! =D =D =D so she told me to call her cell when we get there, and she can get us into the exhibit hall JUST LIKE THAT! XD KYAAAA!!! she's SOOOO cool!! and we were only talking for a few minutes! =D so yes, that made me happy. aside from that, i still need to get plane tickets with the vouchers. still need to make gloves for misao costume. still gotta get money for shopping. still gotta work work work. i need something to spice up life at work. weekdays are so slow and boring. weekends - you don't have time to be bored! >_< oh yeah, gotta draw, too. and summer school starts on monday. still gotta send in fees for classes. crappit!
oo... i'm feeling unusually mellow, but i'm at gaki's house so all is good. i can finally get away from home for a while. spending the night is such a wonderful thing. i dunno how much i'll be sleeping though. =P she has a costume to rush like.. big time. but i think she'll be ok. i hope i can come back tomorrow after work. if not, then i pray that my mom won't bug me when i try napping tomorrow. thursday i get the day off. lucky!
plans told to my parents: going to work, getting off around 3, going to mall, dinner with ran, will be home by 9. plans as day went on: went to work, got shaved ice with kaijuu, picked up gaki, dropped off kaijuu, picked up pekkle, cosplay shopping, dropped off at pekkle's, went to see jack, came home 9:25, mom bitched, vented to dad. reflection of day: hella tired the whole time, ran called and since mom thought i was with him, had to lie to get out of a lose-my-car situation, ran can now cover for me. right now: hungry. haven't eaten anything all day except shaved ice, and i dun think that counts as food. curfew needs to be extended. i vented to my dad about how mom never talks to me like i'm human, just some servant to do all the house work, and how she bitches at me when i come home a few minutes past curfew when she's the one who set the damn thing at 9pm. he says he understands. i hope he talks to her about it cuz i can't take too much more getting yelled at while trying to compromise. got so pissed i almost cried. whatever. i'm tired. tomorrow's my day off. i'm gunna sleep in till noon and then go out. where? i dunno. hungry. food.
yaho~ work lasted way too long. i still like the pattern of getting up in the morning to go to work, though~ i bought 2 bags of chestnuts from the little stand outside cuz it smelled so good! >_< mori-san (the guy that runs it) thought i was japanese cuz i answered him in japanese. ^^; peter, this one korean dude that works at the miyabi shop also thought i was japanese, till i spoke korean ^^;; jun-san gave me shaved ice for free! =D interesting day. after work- ran took me out to food. yes, again. he hates eating alone for some reason. =_= i feel like he's temporarily replacing the girl he likes with me cuz she's outta town. scarier- he says i'm kinda like her. o_O;; i don't see how, but ok. and then i took kaijuu home. and HOME ALONE!! XD i haven't had the house to myself in the LONGEST time! =D this is sooo nice! and it just hit me earlier today that i'll have the house all to myself for a few days before ax, too!!! XD XD rest of the family's going to tahoe for 4th of july with other relatives~ XD i get the house to myselllf~~ =D niiiice~~ stress? oh yes. plenty of it. i gotta make a costume, get plane tickets with vouchers, get summer school fees paid, and somehow talk to mike boss about getting a week off cuz of ax. same with kaijuu. tom boss said it was pretty much "la headquarters sees it as either you work, or you don't". o_O;; kowa... since i'm entering the ddr contest at ax with gaki, i also gotta get my timing skills up to par. hmm... i feel like there's something else i gotta do... but i can't remember what... ~_~ man.. i'm so screwed if i realize it too late...
man... haven't even had time to go online the past few days, and i want to SLEEP! bad day at work cuz 3 or 4 women were giving me hell about the smallest things, and even after i fixed it, they still bitched. ::sigh:: thursday night i didn't even sleep, though i tried. i think i got an hour's worth IF even that much... for some reason vegetables and obligations to someone ran through my mind the whoooole night... it was really annoying. i was ok for most of the day on friday, but when 6pm came around, i started getting a "bit" sleepy. i slept 12 hours till 10:30 or so today. kaijuu called cuz i was supposed to pick her and gaki up for work. again, i was ok for most of the day. 7-8 was a reeeeeeeally long hour... ran took me and gaki out to dinner, and then i came home. it is currently 11:14, and i am going to sleep. nite.
