"Did you think I'd be as so foolish as to let you get away just like that?" I spat. Damn the Mazaki brat! I could have gained much more ground if she wasn't there. I could always let Ishtar kill him, but my hikari is pleading from my other link not to. Not to mention what hell the Pharaoh will give me if I let one of his groupies hurt. Damn it all! That spell won't last long. I start another spell to buy myself some time...

OOC: So sorry I haven't been posting. My comp was taken away from me, so now I hafta go to the library to do this stuff. Okies, till next post.

I guess telling Yuugi I was head over heels in love with him wasn't too bad of an idea. It seems as though he is accepting me. Even though I don't want to get my hopes up. I just wish I could help him understand that I wasn't ignoring him on purpose. That I was only confused about my feelings. Which led to all this mess.

I'm snapped out of my thoughts when I sense Yuugi is upset. From across the room I can see Yami no Malik holding Anzu hostage, apparently. And through the haze of my bogged down mind, I can hear Yuugi offering to exchange her for him. I want to scream at him. He can't do this. I don't want him to. And now Jounouchi, bless him, is trying to talk Yuugi out of it while Yami no Malik informs us all that there is nothing he wants less. I don't know whether I should be insulted or pleased.

And here's a shocker, Yami no Bakura is also present, but he's trying to stop Yami no Malik. Can I just mention that I'm very confused? Because I am. Not about Yami no Malik being back, not about Kaiba dancing with Jounouchi/Karen. Not even with Mai and Isis. None of that. But Yami no Bakura? Helping out?

There has to be some other explanation...

This boy actually has the temerity to try to *bargain* with me? I sneer openly at him, only half-focussing on his friend Jounouchi, who's trying to talk him out of this stupid manoeuvre. "I don't want *you*, you puling brat, nor your Apophis-accursed other half...not *yet*, anyway. What I want, right now, is what I have: the two you cheated me of during your final proxy duel with my other half!" I see understanding dawn in his eyes, and he turns to Jounouchi, who's transfixed. Yes, these two, the girl I have now and that fool of a blond who seems so smitten with Seto Kaiba, will do nicely...for a practice run. I smirk and begin to call on certain dark energies to exact a transportation spell for the three of us, only to discover that the tomb robber, Ammet take his eyes, has blocked me with an unstable counter-attack...

No... "Yugi! NO!!" Yugi's offering himself! And there's nothing I can do, Yami no Malik will surely take him up on his offer. Sh*t! I push through the crowd and grab his arm in a tight grip. "You can't do this. You'd not only be putting yourself in danger, but you'd be putting the spirit of the Puzzle in with you!" Think about this Yugi... we have to find another way...

Call it sister's intuition or whatever, but suddenly I felt like I had been jolted from a deep slumber. At first I was disoriented, seeing how I was lying on cold tile out on a balcony, but I soon recollected myself and ran back into the ball room. I knew something had been wrong, and now my fears were confirmed. My brother, who was my brother no longer but Yami no Malik, holding a knife to Anzu's throat. I wish I had reconsidered dragging Malik along with me here. Should've figured his yami would cause trouble, but this is more then just trouble. Yuugi seems to be pleading with him. Maybe I should just stay out of this...I don't think I could help anyway. If they need my assistance, they can feel free to ask. I'll stay nearby just in case.

Oh my gosh, NOO!! Yami no Malik is back. I had thought Mou hitori no boku had gotten rid of him! He's holding Anzu by knife blade. Bakura is here too. Darn it. Oh God Anzu is going to faint. She'll cut her own throat if she falls! If.. If I had eaten then I would have been here on time then I would've been dancing with her instead of Malik. I wouldn't be with mou hitori no boku but at least everone would be out of danger. Mou hitori no boku reasures me through our link but it does little good. I quickly look around to see if there is somethin... ANYTHING that I could use. Nothing. I get an idea but it is very risky. I shout to Yami no Malik. "Yami no Malik, leave us alone! I know that you hate me so take me instead!" Please take me. Please take me. Please take me. Oh God what will he do now? I've played my cards what will his move be? He gives me my answer...

... I can feel the cold blade tocuhing slightly my throat, Im so scared, I put my hand around Yami Malik's arm, the one helding me captive, I canīt move a thing, im sure if I do hell just cut me through. Im not crying, Im trying to keep it all inside but some tears manage to come out, Yami Bakura is standing in front, Yami Malik is saying something to him, but just canīt hear it, im losing my mind, the whole crowd is staring at us, I can feel the dagger cutting my skin, Yami Malik does it so slowly that it hurts so much, the wound starts bleeding, I get so dizzy and so scared, my legs start trembling, Im losing strenght, my body goes loose, my vison is blurry now, it hurts so much, rather the wound or the fear...

I come out of the bathroom in time to see Anzu being held captive by... Yami no Malik. I thought we got rid of him! Well... I should go over and help and... Shizuka's there immediately, with my purse containing a change of clothing. Dress clothing, but still comfortable too. I run into the restrooms (guys this time -_-;; ) and change quickly before heading out to see if I can do anything... I see someone lying out on the balcony, must be someone he attacked, so I send Shizuka out to see if the person's alright, but I don't know what I can do to help my friends...

I'm still out on the balcony. Seto went to dance with that woman (who is really Jou), Honda went to eat, Yuugi and his yami are off together, Ryou just came running in...I'm not sure where Mai went. Why should I continue even pining for her? We were never really friends, yet I'm infatuated with her anyway. It must be all the stress from working in the museum. Yes, that has to be it. It's just a silly little crush, that's all. I'll probably get over it soon...ohh, who am I kidding? What's the point? Why deny it? I should've never come to this party. Of course, I'll stick around to be polite, thank Seto profusely for such a good time, then go home and sleep for the next 24 hours. Oh, wait. I can't even do that. I have work tomorrow. I grip the balustrade and bang my head down on it. This stress will do me in sooner or later. Suddenly I feel light headed and drop to my knees and faint...

It's now or never: I shatter the seal that binds me to oblivion and take control of Malik, mind and body. Little Anzu, whom my other was waltzing with, is oblivious, and looking around the room, I see that everyone else is, too. Except...is that...?? Blast, it's the tomb robber! He's coming this way, and it looks like he's well aware of my triumphant return: his face is grim death incarnate. I watch him shove through the crowd, a smirk on my face: too little, too late, my former ally. I hear that brat brother of Kaiba's yelling up on the balcony, and suddenly everyone is staring at me. Anzu looks up, and I see instant comprehension and terror dawn as she looks into my eyes. My smirk broadens, and I spin her around to face Bakura, at the same time whipping the hidden dagger from the Rod and holding it against her trembling throat. Yami no Bakura stops, unsure of what to do: normally he'd have simply let me cut the girl's throat, but I think his pathetic excuse for a host is having some sort of *softening* influence on him. How disgusting. I can see the girl's miserable friends have noticed: they're running in this direction. I smile pleasently and purr to Bakura; "Well met, my ex-comrade: long time no see." I relish the look on his face. Malik, who's become aware of what's going on, is beating at the back of our shared mind, calling out for me to stop, desperately trying to regain control. Not a chance, my other. I'm back, and I'm in control, and damn, but it's good.

"There's still Otogi." For some reason I find that funny. Ah well, shoulda known someone as cute as Yuugi would already be taken...by his own yami. That's okay, though. I'm probably going to go hang out by the snack table for the rest of the night. I'm starving. I think Kaiba's dancing with that blond woman. Wait. That's Jou. Heh, wonder if Kaiba knows? Probably. Isis is still out on the balcony, looking at the sky. Who cares. Time for me to raid the snacks.

Well, I've done something unforgivable, ettiquette-wise: namely, abandoned my date for the arms of another woman. Isis doesn't seem upset, though: in fact, I think she just asked Mai to dance with her, and Mai didn't seem much opposed to the idea, although she kept wiggling her eyebrows at me and flicking her eyes over at Karen, who was still blushing. Poor thing practically turned purple when I asked her to dance with me. I was afraid she'd say no, so I went into business mode and just pulled her down the stairs and onto the dance floor with me. I suppose I ought to be more shocked at just discovering that A) Yuugi Mouto is gay, B) the "other side of Yuugi" is actually a seperate *entity*, and C) Yuugi's in love with him/it/whatever, but for some reason it doesn't bother me much, although it's shaken my assumptions about "Egyptian hocus-pocus". Right now, though, I want to concentrate on Karen. Funny name for a girl who's obviously Japanese, and she looks oddly familiar...school, maybe? Right now, though, I'm more concerned with how perfectly she fits into my arms. All of a sudden, just as the orchestra switches from a waltz to a slow love song, she draws away from me and mumbles something about going to the bathroom, and then disappears through the throng. My immense disappointment at her departure is mitigated by the realization that there are odd occurances going on all around me, and I've been too wrapped up in Karen to notice. Ryuuzaki Dinosaur is currently screaming at new arrival Ryuuji Otogi (whose clothing is no more formal standard than mine) for flicking dice at his out-of-control little cousin's head; Hiroto Honda is headed for them, looking resigned to breaking up a potential fight. Mokuba and one of his new little friends are running up the stairs, apparently having spotted Yuugi and his other: he's pointing at something on the ballroom floor...wait. Is that Ryou Bakura? What's he doing? He's striding across the dance floor more purposefully than I've ever seen him move before, shoving people out of his way as he heads for...is it?? That's Malik Ishtar, who seems to be waltzing with some girl! Now I know for a *fact* that I didn't invite *him*!! Bakura's hair has going spikier than before, and his normally warm eyes are narrow and calculating...just like the transformation Yuugi seems to undergo in duels. Does *Bakura* have an "other half" as well? However, that issue, and everything else, even Karen, is pushed to the back of my mind when I catch a glimpse of Malik's--or rather, Yami no Malik's--face. The psychopath's hair is standing straight up, and he's grinning like a fiend, his eyes shining with bloodlust. I'm distracted by a cry from Mokuba, up on the balcony: "Yuugi, look!! It's that guy again, he's back!!!"

Wow. I'm dancing. With Kaiba. I have the sudden urge to to a jump into the air while yelling... Wait! Kaiba... Kaiba still thinks I'm a girl. One named Karen. And still... *sigh* I really should stop making schemes, they all backfire on me. Now I'm the one who's going to get hurt... I excuse myself politely and run out towards the bathrooms... erm. Which one should I... I grit my teeth and go into the girl's...

