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KIRAKU NA AKUMA v12 akuma (a' ku ma) pron. [Jpn aku (bad, evil) + ma (witch, evil spirit)] 1 member of AKG who is spontaneous, niko-niko, and also a scribbler, manga/anime obsessor, and high school student 2 demon currently has: = COLLEGE APPS DONE! aww yeah! = commissions to finish = school work to do = portfolio to get moving on = work to get to = money to save STATS: name: mirae aka: akuma, kanojo(chan) age: 17 bday: 030584 profile: akuma no profile aim/email: kanojochan/podho@aol.com links: *akg studios*kaijuu ga iru* *O gravity*eien no yume*culex* *archive* events: .... drawings: ::purple:: 082701 :: smaller version of pitas v10 background. ::odd-eye:: 102001 :: chara design for story AS OF 112701: BISH PAIR: sei-channn~ subaruuu~ SONG: hamasaki ayumi - audience FOOD: no thanks DRINK: white choco mocha MANGA: X/1999, yami no matsuei ANIME: ayashi no ceres, escaflowne, gravitation PROGRAM: photoshop 5.0 TASK: akg studios, commissions, rpg, multi-tasking manga PLACE: my sanctuaries HOBBY: drawing and daydreaming |
PROJECTS: manga: *assassin no jinsei da zo =synopsis coming soon!= *tenshi mitai ni new title: kimi ga suki dakara hitori ni shinai =new plot made! coming soon!= drawings: *sailormoon *rayearth *x/1999 *cardcaptor sakura *rurouni kenshin *fushigi yuug *weib kreuz *kaitou jeanne commissions: *lafiel - sekai no monshou *3rd one from something series i dunno yet other: *RPG with late crew - chara design assistant
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FRIENDS by yukuhara chihiro ending theme to houshin engi zutto sagashiteita onaji hitomi onaji yume wo idaiteru, my friends kkinou
made no namida asa
no ame mo
sono
te no nukumoride meguri aeta
kono boku
wa kono umi no you ni boku
wa kono sora no you ni kimi to eien wo ikiyou |
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:: Tuesday, December 11, 2001 :: 11:36 a.m. ::
heidi came in while counting my till, and WHOOPS!! i just remembered that mitsu has a bag of rice and box of ramen for me to take home. o_O;; i think i'll go pick them up tomorrow after rop. heh....;; ok, so heidi came and helped me count my till, and then we came home to get ready for the dance. picked up aki (o_O; he looked goooood), ryo, and kevin, and went to dinner with paula at willow street. heidi got high off the bread again...;;; the dance was funfunfun~~~ there were some downs in the event like pictures and some people getting aggrivated...;; but everything turned out ok~ heidi spent the night again ^^;;
someone needs to remind me that shopping alone isnt the best thing for me. i get really, ReAlLy, _REALLY_ mellow when i do, and for some people, i know that's a bad thing. at least i got more shopping done. yay. i'm gunna go watch that movie i rented. ja.
tomorrow's the dance! XD XD XD before that, i have to endure the nike animal rescue and work =_=;; work.. is gunna take... forever..... GAH!!!! WHYYYYY did the 20% off sale have to be THIS weekend?! X_x;; i'm gunna pass out before we even get to dinner! >_< KEVIN!! TOMORROW!!! hahahah~ ok, mirae's ok. =P i'm gunna go to sleep soon =_=; sooo tired.. soo sleepy... need to catch up on slee...p... geh....
