ANGEL'S PROMISE by kimata fuyu kareshi kanojo no jijyou opening theme translated by akuma
YOU MAY DREAM following the honesty of this feeling if it's able to be conveyed DREAMS COMES TRUE YOU MAY DREAM pure white wings love turn into love may the angel's promise be kept
in front of my eyes pass yourself by my heart could start throbbing the talking voice, the way your ears tilt i learned about another you put out a little courage, i want to follow those eyes
YOU MAY DREAM following the honesty of this feeling if it's able to be conveyed DREAMS COMES TRUE YOU MAY DREAM pure white wings love turn into love may the angel's promise be kept
the shadow of the mask on the glistening journey my heart is hurt and i close my eyes lonliness becomes tears, they fall as they please without being afraid of getting hurt place a finger onto the mirror
YOU MAY DREAM being held, right now this feeling i want to change to the words I LOVE YOU YOU MAY DREAM pure white wings turn into love may the angel's promise be kept
YOU MAY DREAM following the honesty of this feeling if it's able to be conveyed DREAMS COMES TRUE YOU MAY DREAM pure white wings love turn into love may the angel's promise be kept
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absent-minded niche || kiraku na akuma v8.3 |
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dad got pissed that i went out and he made me come home as soon as i got to heidi's house. i planned on spending the night there. i came home. he starts by interrogating me about every single thing. who i was with, what they're like, why i was with them, why tom treated us to dinner, what i ate, where i ate, who roy was, why i have his glasses, what kind of glasses they are, how old he is, how old tom is, what kind of position at work does he have, what kind of position does roy have, why did i go out, why did i ignore his opinion, etc etc fucked up shit like that.
then he went on to lecturing me about how noone cares about me more than he does and noone cares about me to begin with cuz everyone eventually fades away from my life, but he's the only one that won't. weird. the moment he said "nobody cares", i became totally numb to him and didn't react or cry or anything while he tried to verbally beat me down by repeating how "noone cares". he went onto college and how it should be my first priority and again, that "noone cares about you, your priorities, or your life" thing came on. he almost made me quit work, almost took away my car, and almost tried to make me stop hanging around heidi. fuck that, no way thas gunna happen.
just wondering... do normal parents tell their kids that noone cares about them? i didn't think they did... until now. but then again, i doubt my parents are "normal". they're obsessed over being "respected" when they don't respect me, mom never talks to me - just commands as if i'm some sort of robot that takes orders 24/7 regardless of what i'm already doing or planning to do, dad's friggin out of control when he gets pissed and hella unreasonable about everything, they keep a fucking leash on me and call every person's house i go to just to "make sure i'm there", they make me come home by 9 everyday cuz i "can go out all day everyday" when i have WORK and that's DIFFERENT from going out to the movies or the mall or whatever, and above all, they don't give me any good reason to do all this to me. they never clear things up, and all mom can say is "i would know, i'm older, too many things could happen" blah blah blah shit like that, while all my dad can say is "shut up and go to your room" when he's NEVER said anything like that to me in my entire life.
ok. whoever is reading this and is currently thinking "so what? my life's worse than yours and you're complaining??" i say slow down and think. my upbringing is DIFFERENT from whoever would be reading this, and i'm not USED to the things happening around me, and it's too much for me to absorb and fully understand, so SHUSH.
i've had a REALLY rough week, i'm physically and mentally exhausted, i have a lot of things to do and too little time to do them. tomorrow i have work. lskjf;ldksfj;lsakdj, and i don't even know if i can stay the whole time at stephanie's on monday cuz my parents are such asses. steph, if i can't, i apologize ahead of time, and i'm really sorry if i can't stay the whole time.
i just got into an argument with my parents, so i'm not feeling too good right now. in fact, i'm feeling downright pissed, and i've been crying since 12 or something, so i'm gunna go and do something. nite.
i seemed to have left at a reeeeeally bad time, too. soooo much happened with me at camp while a crap load happened to heidi at home. she came over last night (which was the night i came home) after i finished my shower (which also felt reeeeally good and it was the first time i felt CLEAN in a week) so i could catch up on the past 5 days, and it took 2 hours for her to tell me everything. this is without me interrupting. so now that i'm caught up on everything, things seem to be kinda surreal or something...
work was kinda slow and seemed to take a long time. but all is good. i get to go again tomorrow morning and see all my beloved co-workers. =D and i got my paycheck! it was a LOT bigger than i thought it'd be o_O; gotta pay for insurance and ticket and pay people back and yadayadayada.
i'm gunna go type up my camping documentary, now~ late!