What do I do? Mou hitori no boku just said he loves me but if he does why did he never come and see me when I needed him the most? Unlike him Honda was there for me all the time (or most of the time anyway). He's hugging me and it just feels so good. I know now that I do love him, but I don't want to be hurt again. I smile at every one gathered around me, I can't believe how I'm acting and what I was just about to do. Am I crazy? They do care about me but I guess It was me who didn't care about them. They have their own problems and all I was thinking about was me. I mean, look at Jou! He's dressed like a girl for Chist's sake! If I had payed more attention to him I would've known why. Well, I do know why. I can see the reason why as he actually dances with Kiaba. They make a cute couple. Does Kiaba even realize that's Jou? My God, He is being so dense right now.I can feel mou hitori no buko searching my head, trying to find out why I was so quiet. My eyes ficker to him in a warning to get out of my head. I like my secrets. I look to Honda who is looking at me with a sad expression but he seems to understand. We are still friends. I leave Yami's arms and go into his arms, much to Yami's dismay, for probably the last time. I joked into his ear, "There's still Otogi." before going back to Yami. A laugh at the expression on his face. It was just so funny! Yami and the others, including Honda, smile at me. I once again return my eyes to the dance floor and what I see shockes me to know end...

I'm going to take a break from dancing for a while, it's getting late out anyway i think Yami Bakura is getting nervous *sigh* oh well... i also saw Anzu!, she must be waiting for Yugi though, i heard that he tryed to kill himself... i bet my other found it rather funny!, Well i did get to dance with Mazaki *sighs again* although i dont see what's so great about it. how is it, that whenever im sick so many interesting things happen? and when im well nothing realy go's on? (i'm begining to think that everyone plotting against me!!! what gave me that idea?) well i geuss my other's behavior in Battle city dident help!!!! i think iv been siting down and talking to long *runs back out onto dance floor*

I can now walk around town without Isis reminding me about being ill *sigh* i even had enough time to memorize over half the hyrogliph's in the museum...the problem is that i wont have very much to do!!!, not that i have very much time to do anything anyway *sighs again* another thing is that when i was sick i dident have the energy to keep Isis away from any strange guys and i think she's going out with Kaiba (just another excuse to let my other run free^^) I saw Bakura again i wonder what he's been up to..he dident seem to notice me but i sure saw him he was waring that odd shirt again!, well then again almost everyone is dressed strangely around here (man!, im realy geting homesick) even if he does dress weird he's still kinda cute *blushs* WOOPS I DIDENT MEAN IT IN THAT WAY I MEAN IT!!!!! *take's deep breath* (where did that come from) *starts playing with millenium dagger* *run's off*

That damn bastard. I can feel the seal dissipitating. I cannot let that son of a bitch out! I can feel the power of the Rod calling out to the Ring. He's been using it. I take over mou hitori no ore and scan the ballroom for the blonde Egyptian. But not before seeing Yugi-tachi gathered over in a balcony with Kaiba and the Ishtar girl. Was the dog dressed as a woman? One of my eyebrows shoots up. Aw, the damn Pharoah and his light are having a moment. *sneers* Whatever... I have more pressing matters than to ogle at the Pharoah molesting his hikari. I leave off at staring at the group and searched for Malik and his tramp of a yami. There he is, dancing with the Mazaki girl. I strolled over, putting on my best "I-am-evil-incarnate-run-away-as-fast-as-you-can" scowl.

I've been such an airhead this past week! I did RSVP for the ball, I swear I did! Didn't I? I don't know! this past week just went WHOOSH! and there it goes! It's gone! I'll never get it back! Now I'm rushing towards the Kaiba mansion at the urgence of my Yami. I'm throwing on my black suit's jacket even as I'm running. I reach the door and smooth down my hair before going in. When I get in I blush like crazy for being so late. Then all of a sudden...

OOC: Please pardon my absence. I've been in summer school for the past week and finding time to get on is difficult. I promise I'll try to check the RPG every day now, but I can't promise that it will actually happen. Sorry again!

Eventually, you reach the point where fashionably late becomes just becomes rude. I think it's safe to assume that I'll be one of the last guests to arrive at this little gathering. Looks like everyone's all nice and dolled up for the occasion. My only concession to the event was a __ dress shirt in place of the regular tank top. Hnmph. Close enough to formal.

It's hard to avoid getting bowled over by Mokuba and two other boys running close behind him. [smirk] Those three will keep the crowd circulating for a while yet. I wouldn't be suprised to find of the kids frothing at the mouth. And no, I'm not overly found of small children.

Odd... Yuugi and his little group are clustered around one of the balconies. Isis and Mai look lovely as always, poured into their dresses. But who's that -- Gah! Jounouchi's in a dress! [shrug] Well... to be honest, it's much more flattering than that dog suit. Yuugi and eh... Other Yuugi? Isn't his name Yumi or Yami or something? I swear, you need scorecards to keep track of the dead Egyptions and/or recent reincarnations. Yuugi looks lost somehow. And Yumi doesn't look too happy with Honda.

[another smirk] And I thought this would be a boring evening...

Well, well, we've got a regular audience here. Kaiba and his date, Isis-san, have joined us. Oh, I want that dress she's wearing. Might be nice if she were still in it... Kaiba-san is being very amusing, trying desperately to figure out WHO Jounouchi is. It's obvious he's head over heels for the guy, and he can't even recognize him when he's wearing a dress?

I'm tempted to tell Kaiba-san myself. Of course, that could be distastrous. So I won't... but I do want to.

Well, twiddle my thumbs and call me lazy. Apparently I'm a bad yami. Yuugi tried to jump off of a balcony. He said I wasn't there for him.

Pardon me while I get a balcony with which to jump off of. I didn't mean to hurt him. I'd never try to hurt him. In reality, there is nothing I want more than to NOT hurt him. Maybe jump him...

Did not just write that. I hate myself. Yuugi's in trouble and I can't do anything but...

That's not the issue. Yuugi is the issue. I've let him down. And I doubt I'll ever be able to forgive myself. I'm not a very forgiving person by nature, least of all to myself. So, what do I do? I appear beside Yuugi, thus forcing Honda, whom I am not pleased with as of this moment, away from my Yuugi. And for some stupid and unforseen reason, I wrap my arms around the little one (Don't ask me why I did this, I was kind of making it up as I went along...) trying my best to convey my apologies through our link. Trying to let the sincerity of my feelings filter through. Hoping I get my message across...

"I love you, Yuugi. I always have..."

Whoops, did I just say that out loud?

There was a commotion on one of the balconies. Seto and I went to go check it out. It appears Yuugi attempted to jump off. Honda's there hugging him, as well as some strange blond woman I don't know (who Seto seems kind of obsessed over, but that's okay) and...a blond woman I do know. Mai. Why did she have to wear something like that? She's drop dead gorgeous! It really isn't fair...what more she's probably as straight as a parallel line. I tear my eyes away from Mai's body momentarily to stare at my brother, who is dancing with Anzu. Well. Who knew he was such a good dancer. And he seems to be having fun, too.

Oh sh*t. Damnit I should've known that Kaiba would've come over to see what's happening. I think he's saying something, but I can't look up at him. I mean, if Yugi saw through this, then what if he does too? I can do this. I lift my head a little, not enough to let him see my full face, and curtsy (dun ask where it came from, I don't know either. o_O;;) politely before introducing myself. "Oh excuse me for my rudeness, I'm Karen. Jounouchi asked me to come?"

My other seems to be a better dancer than I thought: he's holding his own quite nicely with that Anzu girl. Enjoy yourself while you can, Malik: in about thirty seconds, you won't remember a thing, and *I'm* going to have control of our shared form...and little Miss Mazaki, who seems so blissful right now, is going to get the shock of her life.

There's a disturbance in one of the balconies. Normally I would have just sent a servant up to clear things, or maybe Suzume, I don't know...but it looks like Yuugi and some of his friends. There's Mai Kujaku hurrying up the stairs towards them...there's Honda, hugging Yuugi...and...and...who on earth is that next to them, the blonde girl in the green dress? Curiousity and concern get the better of me, and I tap Isis' shoulder and point up at the little group. We agree without words to investigate and hurry through the crowd towards the balcony stairs. I'm slightly in the lead, and thus privy to the whole scene when we arrive: Honda seems to be saying something soothing to Yuugi, Mai is patting his shoulder and murmuring "Hey, kiddo, are you alright?", and the mysterious blonde is clinging to the arm of Yuugi's jacket and muttering in a low voice, "I'm sorry...I'm really sorry". I glance back at Isis, but she seems rather transfixed by Mai (who is, as usual, falling out of her clothes to great effect); then I clear my throat. "Ah...should I call someone...a doctor, maybe? Is everything alright?" I get a collective head-shake; turning to the blonde and going back into formal mode, I ask, "Can I ask who you came in with? I'm afraid I didn't catch your name." She doesn't answer, but seems really flustered; she's started to blush like crazy. I can't help but stare: she looks utterly stunning in that green dress, despite a lack of certain, er, assets...but her hair keeps falling into her face, obscuring everything except her full lips and feminine chin. I know it's not at all polite to Isis, but I can't stop wanting to brush this girl's now-unruly hair out of her eyes...

Okay, so here I am, at the ball. Fashionably late and looking absolutely drop-dead gorgeous. As usual. Looks like Isis is here with Kaiba. And there's... Jounouchi? That can't be Jounouchi. But it is. Why is he in drag? This is certainly a strange development. Ahem. It's none of my business.

Oh look... there goes Mokuba. He looks slightly drunk. Probably had too many Pixistix. Oh, look! crab puffs! Better not eat too many... this shirt is almost too small. That would be great, wouldn't it? If I ate too much and shredded my shirt? That would actually be awful.

Okay, just decided to pass on the puffs. And just as I'm turning away from the refreshment table, I catch a glance of the balcony, where Yuugi is apparently considering jumping off. I rush over, only to find Honda and Jounouchi are already there. Yuugi's crying... I knew something was wrong. I should go ask if he's all right...

Crap. Yugi knows it's me... I give him a look that I hope says "Hey, what've you been up to?" but by the look on his face I'm not sure he got the message... I take another glance at Kaiba and Isis, when I look back Yugi's gone. I see him out on the balcony heading for the rail... No. NO! I run as fast as I can but there are all these people on the way and I'm tripping on my dress the whole way and there are these guys who keep trying to stop me for a dance... I finally get fed up and punch one of them in the face before running out to the balcony... Honda's already there. I know I shouldn't sound so disappointed, but... I really haven't been around for Yugi lately have I? I've been oo caught up with my own selfish ideas to even consider his point of view... I head over to try and apologize, to both of the friends I'd deserted. God only knows if they'll forgive me...

Well, here I am, at the party. Isis and Kaiba are over there, and there goes Mokuba...O_o Apparently high off something. Sugar, most likely. And...Yuugi?! What's he doing on the balcony? Oh shoot! I run over and touch his arm, hoping he'll reconsider his actions. He turns around and stares at me in shock. He hugs me tightly, and I hug him back. Something about it feels so right...