ok! so now i'm gunna go and work on the mountainload of homework i have. not crapload, MOUNTAINload. yes, that is much more than the usual. thank god the government quiz got moved to monday o_O; and i have to finish rop project tomorrowwwww ;_;
i went to watch heidi's trio at willow street. they have REALLY good food, and heidi, ryo, and jessica all did a really good job on their music~ =D and since the manager/owner guy liked their performance so much, he gave us all free dinner! =D so THAT was pretty cool~ XD too bad you couldn't pay, kevin~ XD
so after the trio-willowstreet thing, heidi and i sped over to the xmas party for work~~ it was fuuuun, even though we only spent an hour there ^_^ but yeah, i won $100 from the raffle! =D and a box of tea~ =D it was really fun~ ^^ lots of beer (didn't have any, don't freak out =_=), good food, this nice dessert stuff, and lots of people went! i think tokiko was drunk cuz she hugged me O_o;;;; but... yeah.... anyway! it was a pretty long day. there was practically no rop, so i got out early, went to mitsuwa to get party info, came home for a bit, and then went out again for trio and work party. then came home around 10. it was a pretty good day~
as for tomorrow, i'm gunna go SHOPPING!! XD XD kevin's coming with me so i won't be as lonely~ =D yeah, i'm kinda happy for some reason, though i dunno why. must be pms! XD sore ja~ i'm gunna go off and be happy in my own little world of planning for xmas~~ XD
k, i think those were all my random thoughts of the day. i just realized something. i'm gunna be moving outta here in less than a year. a year.... and i'm outta here. and i'll be on the other side of the state. ... does that strike anyone else as kinda in-your-face...? prolly not ._. k, i'm gunna nap for an hour before i go and crap up my night. ::sigh:: a smile from aki would be nice right about now...
after work heidi and i went to valley fair cuz i wanted to see if there were any dresses i could buy for the semi formal....;;; heidi really really likes 2-piece dresses on me...;;; lord only knows why =_=; she says "it makes you look skinnier". ;;; henna yatsu... anyway! so yeah, didn't buy any dresses- just gunna wear this one i already have >_< and it was really hot! x_X;; those lights they put in those rooms need to give off less heat or something...
countdown till semi-formal!: 6 more days! XD XD
i still need to get my car maintained, along with getting the damn thing fixed. i need money... ::sigh:: i just want my car fixed... need to get hamster food and super glue.. yes, it's random, but need those. ok... gunna go study for sats and then sleep...
and i got more christmas shopping done today!! went to the mall after rop, and even though SOMEONE ::AHEMHEIDICOUGHCOUGH:: was supposed to GO with me, that SOMEONE ended up practicing piano INSTEAD!!! but that's ok. =_=; it was nice to be shopping by myself for once. i got presents for 3 more people~ XD 4 people on my list checked! WAAAIIIII!! and i know what to get people, now! i was sitting in english writing down what to get people, and ideas came smoothly~ XD so i was pretty happy~
as for school, i hope tomorrow's a better day >_<
ok, so i got home and tried getting some hw done but i couldn't for some reason. heidi and i planned on watching ryo and aki at kenpo, but we ended up going to starbucks and got some hw done. then it was shopping for half and hour and we got some xmas shopping done! =D i feel productive, oh yes i do~ <3
now... if only i could get some more hw done...
i found that when there's hw to rush during lunch, the library's not too bad a place. it's warm (unlike outside where's it's negative degrees), reasonably quiet, and actually kinda nice. especially when aki's sitting right next to me~ XD i sat in the corner trying to isolate myself so i wouldn't get distracted, and aki seems to like that corner, too~ ^^ was a very happy girl during lunch~ =D lunch was mcdonalds on the way to rop. good stuff~~
got outta 6th period early and went to ortho appt, but it seems that my appt wasn't today. che. so off to rop connie and i went. no progress. not fun. i came straight home afterward (which is rare), and did japanese project with my group. just finished math hw. as of right now, i have to get physics and english done, which hopefully won't take too long. ato csu apps. ugh.......dad, gimme credit card! ;_; need to pay for apps! must... send in apps... tomorrow!!!!!
