Tuesday, April 3, 2001 * 11:06pm
I had the best time I got to lift weights in gym, had a really good Supper and everything. Curtis came over after school and we sat around and did nothing. then he went home to do dishes or something or other and then he came back and we made supper and it was quite yummy if you ask me we had pasta and garlic bread and then we sat around a did nothing again and just relaxed. Then he snooped through my room which luckally I had no problem with. I think he found my birth control interesting or at least the though of me taking it was entertaining to him...He never answered my question...all I could get was im not sure if I should tell you. I find this even more funny(the inside my head funny not the out loud funny) than dinner. I had a super good time I dont know about him but I really needed that even if im only half done my bonus math asst.
Jeremy "rolled" his ankle today. What the hell is "rolled" what the hell ever happened to just plain old sprain or whatever I dont get it and im not even going to try. I guess im kinda worried about mom shes on these new meds and im worried. fuck I wish right now that I had a little doll I could tell all me secrets and worries too and not have to have it come back and say "oh its all right" "this will get better" and my fave "whats wrong?". friends just dont seem to cut it all of my friends have big mouths I dont think that theres one that hasn't spilled what ive told them at the first opportunity.
Night.
Monday, April 2, 2001* 10:43 pm
Well today was a great day and well sence friday Ive been myself(the real me I dont see often)twice and im super happy because of it. So thanx a bunch Kurt for the good walks with out them right now I would be pulling out my own hair...and thanx for finding the me I miss.
Well willow came over last night and it was the same as normal and ya nothin happened today at all...
Today I went and got new cleats...I like um lots they are black white and purple and me being the slave to name brand sporting equipment their Nike. I also got New ball socks and went shoping for groceries where I saw Jeremy Rans and I think he was mad at me but what else is new. And I went to get movies I will enjoy but not one of them are the ones I wanted but thats otay. well ill write back later when I have more to write about...
Friday, March 30th * 10:55 pm
Well today was so great. My teeth are looking so good and its givin me this high all day. They still hurt so bad but thats ok im tuffin it out...*lol*
Well after school today I home did my cleaning and sat and did nothing I should have been doing my home work but yet aga in I said screw it. My dad desided to go out so he told me if I wanted to go out I had to leave to house before him and I couldnt leave after he left so I call Curtis and we went for a walk a nice one...I like walks they detox me in a way. So we went for a walk came back here and drank tea and talked more and then he went home and played around with my pita thats why it looks so great! Ahhh I love it sooooooooooooooooo much.
Now to move along I am feeling serious longing here!
1) I lothe the people in my school and long for them to shove their heads up their asses and die.
2) Im chicken shit! Im so chicken im yellow(if you dont get ask). I long for the courage to do what I want to.
3) I miss summer and everything...long walks, heat, swimming, ball, Just everything.
4) The people, I long to see the people I only see during Saskatchewans far too short of a summer if you can even call it that!
5) Other.
Today everything people did got to me. The way Amanda's hair fell, the way Nicole chewed her food, The way Heather follows every one around and wont go away! Heather annoyed me the most today, shes sitting in chem at her table and me and Jeremy were talking about how easy bio was to chem and she just comes in "Well your both wrong Biology was so much harder than Chemistry. So why dont you be quiet." My jaw must have it the desk and if Jeremys table hadnt been between me and her I would have rung her neck. I couldnt believe it!
Well I really have no idea what to write about at all now. Other than im hungry so I think im going to get something to eat. I might write more later...
Thursday, March 29th * 10:52 pm
Well the one person I felt like talking to tonight went to bed early! Sence when do you sleep! Gawd! ok now that thats over and done with...
My teeth hurt soooooo much. My orthodontist desided to move my teeth along a little quicker than he had first decided so he put on a stronger arch band and put on chains on the first 4 teeth and within the past 6 hours my teeth have almost closed up...its so great and it looks good but they hurt! but the pain is really cool too my teeth feel like they are all going to fall out...Ahhhh.
Well about the dream I had mentioned the other day it was really weird 2 of my close friends were vampires (one of them I lied to about their role in my dream...sorry)Amanda was all in white and she had little blood staind fangs and it was super cute and she had this guy who seemed really young with her and she was nibblin on his neck and they were foolin around and I was watching when my friend curtis came up be hind me and scared me and and stared talking in my ear and he and he bit my neck and well then it went in to this sexy thing then I turned around and I was looking in a mirror and i smiled and my mouth was all wired and my teeth were purfect and I stared screaming and my mouth wouldnt open and curtis showed up be hind me... any thing else you'll have to ask...
Well im going to bed...
Tuesday, March 27th * 4:55 pm
Oh my GAWD! ok my english went really really well I was so jittery about possably catching my hair on fire i was all shakeing and Mr.D said it added to the preformance...wow and just be for Nicole, Steven and I were about to go on TOM showed up that made it all worse...Ahhh hes the biggest little bastered ever!
Im up to a 69.5 in chem so im doing a bit better but I still have to get like 90 on my test on friday. French my parents will kill me for and well I hope Mrs. Broste wont put down any little notes abotu my tardyness in her class that also whould not go over well at all!
I had the scariest dream ive had in like 5 years last night and it wasnt that bad. It was kinda like this vampire/porn/medical info video. It was like a movie being rerun in my head it was so weird oh my gosh and some of the people in it made it even more terrifying/funny. I was really diffrent. then at like 4:55am I woke up and couldent get back to sleep so I sat up and sat there for like 45mins.to the point where I couldent keep my balance any more so a fell over...more later...
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