Oh god my body hurts... Is that grampa? Where am I? I'm at the hospital. What day is it...? ...OH SH--!!! OH NOOO! The ball is tonite! It started two hours ago! Grampa wakes up at my outburst. He looks at my tears and the calender and back to me. He understands. I try to get up but the tubes hold me back. Pain shoots up my arm as I try again to pull away. Where is mou hitori no buko? Did... Does he even care that I'm in a hospital with tubes and wires attached to my arms? No one came to visit me? I'm going to that ball and no one is stopping me. My grandpa takes me home and after a good 15 minutes before he lets me go to the party. I show up in my white tuxedo and I see Anzu... dancing with Malik. Tears spring to my eyes and my vision gets blurry. I fight the urges to cry, faint, and throw up all at once. I stumble to the nearest table and sit down. I look at the surprised occupant and see a pretty blond woman. "Jou?!" I whisper to her/him harshly. He is one of my best friends and not even a dress and fake hair could hide Jou from me. I fight the urge to laugh, thinking that he wouldn't like that too much. He looks at me for a while before turning his head and looking at Kiaba talking with Isis. I look down and realize that I /am/ completly alone. Nobody cares about the fact that I was in the hospital all alone except grampa. I'm angry. Very angry. Not even mou hitori no buko came to see me. I get up and storm out onto the balcony with 'Karen' giving me a wierd look. Thinking that it would not be very nice to jump off at someone else's party. No one would know or care anyway. I stare up at the full moon. I jump at the soft touch on my arm and I am shocked to see who it is...

Well, here I am. At the ball. Seto looks pretty good. Of course, I think all the guys are jealous of him...and the girls are jealous of me. Being the object of attention really boosts your self-esteem quite a bit. (Being modest isn't exactly my strong point, you know.) I don't see Mai...she may not have arrived yet. Ah well, she'll probably be here soon. Seto looks distracted; I'm not sure if it's the fact Mokuba is on a major sugar-high or he's looking for someone else. I have a feeling it's the latter...a certain blondie, maybe? I'm pretty sure he has a crush on Jou. The way those to act together, it's priceless. I shouldn't jump to conclusions just yet, but I just have a feeling.

Hrm... I can't see Seto anywhere... ...unless that's him over there with Isis greeting some of his business partners... If this were the normal type of place I go to I would probably go up to the bar and order a drink, but 1) I don't see one; and 2) I wouldn't want to leave my sister to the men over there that won't stop staring at us. My sister's dragging me over to the tables on the side, while smiling sweetly at everyone in her way and asking them politely to move. How she does it, I have no idea - I would've just yelled at them to get out of the way... Some guy's coming over, probably to ask Shizuka to dance. He looks decent enough, I suppose... I tell her not to wander too far off, and that I'll be waiting here. Unless I catch Kaiba by himself. Then it'll be my chance to walk up and introduce myself. ...I don't have a fake name. Oh sh*t... come on, Katsuya, think! Hrm... maybe one of my friends names? No, because if he decides to do a background check, it'll lead right to me... hrm... How about... Karen? She looked kind of like me, now that I think about it... and she's in America now, so there's no way he could trace me! I hope... Well... this is boring... 'm just kind of sitting here. Yay...

Yey... the ball is starting, Im goign all alone but dancing is what i do best so i wont miss this!!!! I was supposed to go with Yuugi but he never really formally invited me, in fact I havent seen him since he was lying on the ground, I should have called him, but I was too busy worring about how to dress. I decided not to wear the first dress I bought, a leather one, made me look cheap and vulgar. I bought a second one, really nice, I love it its blue and the skirt is quite long, just the kind of dress one would wear at a prom... I also made something with my hair, i look gooood... but on my way I also see lots of pretty dresses and pretty girls, there are this too... wait, one looks like Jounouchi's sister... but whereīs Jounouchi? Well, the girl walking beside her is quite pretty too, though, her body is shaped as a boys... but she has a very feminine face. Ok, already here, the entrance is decorated with golden and sivery ribbons and balloons, really classy, thereīs also silvery dust falling from the first floor... so cute!!! Anywho, looks like im the only loser who doesnt have a date, neither boy nor girl... poor me, well i'll just wait for Yuugi over there... Wait a sec... is that Malik trying to sneek in with his rod?? I have the cuality of catching people in fraganti... I bet this is idea of Maniac Malik, but if he wasnīt invited, Im going to complain and if neither was Honda or Otogi Im complaining louder... I donīt see them anywhere... Surely this is another plan of Yami Malik to take over the world while we are dancing and all. I'll wait for Yuugi for some minutes and if he doesn't arrive Ill go over to talk to Malik, which i probably shouldnt but -maybe I should ask him to be my date and avoid the caos of destruction... No, he would kill me in the sec i approach to him, but he must be mad, and who aouldnt? Arg, if Yuugi doesnt arrive here soon im gonna...

NO WAY AM I GOING!!! Of course, that doesn't stop my sister from dragging me there while yelling something about responsibility and smacking me every time it looks like I'm struggling enough to rip anything... It's not that I'm nervous or anything... okay, I am. Besides, we dun have a car or anything, so we're walking. Which wouldn't be too bad, except we look really weird, walking down the streets of my side of town dressed like... well, let's just say that if I was straight and she wasn't my sister, I'd date her. She's got on this pink dress with no sleeves, (She wanted one with no back as well, but there's no way in hell I'm going to let her wear THAT thing) which has white ribbons hanging off and a white trim around the bottom. And I must say, I don't look too bad either, although I'd have preferred a dress with a wider skirt part so that I wouldn't have to duct tape... erm... let's not go there *blushes* ...ANYWAYS, the dress isn't THAT bad... just.... it's backless. And sleeveless. And they probably would have gotten me a skirt less one too, if it wasn't so formal of a party. *sweatdrop* Anyways, it's forest green, and it... clings. Which can get uncomfortable... I really wish we didn't have to use so much duck tape, but it does make my charade look real... The pumps I could have done without, sandals that have so many straps going around my feet that I wouldn't be surprised if I couldn't get them off... not without help at least. (Okay, I'm exaggerating, there are only about seven or so...) My face has little to no makeup surprisingly, just enough to make me unrecognizable. (They said something about already having feminine facial features... *growl*) My hair... I like the way my hair is done actually. It's pulled back a bit, into a sort of bun/ponytail type thing with tons of butterfly clips in it, and it looks... natural. We're almost there... this would be a bit easier if I made a quiet entrance but - eh... too late....

Dear God, is it the evening of the ball *already*? I feel so unprepared. It didn't help that Miss Ishisotsu got here first and chewed me out for wearing all black leather with ice-blue accents, plus my signature white trenchcoat. Mokuba thought it looked fine, at least, but he wouldn't stop teasing me about it. I can see him now from where I stand at the top of the grand staircase, he's running around the ballroom like a maniac. Oh, Mokuba, watch ou--oh, heck, he's just crashed head-on into Ryuuzaki Dinosaur. Swell move. If that lizard-brain lays a hand on Mokuba, so help me I'll...oh. It seems Ryuuzaki brought his hyperactive little cousins from Korea along. I can't help but sigh: when Mokuba gets together with those two, they all become holy terrors. I watch them dodging around the guests, scanning the crowd intently, but no one I know has shown up yet. So far, it's mostly elite duellists from different areas, barely anyone from the Domino High group. Well, at least the room looks nice, and it doesn't seem we're going to run short of food. Suddenly I hear an explosion of murmurs: I look in the direction of the outburst and realize that it's been caused by the entrance of Isis Ishtar, my date. She looks fantastic: the floor is littered with dropped male jaws, and the female attendees (the straight ones, anyways) are looking at her with undisguised envy. Yet as I go to greet her, I can't help but scan the room for someone else, hoping against all hope to see a flaxen head or hear th--get a grip. He's sending a replacement, Kaiba. That's all. I hide my wistfulness behind a mask of ice, looking around casually, hoping briefly that the Yuugi-tachi will get here soon; Isis is good company, but somehow I feel more secure when the idiot contingent is around, especially since Mokuba's currently sugar-high and off trying to get Kajiki Ryouta to participate in a game of tag. The orchestra finally begins to play...

Change of plans. My other keeps going on about some thing called a "ball", which I take to be a sort of social gathering where these idiots get drunk and feel each other up...but of course he's upset because he wasn't invited. Now, you may take me for a ruthless sadistic bastard whose only goal is to spread evil and cause chaos (which is accurate ^^;), but I have another purpose too, thankyouverymuch: making sure that *no one* harms my other. No one but me, that is; anyone else who messes with him pays, and pays dearly. I mean, look what happened to his dear old daddy...*evil smirk* So, you want to go to the ball, do you, Malik? I've weakened the barrier keeping me within this oblivion just enough to plant a suggestion in your mind...sneak in. We can do it with the Rod, my other, it'll be simple enough. You can have some fun, dance with people, whatever...and while you're distracted (along with everyone else in Domino who might oppose me)...then, oh, then, my time will come. Rishid will be far away (he can't stand crowds...makes him self-conscious about his, ah, carvings), Isis will be distracted, the Pharoah, Apophis curse him and all his spawn, is too busy fussing about his oh-so-cute omote, and that *tomb robber* seems to have gone underground for the time being. It's the perfect opportunity for me to stage a comeback. Look out, Domino City: the pre-tournament ball is about to get two very special, and very unexpected, guests!

o_0;; Oh. My. F*cking. God. *shakes head rapidly* I wanna kill something.... or rather, three somethings... *looks embarrassed* ...Well, seeing as how no one will read this... God this is just... *shakes head* Okay. Well, it seems Kaori, Yumi, etc. got a little TOO caught up with my act and now... er... "wax". *shivers* I have no f*cking clue how girls can stand that! Well anyways, all it really means is that I can't wear short sleeves or shorts but, hey, it's not like I do anyways... I'm pretty much set for the ball thing, hair extensions and all... And well... okay, okay!! I'm nervous cuz I thought I saw something weird today. I mean *really* weird. Sometime during the afternoon, I managed to pull my head up from my desk and look around the classroom and I dunno but... Is it just me or did Kaiba look ready to cry or something. He didn't have tears in his eyes or nothing, but I dunno. I'm probably imagining it, I mean, since when does the "Great" Seto Kaiba cry?

I'm feeling beter today but id beter take the day off just in case... I wonder if i got in invetation to Kaiba's tournament *sigh* if so Isis hasent givin it to me yet, i guess she's still a little angry about the last time but i wouldent blame her...and even if im not invited i'll go anyway i'll even sneak in if i have to!!!!! oh!, i have to go now i think somone's at the door *sigh* it's tough working in a museum i want to go back to Egypt it's to cold here....

I'm feeling beter today but id beter take the day off just in case... I wonder if i got in invetation to Kaiba's tournament *sigh* if so Isis hasent givin it to me yet, i guess she's still a little angry about the last time but i wouldent blame her...and even if im not invited i'll go anyway i'll even sneak in if i have to!!!!! oh!, i have to go now i think somone's at the door *sigh* it's tough working in a museum i want to go back to Egypt it's to cold here....