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NYOOOOOOOOO?!?!?! i have to pack tonight for camp tomorrowwwwwwww!! ;_; i'm leaving so soooooon!! and i leave at FRIGGIN 7 IN THE MORNING!!! UGYAAAAAAAA!!!!
so yes! i have to clean my room, pack my stuff, get phil's stuff to her by tonight, get our new manga stuff from her tomorrow morning, and and and and HAUUUUUUUU ;_; i also gotta go to work at 1! till 8! auuuuuuuu!! and i gotta somehow get money to buy snacks for the trip.
HAUUUUUUU!!!
as for earlier today? not much happened. went to class, went to mitsuwa with kazuto cuz he wanted lunch, and then i dropped him off and went to kenji's. scared the crap outta tom and said hi to matt and roy and abel~ i think i surprised them cuz i was wearing shorts, tank, and dress over that. work clothes = pants + oversized t-shirt. ^^; big change, ne? so yeah.. tomorrow's back to the scrubby oversized clothes stuff since i have work. ::haa::
tired... going to bed... nite minna~~ ^_^
tomorrow's my day off! =D that means i go to class and then kenji's house for a drinking game~ ^_^ all will be good~ i have a feeling i'll be well-hydrated. =P i bet you anything kaijuu already lost the game -_- she has SUCH a small bladder. =_=;;; aaaaaanyway! so yes, i'm gunna go pick up my brother in a few minutes and then go to bed. sore ja~ oyasumiiiii~ <3
speaking of work, jack took me to mitsuwa to buy candy and he was creeping me out with his road rage and interesting things that freak him out at night. o_O; redrum! redrum!! ::runs back into room:: tehehe~ and he was bored outta his mind. poor baby ;_;
and why does everyone think i was pmsing yesterday?? prolly cuz i was in a bad mood and my mom was pissing me off. =_= and no, i don't usually swear that much (referring to previous entry). gomen to anyone that was freaked out. tonikaku~ time for me to go and try figuring schedule things out with my sensei. ja na!
and why does she have no problem with my brother's staying out till 11 or 12, when i have to be home by 9? the HELL is that?! i have WORK. i have CLASS. and she calls that "staying out all day"?! work and class are DIFFERENT from going out with a friend to watch a movie or go shopping or go have food. what, cuz i DRIVE??? if she has a PROBLEM, she can always GIVE ME A RIDE, but NOOOOOO, she's too FUCKING LAZY to go out of her way a few minutes or a few blocks just cuz i'll be home before 10, yet, past 9. still, she expects ME to go out whenever the HELL she wants me to, and go pick up my brother from wherever the HELL he is, and it DOESN'T MATTER what the FUCK i'm already DOING or PLANNING to do, DOES IT?!?!
godDAMN that woman! JUST when i think she might start being NICE for once, she makes me change my mind. and DON'T lecture me about how stupid/selfish/"young" i'm being, cuz i. don't. fucking. care. i've suppressed WAY too much up till now, and i'm NOT going to keep it in to the point i explode at someone i'll regret exploding at!
work was interesting cuz there were practically no people there and making fun of matt and tom was easier than usual~ ^_^ i kept staring and matt and he got scared, and tom~ ... well... just pointing out every little thing and teasing him about it was fun~ ^_^ around the later part of the day, i started feeling a little sick in the stomach. i think i ate too much chocolate.... x_X; auuu... and i gave abel a ride home cuz his brother was using the car he usually drives. >_< all cool, though~ he doesn't live too far from work.
tomorrow's my day off! =D .............. i think.... i'm taking like 5 days off next next week, so i dunno... o_O;; i think i should go check... and even if i don't have work, i'll just visit for a while. heh~ sore ja!
