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Sunday, May 20 * 10:57pm

Yesterday at 1pm my mother was in a car accident she was hit from behind by a drunk driver and her car rolled 3-5 times before stopping on its hood. Almost everything that was in the car was thrown all over or was drenched in gas. Amazingly my mother walked out of the whole thing with no fatal injuries. She has major brusing, a concusion, and some other thing that she thinks are wrong with her. For the shape that the car is in I feel so lucky that I got the one and only thing I wanted out of that car My mom. Wow Ive been waiting over 24 hours to say that. The basterd that hit my mom was drunk and better go to jail. As far as im concerned its attemted murder just driving drunk. He can rot in the slums of hell.

Any way moving on...This weekend has been good. Friday I went and hung out with some people I normally wouldnt people like Mike and Tim and Kate but I had lots and lots of fun. HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIFI! Then Saterday well Amanda and I went to Nathans Birthday party. I must say it was so much more than I had thought it would be. I had fun and I didnt really think I would. Well Amanda and I showed up and well nothing really got going tell the delise ppl showed up. They brought a bit of over priced weed and got giddy at the thought of blades so Amanda and I just sat there finding it all a waste of time and energy. We watched road trip. Amanda had 2 guys want in her pants one very good looking one and one boy like one. We went for walks in the rain with no shoes and walked in ankle deep puddles tell our feet went numb. I drank too much Dew so I was peeing all night and well it was all event full. I regret not fully adding in all details of the evenings events but I would be here 3 hours.

On a final note I would like to send my deepest reguards to the 16 year old (who shall remain nameless in this pita) who hit the boy on Rusholme. My heart reaches out to you I admire your strength please come back to us the happy boy you were before this awfull accedent.
P.S. Sorry for all the shit I put on you for the past 2 years...

Sunday, May 6 * 1:41 am

Well tonight was just peachy! Amanda had her party and well im really sorry her night wasnt better. She had quite a shity night. Well as did many other people including myself. well im sure Candace, Curtis, Willow and Nate are all mad at me and I wouldnt be surprized if manda was too. I was a ass I made an ass of my self and I was more rude in one day to people that I usually am. I was bitter, unhappy, and alone. And I took it out on people which was a first for me I never do that. Ill generally remark but never take it out on people. I felt like shit and I acted like it. Honestly I dont really care about some of it but I do about other stuff. Like 1 I hate when people who dont know me say shit about me to people who do. 2 I think hipocritizim is shit, there are far too many hipocrits! 3 how quickly others and myself can go back on a word. just because on something or someone new or becasue of the influence of others eg/ (I was mad and upset at the time and felt like I wanted to argue) Others can chat and preach their oppinions and soon as I open my mouth every one jumps at me.

I know this sound like im just going on and on about how im right but I dont mean to. The soap Opera that is life is always changing and no matter how hard you try to stay clear of the drama it doesnt matter because your still always going to be in and be part of the Soap. No matter who you think you are you will always just be another actor filling a part in life/soap. I figure why try and change it just live it.

Monday, April 30 * 9:53pm

Oh my dear darling sweetums cutiepie sugar lips..knees...and everything elst that may or may not apply This is 2 times in 2 days that I have wrote! Its fucking spectacular! holy shit! Im amazed!

Now onward...well I must fully admit in the past 3 days I have hurd my fill of Frickin', Beeotch(sp?, Gosh, Sorry, frig, and all the other petty little "good" ways of swearing. ya well I really have no argument or good news other than my ball team has our first game tomorrow and that I get to play short im excited...ahhh bye

Sunday, April 29 * 11:00pm

Im wearing my rugby shorts their black and spandexy (and I have no idea how to spell that and I dont even play rugby much I just fooled arond alot when I was younger) and it feels so good to be in them they are so good feeling ahh its goodness.