ran stopped at mitsuwa so i could get my car, and he was gunna go drop kaijuu off. he wanted to race. we raced. down saratoga and prospect. i won. XD tanoshikattaaaa~~~ <3 tomorrow he wants to take me to a buffet. o_O;; takai... he paid for both me and kaijuu at in-n-out and now he wants to pay for buffet?? o_O;; something about a really good barbeque...;;; maa... sounds good~ ^_^
man... woke up at 9 and already the day feels really long. this is the problem with waking up in the mornings, na? =_= anyway, i took my brother to get his hair (or what's left of it) cut, and during that time, i also went to office max to just browse around. i like their furniture. i want their furniture. i'd remodel my room to make space for more furniture. ;_; especially their desks. then i went to school to return my textbooks (late, i know), but the library was closed and the textbook room was on lunch break. i dun wanna go back at 1:30... those are long lunch breaks, dude... 2 hours.. gaki's coming over later and we're gunna have a costume cramming session. i'm guessing i just won't make the ayashi no ceres costume, cuz at this rate, i dun know if i'll get my misao outfit done. though last year it only took me 24 hours to do it... this year might be a liiittle different cuz i have work and gotta draw and stuff.. which reminds me.. i gotta finish the pic i started yesterday... =_= and i'm gunna go visit kaijuu at work cuz i gotta talk about next week's work schedule with the boss anyway. ^_^
going to 3 malls in one day can be pretty fun~ ^_^ kaijuu and i went out to eastridge cuz i needed to exchange some shorts, and we walked around for a bit. then we went to westgate so she could get some cosplay stuff. then we went to vallco cuz i wanted to play ddr, but then my feet started hurting so i guess just watching was fine. too bad there was noone to watch. =_= we walked around for a bit and then came home and i fed her 2 bowls of ramen. that pig. >_< gaki called. she talked about how she was lonely all day and that she was upset that kaijuu and i went places without her and she started crying... that put a dagger through my heart. =_= pms, i tell you. it's a wonderful thing, no? CHE!! so yeah... felt bad till she came over with... her humongous portfolio, psone, and cosplay stuff. she played ff8 for a coupla hours while i drew. i fed her ramen, too. ~_~ they love my ramen. i feel so loved. =_= so yes, it turns out that tomorrow might be a biiiit of a hectic schedule. gaki's coming over all day for cosplay session, and then she has to change her schedule for school... and kaijuu's too. that's gotta be between 1 and 3... then i gotta go visit kaijuu and ran at work tomorrow... then gaki has sat classes from 6something to 7something... nnn... dood... ax is in 14 days...
ran called earlier and asked if i wanted to go to raging waters. HELLLLLLLL NO!!! O_O me?! wearing a bathing suit?! NOOOOOOOO!!!! ;_; and since when did i get so self conscious about wearing a bathing suit?! i wasn't like this last year! so yeah, i told him i didn't wanna go, so he's going with his friend. he's taking me to movies later, though. i wonder if kaijuu wants to go, too. =P tonikaku, i need to do costuuuuume!! i need motivationnnn! i need yarukiiiii!!! ;_; someone help meeeee!!!
so yes~ i get all the way till friday off~ XD that means i get ALL THAT TIME to WORK ON MY COSTUMES and DRAW!! =D i have no idea when i get my paycheck, so i can't do anything till then. o_o;;; come to think of it, i can't do anything till i get back from ax! i'm getting more days off than i expected and i only have another 15 days before ax!! looks like i'll be taking money out from the bank afterall... ::sigh:: but that's ok! i'm just looking forward to having fun! XD life is already fun! i like this pattern of waking up in the morning and leaving the house for work. ^_^ better than going to school. of course you get tired, but that's only expected~~ =D ah, sou da!! kaijuu, mike said he'd know by monday for sure when you can work~ heidi, too! and and and... PLANE TICKETS!! still gotta get those taken care of... o_o;;; stress!! NOOOOOOO!!!! must call in in the morning...!! ok... after that's over with, the only source of stress left is costumes... and getting money... ::haa::
after work, we planned with ran to go to the movies. so we went for a quick round of ddr before leaving. but no, mom was being anal about how i went out till 12 the other day and how she doesn't want me going anywhere past 9. so we didn't get to go to the movies. which i was really looking forward to cuz i haven't been to the movies in forever. i don't like my mom. i think it's obvious from past entries. so yes... tiring day at work and it's hot. i'm going to bed now. 'yasumiiii~~
for what happened yesterday, read kaijuu's pitas. (it's the friggin long entry) i want food. and tomorrow's another long day...