my hair's being nice to me... heh...
i drove to work and had an interesting time with heidi and abel. gaki wasn't happy with me for a while, though i dunno why. it was matt's day off and tom-aniki took me and heidi out to dinner after work~ ^_^ it was funnnn!! we had a make-fun-of-heidi-and-vent-about-the-people-that-piss-us-off-at-work fest~ gaki was supposed to go, but she kinda... disappeared when we went to the front of the store to see if she could come or not... =_= guess she couldn't come.
afterwards, bobo and i raced halfway down saratoga ave to prospect. olivia was having a bday party, and we couldn't make it cuz of work, so we decided to have some fun on our way there~ i dropped by for an hour, and heidi's still there as i write this. ^_^; all good i guess..
man... after work and class and hanging out with people from mv... the hangouts from my school just seem so... i dunno... un-animated? there are some exceptions like david and frank, but they're just weird like that ^^;; it was just like school again, only at someone's house this time- i was just an observer while everyone else did their stuff. it was... bland. no offense to those from my school who happen to read this and was there.
so anyway... i have work tomorrow at either 11 or 12... i forget which. i think i'll go in at 11 just to be safe. =P if i'm early, i'll just help out with stock or something. tonikaku... nitenite~
i wanna go to malibu with everyone tomorrowwwwwwww ;_; but but but...... i have work on sundaaaaayyyy ;_; 11-6 or something like that... gotta check schedule again. hauuuuuuuuu!!!!
i wanna see "the others". =D that looks like SUCH a good movie!! for those who don't know what it is, it's about this family of 3 (mom, son, daughter), and the kids see the ghosts of the family that owned the house before them, and the ghosts are trying to chase them out, but the mom doesn't believe them till she sees the ghosts. at least... thas my understanding from the preview. ^_^ either way, it looked like it could scare me or disturb me for a few hours, so i thought "why not~?" XD
i shall go to sleep soon, since my eye is nagging at me. ^_^ oyasuminasaaaaaaaiiiii~~ i shall go to work tomorrow at 1:30~ <3
and i seriously need to learn spanish. on the way to 31, abel called me from the parking lot and tom's like "go talk to him~ he wants to talk to you" and i'm like O_o;;; but i can't speak spanish! tom just pushed me towards abel and i'm like ;;;;;;_;;;;; geeeh!!! i dunno what to saaaay!! so yeah.. the two guys just chatted for a minute and the next thing i know, i'm following tom to 31. x_X i had NO idea what they were saying. something about me cuz they kept looking at me and stuff.... ._. hauuuu....
as for the rest of tonight? i'm going out with gaki to watch jurassic park 3. she's desparate to go watch something and i want something to do. plus, i haven't been to the movies for QUITE a while. o_O;; i think it's been half a year or more... GYAAAAAAAAAA!!! i forgot my icecream at mitsuwaaaaaaa!!! ;_; ah well~ i'm going in for work tomorrow so i'll eat them during my breaks~ ^_^ tehe~
sore ja! i'm gunna go and reply to some letters~
work - a guy gave me this one pill kinda like a caffiene pill, only not. and......... it worked like maaaaad. half an hour after i took it, my whole body was shaky for about 2 hours... or what felt like 2 hours. i have the jitters... ;;; and i gave kaijuu a ride home after work, and i didnt want to drive. after arguing with my mom about how i didn't want to drive, she finally went. then she just wouldn't shut up about running red lights and how traffic school's strict about punctuality and how my car "sounds wrong".