Everything is goodness I have been reading and writing its great I love this I can tell summers comming because of it. *giggles* I have my first ball game on Tues. and I have practice tomorrow im so happy. Oh and Amanda and me shaved our legs on thursday oh my gawd it felt so good and ive been looken at my legs every chance I get! lol. I sound so so so hehe so so girlish ha this is nice...I laugh at my self hahahahaha yes im a crazy woman whos sitting at her computer talking and laughing to herself just for the sake of doing it. and now im talking to myself more.

Stupid John Ive seen him on TV like 5 times today he wont go away! damn you John Chow damn you! go away! lol I have nothing useful to talk about...curtis and Jeremy always do they always have good stuff to talk about and I never have anything I dont under stand... is it a guy thing?? some one please explain this to me.. and now im talking to a nonexistant group of people that are some where and will never read this...Good Will Hunting is a good movie but Boys on the side is better I never knew how good that movie was. It was also a very scary movie even though its a drama thats only supposed to touch you it scared the shit out of me...Oooo The weakest link is on tomorrow I love the host shes so great she all mean...

Is there any thing wrong with being a pro Dominatrix I dont...I think it would be a kick ass job! leather and wips and such Personally I dont have big probs with being tied up I would just rather do the tieing...yet another "behind the scenes" job I could choose...

Sunday, April 22 * 2:02am

Ok men piss me off!

This is my bitch...Why do they have to think with their dicks? I have only ever felt strongly about 3 guys in my whole life. One I was friends with he knew me inside even if he ever realized. Number two thought of me as just "one of the guys" (I still hate that line) and the last I lothe I cant stand the ground he walks on. But im crazy about him. How does that work? numbers 1 and 3 are still in my life which blows for my stress level fortunately I only see number 3 ever lets say month to be safe. But thats not me issue my issue is why do they have to be so...male and think with cocks that do nothing for them like picking the cute girl with the tits that has the same personality as ever girl in her clique just because they give you a instant hard on, over the girl whos not quite as cute, has smaller tits and has her own personality and makes for much better conversation and if you really must she can be used as entertainment by just giving her some music and a place to dance...It just pisses me off to see half decent guys pass of great girls just because their not in that tiny group of "purfect" girls. So many of my friends have been blown off by guys that their crazy about just because they dont fit the guys "standards". At 16 where the hell do you get standards! ok I under stand like not seeing any one who doesnt do body cleansing or something but if they like you that much im sure they would wash! I dont understand it. help please.

The wedding was great Im happy for Dan and Heather. I danced lots sang I did lots. Ya and Brocks trying to getwith some 14yo like gawd hes like not even 12 I was shocked that this was the little brock that usedto sacre the shit out of me. Ya so it was all good Im supposed to be going over to dan and heathers tomorrow with mom and dad so that will be great.

I have noting else to write.

Thursday, April 19 * 2:34am

Can hear Aerosmith

Here I am sitting looking for good late night TV and I flick apon Ren and Stimpy. What the hell was I on as a child to watch such a fucked up show and think it was funny and amusing. I dont under stand and dont even wanna try because well its weird.

Me knowing that only like one person ever might read this have been naglecting(sp?) for just that reason. I figure no one reads why write but in the past week or so that I havent been writing I have been so stressed and its not school stress its just the stuff I keep pushing out of the way to make room for school stress, like mom, willow, me...but mostly mom. Shes still not feeling well, her doctor thinks she should go see a Phycologest??? I dont know the doctor one. Her doctor things she needs to be treated for first and second hand stress and PTSD and she does I know she does...her new meds are kinda starting to take affect but theres really not that much diffrence its just little things she doesnt get really mad as quick it takes longer to build up and ya that kinda stuff.

How do people dance a little, shake their ass, and sing gawd awfull songs and make money doing it? Then how do they live with themselfs for being fake, untalented shits. Yet again one more thing I dont under stand. Or why do peolpe find dumb movies like Scream Scary or mike bullard funny...???

So far this break has been very uneventfull I have done none of the homework I need too, My easter nap was interupted by people I have great distaste for and amanda is never home. AHHH some friend of my ex boyfriend is talking to me and I dont know why shes asking me how I know him and if I know is gf or whatever its all quite amusing. but im bored of the computer night...