i've been considering all day the layout i want to redo this with, yet have been unable to come up with what exactly i want to do. it's frustrating, actually. oh well...at least i managed to revamp tragedia today (see link on sidebar). i don't really wanna talk about the layout, though because.....well....yeah. i don't really want to.
lethargy has me in its grips...i would LOVE to write more on visible silence, but due to the emotional rollercoaster that i've been riding on all day, i fear that's not really going to happen.
ever since i have gotten over being sick, it's as if i really haven't been able to recover all of the energy that i had before getting sick...like i'm always tired and always sluggish. maybe it's a side effect of the antibiotics? oh well. i'll suffer some more.
maybe i'll get a layout underway, i suppose...right now, i just don't feel up to writing anything entertaining..

aion savored bitterSWEET @ 10:46 p.m.

† entitled † lethargy.
when? Friday, April 11, 2003
lyric for the day: Don't be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again..

i am quite content, actually. i managed to write a little on my wonderful story entitled visible silence the night before last and i think i've successfully conquered my writer's block. *knocks on wood* at least i hope so, anyway.
today, my horoscope warns me not to take offense to whatever people may say--"it's not you today, Taurus, it's THEM". hm. that should lead to a very quiet, introspective day. i'm without my best friend today, without a shoulder to lean on and i feel horrible. she won't be back until monday, dammit, and i have to live without her...especially on the day of my chemistry test....oh well. i'll survive...i guess.
things are okay otherwise, i suppose. so many strange things are happening all at once and it feels as if my head is going to explode. but that's okay...it's friday, and i can look forward to coming home and getting some sleep before i head off to work tomorrow...
just where do those weekends go, anyway?
alas. the bus calls. ciao.

aion savored bitterSWEET @ 05:41 a.m.

† entitled † roller coaster.
when? Thursday, April 10, 2003
lyric for the day: I think it's time for change..don't you?

today, my horoscope informs me that i will be riding an emotional roller coaster. ooooou, fun. what more could i EVER need in an effort to catch up on all my make up work AND handle my boyfriend at the same time, ne. i only hope i don't end up like...blowing up at cassandra or anything. alas, my solitude is broken for my brother awakes. or...at least his alarm is going off. he rarely ever wakes up after his alarm. i usually have to go in there to wake him up. damn siblings.
again, pondering the extreme possibility that i will end up single within the next few weeks. i don't know, it's just that mick is..well.....
let's put it this way: it's pretty easy and obvious when you're in a relationship to see who is the one most likely to break it off. the one who is doing all the loving and doting is nearly ALWAYS the one who ends up getting hurt. the one who's usually hesitant to step into the relationship is usually the one who breaks it off. in mine + andrew's case, i was the one madly in love. in this case, well...it seems the other way around. i don't know if i can stand being tied down like this. i mean...really.
blargh. 5:30 am and i'm already beginning down the first plunge of my emotional roller coaster....i'm off. ciao.

aion savored bitterSWEET @ 05:28 a.m.

† entitled † tomorrow.
when? Wednesday, April 9, 2003
lyric for the day: Not today, today, today, today, today.

i need sleep. which is actually kinda funny because i slept since nearly the minute i hit the couch yesterday afternoon and i am STILL tired. oh well. more sleep can't hurt, ne? i hope to get all my homework done tonight...please god, i hope so.
things with mick are alright. he let me read his journal yesterday, and i couldn't help but realize just how much his pleas for sanity were like mine at his current mental state. le sigh. memories, ne.
i find myself restless and needing change. i've been back to school two days and already it has lost its charm on me...at least the charm it had held while i was deathly ill. oh well. school sucks. i'll live, ne.
and today...well. as the song goes, tomorrow it may change, but i don't really believe it will....
have a wonderful day, ne. i'm off to school...

aion savored bitterSWEET @ 05:32 a.m.

† entitled † all said.
when? Tuesday, April 8, 2003
lyric for the day: I rip my heart out...it's worth my time.

not really been doing much lately. i'm back to school, which is a tremendous improvement, so yeah. i still cough a lot, though, but i guess it's a small price to pay for one's general health and well-being, ne? i worked with breann the bitch last night...thank GOD she's put in her two weeks and i don't really have to worry once she's gone. god, i hate her. oh well....at least i won't have to put up with her much longer. and that's always something to look forward to, ne?
i finished all my homework as of 11:00 last night in an effort to make myself eligible to take a history test today. whoot, i guess. as long as i bring up my grades, i'll be great and all set to go for next week. yaaaaay. so much catching up to do...
...well, i'm off to hell now. wish me luck on the history exam, ne...

aion savored bitterSWEET @ 05:47 a.m.

† entitled † another day.
when? Thursday, April 3, 2003
lyric for the day: Today I fell and felt better...Just knowing this matters.

And I wake this morning....the pain has only grown stronger. At least the pain in my head is gone, but the tonsils hurt worse than they have in the past few days. So...naturally, I'm staying home from school again. I'm going to try my damnedest to make it tomorrow or all hell will positively break loose. I'm gonna have to bust my arse to catch up in ALL of my classes..
Actually, I downloaded Greymatter and am now experimenting with it. Hm. I wonder exactly what I could do with it, given the opportunity... *imagines the possibilities*
I'm in a slightly better mood, I suppose. I got a PM from you informing me that you would come with Mick to my house today. Good lord, I would be so happy if you did.
I'm supposed to be going to a bridal shower tonight for a coworker. I'm invited to the wedding, o'course, seeing as my mother's not only her boss, but also her best friend. So that's uber-kewl.....
Well, I'm off to experiment with Greymatter. So yah. Ciao..

aion savored bitterSWEET @ 08:56 a.m.

† entitled † hell and back.
when? Wednesday, April 2, 2003
lyric for the day: Found a box of sharp objects, what a beautiful thing..

((a segment of a nearly 6 page entry written in a notebook))

...And today, I find myself making multiple revelations. One is that I haven't talked to anyone who isn't related to me in the last forty-eight hours.
Two was that I'm incredibly lonely. I haven't seen you or Mick since Monday and I still miss them terribly.
And not only did I cry tonight because of my own extreme glandular discomfort, but because I actually MISS school.
I'm so lonely that there's this little child's voice screaming, weeping in my head...shrieking things like:
      Mommy! I don't wanna be sick anymore!
      Why can't I go to school, Mommy?
      Can I have a hug?
      Please...I don't wanna hurt anymore...
      Mommy...?
      ...Mommy, are you listening?
I nearly begged my mother to take me to the doctor today and she "forgot". I cried on my father's shoulder because the pain in my tonsils was so agonizing and all he had to say to me was to "take the last of your brother's Vicadin". Sure. And it's not really helping any.
It's getting to the point where I feel like I'm gonna pass out if I stand or sit up. I guess...we'll see how life goes tomorrow. If I go to school or not, that is...

aion savored bitterSWEET @ 11:44 p.m.

† entitled † bruises.
when? Wednesday, April 2, 2003
lyric for the day: Do you want a song of glory? Well I'm fucking screaming at you!

yes, folks. welcome to aion version 2.0, bruises. i think the layout looks halfway decent considering that i made it half gone on medicine. speaking of sickness, i suppose i'm going to see the doctor today. i miss you and you more and more every day....i only hope that we can still go on our road trip. ;_; it would make me so unhappy if we didn't get to..
well, currently, life is pretty bad. i'm missing school up the wazoo since i'm like...deathly ill. and i can't even enjoy my days off of school because i'm so sick. xx; hopefully, the doctor gives me something that makes me feel better.. -_-
well, i think that covers it for the moment. ciao...

aion savored bitterSWEET @ 12:03 p.m.

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