::sigh:: thank GOD tomorrow's my day off! i could definitely use the break from class and work. especially since i won't be able to get up in the morning. and i feel like crap. i hope i can go to tina's house tomorrow to watch some GHIBLI movies and play some ddr. =P i go now~ have boredom to be. ja! ^_^
didn't go to class, but i did have some trouble in getting kazuto his scans for his assignment. thas ok, all is good for now. i'll scan more tonight. heh. i have to go to work soon. O_O;; i have to go to work!! OH MY GODDDDD!! ...i'm ok. really. ~_~ -o ::haaaaaaaa:: oh yeah.. just finished eating, should now take my medicine. nehe... hhehehehehe... =____O ::rubs hands together and waddles over to backpack::
ok... so yeah... i get to go to work soon~ =D that means i get to see gaki, matt, tom, tom, and other cool people that i dunno will be there~ tehe~ ^_^
work. that. was interesting. i attempted to communicate with abel in spanish ^^;;;;;; did a very bad job... but we both got the idea of what the other was trying to say. =P tom-aniki kept saying "call her honey" to abel while pointing at me =_=; i kept calling abel chica....;;; and matt's like "no, she's MY honey!"...;;;;; dakara... interesting day today. kaijuu just said "get back to work!"... ^_^ oh yeah~ i got one of those really cool little bells that they hang at temples~ =D when the wind blows, the charm/scroll thingy blows and pulls the string and it makes suuuch a pretty ring~ ;_; fell in love with it, and it was only $6! =D
oh yeah, and i keep remembering to rent the yami no matsuei tapes again cuz i reeeeeeally want my own copies. kevin said he could prolly get them onto cds for me~ XD tehe~
ah~ i have 3 commissions to work on~ ^_^ so i'll be getting something like $35 for them! =D yaaaaaayyyyy!! looks like i'll be able to eat for a bit~ other than that...? nothing going on... except i'm hungry. >_< so gunna go forage for food~ <3 ja!
and i just finished organizing my mp3s. yay~ i have to update my computer sounds and clean out my harddrive, now...
things to save money for:
i was supposedly on vacation with my mom and a buncha really good friends (whom i have no idea of) and the only thing i can remember clearly is that we were in a pretty big hotel room and we were throwing things around playing a funky game. mom was sitting on the bed quietly doing something. then she said something and we all stopped to listen to her, and before she started on whatever she was gunna say, she said "mirae, you have dishes to wash". that... struck me as kinda odd. it's vacation, i'm with my friends, and she tells me to wash the dishes. i dun remember anything else. o_o; i woke up around 10:30ish.
long night... and i get sunday off! =D if i go clubbing saturday night, it'll be very convenient! =D heidi babyyyy!! we'll cover for each other, neeee~~ <3 sore ja!
there was also another one that had something to do with work. i was half asleep and dreaming at the same time cuz i remember tossing and turning all throughout that dream for some reason. pillow wasn't comfortable or something... really weird... so yes... very interesting 5 hour or so nap. prolly won't be sleeping for the next few hours, but thas ok cuz i dun have work till 1:30 tomorrow! ^_^
sore ja!
school's another thing. i can go and not get my grade lowered as long as i can keep caught up with the class, which should be easy cuz we're learning how to use photoshop. man... let's get into the deeper stuff here! >_< i already know how to use layers and shapes and text! ::haaa::
other than that? not much is going on. i only woke up about and hour and half ago and nothing really happened except for my mom making me almost late to class cuz she was lecturing me about driving again. thas ok, though. i'm anticipating a lot of lecturing for a while. might as well get used to it and tune them out. i hope they enjoy giving me rides places. ::smile::
matt and tom called me at work from reno. it was pretty cool cuz mike took over for me while i got the phone, and he closed my line so i could talk for a bit~ XD come to think of it work was really slow today.. and i was so sleepyyy ;_;
and i JUST told my parents about my speeding ticket. not too bad. they didn't yell at me, but they did lecture. punishment? i can only drive to and from school, but other than that, my parents are gunna drive me around. they're not gunna have fun with that. i can start driving again after i get my driving class done with and who knows when that'll be? at least they're not making me quit work. if that happened, i'd cry. but ah well; not like i care all that much. it's just gunna make them realize they took my driving ability for granted since i'm always the one going out to pick up my brother late at night when i'm all nice and comfy in my room in the middle of doing something. they're loss. so yes, i'm gunna watch some anime and draw now~ ^_^ sore ja!
free day today since i dont' have work. ^_^ but i think i'll go visit gaki at work later cuz i wanna give her the random because-i-love-you present i got the other day. since i have till about 6 or so free, i think i'll draw the whole day. but what to draw...?
