:: Monday, May 14, 2001 :: 03:18 p.m. ::
WARNING: LOTS OF VENTING.
if there's anything i hate more than being told what to do, it's being yelled at while being told what to do. on the way home from school i asked 'did the dealers call about when they can drop the car off?' she says "it's not when they can drop it off, it's about the price." the price?? i thought we already figured that out. "yeah. it doesn't have an alarm system, and they have to install the key-less doors so you don't have to unlock the doors by hand. they say it'll cost about $600 to install, which is really, really expensive." ...so if everything goes well, about when will my car be ready? "maybe within the month." ..... "mirae, when you get your car, you can't stay out anywhere past 9." why not? "::raises voice:: because it's dark and unsafe! you haven't driven that much at night anyway!" yes i have. "not enough! you haven't gone out more than 10 times at night!" yes i have. "when?! i can't remember when we went driving at night!" ::getting irritated::you weren't in the car. "you didn't go out more than 10 times!" umm.. yeah i have. "::voice gets louder:: well, either way! you're not supposed to have people in the car and it's too dangerous at night and i don't want you driving when it's dark till you've had the car for a few months! and just the other week ::mirae opens window to let some sound out:: you asked if philana could come over and you would be driving!" ... "you have to come home by 9, and if you don't obey those rules, your car will be gone before you know it, and i'm dead serious!"
not a very happy day. HOW many times i've said it before i don't know- but i don't see WHY mom has to yell at me all the time. she doesn't have to raise her voice to get her message across. it'd save her a headache, save me frustration, things would be cool between us, i'd have a good day. if she yells, just the opposite happens, but obviously she doesn't see that because she's too blind to realize that i don't like her cuz she's yelling commands everytime she opens her mouth. ::sigh:: yes, i'm in a bad mood.
i'm sure right about now a lot of people are thinking about how spoiled i am and how i'm acting it. yes, i am. i know that. but it's not cuz the car's not here, it's cuz my parents keep lying to me about it. dad says 'oh yeah, it'll be here soon' 'you'll get it by this weekend' 'mom figured out all the insurance, you should thank her'. he's been saying that for a month. but the truth is that my mom HASN'T gotten the insurance figured out, i'm NOT getting my car any weekend soon, and it's obviously NOT here. dad doesn't yell at me, but his lies and broken promises get to me. i think i'll shut myself into my own little world for the rest of the day.
:: Sunday, May 13, 2001 :: 10:47 p.m. ::
feeling unusually mellow at the moment, and mind's in chaos. doesn't that kinda contradict? oh well...
i still have hw to do but i don't want to do any of it.
i went to jack's house today and we watched 'remember the titans'. funny how we both didn't know it was made by disney till he read the label.
had to pick up brother from friend's house after that.
grandparents came over for dinner.
dad tried to make me feel bad about not getting my mom anything for mother's day. am i obligated to get her something?
how does one quit smoking when he/she doesn't even know why they do it when it tastes like crap and burns to breathe in it?
when can i get my car?
this could all be pms, who knows.
kaijuu, you owe me $10.
:: Sunday, May 13, 2001 :: 12:49 p.m. ::
'hayo san... =_= man... i slept at 5:30am today, and woke up at 10:30 cuz the phone in my room was ringing. i went back to sleep, but was woken up again by my brother's music at 11:30, so i was not very happy. yes yes, "it's your own fault for not sleeping earlier". =_= well guess what? i COULDN'T sleep earlier cuz i had 12 packs of sugar in 2 cups of coffee and 2 cups of tea that evening!
what do i remember from yesterday....? we went to yu ai kai in san jose for community service and be waiters for a dinner that was being served as part of this car thing. it was fun! ^____^ but AKG didn't have anything to eat the whole day except for veeery tiny things, and yeah, we were all starving by the time 7 came around. gaki and i literally shoveled like.. 3-4 plates of food down our throats, along with cake, coffee, and tea. you can only imagine how wired we were after that... kaijuu didn't eat as much, but she was just as hyper as us. so yeah, because of all that excess energy, we all decided to go running around the block! me in heels... kaijuu in sandals... and gaki in normal shoes. =_=; aaaaanyway!