FINALLY, i got off work and went to heidi's to pick her up. aki was already at ryo's, and i was like o_o; whoa.. hayai... so we went over, paula came, kevin and matt didn't make it for some reason. we all went out to downtown saratoga, got wet in the rain, went to the park, i went down the slide twice, and the 2nd time i went down, i landed on my ass at the bottom. it was pretty uncomfortable. but i'm ok now.
as for plans for the next n hours? sleep. =_= sleep and then do hw and college apps and yeah.... then more sleep. eating'll be stuck in there somewhere at random times. fufu~~
heidi and i napped at my house for a bit, and then went to the mall to get some shopping done. well.... we ended up going STRAIGHT to the food court to eat, and then heidi got a sweater. me? i got nothing =_=;;; couldn't find anything to buy. not for myself, but for xmas shopping. dood, shopping for guys is hard. ~_~;; then it was movie time~
phil got pissed at me for being myself again, but she knocked some sense into me so i guess it's all good~ movie. monsters inc. it was actually pretty good =D there was this one really funny/cute bird thing in the beginning that had the cutest birds making the cutest noises, and i really liked it. ^_^ and i hadn't been to the movies in the LONGEST time, so i was pretty happy~ woulda been more fun with more people, though =P
ok.... it's almost friggin 4am, so i'm going to bed now. =_= 'yasumiiii.
やばい... 君をもっと好きになっちゃったみたい.
lately things've been not-so-great. i get irritated easily. that's not good. someone knock some sense into me!! ;_; at your own risk, please. instead of understanding, i might get worse. someone help meeee...
let's seee.. wake up at 5:45, take shower, leave by 6:30, go to badminton, ask about physics before school, school starts, and i'll be running through a whole day of tests and quizzes. the only class that doesn't have a test/quiz tomorrow? gov. and psych, but psych doesn't even count as a real class =_=;
rop project's gunna be fun ^_^ wet media. kufufufufu~ i wanna use airbrush machineeeeeeeeeeee =D but i dunno what to do.. o_O; problematic, si?
hehehehe, i'm gunna have a lunch tomorrow >_< tonkatsu iei!
oh yes, i'm so screwed. i don't think i'll be sleeping tonight. my first all nighter of the year! iei! che... yeah, real happy... i have to take my car to the shop on saturday before work. kinda... overdue for an oil change ^^;;
other things? i will be HAPPY when this weekend is over. no more test clutters and no more COLLEGE APPS!! ~_~ ::haa:: i have work on thursday. geh....
heidi's over. again. she's working on her csu app while i'm sitting here typing this up cuz the csu site won't let me log-in, which means i can't work on my apps. che. heidi says that's why she doesn't wanna do it online. ^^;;; i dun blame her.
ok.... KAIJUU- get the akg layouts done! >_< GAKI- let's try getting the domain name soon, eh??
nitenite~
de! tonight i'm gunna work on apps and finish my untouched homework =D actually, i'm not happy about it. but oh! i took down my doors to my closet cuz they were in the way when i was trying to get something out~ so my room looks a bit bigger and yeah~ kinda looks like stephanie's closet now that phil mentions it, but i don't have as much stuff in it. tehe.
man, work took forever. there was a new cashier-in-training, and i was his teacher. =P he treated me to starbucks during lunch as thanks for helping him~~ so i unexpectedly had a lunch, which was pretty cool. then after work me and steph got to steal some food from the deli cuz tom said it was ok and we both wanted something to eat. >_< good stuff~
so now i'm sitting here wondering why not even 1 out of 6 certain people are not online, and it makes me feel akward when my buddy list looks like this...
oooh yeah, i was gunna do some major room cleanage, huh? i think i'll do that after my stomach stops feeling like it's ripping to pieces. yes, i'm in pain. my back hurts, too. it's gotta be the rag. ::sigh::
You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to "All things bright and beautiful". This personifies a caring person... A person who "needs" and indeed "needs to be needed".
You don't really give in. You follow your beliefs and ideals to the bitter end. You are the personification of stubbornness and whatever may transpire, right or wrong, you refuse to compromise or make concessions.
You feel tired...worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you... What to do? -That's the rub..you are feeling that you are being choked...unable to breathe..