GAKI!! I WANT MY YAMI TAPES! ;_; and i still have yet to find out if she'll copy volume 2 for me, cuz i like that volume! ;_; tsuzuki with wings... ::drool::... tsuzuki coming onto hisoka... ::drool2::... muraki coming onto tsuzuki... ::waterfall::
things i could do today:
oh yeah! today at work, kaijuu and i had a lot of fun with PAID stickers and tom and tom and matt and eric and abel! (intro to people at work: tom-boss= boss; tom-aniki= grocery/stock/courtesy, matt= same, eric= courtesy; abel= courtesy, cindy= cashier) so yeah, i stuck a paid sticker on heidi yesterday, and she got a lot of comments about that from tom-boss. ^_^ so i had an idea and stuck one on kaijuu, matt, tom-aniki, and tom-boss~ then we started having a little sticker war. XD today was a pretty slow day, so it was ok to goof off every now and then~ ^_^ and then the computers got messed up cuz noone updated for a few days. o_o; we did that after closing, which made counting tills quite an interesting thing for tonight..;;
oh yes, jack came by a bit ago to pick up karekano tapes. he'll be entertained for a night. too bad he's missing volume 5! >_< oh yes, speaking of tapes, gaki!!!!! i want my yami tapes!! ;_; if i re-rent volume 2, can you record it for meeeee???? ;;;;_;;;;;
shit.... still gotta clean room.. and i gotta get up at 9 tomorrowwwww ;;;_;;; stupid classes!! stupid work! stupid need for money!! ;_; and stupid speeding ticket, stupid stupid house cleaners, stupid energy crisis, STUPID HUMANS! =_= ok... i'm done... nite.
went into kitchen. no appetite. i have work at 10:30 tomorrow... i'm looking forward to getting up early and getting out of here. my dad's so stupid. he makes the biggest deal out of the smallest things, but he doesn't do much about the bigger deals. what the hell. and my mom just has a stick up her ass about everything anyway, so it doesn't make a difference. ::sigh:: i really don't need this as soon as i get home.
i still have yet to clean my room, i haven't gotten any info about senior pics, i gotta get 2 frames and 1 box for my autographed stuff, and spend a saturday in driving school cuz i was speeding. dammit. my parents don't know about it. i don't think so, at least... cuz there was an empty DMV envelope on the counter in the garage, and i'm guessing it had something to do with the speeding and yeah... but my parents haven't said anything to me about it, so i'm kinda confused. no, i don't have any fines, and it stays off my record if i go to the class. i just dunno when it is. and i HATE driving in downtown san jose!! =_= ugh! i'm gunna go do something to relieve my stress.
OH OH! and the bottle of sake called BISHONEN costs $35!!! XD i'm gunna save up for that baby!!! i got sushi that was originally $6.75 for $1.50. ^_^ thank you tom-aniki~ i love you honeyyy~ <3 tehe~ <3
and gaki's coming over to pick up the yami no matsuei tapes so she can copy them for me. but..but.... ;_; i was just about to watch themmm!! ;;_;;; but they're due saturdayyy! ;;;;_;;;; thas ok... thas ok..... they'll get done tonight, i can watch them tomorrow, and the videos can be returned on time. ;;;_;;; hauuu...
i watched all 3 volumes of yami no matsuei last night, and it was FUN! XD XD the shounen-ai/yaoi content in there was a lot weaker and more subtle in the show than the manga. prolly cuz it would be watched on tv in japan. =_= but thas OK! XD the music was hella good, animation was boooootiful, and the people were ::faint:: hauuuuuuuu!!! ;_; i want my panman. i want to squeeze all my hanyaaaaaaaaaan into him! >_< nyauuuuuuu!!