I've been avoiding Yuugi lately. Yes, on purpose. But it's just weird...ever since the other day when I saved him. Ah, well. I thought I heard people saying that Yuugi's taking Anzu to the ball. Huh. I was invited too, but I'll probably just go alone. I'll see Yuugi and the others there...bah, who needs a date? I'll be fine on my own. I also heard that Jou is sending a "replacement" to the ball. Wonder who. *scratches head*

Ah, how life solves its own problems. Jounouchi isn't going to the ball, he's sending a replacement. Whatever that means. Anzu might be going with Yuugi, at least that's what I heard through 'the grapevine'. Isis is going to the ball with Kaiba. Somehow, that makes me want to laugh. But I won't. I suppose I'll go by myself. There's no shame in going alone. Who else is left? I don't know for sure if Otogi has a date. But I think he got invited separately anyway. And Honda. Which deletes almost everyone on the list save Malik. Oh, that would be a pretty sight, wouldn't it? I don't really want to think about it actually. Malik at the ball? Strange. Malik at the ball with me? Preposterous. Besides, he's not my type... although I'm not about to write off the whole family.

Something strange did happen today. Well, not strange, per say, but unusual at the least. I got a rose from Yuugi Motou. I'm not really sure why, but its awfully cute of him to make the gesture. Poor kid, he didn't look so good the last time I saw him. He needs to eat more. He's already so scrawny...

Ball Outfit Progress - Skirt is on order, boots were packaged and prepped in the back of my closet, just begging to be freed... need a matching top to go with skirt and accessories to boot. Ah, life is good.

So I'm just sitting around in the Soul Room, pacing back and forth, when all of a sudden, I sense trouble is brewing right outside and I hear Yuugi calling for me. Do I panic?

Do you think I panicked? Of course I panicked. But in a cool way. In the coolest way one person can panic. Because I do everything in the coolest way a person can do anything. But that's not the issue right now. The issue is Yuugi.

He hasn't been eating. Why would he stop eating? Am I doing something wrong? I'm probably going to obsess over this for the rest of the week. Or until Yuugi tells me why he did this. Whichever comes first. Hopefully him telling me will come first, because then I won't have to obsess over it. I can get it out in the open. It's therapy for people who have been trapped inside hunks of metal for centuries on end. But I doubt anyone would know anything about that. Which is isolating.

I was talking about Yuugi. I don't know what to do for him. I want to help him, I really do. But how do I go from wanting to do something, to actually doing it? Because at this rate, all I'm good for is a paperweight. And I hate that. It means I'm not only helpless, but useless as well. How irritating. I have to do something about it. I have to find a way to be more useful to Yuugi. In areas other than dueling. Maybe I can convince him to let me clean the house... or something. I don't really know anything anymore.

But I think it has to get better sometime, right? There has to be a good side to this. Maybe it will bring us closer together. And that would be a good thing, for sure.

I can't believe it. I just... SH*T. He's taking someone else.... he's... *sigh* One minute, I'm bleeding again... Picked a fight with my father... the news didn't put me in the best of moods and... my moody side doesn't like him too much, I guess... This time, it's not too bad though. Just a sprained wrist, twisted ankle and a couple slashes across the chest. Not to hard to fake injury by fights. But back to the problem. He's taking Isis, just so you know... Isis.... a girl... he's probably straighter than a steel rod. Well fine then, we'll just deal with it this way. This isn't just a game anymore Kaiba. This is war. I WILL hurt you the way you hurt me. And I WILL not let you forget it. Ever. (Damn that's so cliche, I sound like an angry girlfriend or something...) To change the topic to a ... not as annoying one... I think Yugi's not eating. Either that or his lunches have gotten bigger, because between mine and whatever he doesn't eat, I usually don't even come close to filling my stomach, and then BAM, suddenly I can barely force myself to finish his food like I usually do... It wouldn't be good if he's anorexic, he already seems weak enough to all the bullies that try to pick on him... I mean, sure his yami protects him now, but... eh... who knows... I should care more, he's my friend... a good one, that I don't want to loose... but... I can't help but ignore his problems for my own... maybe if... yeah, maybe if I sent him a flower like he did for me... I know I didn't say anything, but it's just... too mushy a thing to say, ya know? Heh, anyways... what to write... what to write.... change that - what to write that wouldn't be complete and utter bullsh*t? Hrm... I got it. "Yugi, thanks for putting up with me, when everyone else wouldn't. You're the best friend anyone could ever have, and I owe my life to you for that. -Katsuya" I would've put my last name, but... for you, anything. He'll get the message. Now I've just got to... eh, why not have a bit of fun. I'll just climb up the back of the game shop and stick in on his windowsill... I'll probably have to tape it down, but it'll be something to cure the boredom...

I saw Anzu at the museum, or at least i think that was her! she seemed to be troubled about somthing!, oh well. I cant get how nice i look with my hair spiked up out of my head!!! no wait!. that's a complement to my other *sigh* I wonder where Isis has been going lately.. i mean she'll leave the museum early but wont tell me why, it make's me wonder.... I wonder how long it will take to stike a deal with my other! to let him out i mean, with out him killing anyone in the end, he is a little to obsesive....

Seto visited me while I was working at the museum. He seemed a bit preoccupied, though. Ah well, I enjoyed talking to him. Seems that he's the only one around here with some sense in his head. Everyone else...I suppose they're all right, but Seto can actually hold an intelligent conversation with me. What more, it appears Seto has invited me to the ball with him. I'm pleased (okay, ecstatic), but it would've been better if he had asked me personally. But he's probably busy. We all know how that is.

Lalalalala, I just saw Bakura and gave him his book, he picked Self Analysis, though he seemed pleased, a part of him really wanted to kill me, oh well, things like that just happen. Ok, now i'm making my way to Domino Museum to see Malik, I think I'll give him Escape from Evil, seems like Yami Yuugi would make a good use of Our Inner Conflicts (Iīve been feeling like he hates me) Ok, nevermind, I just gotta keep going. I also got a phone call from some Suzume girl oficially giving me the invitation to the ball, now, even if I have no date, Im definetely going and I got a rose from Yuugi too, hes so cyoote, i think I shall thank him. 3 blocks from the Domino Museum, perhaps before I should go to the park Cd store, seems like Evanescense is a fad or should I buy Linkin Parks new cd? I'll think it on my way... Wait, is that Yuugi lying on the ground, oh well lets just leave him there, Yami Yuugi is not going to be in the mood for his book, I think Yuugi is anorexic, anywho, gotta buy my cd and make my way to Malik...

*sigh* This seems to be getting worse and worse. Now I know how Anzu felt and why she is so angry with me. I haven't had a full meal in four days now. They ALL ingnored the roses I sent them and they were expensive!!! I am now officially broke. I have my black dress shirt and my white pants set out. Grandpa got me a surprise and bought me a white blazer. So basically I now have a white tuxedo witout a bowtie and a black dress shite. Not bad. I don't think I'm going to find a date. No body cares. I should be happy that all my friends are happy now, but I'm not. Jou isn't going and says that he's getting a replacement. Something about how he says it makes me think that he's up to something. Wait, he's Jou. He's ALWAYS up to something. Something is wrong with mou hitori no boku and Honda is avoiding me. Why does everybody hate me now? I'm walking through the park again. Even after that guy attacked me I still go there. I guess seeing other people happy and in love is as close to love as I'm going to get. A sudden wave of dizzyness hits me. I guess my lack of food is finally affecting me. The last thing I see befor darkness is the face of my beloved. Help me, mou hitori no buko...

Well that took forever... I just BARELY fit into one of Yumi's dresses, although I must admit, I DO look good in it... Eh... let's not go there. *coughs nervously* Anyways, I got my sister to go with me as a friend type thing, she's agreed to help me out with my other plan as well. You know: Operation "Get Kaiba To Like Me While I'm a 'Girl' So That I Can Find Out Who If He'll Still Like Me When I'm Back To Normal"? (Note to self: GET A SHORTER OPERATION NAME...) Sure, it's not one of the greatest ideas I've ever had, but there have been worse... *remembers Operation Donut* Erm... yeah. I don't think that it'll work, but if I can get him to open up just a bit, then it'll be worth it... Great, now I sound like some weird obsessive stalker type person... So I pulled favors to get classes with him this year, but still... I am SUCH a lovesick puppy dog, Kaiba's right... *sweatdrop* *perks up* But at least I'm HIS lovesick puppy, and no one's gonna stop me from getting to my master, not even him. *laughs insanely* Erm... I think I lost more brain cells than I thought when I got thrown into the door the other day... *sigh* ...

I take back everything I just said. I just got Jounouchi's response...or something like it. He's not coming. Instead, he's sending a "suitable replacement". Replacement??! That...is he doing this on purpose?? And I was even going to ask him if he wanted to go with me...yeah, like I ever could have worked up the nerve. When it's business or duelling I'm fine, but personal matters? Ah, Hell, the part of me that still feels is acting like an idiot bawling preteen girl who's been dumped. Well, fine. Screw Jounouchi...no, let's not go into *that* mental space. To heck with him. I've made my decision. I'll invite Isis Ishtar to the ball, and Jounouchi can just...oh, god. I actually *am* crying. Suitable replacement? Idiot. When will he realise that there *is* no such thing, no one who can replace *him*? I have to stop this. I dry my eyes quickly, then go get Suzume to place a call through to Isis for me. At least she'll be good company, and she'll have the grace not to make a scene if she wants to go chat up Mai or someone like that. It didn't occur to me until now, but I haven't cried since I was twelve years old (except for when I got Mokuba back, but that doesn't count). Damn you, Jounouchi.

Today hasn't been as much of a horror show as I thought. For some reason, Mokuba got it into his head to make pancakes (and made a mess of the kitchen while he was at it), and they turned out delicious. I cut morning classes to visit Isis at the museum (it's not as bad as you think. It was computer studies and higher mathematics, both of which I could probably *teach* in my sleep); she seemed pleased about the prospect of the tournament, but depressed because she didn't have a date for the ball. She also seemed rather involved with listening to Evanescence; that's not a good sign, I've heard that music and it's depressing stuff. So we ended up talking for a little while, a bit about duelling and some shop talk, but mostly about her maniacal little brother Malik and wether or not he should be committed. At least he has a reason for being insane; hell, *I'd* have lost my mind if my biological father carved things into my back and then tried to kill me (Gozaburo, not being any blood relative of mine, was easier to endure...sort of). However, if his other half, the possessed psycho who looks like he's in a constant state of orgasm, ever gets loose, we've had it. Isis seemed to be in a slightly better mood when I left, and she also seemed interested in wether Mai Kujaku was going or not. Hmm. Anyway, I got back to my office and my personal secretary, Mihari Suzume, handed me an RSVP from said Mai. I was a little startled that she'd agreed to participate, but I have to give the woman credit for guts, and I told Suzume so. After a bit of thinking (and several interruptions from Mokuba, who kept phoning wanting to know where I'd hidden the Pixie Stix at home), I called Suzume again and got her to phone the rest of Yuugi's little group, that is to say Anzu Mazaki, Ryuuji Otogi, and Hiroto Honda, and invite them to the ball as well. They're all attached at the hip anyways; it'll be an asset to have Anzu there since she can actually *dance*, it's just good business sense to invite Otogi, and Honda can keep an eye on Mokuba since my little brother seems to have a healthy respect for him (which may have something to do with Honda's having beaten up Yami no Bakura for trying to swipe Mokuba's body, or so I'm told). Now, all I wonder is, when is the mak-Jounouchi going to get back to me about the ball? Other than that, it's been a fairly decent day: the tests on the latest Duel Disk upgrades are even going well.