so yeah~ after all that, we went to gaki's house, and chris came over and brough parapara and played that and ddr 4th mix~ <3 i was also introduced to a game called SIMS PARTY HOUSE, and.... yeah.... it was INTERESTING. gaki's brother made me and kaijuu very happy by making 2 guys in the game do some INTERESTING things together! XD KYAHAHA!! i thought the way they "talked" was pretty funny. ^_^ then i got home around 11:30, and went online for a bit, and talked to jack on the phone till 5:30. =P
so yes, that was my interesting little day. and i feel really crappy right now, so i'm gunna go take a shower, eat something, and do some stuff~ ^_^ ja na~ <3
:: Friday, May 11, 2001 :: 02:53 p.m. ::
doHYAAAAAAAA!!!!! i had NO idea that everyone was coming over TODAY to play games! O_o;; i knew i was taking gaki to kino's today, but for some reason i thought the games would be tomorrow! ~_~ ::haa:: relax mirae.... not like you've never had this happen before. ^^;;; despite all my free time, my mind's kinda in chaos, so i'm having a hard time keeping things straight. as for today, my parents said i can have people over, and i can take my dad's car out to kino's~ ^_^ waaaaiii!! i get to see everyone!!! XD XD XD
:: Thursday, May 10, 2001 :: 09:05 p.m. ::
today's pitas shall be in japanese.
kyou wa tottemo ii tenki datta. kanpeki janakatta kedo, atatakakute kaze ga yokatta. sore ni, nandaka hen. yo ji kan me wa "hang out" no otoko no ben to hanashita. ben wa ii yatsu tte saishou kara shitteta kedo, yoku hanashite mire ba sugoku omoshiroi. tomodachi ni nareru to ii na.
sono hoka? betsuni nanimo. mata kazuto ga houkago okurekureta. ;_; arigatouuuu...!! kaette kitara taishita koto wa nakatta. nanka kutte, internet shite, AIM de hito to hanashite... saikin sonna mon bakkari. iya na wake janai kedo, taikutsu nandakara chotto...
ah, sou! atashi wa connie to isshouni 'collab website' yarunda~ manga honyaku ya fanart nado irerunda~ ^_^ tanoshimi! connie wa RIBON kara no manga wo yakushite, atashi wa DNANGEL to IMADOKI yarunda~ hoka no atarashikute ninki aru manga mo yaritai ga, motte nai kara chotto taihen. maa ii~ kore wa nihongo to benkyou yarikata tte iu koto ka~!
:: Wednesday, May 9, 2001 :: 11:51 p.m. ::
sleepyyyyyy......... i updated the manga section below. =_________= man, that took forever! i had to dig out all the old manga stashed away in random parts of my room, flip through them to refresh my memory, make the htm files for each one, and the pictures were giving me a hard time. >_< hauu... and i'm hungry... didn't eat anything since 3. o_O; 9 hours without food!!! ~_~ anyway... yeah, enjoy the little summaries.
:: Wednesday, May 9, 2001 :: 04:57 p.m. ::
::sneeze:: ._. man, niiiice weather outside~! i wore shorts today and it was soooo hazukashiiiii! ;_; i got used to it after a while, though... i sat in the quad after 6th period with mai and kazuto. i met jason and he moved to america in '97 from korea, and really funny~ we (jason, kazuto, mai, and i) were talking about korean and japanese, and all of a sudden out of nowhere, he's like "how do you say 'shut the f*ck up' in japanese?" the 3 of us were like "O_O;;" hahahaha!! it was pretty funny. ^_^
it seems like everyone's either sick or getting bug bites now. tim had a fever but that dork came to school anyway. =_=+ had to yell at him for that. then he neglected heidi a bit. had to yell at him for that, too. and i think about 10 people told me that they have bug bites that were driving them crazy. o_O; i have one on my neck... i think i got it when i was in the yard last night.. for 5 minutes.. =_= when i came inside, i noticed it was there, and i was like "O_O;; WTH?!" ah well...
:: Tuesday, May 8, 2001 :: 09:36 p.m. ::
oh this day could have turned out to be so much better than it was. some things, you just can't help, like the weather. a bit too warm for my taste. i swear i woulda passed out if i got home a moment later. ;_; thank you james!! as for stuff AT school, it wasn't too bad. i went to mcdonalds for lunch with heidi and olivia. came home, got yelled at by my mom cuz i'm "always doing things in the dark", got yelled at again cuz the kitchen sink clogged up (like it's MY fault??), got yelled at again cuz she needed me to help her fix the drain, and yes, once again cuz of some stupid reason, i don't know what. wasn't listening. so yes, today went icky. i hope everyone else's day was better than mine. ::smile::
:: Monday, May 7, 2001 :: 09:34 p.m. ::
::fuaaaaaaaa:: ^____^ tehe~~ nanka ureshii~ i got the thumbnails for my gallery at AKG up and it looks soooo much better! >_< i'm still getting the overall layout done, though. it'll be a few days~ ^_^ everyone go seee~ <3
oh, and i changed my profile a bit, too~ ^_^ i think it looks better now.
:: Monday, May 7, 2001 :: 03:00 p.m. ::
long. hot. day. i wore my sunglasses to school so it wasn't too bad outside, but it was HOT. ;_; thank god for tank tops. if this keeps up, i might even wear shorts tomorrow. O_O;; THE HORROR!! but yeah, whatever.
oh! i can feel my car coming closer! XD my mom asked me for my license number, and my dad promised i'd get my car by this weekend! =D ureshii naa~ tanoshimiiii~~ <3
hungry..... ._.