so yes~ i plan on working on my ax documentary sometime soon cuz i don't have anything for reference. =_= you know me, my memory's bad... so yeah. XP gotta wait for pekkle's videos, gotta wait for kaijuu's pictures~ gaki's documentary would help, too, but for now, pics and tapes should be enough, na~ ^_^
ok, time to pay attention in class now. >_<
i shall have fun at ax!! i shall be very happy! and everything will be SOOOOOO COOL!!! love you all!!! XD
::haaaaa:: wow... i'm actually taking time out to calm down a bit and take a break from all this AX chaos. i still have a buncha stuff to get done, but i got my room cleaned, printed commissions stuff, got more stuff packed, and money-getting plan is in progress. as for unfinished business, i have to make business cards, make gloves, actually get the money, go food shopping, and finish packing everything.
lookie on my schedule and you'll see that today will be a veeeeery busy day. morning rush, class, work, pick stuff up from home, go to kaijuu's, cosplay, sleep, food shopping, pack, flight. damn. i wonder if there'll be time to breathe. o_o; anyway, i'll see if there'll be time to post one more entry before i go off to heaven for a week~ <3 right now... i just need to sleep since i gotta wake up at 8. =_=;; man.... nite!
ok, work took forever and i still have:
long weekend... man... i need money. must buy sketch book and food and business card paper. ::haa::
ohayo~ i be at kaijuu's house right now~ spending the night tonight~ =D we made purin and we're waiting for it to set, and we're gunna work on cosplay some more in a bit. =D ... although... we did get interrupted for an hour cuz of a TV show. it's actually really good~ ^_^ so yeah... not time to panic for ax yet cuz we still have 3 days. i think we'll start panicking tomorrow night. that'll be a good time to start, yep~ ^_^
i have work tomorrow so i gotta sleep by 3 hopefully so i can get some decent sleep. must wake up at 10 to go to work... =_= sometimes work really sucks... but the worst of it is over cuz today was saturday and saturdays are usually the worst days to be at the market. all is good~ still gotta go food shopping and AHHH!!! O_o WE STILL GOTTA DESIGN BUSINESS CARDS!! ;_; NYAAAAA!!!!
i just finished starting to pack for ax. it'll be a lot easier to get things packed little by little so i don't spend 3 hours rushing the day before i leave. i still need to finish little bits of my nakuru costume... and make gloves for misao, but other than that, i'm all done with cosplay. still have extra stuff, a few artist gallery things, food, and toiletries to pack.
kaijuu- we need to go food shopping on monday or tuesday! we leave on wednesday morningggg~~ and we also need the hot water maker thingy and mebe a small ice chest? ._. shiran... we can talk about that later, na? oh yeah, and my parents said it's ok for me to spend the night at your house tomorrow night~ =D and tuesday night, too! XD ::fuu:: busy busy... call me tomorrow morning about what i need to bring. and we need to make business cards! ;_;!!! i still need to make my commissions info sheet and stuff... gaaarurururu~ XD
::fuu:: busy busy busy... usually i hate having a packed schedule... but in this case, it feels kinda good~ =) packing's fun, shopping's fun, and it's all good~ i just.. need to convince my parents to let me borrow some money... ;;; "some"... ::haa::
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akuma (a' ku ma) pron. [Jpn aku (bad, evil) + ma (witch, evil spirit)] 1 member of AKG who is spontaneous, niko-niko, and also a scribbler, manga/anime obsessor, and high school student 2 demon
name: mirae aka: akuma, kanojo(chan) age: 17 bday: 030584 profile: akuma no profile aim/email: kanojo/podho@aol.com links: *akg studios*kaijuu ga iru* *archive* events: camp aug5-9 drawings: ::green::071701:: stuck it on my online profile, which i also changed a bit.
AS OF 080201: FAVE: BISH PAIR: still muraki & tsuzuki! SONG: hisoka - norowareta tsukiya no kioku - yami no matsuei FOOD: ... no appetite lately. must be the stackers. ^^;; DRINK: calpis water isn't that bad. MANGA: my yaoi doujin and chobits ANIME: yamiiii!!! XD XD PROGRAM: photoshop 5.0 TASK: akg studios PLACE: room and backyard HOBBY: watching anime reading manga drawing
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manga: *unnamed drawings: *sailormoon *rayearth *x/1999 *cardcaptor sakura *kenshin *fushigi yuug *weib kreuz *vampire miyu *kaitou jeanne * love hina (ended up drawing naru at the con) |
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