Ok, I made up my mind finally, I think I was very confused but i have had a talk with myself and now everything is clear. I'm not becoming a rare hunter or a duelist, Im back to the cheerleadering thing, yeah the job sucks and brings me down but im the only person whos that crazy to do it, besides, if i dont do it then who would, so, im stupidly happy again, ive realized im the base of the pyramid, if i fall, everybody else around me falls... i have to be happy and cheer them all...well, thats practicly nor true but sounded good... anywho, everyone's been so sad lately, even my Malik...(damn, did i say that out loud?) i mean, my Yuugi, so theres gotta be one happy lunatic among all of us. That doesnt mean i have forgiven the fact that im completely being ignored. Today i saw Yuugi, Honda and Jounouchi at school, which is no surprise cause theyre my schoolmates. I think Honda feels a bit uncomfortable around Yuugi and Jounouchi looks so sad. Yuugi came over to my place with his stupid cute face (canīt deny it, i like the boy) I think he wanted to tell me something but Im still angry so I shooed him away by telling him I was busy reading a book, (that aint a lie, Im reading this really cool book, whassa name again? oh yeah Chiken Soup for the Soul) I highly recomend it. About the ball, I think Im going by myself, Ive already bought this cool dress, hockery-looking but cool, and who knows, perhaps in the ball i get to dance with any of the Ishtar hotties or that Mai play girl ~such a fantasy. Dont get me wrong, Im straight, am I not? Ah, that doesnt matter, I bought some books as presents for Malik, Yuugi, and for Bakura so I gotta go give them their present. Thereīs Escape from Evil, Our Inner Conflicts and Self Analysis... which is whose.. arg nevermind ill just wrapp them all and let them choose. ok ill just take the bus... *walks away singing* If I go crazy then will you still call me superman...

There's nothing to do here anymore *sigh* i'v already read the hyrogliphs in the museum about four times... Maybe i should try and talk to someone!, if Isis even even let's me outside..and if i can go outside who would i talk to? Kaiba think's i need counsling and Yugi most likly think's i still want to kill him (notes: thats kinda true) well im not to sure about Bakura although he might not trust me!!!! what am i saying might ... he still glare's at me as if trying to figure out what im thinking.... I'm going to my room....*walks away*

Well, I've finally talked myself into a dress for the ball. Went out and bought it earlier. Now, to enter and get a date. Who to ask... that's the question. Everyone's going with someone. Except me.

*impaitently drums fingernails on table*

Done... Kaiba's secretary or something answered... or conversation pretty much went like this: "Kaiba residence." "Uhm... yeah. This is Jounouchi Katsuya... Is Kaiba around?" "I'm sorry, he's in a meeting at the moment. Can I take a message?" "Just tell him that I'm going to be entering the tournament, but since I can't make it to the ball, I'll be sending a friend in to represent me." "I'll make sure he gets the message as soon as possible." I also went down the street to the bar where the girls work part-time... they've agreed to help, so now all I need is to find myself a date............... Wait a sec... I don't think any of the gang is straight... Uh oh.... DANGIT!! *sigh* Maybe I could.... hrm...

Finally... that took forever. I've found enough peieces to tape together whatever I could find of my invite. Turns out there's a ball too. Which would explain why everyone is so high strung at the moment. Huh. It says formal wear, so I suppose I could get a suit and tie... unless... No, I'm *not* going to go there. But it would be fun.... And some of the girls down the street owe me a favor... *snicker* And it'd be fun too... Hell yeah! I'm doing it! Lesse... I could get Koari to do my hair, she's good at that... and Katsumi could get me the right shades... a dress from Yumi, she's my height... Yes, this WILL be fun... Maybe I could even get a dance with him... might tell me something, ne? But of course, first I've got to RSVP or some such. The phone number's missing the last number though... Oh well. I'll just dial all the possible comebinations.....

I'm not feeling as depressed today. That is, of course, a good thing. I'm really difficult to be around when I'm depressed. Post-depression shopping usually helps.

In other news, I think I do want to go to the ball. If no one asks me, I might have to go out on a limb and ask them. I wonder if Isis is free... since I obviously can't ask Jounouchi.

No, Mai, don't even think about him. That's the past. Come to think of it, so is that whole business with Yami no Malik.

I think I just talked myself back into a tournament...

I think I might be too happy. The situation at hand doesn't call for my happiness. I think I've always been confused when it came to expressing the correct emotion at the correct time. So now I may have scared the little one off. He's going to ask Anzu. I'm sure of it. Why am I mad? I can't even invite anyone. Maybe that's why I'm upset. Maybe.

In other news, I've decided Anzu is insane. It isn't as if I haven't known this. She's always seemed a bit strained. I'm not trying to be rude, really. Maybe it'd sound more sincere if I said I was worried about her. That's probably the right approach. Okay, let's try this again. I'm worried about Anzu, she seems to be distracted and listless lately. And unnaturally concerned for Malik. Ahem. That really doesn't bother me. She can be concerned for whomever she chooses to be. It's none of my business. In fact, nothing really is. Great, now I've gone a depressed myself again.

I think I might just die if aibou asked Anzu to the ball. Crap! I can't die, can I? I'm already dead. That's doubly depressing. And all this time, while I'm worrying myself grey, Yami no Malik is lurking. Yes, you heard me correctly. He's lurking. As in, lurking in the shadows, waiting to pounce. And it will be painful when he does. I want to rip my hair out. I'd look horrible bald. Why am I thinking this? Why am I worrying about Yami no Malik? Why? It's none of my business right now.

Okay, okay, it is. It's every bit my business. I have to protect Yuugi. That's my job, isn't it? Come to think of it, I don't really know. I mean, it's sort of implied, wouldn't you say? Protect the Puzzle, protect the kid. Which leads to all sorts of things. I hate that. I mean, I love him, I hate the fact that I'm not totally in control of my feelings. Maybe I just feel obligated. That would certainly suck. I'm too confused. Confusing. Whichever. I need a nap.

I don't sleep. Crap.

This just keeps getting more and more complicated. I've stopped eating. I don't know why but the thought of food just makes me sick. I haven't had a full meal in about two days. I saw Jou at school today. I'm not sure if he RSVPed the invite from Kiaba yet. Strange. I saw Kiaba walking up to him, giving him a perfect oppotunity to tell him that he was going, but he didn't. He just glared at Kiaba and walked away. But the strange thing is... Kiaba looked hurt. Not only that but it looks like Anzu is becoming a little depressed. I have been ignoring her. I haven't thought about a date for the ball for a little while. I know! I'll ask Anzu! That is... if she'll go with me. She is probably too angry with me right now. Isis looks sad too. And Jou. And mou hitori no boku. And...Everybody. I thought this ball was supposed to be fun and exciting but all it seems to do is make people miserable. Grandpa says that if someone is depressed that a gift usually makes them feel better. I know! I'll buy a dozen roses and give on to all of my friends. Dear Anzu... hmmm what can I write? Ohh I know!................................................................................................................... I'm done writing the notes and buying the roses now. Let's see. There's one for Anzu, Isis, Mai, Jou, Seto, Ryou, Malik, Honda, and I think that I'll give one to Otogi. He's been acting kinda crazy lately. ... I hope that like their presents...

Yuugi's going to that tournament ball. It figures I wasn't invited. I'm not a duelist, duh. But it's times like this that make me wish I was. I wonder if people can ask you to the ball even if you weren't invited? Ah well, I'll ponder about it later. I have massive amounts of homework to complete.

Mwar. I think Yuugi and I are the only ones going to the tournament ball Seto has set up. And still, no one has asked me to accompany them. And for some reason, I just can't ask anyone. If Mai would ask me, I would be as happy as a clam...ya know, I wonder about that phrase. How do people know if a clam is happy or not? Anyway, on another, even less positive note, I'm back from vacation. Yes, back to the museum I go. Ah well, I'll just sit and listen to Evanescence on my portable CD player. I doubt anyone will care.

Oi, oi, oi... Huh, greet me! Today I'm not feeling miserable! Well, im on the edge but... It all started when some old freaky-looking lady told me to take a walk so my feet would heal. I was feeling like meeting someone cute and I walked my way to the museum (dunno why, maybe because of the hot egyptian brunettes over there...)over there I saw Yuugi, (but for the first time I didnīt go running to him.) I think Yami is confused... again. I hope its not because of his past, Im already tired of that crap. Well that issue allowed me one date in the past, but if there are no more dates, there are no more advices from this Anzu. I was hoping to see Isis, but she wasnīt there, maybe shes on vacations, I wanted to see Mai too (you know I have this creepy premonitions on dreams... Im such a freak...) I think sheīs not well, but I could confort her... dunno where that came from... but I did saw Malik, tha guy was looking good, well he actually looked a bit sick, I think his yami is at something again, hope Im not his ultimate victim, he seems like a good ripper... well, i still donīt have a date, I think Im not getting one. Im really tired of being the little chearleader always supporting and never supported, Im becoming a rebel, I demand attention, at least from that psycho Malik, and I also demand an invitation from Kaiba because now Im a duelist... if thats tha way to get tha man and his yami... It began when i asked a rare hunter where could I leave my curriculum... my cheek is still red... then I decided to become a duelist, so I spend some of my money for new york in a deck, and wrote my curriculum, I think I'll give it directly to Malik, everyone has a yami and I want one too, so many orgies.. wanna be the bad girl just once, anywho I didnīt give it to that egyptian sexy bitch at the museum, his Yami could have taken total control of him and strangled me (and i bet he would have enjoyed it). Iīve decided iīll ask Jounouchi to the ball if Yuugi doesnt ask me, and if the duelist and the rare hunter thing doesnt work, im already practicing my suicide notes.

Hey, guys. I just wanted to know if you guys thought I was making Jounouchi cuss too much... it's just... he seems the type, I guess. Tell me what you think, K? Dun want to ruin the RP or anything...

Couldn't do it. Don't give me that look!! I just... *sigh* I'm sick and tired of all the lying. Everybody's lying to everybody else every f*cking day. It's getting on my nerves - I hate liars. They're in that category with bullies(only applies if they're doing it for no good reason), dog suits, and drunk dads. Oh sure, I lie all time... damnit all to hell! {Oxymoron} Yeah, I've decided to label each time I do that... then I can count them up. So far I've got my love hate thing with that @$$hole; the incident with the night/day, sun/moon, and hot/cold thingie; and now this. Joy. Anyways, what I'm trying to say is, why can't people say what they want to say and get the damn thing over with? I mean, sure, that applies to me too, but I still can't decide whether I want to rip the guy limb from limb or tackle glomp him and never let go... I understand that the other guys might have one problem I don't - admitting to themselves that they're gay or bi(Got through that phase a LONG time ago) - but still! Eh, who cares, not my problem right? My problem just happens to be a bit bigger than that at the moment - How to get the information for the tournament without telling Kaiba some excuse that would make me look like an idiot...... again. So, I've got to get thinking....