:: Sunday, May 6, 2001 :: 01:08 p.m. ::
TAAAAAKOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
hai!hai!hai!hai!hai!hai!hai!hai!
:: Sunday, May 6, 2001 :: 12:51 p.m. ::
it's hot. i went out to return a book and got some takoyaki on the way home. man, this stuff is GOOD. tastes different than what i thought it would taste like, but it's still! i should get this more often. too bad it's only sold in one place i know of.
what to do for the rest of the day.. unless something comes up, i'm gunna stay home and... yeah.. try getting my drawing skills back to level again. cg is good.
:: Saturday, May 5, 2001 :: 06:24 p.m. ::
aaa... nice afternoon today. i went out at around 2:45ish and came back around 6. dad lemme borrow his car today~ ^_^ yay~ so yeah, went out to get my mind off of things for a bit, did a nice job at it, and came back~ funny thing is, even though i don't like going places alone, today was really enjoyable~ ah! mebe i should ask for a bit of money and go to hakone gardens tomorrow~ ^_^ ufufu~~
:: Saturday, May 5, 2001 :: 02:15 p.m. ::
sats. suck. they really do! i got up at 7am and finished at 12 and had fries. i'm tired, and when i get home, my parents tell me i should sign up for satIIs. DAMMIT, i don't need them telling me to sign up for another test when i just finished one, and i'm not even planning on taking the satIIs cuz it's not even required for all colleges, and i don't even CARE about whether or not i get into a UC. ::SIIIIIIGH!!!:: need to get out of the house. must get out of house. i know i just came back but i don't care! >_< i need to GET AWAAAAAYYYYYYYY!!!!
;_;
:: Thursday, May 3, 2001 :: 05:38 p.m. ::
had a heart attack when i got home. not literally. i'm better now.
:: Wednesday, May 2, 2001 :: 10:53 p.m. ::
ugh... having such a hard time keeping eyes open... i went to nap at 8, and left an away message saying if it was still there at 10, then someone page me to wake me up. gaki paged me. arigatou i was supposed to study after i got up, but my eyes won't focus on anything, so i can't really look at any books or anything at the moment. i can always study during the day tomorrow, na?
how was my day? it went ok. olivia took me to vallco with her to go pick up a book, and i saw kevin and mike at the arcade and played 2 songs on ddr. ^_^ it was so much fun for some reason. prolly cuz i hadn't moved around much the whole day... we went to mcdonalds (for the 2nd time today), and i got 20piece mcnuggets (2nd time today). i saved about half of it for dinner. ^_^ yum. other than that, not much happened. now i'm gunna go back to sleep. nite!
:: Tuesday, May 1, 2001 :: 08:24 p.m. ::
ok. gaki just called. i feel better.
:: Tuesday, May 1, 2001 :: 08:17 p.m. ::
ok, just remembered that i have laundry to fold... but i'll do that later. =_= god, my mom's such a freak. i came home and took a nap. i heard my mom come in, and then she left without closing the door. =_=+ a got up to close it, and then went back to sleep. then she comes in at 6, and tells me to go pick up my brother from school. i was sleeping so obviously i didn't hear her the first time. then she yelled at me cuz i didn't answer her the 1st time, and i wake up and say "what??". she says "i said go pick up your brother!" ok "OK?!" OK! damn that woman pisses me off. why's she yelling at me all the time?? if i were sleeping, she could have gone to pick him up herself! when i got home, i slept for another hour or so, and as soon as i wake up, my mom comes in and tells me to do the dishes and laundry.
i wonder when the last time she actually talked to me was...? like, say something that wasn't in any way telling me to do something. che... i bet even she prolly can't remember.
... ok... she JUST came in and told me to do the laundry again. then she tried telling me to go to the video store to pick up HER videos! when i told her no, she got mad at me. i think she's getting lazy just cuz i can drive. and because of her laziness, her temper gets shorter if something doesn't go her way. ::sigh:: must not cry.
:: Monday, April 30, 2001 :: 11:59 p.m. ::
~_~ sleepy... i'm gunna go to sleep soon. let's see.. gotta get up before 7 tomorrow to take brother to school. gotta take SATs on saturday. gotta get to school a bit earlier than usual to do olivia's hair. just finished reading cliff notes for tomorrow's great gatsby test. must BS test. have kanji test tomorrow. i think i might have to do my chem presentation, too. and then wednesday is the english timed write. thursday is the algebra test. friday is the grammar test and history test. ::haa:: lots of tests this week. maa, ii..
:: Monday, April 30, 2001 :: 04:15 p.m. ::
changed lyrics. look below.