You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity... and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are.. but no.. you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself make you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest ... beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.
You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from a close and harmonious relationship.
... my soul's been violated...
so there she was, sitting in front of her computer when a second after she signs on, ryo ims her. they talk for a bit, and then all of a sudden outta nowhere comes another im. mystery-imer and mirae chat for a while, and she finds his name is justin. they talk about cosplay and cons and anime and exchanged pictures. mirae is not photogenic. mirae's not happy about that. but that's ok! she has other things to be unhappy about. >_< then he had to go. so did ryo. all is good. it was just an unusual event.
ok... out of 3rd person now. i have physics to do and teacher didn't even explain everything and he assigned us bookwork! ;_; but other than physics, i'm home free of hw and shoved into the dark realm of doing college apps. ::sigh:: yes, i'm actually gunna work on them this time. and i gotta study for sats. ;_; plus work on personal projects and clean my room and finish commissions and eat!!
geez, enough happens in one morning. first i wake up to a grey morning where there's no sunshine, and it's gloomy. yeah, brother came in. then i realized i can't see aki today and i felt like shit after that and my chest just went ::gyuuuuu:: till it hurt and i wanted to cry. this is stupid. i can't even go 3 days ok without him. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?! yeah ok, i'll be fine.
now i gotta wait for clothes to get outta washer and get dressed and go to jack's to watch momento and then we go shopping with steph, phil, kenji, michelle, and mebe heidi at valley fair, which is where i went yesterday. heidi and i were supposed to go to the beach today, but she has work from 9-12 and parking and traffic's a BIOTCH on weekend afternoons. bad experience last time. =_= wasted a quarter tank of gas that day, and we didn't even get into the parking lot.
so yeah. stuff. wonder when my clothes'll be ready...
as soon as i stepped through the door, the phone rang. it was heidi. she wanted me at mitsuwa cuz ryo was there and she had to work. NOW. ...o_O; uhhh.. i JUST got home. so ok, tired, but willing, i went out again to keep ryo company while heidi worked. ::sigh:: less than an hour later, i had to bring him back home. interesting... it's amazing how much trouble those 2 would go through to see each other. maa, i guess that's how koi works. fufu~
so now i'm sitting here knowing i should prolly get some things done, but i still have tomorrow to do them. i'm gunna work on my rop project though... until... who knows when.
::はあ:: 君に会いたい... 最近の週末は長くなって学校の昼休みは短くなった気がする... 嫌だなああ...
after work heidi and i went to go watch aki and ryo do kenpo, but the temple they usually did it at was closed and it was raining and yeah.. so we were pretty confused. there were like... no cars there, either. ^^;; so we went to jack's house and just hung around in his room. i kinda fell asleep for about an hour ^^:;; so i dun really know what went on. i got some food, though =D it was pretty good~~ and his dog pooka's really cute! ^^;; jumpy, too. but yeah~
so now today i'm gunna either go to the mall and give myself some thinking time, or go to jack's house and watch a movie. nnn... i'll prolly do both ^^;; it's sunday, no school tomorrow~ goooood weekend... sorta...
woke up at 5:30 cuz i had to pick up heidi (her car is currently n/a). went to pick her up and played badminton for a while. i didn't feel so good throughout the day..until school ended. it was a minimum day so it was pretty cool- went to lunch with heidi and ryo, went to hakone gardens, and then mitsuwa. hakone was niiiice... i'm gunna be going there a lot more often.
so later i gotta go to pick heidi up, and she'll most likely be spending the night tonight. work tomorrow.
i wanna go to the beach on monday~ heidiiii~~ let's gooo~~ santa cruz? it's the closest one to here... we'll talk about it later, na?
my dear heidi called.
heidi was not at badminton again. so ryo and i wandered around campus till school started and got some food and stuff. kevin took me out to lunch at jack-in-the-box and heidi took about half my lunch. =_= maa, she had no lunch so it was ok.