I've decided not to enter the tournament. Although, I might go. Just to watch. Maybe someone will ask me to the ball. It doesn't matter.

It doesn't matter...

I wonder, why can't life be simple? One minute I'm obsessing about ball outfits, the next I'm questioning my existence. Yuugi was walking home from school when (apparently) he was attacked. And who comes to save him but Mr. Knight-In-Shining-Armor-Honda. The really confusing thing is why I'm so jealous. Why am I jealous? I don't know why I'm jealous. So I sat on my butt for three hours trying to figure it out. It didn't help.

And now I'm feeling cynical. I do that all the time, and for what? To sit down (again, on my butt) and write in this journal Yuugi gave me. Why did he give me a journal? Does that mean he likes me? I must be crazy.

Hold on, I am crazy. I'm very crazy. To be a little more than perfectly honest, I think I like my light half. I didn't just say that. I didn't. I need to get out more.

In other news, I think we (we meaning 'me and my wonderful aibou') ran into Malik at the museum today. He was looking a little ill. I don't know whether to take this as a good omen or not. I'm going for good.

On a more serious note, his yami is surely back. Mai isn't going to enter this tournament. That's all there is to it.

I saw Yugi in the museum today, it's realy no suprize though!!!! no wait why was i looking at Yugi.....oh well!. illness's from different countrys are odd, one day you feel beter then the next you feel worse *sigh*.... i think i'll start to listen to what my other has to say..who knows he might have even learned his lesson... but then again he is a little obsesive.. maybe, if i can strike a deal with him,i might let him out, as long as he doesent kill anyone. I think im going to go ride my motorcycle, just hope Isis doesent spot me....

I feel an alteration in the darkness, for lack of a better word. The Pharoah is growing distracted, for reasons unknown to me. My other's vigilance against my resurgence is waning. The tomb robber, he who is blessed by Apep, has other things on his mind. And two of my former victims, Anzu Mazaki and Katsuya Jounouchi, are feeling the lingering influence of that which I planted in their souls. The girl is growing bitter and miserable, giving up on her dreams, hurting herself. Now, if she were to allow another to heal her spirit, that would be the end of the darkness...but she is too concerned maintaining her appearence of happiness, so as not to disturb others. Her loss. The boy...the boy, the only one to break my other's control of his mind...ah, he's become an interesting case. I will enjoy watching this unfold, and meanwhile, I'll chip away at the nothingness around me, while those who would oppose me are unwary. Gods, but it's fun to be evil.

Well, there have been a few returns on the invitations... Yuugi and Isis, which is encouraging: two of my greatest rivals will be there, at least. Nothing from Mai Kujaku (although I wouldn't blame her if she decided to pass on the tournament, considering what that possessed lunatic Malik did to her during the Battle Ship), Ryou Bakura (I must have been mad to invite him, I've *seen* how he gets at times, but I still adhere to the principle of "keep your friends close, and your enemies closer"), or Katsuya Jounouchi. I saw Jounouchi at school yesterday, but when I approached him to ask wether he had gotten the invitation, I lost my nerve at the last moment. Which was probably a good thing, because on seeing me, he snarled and turned away; he was moving oddly, especially around his shoulders. I've been thinking about the bonkutsu n-no, no, his name is *Jounouchi*-more than usual lately; it's starting to weird me out. Mokuba insisted during today's board meeting that I find myself a date for the pre-tournament ball. I tried to change the subject, but Miss Ishisotsu jumped in and suggested that I go with Haru Kobara, the daughter of a local financial big-shot. Ugh. I've met that girl before: she seems to be obsessed with her "fragile sakura blossom" persona. Screw that. Ishisotsu was baiting me, and both of us knew it, but I caved and agreed to try to find *someone* to attend the ball with. Yes, and pigs will fly. Like anyone would ever want to go out with me.

Just thought of something...who am I gonna go to the ball with? Sheesh, certainly no one will ask me because I've been such a bitch lately. I'll even go with Anzu. Just, anyone, anyone. I don't want to go alone. I'll look stupid. Which is far from what I truely want. I'm supposed to look dignified, and I pretty much am...and there's the outfit issue too. I think everyone liked my Battle City dress and veil thing, so I'll wear that.

Ah... Iīve been feeling like real crap since yesterday. First because of the stupid ball, who wants to go anyway... But specially after the Yuugi, his Yami and the Honda thingy, felt like I had eaten 12 burgers at once... not that I had done that before. I was feeling so frustrated I tried to let it out by dancing off my ass, the result, don't ask... My legs look like a rhino's... I'm not going to school tomorrow, I just hope the guys won't notice, but why would they? They are so into their own issues that they forgot about this gurl... and so many times I told them about friendship and all thay pinky crap. They're gonna pay for this one, everyone is gonna pay for this one mwahahahaha... Jesus Christ, I sound like Malik... well, hes cute after all, i could invite him to the ball... this time just him, not his Yami, or i could invite his sister (such a hottie)... *headache* I finally reached the bottom, inviting them, now focus on your feet, oh yeah, I remember, I'll make them all play, they'll pay... once I get to walk again... sulk... well, I have to rest my feet and see if tomorrow they dont look like cherry cakes anymore... Iīm going to bed right now, no, wait... think I'm gonna be sick... canīt walk my way to the bathroom... gonna throw up the twelve burgers...

Well... erm... found my invite. What's left of it that is. I saw a bunch of torn paper lying on the ground while I was cleaning up. I could make out a few words like "tourn" and "o Kai". I searched for a number, but I couldn't find one along the pieces lying around the couch. Which means when school comes around tomorrow, I'm going to have to swallow my pride and tell Kaiba myself. Sh*t. Well, I've got to go... I'm supposed to meet up with Yugi at the Game Shop, so... Yeah.

Sh*t. It's been awhile, hasn't it? Sorry, but it hurts enough having to write during school time. (Sure, I know, scoff all you want, but I do try... sorta.) Well, to update you as to my... absence, I guess you could call it, It was simple - Never tell the drunk that the last bit of alcohol in the house was used as disinfectant. (Although I'm pretty sure it didn't help at all... rubbing alcohol is completely different from the kind you drink...) Result: A nice long knife slash... again. This time from shoulder to the forearm... On a different note, I just recently found out... There's a tournament going on. Okay, so everybody else has known for around a week, but does anyone think of telling Jounouchi this? *sigh* Okay, so if I'd been listening to anything my friends have been saying, I might have found out, but you have no idea how much energy it takes to keep a smile on your face when your teachers making you write essays with an injured arm, (not that anybody knows, although you'd think my wearing coat in 90+ degree weather would tip someone off...) and bullies keep coming around to "take their revenge" on you and you best bud. Anyways, Yugi called, asking if I'd RSVPed my invite to Kaiba's new tournament. Of course, me being myself I pretended I forgot. (Sh*t, I hate lying like that all the time...) As far as I know, I didn't get an invitation. Wouldn't suprise me... Kaiba's just an asshole like that. I swear, he lives to make me suffer. Which means I'll have to go up and demand one from him to keep my image up. Little f*cker. On the other hand, the darker side of me seems to be getting stronger... Oh, right. I never did tell you, did I? Apparently after the whole BC thingie, I did some research. (That's RIGHT. I sat in a stupid library for eight hours and got two books out of it. *glares*) Just in case we run into these guys again... I'd rather not be controlled into fighting with my best friend. The only thing I could find that related to what I was looking for was this article called "Egyptian Ying and Yang". Stupid title, but it was easy to understand... It said something about the Items, like they weren't able to work on certain people - people that have an equal balance of light in dark in them. It made no sense. I had some help figuring it out, (random girl walks by notices likes reads helps) but it means that if a person is an oxymoron in themselves, they can throw off the power of the Items easier than a normal person. I suppose it kind of made sense then, why I woke up but Mai didn't, and why Yugi got through to me... I'm like that. I hate the guy I've fallen in love with, at least. So I took a look at some advice it could give and it said to "get in touch with your darker side" Whatever the hell that meant. ... Yeah, I tried, okay? Sheesh. I tried candles, and incense and that meditating junk. If I have a darker side, it doesn't like to be noticed. The only difference I could see was that I got a lot moodier in my thoughts, and (weirdly) happier when I got the shit beaten out of me. (Think I might be mas... whatchamacallit... masochistic...) Eh, I've decided to ignore it, so you should too. I'll write more a bit later... I've got to see if we have anything left for breakfast, I'd rather not try and see what happens if I wait for 5:30 to roll around. Be back to write more later, I guess.

I'm feeling a little better than yesterday but am still a little queezy. My other is getting worse!, but i think he's just been plotting another persons death... what it's natural for him!, I think Bakura's getting even more worried that im going to let my other out *sigh* but somtimes it's hard not to. (mosly when im angry)Then again all i have to do is remember when he manipulated me! *sighs again whatever im going to go ride my motorcycle a bit ^^

Hi, I'm Yami Vixen and I joined this thing a few days ago and already I'm being a hellraiser. Am I bugging anyone yet? No? Yes? Come and tell me off via e-mail. (Actually I really need some friends) Nice meeting you all!

Oh shit. Oh crap on a crap cracker. First of all, Yuugi hugged me. Okay, I don't really mind that. It was kinda expected. But, ah...Yami found us hugging, and I see Anzu too. Dunno too much about Yami, but I know Anzu has a crush on Yuugi and probably could hurt me, more or less. (I don't hit girls. It's morally wrong.) But what's Yami gonna do? Mind Crush me or whatever? Ack. @_@

Ah, desperate girl over here. My lingering passion for Yugi... and his Yami. Is so strong right now. Maybe its just because the pre-tournament ball is coming up, and I donīt have a date. I donīt really need a date, I only want to go with Yugi... and his Yami. I wonder if he already has a date? I donīt really think so, I kinda think he's gay. The other day I saw him walking on the street, like really into his thoughts, so I shouted at him (as i always do), but he didnīt hear me (as he never does when I shout at him) so I followed him and i caught him staring at the gas station boy's butt... he actually has a nice butt... anyways, I dont think thats normal, I just hope his Yami aint that gay... Anzu... why are you having this weird thoughts? Arg... I need to buy a new top for the ball, and if he doesnt ask me, I'll ask him! I'll try not to look that desperate, ahem... I think Iīm the only one who doesn't have a date, maybe Kaiba-kun already has a date... if that's true that'll be the end of my life. Well, I may go now, take a walk around the park, think about Yugi... and his Yami. *in the park* This gets me down, there are two many couples together in this benches... I want to see Yugi... and his Yami. Hey wait is that Yugi? *shouts* Hey Yugi! Over here Yugi! He doesnīt seem to hear me (as always) Yugi!!! Drat, is he deaf? Huh? That guyīs walking to close to him... Ahh! hes dragging Yugi into an alley!! Hey you!! Let go off him!! Donīt break the merchandise if your not gonna buy anything!! That merchandise already has an owner!!! Yugi!!!! Must play heroine... go Anzu.. go, run.... Huh? Yugi... Honda?? Why are you hugging?? Damn, that shoulda been me... Arg... now I have a headache...