:: Monday, April 30, 2001 :: 12:34 a.m. ::
::gasp gasp gasp:: FINALLY done with STUPID chem project!! GAH! i've had to restart my comp 3 times because of that damn thing, and i don't even know if i'll be getting a decent grade on it cuz a buncha the points depend on if the company you wrote to sends you the info you requested, and i have NO control over that, so i'll be getting practically 1/6 of my grade docked cuz of it! and the other part, i didn't do very well on >_< muKIIIIIIIII!!! ::breathe:: i'm ok.
i was watching a korean drama in the kitchen with my mom while we were making food, and it was depressing and put me in a blue mood for the majority of the day. o_O; i think that's what triggered my sudden wanting to listen to american slow songs...;; i listened to brandy, brittany spears, and janet jackson. i've been listening to brandy's "have you ever" since 8:40pm.. o_O;;
other than that, i'm kinda hungry, so i think i'll go get food~ <3 hahaha~ i had an idea that jack would go to bed right before i updated pitas, and it ALMOST happened. ^_^
fuuma: after all that venting about her chem, i think her backed up happy-high's coming out now.
akuma: nyauuuuuuu?? '_'
fuuma: you're gunna sleep like a baby tonight.
akuma: KYAHAHAHAHAHA!!! XD XD XD XD
fuuma: ¬_¬;;
:: Sunday, April 29, 2001 :: 02:13 p.m. ::
::fuaaa:: man, this sucks. i have an entire chem report to type up, it's due tomorrow, and i haven't even started. =_=;; i'll start it at 3. and then there's the outside reading test on tuesday, and i don't even have the book. =_= i hope jon doesn't forget to bring the cliffnotes tomorrow. ;_; that would be bad. and of course, there are sat's this saturday. isn't that just great? che... as you can probably tell, i'm not in the best of moods at the moment. chem's ruining my day, and the weather's nice. ::hau:: ah well. i brought it on myself, so it's all good. na? open windows.
oh yeah, i had a really weird dream. i was working on my manga planning till about 5am, and when i went to bed, it was starting to get lighter outside. o_O;; it was lighting my whole room up... so yeah, anyway, because of all this manga planning, i had a dream about a character profile and trying to find out what a buncha kanji meant and the yomikata for it, and it was really hard. it was also nerve-wracking cuz even though it was for a manga chara, it felt like we were trying to figure out the life of a real person. o_O; so it was really frustrating and when i woke up, i'm like "oh crap, touka's gunna die if we don't figure this out!" ..........HELLO?! it was a DREAM! touka's my MANGA CHARACTER! WAKE UP MIRAE!!! =_=;; i'm ok... really...
:: Saturday, April 28, 2001 :: 09:54 p.m. ::
tehe~ today was an interesting day. olivia came over at around 3 and i did her hair and makeup for prom. ^_^ it was fun, and i really like how her hair came out!~ XD she took some pictures of me with my dogs =_=; and then i took 2 pics of her in my backyard~ XD
since i got to borrow my mom's car today, i decided it'd be nice to go out somewhere and take advantage of the chance to drive around and spend time with me beloved peoples. about 5ish i went to pick up gaki and kevin and then we went to golfland and played in the arcade with jack and richard till about 8. dinner was at sushiboat in west gate. >_< it was gooood! i owe her $15. ^^;;; then we went to starbucks. yesha!!. >_______<
gaki: mysushimysushimysushimysushimysushiMYSUSHI!!
me: ::stare:: .....;;; haaii......;;
gaki: ........ ;_; ::pushes last piece of sushi to akuma::
me: ^______^ tehe~ <3
:: Saturday, April 28, 2001 :: 11:09 a.m. ::
this could be a bad thing. i was too lazy to get up, so i found a way to bring the keyboard and mouse closer to the bed so i didn't have to get out of bed. ;;; that could be a bad thing, huh? i should prolly bring the phone around here,too... >_<
:: Friday, April 27, 2001 :: 05:10 p.m. ::
i'm screwed. i got the wrong book at the bookstore the other day and i have to read a different one by monday night cuz i have a test on it on tuesday. jon said he'd lend me his cliffnotes. ;_; saved!
around 4 i sat in my backyard for about half an hour sketching a rose... it sucks. i'll scan it in later.
:: Thursday, April 26, 2001 :: 10:25 p.m. ::
oh yeah, forgot to add: it was founder's day at school today so lunch was an hour and 20 mins long~ kazuto was kind enough to take me out to get sushi, and by coincidence, heidi and tim happened to be going to the same place we were going to~ so was kevin and taka. sushi was good.
::looks at food in front of her::
... someone put a lot of salt on this nori...
:: Thursday, April 26, 2001 :: 10:08 p.m. ::
took a lot of time to think today, but didn't get too much figured out. maa ii... i still have time to figure it out. all good.
hungry... food...