but oh my god. tuesday. yesterday. it felt like foreverrr... woke up at 6, heidi left, i took a shower, went to school and took chem and math. they were so hard!! i went to MV around 1 to find gaki and kaijuu so we could go take pics and get artist alley permit in san jose. they weren't there, so i went home to check the answering machine, and it ended up that they had been at kaijuu's since 10something. o_o;; so yeah, we went to san jose, and i'm NOT going down there by myself! the traffic is HORRIBLE and the drivers just SUCK!! then went to take pics (by this time i was friggin tired and spacing out like crazy). i LIKE the way they came out. a LOT. ::kyaaaaa!!:: gaki's sooooooooo cute in one of them!! i can't get over it! XD so yeah, it was about 3 and we had an hour before gaki had to go to work. she suddenly spazzed about rushing to the arcade ;;; we played ddr and i dropped off gaki at work and kaijuu looked for videos for a while. we went fabric shopping and got food at mcdonalds. kaijuu went home and i came home around 7 and watched new hana yori dango tapes from connie till about 12-1. slept. english final this morning was easy. the rest of today? i think i'll work on akg and mebe get pics later if kaijuu can't get them. i need gas money. ..... or nap. tired... ::collapse::
so yeah... planned bedtime tonight is 4am, and wakeup time would be 6am, cuz heidi has to go home to talk to her dad about going to japan, and she has to take a shower, and i have to take a shower... and... be at school by 7:30...ish... ;;; like i said, tuesday's going to kill me. technically it's already tuesday, na? BUT NOT FOR ME! XD cuz i haven't slept yet, and i'm kinda... high. on coffee. ::smile:: so yes. mirae's going to be one crazy little girl during the day, and i'm SURE people will have fun trying to deal with her lack of sleep and high on caffeine. ::smile2:: wish me luck on finals. math and chem "today". ::sob::
plans for today? oh yeah, i was on the phone with gaki last night till 2something. and we had JUST realized something. AX2001. is less. than a month away. .... isn't that great? as of june10, it's exactly 3 weeks and 3 days away. turn that into a daily countdown, it's 24 days. .......... i need to get going on my costumes!!! stress.
i went to visit gaki at work since it was on the way home. sorta. i noticed she always wears the same orange shirt. and she looked dead. and stressed. and the register was acting up, which wasn't helping her. i bought tea. since i am spacing out, i think i will go entertain myself with some anime. ja.
i had togo's for dinner. avocado and turkey. it was good. really messy though, cuz the avocado kept falling out the back. =_= i need to learn how to eat sandwiches. and now for the weekend of cramming. tomorrow i have chem study session at fantasia with connie and kathryn. then sunday or monday is math cramming with heidi at who-knows-where. i have to do good on my math and chem finals. history i'm already screwed in so it doesn't matter. english is cool, japanese is cool.
i start work next friday from 9am to 6pm.
practically no hw now. the only big thing i gotta do is study for finals... i think i'll take a break today and start studying tomorrow. no more tests. yay.
oh. have a chem test tomorrow which I AM NOT PREPARED for! and i have to ace that final next week!! ;_; noooo!!
things to get done:
things i've gotten done:
aren't i so screwed?
touya: you're genki though it's morning. how unusual.
i went to eastridge with heidi around 1:45 and calculated we'd be there around 2:15. i sped. we got there at 2. ^_^ she had to be back home by 5. i did not know that. crap. we had fun talking about random things, trying on stuff and going to victoria's secret. o_O; it was my first time being there, so i was like O_O;;; are the prices ALWAYS this high!? so that would be the reason i got 4 shirts instead of 8. >_< then we remembered the time. long line. crap. so around 4:55, we sped back. but got lost. yes. lost. so we ended up getting back around 5:30. =_= but that's ok. all good. thank god for cell phones. then gaki called like.. 5 mins after i got back, and asked me to pick her up after work. ok, sure. i went early and watched her count her till. watch-and-learn, baby! monkey see, monkey do, right? ^_^ then we came home and i had some purin. ::niko:: it was after i got home that i realized i had been feeling unusually mellow and empty for a while, which would explain my urge to cry when i got home. pms? no. had that already. did i cry? no. of course not! but yeah. gunna lift my spirits now~ ^_^
but other than that, other things are making me happy! i get to go shopping with heidi tomorrow, made the payment for artist alley at ax, made plane ticket reservations, and finals are next next week~ why am i so happy about finals, you say? cuz studying doesn't sound too bad, and finals mean the end of the school year!! XD sou da, KAIJUU, talk to me for plane reservation info, na? as for right now, i'm gunna go get something to eat before i pass out, and then i'm gunna nap. >___< it's weekend and i get to SLEEP IN BABYYY!!
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akuma (a' ku ma) pron. [Jpn aku (bad, evil) + ma (witch, evil spirit)] 1 member of AKG who is spontaneous, niko-niko, and also a scribbler, manga/anime obsessor, and high school student 2 demon
name: mirae aka: akuma, kanojo(chan) age: 17 bday: 030584 profile: akuma no profile aim/email: kanojo/podho@aol.com links: *akg studios*kaijuu ga iru* * O gravity*eien no yume*kolu* *archive* events: ax2001=july5-8 drawings: coming soon!
PROJECTS manga: *unnamed costumes: *misao *nakuru ax pics: *sailormoon *rayearth *x/1999 *cardcaptor sakura *kenshin *fushigi yuug *weib kreuz *vampire miyu *kaitou jeanne |
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