Honda saved me. He-He saved me. I don't think he realized what he had just saved me from but it doesn't matter. He saved me. I burst into tears and I ran to hug him. I don't think that he was expecting that but I think that he huged me back, you know, to comfort me. But... That was how mou hitori no boku found us.

Something interesting happened just a few minutes ago. I was walking down the street when I heard someone scream "HELP ME!" It was coming from an alley. So I ran to see what was up and lo and behold, it's Yuugi and some stoned asshole. Of course I assisted (Yuugi probably wouldn't have been able to fend off the jerk, poor little guy). So after the dude ran off after a serious beating by yours truely, Yuugi and I are just standing here. Huh.

Surprise, surprise, Malik is sick. Jeez, just when you think you have a break, something else comes up. He's got a stupid fever which I'm trying to bring down, but no luck. I think if it goes above 104 you can die. But I'm not sure; I'm no doctor. Speaking of which, I should probably call one, seeing how Malik seems quite ill. Where's Rishid when you need him? Also, that tournament ball-thing is coming up. I got my invite in the mail, but totally forgot. I guess I'll go. Maybe Malik will be better by then, but...I'm not so sure.

I don't know what to do. I'm walking through the park and it doesn't help me at all. All I see is couples sitting together on benches. If only... I've been getting away from Yami for a little while now but I don't know how much longer I can keep this up. I sent my RSVP back to Kiaba-kun today. I had almost for got. When I saw it on the invitation I called Jou to remind him. I think he forgot too. Mou hitori no boku wants to challenge Kiaba-kun to a duel but I don't want him to show our new cards yet. At least htat's what I told him. I don't want any fights right now, mainly because I'm usually the one to break them up and I'm not in the mood right now. I Malik and he didn't look so good. I'm trying to get him to be my friend and I think that he might be coming around... maybe. I think that he might be after my puzzle again. Ryou has been acting wierd again too. Why is everyone after me? Well, not really me but mou hitori mo boku but is that much better? He is a part of me like I am a part of him. *sobs* I can't cry. I can't. I-I-I cant. I must be strong. I hate the fact that everyone thinks that they must protect me. Wait. someone is following me. I can't see them... there! "Get away from me!" I yell at them as they grab me. "You're coming with me, pretty pretty." I can smell the beer on his breath as he drags me into a dark alley. HELP ME SOMEONE!!!

my other is getting tired of being locked away.... and i dont know what to do anymore...Bakura keeps glaring at me i think he thinks im planing somthing....my temp. is 102 degrees and im feeling rather faint at the moment i dont what Isis to find out even if she will in the end, she has to much to deal with at the moment, and worst of all if my other finds out he might try and take over my body and im afraid that this time i will not have the energy to fend him off!. This tournament thats being held iv been thinking about entering.... But what would i ware? who would i go with? and would i feel well enough to go?

Honestly, my other, how long are you going to put up with this foolishness? If only he'd free me, the things I could do...starting with feeding the Pharoah to the nearest available crocodile. Ah, that's right, they don't have crocodiles here in-what was it?-ah, yes, Japan. I could settle for that Gojira creature, though. What's this therapy thing Malik keeps thinking about?

The ball is less than a week away, and surprise surprise, I still haven't got a date. And I'm *not* letting Mokuba set me up with anyone. I'll just go by myself, that's all...oh, god, I sound like a whiney little girl. And on top of it all, I have a splitting headache. Curiously enough, I've seen more of Yuugi and his friends at school, but neither Yuugi nor Jounouchi have mentioned their invitations to the ball. I've had RSVPs from lots of duellists...except the ones I'm interested in seeing, namely Yuugi, Jounouchi, Isis, Mai Kujaku, and Ryou Bakura. Well, there's no use worrying about it...I'll just get back to the proposals. Except I'm so tired...

Aibou keeps avoiding me. He got a new outfit and then barely spoke to me for the rest of the day. It didn't look too bad either...

Focus. Gotta focus. The issue at hand. Aibou is avoiding me. I don't know what to do.

I think I need to find someone to duel. Oh Kaaaiba-kun!

My therapist says I should quit writing in the third person when I do my journal entries. Wouldn't want me to develop any disassociations with reality, now would we? He turned a rather interesting color when I flicked a die in his faced and told him to stuff it. Apparently the remaining stiffs at Industrial Illusions wanted to make certain that anyone else they were going to work with wouldn't have any megalomaniacal tendencies or obsessions with raising the dead. And yes, I'm referring to Pegasus-sama. A brilliant, but very disturbed man. And that's why I'm in therapy. For my game to be carried by Industrial Illusions, I have to take therapy. Joy. At least the upcoming tournament can take my mind off the shrink's prattling and II's fidgeting of rules. Nothing but a nice, relaxing week or so filled with undead pharaohs, orgasmic looking psychos, deadly shiny gold things, and too many alter egos to shake a stick at. And the shrink wonders why I want to disassociate myself with reality.

*sigh* Well, a new tournement is coming up, I hear. I'm starting to tire of following Anzu and company around and cheering Yuugi on. I don't duel, and being a cheerleader isn't my life's goal. But if Bakura-kun will be there...then I will too. Lately I've been becoming fonder of him. Bakura-kun's really sweet, I think. I wonder if he's dueling too? I'll cheer him on. Maybe he has his yami sorted out now. I guess I'll be there for Yuugi and Jou too. They are my friends...

I finally got me new shirt today. Man was it expensive. Way more expensive then I thought. Maybe I won't wear my leather pants mou hitori no boku doesn't seem tho like them too much. I wonder if he'll like my new out fit better. I finally asked mou hitori no boku to write down his feelings, as he is really starting to worry me... I caught my self at it again. I don't know what's wrong with me. I caught myself staring at that guy that works at the gas station again. Man, he has a nice butt... I'm NOT gay. I can't be can I? I like Anzu... I like... I don't even know what or who I like anymore!!! What if my friends find out? What if... *gasp* What if mou hitori no boku finds out...? What will he think? I need to clear my head...

Isis has been being as anoying as ever!, she's always prancing around and bossing people around she's even starting to treat me like one of her employies *sigh* im almost to the point of leting my yami out just to see what he'll do about it..... iv got to go now *starts down to walk down hallway* *stops to look at hyrogliphs* *walks on*

Aibou has informed me that I need to 'get my thoughts out on paper'. He says I have inner aggression. Inner aggression, my...

Ahem. I do not have inner agression. I'm slightly frustrated with this latest tournament however. I've been told that I have to get a date. A date. I think I need to go meditate. Or do breathing exercises.That would be good.

Aibou is also talking about what we're going to wear. I gather that it is of a certain amount of importance to him. If this is true than I will do my best to make sure that he gets to wear what he wants. Even if it means wearing that awful leather concoction he likes so much. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE leather. But it's something you have to earn. The right to wear leather. You don't just wake up one morning and say, 'Now I'm Pharaoh and I can wear leather.' Oh no, you have to put a little more effort into it than that. Listen to me, I'm rambling. I might be losing my mind. Correction, I might be losing what's left of my mind. The bits that weren't eaten by Magic and Wizards and that Reforsaken Puzzle. Which I am not resentful of at all. No. Really.

I have to go work on my strategy. Seto's going to be even tougher to beat this time around. I heard a whisper, that Reforsaken Malik Ishtar is back as well. I swear, I don't have time to deal with his antics...

It's been a while since I wrote. I've been busy getting ready for the competition. I've been hearing all kinds of rumors. They say this tournament will be even bigger than Battle City. I guess I'll just have to keep training. It takes practice to stay on top. I hear Malik might be back. Which means his yami has returned as well. That scares me somewhat. But I'm not going to let it phase me. A lot of stuff's happened since Battle City. I'm not going to settle on the past. It's all behind me. Now all I have to do is decide what to wear... I'm thinking black leather with pink accents.

*glares at nothing in particular* I can feel him...planning. Whenever the Guardian is close, I can feel his other planning. And of course, I can see this glint in the Guardian's eye. He's also planning something. I must remember to talk to him next time I see him. It won't do to let that son of a bitch out again.
OOC: M-chan, that was too much info on the dream >_< Eheh...Ah, welcome Yami Vixen. We finally have a Yugi! Someone needs to be Yami soon!!!

Wow! A new duel tourniment! I can't wait. I'm pretty sure grandpa will let me go. I wonder what's with the looks Jou and Seto. Wierd, hey I wonder if Anzu will go to the pre-tounniment ball? I'll have to buy a new dress shirt. That black-button up in that store mall window would be great. Maybe I can get grandpa to get it for me...

Oh, this is priceless. My other is actually considering releasing me of his own volition. Heh, fantastic. I may be unable to contact Malik, but he's still unwittingly telegraphing everything he does and thinks to me. Some of it's kind of entertaining, actually...especially that recurring dream of his involving the tomb robber's host, that annoying green-eyed brat who's always chucking dice about, and a gallon of chocolate syrup. Too bad oblivion doesn't provide free popcorn. On a side note, I've changed my itenerary for when (not if, *when*...it's a simple fact that Malik cannot endure without me, as I could not survive without him. Well, he could, I guess, but his life wouldn't be quite as much fun) I am freed. I'll save that Kujaku wench and the Pharoah for later, get started by doing unpleasent things to dear little Jounouchi (and I wonder how Seto Kaiba will like that?), and then maybe go around to the tomb robber's place and show him a thing or two about keeping his other in line. Honestly, for such a wimp his host's not only useless, he's positively *antagonistic* when the chips are down. After that maybe I'll initiate a riot or two, cause a few bloodbaths, raise the dead...just for a warmup, of course. Heh, the only thing I'll miss about oblivion is being privy to Malik's rather odd sexual fantasies.

Argh. I feel positively horrid. So I decided to take my vacation time now, so (1) I could get better and (2) so I don't have to work there for awhile. Unfortunately, I only have a week off, and then I won't be able to do anything this summer. Unless I tempt them, and no doubt that will be easy (hey, a woman can't always be so modest, you know?). I'm trying to be nicer to Malik, too. But I think he's considering on turning loose his yami. And frankly, Yami Malik frightens me. But ah, it can't be helped. And I really don't think he'll do anything to me, even if I can't fight back in any way. Mayhaps I'll actually go somewhere during my vacation. But leaving the apartment unattended wouldn't be a wise choice. I could get someone to come over and stay with Malik during my abscence...but who would I ask? And would anyone actually do it? I'm going to go off and ponder about it for awhile.