as for tomorrow, it's a minimum day so i wanna go out with heidi, aki, and ryo and get some lunch and hang out somewhere. yay. and tomorrow will decide my mood for the rest of the cold season. yay. go me.
rop was cool. almost as soon as i got there, gaki, kaijuu, kenji, and michelle all started leaving. we all ran to kenji's car and.. it was hard for me cuz i was wearing heels and a long skirt. not... fun.... and the guy at the 7-11 counter was THE BIGGEST ASSHOLE IN THE WORLD!! i walked in with everyone and i could feel him staring at me cuz of my skirt. michelle and i were clinging to each other and she asked how much a lighter is (we were talking about lighters on the way there).
gaki had work today so i went with her and we got something to eat at miyabi tei. yeah... tokiko was watching me like a hawk, and i didn't even do anything. prolly just cuz i was wearing the skirt i was wearing. she's such a retard. i hope she trips and embarasses herself some day. and she BETTER not touch phil! bitch.
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok, i was walking down the candy aisle with phil cuz we wanted candy, and i walked by this one section and my eye caught on this one chocolate box. and... yeah..... i was in shock for a second. it was just a box with bars of choco in it, but OH MY GOD, there was a pic of the japanese group kinky kids, and one of them is almost PITTARI PITTARI REPLICA of aki! O_O;; his hair, face, general kanji was all almost exactly alike, and when i first saw it i thought O_O;; is aki a model without my knowing it?? and i was like phil!! look at this!! "..yeah, that's kinky kids" O_O WHAT?! "..yeah.." O_O;; see this guy here?! aki looks ALMOST. EXACTLY. LIKE HIM. HAIR, FACE, EVERYTHING, IT'S THE SAME! O_O "...whoa.....aki's really good looking" >_< I KNOW!!! i want this box! ;_;
ok......... so after that little episode, i wandered around for a bit to organize my thoughts. salvador gave me his usual grin when he saw me, but he didn't say hi back when i said hi. ;;; i wonder if he's ok..;; said hi to everyone else working and then i came home. food is good. ~__~
i have hw to do... and then i will work on college apps. and then i will go and work on kimi ga suki dakara hitori ni shinai. the manga me and gaki are working on. ::niko::
so i gotta go out to get the posterboard soon, but i gotta wait for my brother to call to pick him up so i only have to make 1 trip. i think i might want some coffee while i'm at it. but.... then it'd be my 2nd coffee of the day. not that it's a BAD thing, but i think i should cut down on the junkie food i put into my system. it's not good for me! >_< and it's not good for the number that pops up on the scale everytime i step on it! >_< currently it fluctuates between 138 and 145. yes. i am heavy. i know.
my day? aki came to school so it made me happy to know he was better ^^ and i got to see him~ lunch was cool cuz heidi made onigiri and i had 2 of those, plus a really cute tottoro onigiri connie made. i had to make a huge poster (4 feet by 6 feet) for japanese bunkasai today, and it's really simple but it doesn't look TOO bad on the wall.
rop was interesting with lauren's little comics (they're sooo cute/funny!! >_< depressing at the same time, though...;;) and the most interesting part was when the whole table was talking about sex positions. KYAHAHAHAHAH!! THAT was a good chat. ^_^ it all started with gaki's kamui clear file, and even though i have it, too, i just realized how suggestive the picture could be. so my mind went into yaoi mode and things got interesting from there. ^_^
then it was off to lunch with gaki and kevin at top cafe. we think that place could become the next cupertino village. -_- but the food was pretty good =D then i came home and started hw. i am now sitting here. >_<
anyway.. yeah, how you like the new layout? i didn't use the message board cuz it's annoying to have the page scroll down to where the box is. worked on it last night and i like how the collage came out. needed some color on the page so i got "red" from aki so i used it for links. it's gunna be a very simple and bland page again. not like it really mattered in the first place, neeee??
time to get cracking on the homework and projects and college apps and other crap that life likes to pile onto people. ::sigh:: |
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