I normaly dont speak up so often but i'v been doing some thinking! maybe i should let my other out more often! but id need to talk it over with him (i'll talk to him later).*walks over to Bakura* what do you think? should i let my other out more often? or should i just let it pass me by *To Isis* you've been being a jerk to me ever since i calmed down, oh well! what do you think about it?... or should i just ask my Yami self? even though i already know what his awnser is...im talking to much!. *turns the rod into a dagger* *starts tossing it around* Malik Ishtar

*thinking* I got information on another dueling tournament. Hopefully Bakura will let me go... I don't know why he wouldn't, but... I don't know. He was so angry with me... I was with my friends again. He might not let me go just to punish me... *cringes* Well... there is worse he could do...
OOC: Sorry I haven't posted! I'm really lost on this whole thing, so I was trying to find a place where I wasn't lost so that I could post. I'm still kinda lost, but this will have to do.

Isis is right i will be pharoh *evil laughing* as soon as i get all three god cards and the seven millenium iteams... the only problem is that we wont be in Domino city for long and im not ready to go back to Egypt yet *sigh* i guess i'll just have to wait untill me and Isis can come to an agreement. Mrik Ishtar

Heh, looks like Isis caught you off your game, my other, with spectacular results. Terrible temper on her lately...I wonder why she's in such a foul mood? Ah, well, I'll never pretend to understand women. Wretched weak creatures. I'm getting so restless trapped here, in oblivion, that I'd even happily strike a deal with that lying accursed bitch of a tomb robber if it meant escape. I need BLOOD, and preferably as soon as possible, otherwise...well, it's fairly obvious, isn't it? All I need is to get you back under my control, Malik. That's all. And then the fun will begin.

Well, today I put Malik's head in a toilet. Bad me. I blame in on my PMS. Maybe I should go and steal Seto's card myself and give it to Malik so he'll be quiet. Seto is pretty sexy...but I think he likes Jou. *sigh* Guys these days. Never a straight one in the bunch. (Bwa ha, look who's talking. I think Mai's a cutie. Much prettier then me.) Also, I should be getting paid overtime for working at this Ra-forsaken museum. The stupid manager put me in charge, but I'm getting nothing for it. Well, I should probably go check on the janitors loitering in the lobby. Who knows what they're up to.

Man! I'm having another bad day i got into a fight with Isis and things havent been going so well. At lest i got the rare hunters to get up and do something.....I still need kaibas card *growls*.man i want to kill somthing! namingly Yami Yugi!, he killed my father and i still want my revenge. Marik Ishtar

Mokuba seems to have gotten it into his head that I need to get out with other people; he's been following me around all day, pestering me about getting a date for the upcoming pre-tournament ball. He even had a list of elegible ladies (mercifully short), the only one of whom I would consider being Isis Ishtar. Nice woman and very good-looking (although I suspect she's bisexual), but of course, she's got every tour guide in her museum drooling over her! She's probably already got a date anyways. Heh, apparently everyone save me has a social life. The real kicker was when I pointed this out to Mokuba: he put on the "Huge Innocent Eyes" face and suggested that if I didn't want to ask a girl, I could always ask Jounouchi Katsuya. At that point, I officially banned him from eating Pixie Stix and caffeine-derived products, and then sent him to his room (*after* checking to make sure the Sennen Eye hadn't been embedded in his head when I wasn't looking). Geez, how did *I* manage to raise such a perceptive kid? Still, that's insane. Me, and Jounouchi...it would never work. *deep sigh* And whose fault is that, Kaiba, you anti-social...forget it. I have paperwork to do.

Argh. Working at that stupid museum is starting to bore me. I always have a whole bunch of museum tour guide people hitting on me. What's a girl to do? Why can't I lead a normal life and get a nice girlfriend or boyfriend? (Whee, I'm bisexual.) I'm hoping someone will ask me out (other then the jerks at the museum). Maybe I'll have a better day tomorrow. Yeah, and Malik will become pharaoh. *snork*

Long enough...I've been waiting too long. The minute I get out of this *wretched* entrapment, there's going to be blood, and pain...lots of pain. I just can't decide who to start with...my other's dear "brother" Rishid for spoiling my plans, that two-faced slut of a tomb robber...or the Pharoah. Hmm. Maybe I'll practice on that wench Mai for starters, and then move on to our dearly departed Lord of the Upper and Lower Delta. Yes, that will be entertaining...

I must be losing my mind, to have started this up again voluntarily. *Another* tournament? People are still licking their wounds from the last one. Still, my new executives thought it would be a good idea to sponsor this thing, to rebuild KaibaCorp's credibility; if it had been the Big 5 I would have told them to go shove it up their nether regions, but this group has their heads screwed on straight, especially Miss Ishisotsu. I have to grin to myself. Gozaburo would have a heart attack if he could see that I've placed a woman on the executive board, no matter that she's a venom-tongued fifty-something spinster. I guess I want this tournament too, somewhere in the back of my brain. After all, it practically garantees that Yuugi and Jounouchi will join up, being Magic and Wizards fanatics. I haven't had much contact lately with those two or any of their friends, not even in school. It'll be interesting to see if the *make inu* has developed any as a duellist...if he's anywhere near my own calibre... Yes, this tournament should be interesting, but something's been bothering me ever since it was announced. KaibaCorp is only *partially* sponsoring the venture: the rest of the money is coming from an anonymous private sponsor, the one who initiated the venture in the first place. I wonder who the other sponsor is, and why he's interested in starting a tournament so soon after the last one...well, that can be worried about later. I'd better go talk to the head of security: there can't be another fiasco like Battle City. Right?

He ran slender fingers through dark hair. This was interesting... The poster was bright and crisp against the dull brick of the building. Monsters tumbled and crowded in myriad colors. Another Magic and Wizards tournament. Ryuuji walked past it, rubbing a lock of black hair. He grinned. This could prove most interesting...

*yawns* can somone tell me what i should do now! the rare hunters are out cold after having some stupid party, just because they pleased me by finding the god cards dosent mean they can have a party *sigh* we still have to get Kaibas god card and the rest of the millenium iteams to cause armagedon *sighs again* *kicks nearest rare hunter* will you get off your lazzy @$$'s and do somthing...

Brief note before the weird entries start...Hi, folks, I'm Monoshiri and I'll be playing both the resident antisocial dragon boy (Kaiba) and the resident homicidal lunatic (Yami no Malik, fwee!). A brief note to the admin: if you could e-mail me with specifics/plot details/rules of engagement, I'd be most grateful, because right now I'm a tad unsure about how to proceed. Otherwise, I may kinda flail around. >_< Anyhoo, thanks for your time, and I'll see ya when I finally get playin'. Ja ne!

Well, im having one of my better days!, now i have another one of the Three god cards. ^^ Slyfer the sky dragon is now in my hands once again!!!!

I don't know if I'm going to enter the tournament Kaiba-kun is sponsoring. Too many bad memories are resurfacing from the last one. Plus, I don't know if I can face Jounouchi. I wish our last meeting had gone better. Aside from seeing him in the mall a few times with his friends the last time I saw him was when we disembarked from Battle Ship.

I bet he doesn't even want to see me again. Maybe I will enter, just to see him. I'm so stupid. I know I'm just going to get my heart broken again. Why do I do this to myself? I'm only destroying my heart...

I paced my soul room, a small piece of paper in my hands. Ryou had given it to me. Another Magic and Wizards tournament by Kaiba. At least there would be something to do. At least he wouldn't be alone. The Guardian and his sister would surely be here. I wonder if the Guardian's other has broken the seal...it would be interesting if he did. Of course, the bastard needs to answer to me first. Backstabbing liar...

Er...okay, everone's kinda getting their storylines and timelines mixed. Ah, we'll figure it out later. All I'm sure of is it's post Battle City...I think. -_-;; Some manager, ne?

Im tired there's nothing to to do around here exept boss around rare hunters and tracking down the two remaining god cards ::looks at Lisid:: I i'v got to get going now!!!.

Well, here I am again. I heard that there was going to be a huge Magic and Wizards tournament soon, Kaiba Corp is sponsoring it. Seto Kaiba... I don't know if I'll enter, the whole business gives me a bad feeling. I just know something bad is about to happen... and I hope I'm prepared to face it when it does. I have this nagging feeling that I won't be, that I won't be able to save the one person who means most to me. The one person I'll never have.

Masks... are the most amazing things ever invented. They are to hide behind, physical, emotional, it doesn't matter... For now, it's a housewife - dutifully obedient and submissive to the head of the house. Don't have much choice when dad's involved. Heh, if only Yuugi-kun could see me like this, wouldn't he be surprised? But no, this is not the one for him. He's too innocent for a mask as crude as this. He needs something better, something less flawed. I found the perfect one. Mask, I mean. Cheerful and outgoing, headstrong and brash, but overall a good friend. That's what he needs. So I wore it. Except... I can't keep it on for long... someone... he sees it. When he looks my way, it's always like he's trying to find a way to take it off, to throw it away and see what the real me is like... I won't let that happen. I won't let myself... never mind. All I know is... I won't quit, love. This is one game I just can't loose.

I'm tired there's nothing to do around here exept boss around rare hunters and try and track down the Two remaining God cards ::starts tossing millenium rod back and forth:: any sugesttions ::glare's at Lisid:: i need to get going now!!!!.

^_^ Just like to welcome Mayhem and Mardkulk. Thank for joining. And if you wanna recruit people, go right ahead. We sure could use some. LOL. Happy RP-ing!

Went shopping today. I saw Yuugi-tachi at the mall, Jounouchi was there. I know I sound like a bratty little kid, but I just can't get over him. I guess I shouldn't obsess over it, he's taken now. That doesn't mean I'm going to forget him though. On a lighter note, while I was out shopping I bought these awesome shoes...

I cross my arms, feeling my temper rising. My stupid hikari was with them again. The worse is that I can't do anything about it. After all, I'm supposed to be in the Shadow Realm. If I really did something, the pharaoh would notice. Damn him!
(OOC: Hehehe, I started. Eh, Bakura's angry again. Heh...he's so mean, ne?)

Ah, still only three members. Ah, well, if we don't get people soon, we'll just uh, play more than one characters. I think I'm gonna start this today. As soon as I think up of something good to write. Okies. Just, uh...saying stuff. That's it.

Kitsune Hashiba signing in! I just wanted to try and see how this works and all and... yeah, just checked my e-mail after a LONG delay so... right. Anyways, How exactly is this gonna work? I'm actually kind of clueless here, so try and fill me in, k? =^_^;; Also, erm, to e-mail me, Zero-san, please use pokenami@aol.com... (childish I know, but hey, I've had it for three or so years now....) I tend to check that mailbox more often. Well, nothing left to do here so... Ja!

Hi! Welcome to Hikari to Yami! This is DaggerZero, just checkin to see if everything works. ^_^