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| Name: Yeong Birthdate: October 12 Zodiac: Libra, Tiger, Horus Ethnicity: Korean Interests: Writing, reading, occasionally watching anime/reading manga, listening to music, learning (when I'm not being lazy), homework (is a forced interest), attempting to draw, sleeping and playing RPGs. Future Profession: Don't know anymore, but I will have to get a job once I get a car. Personality (self-described): Shy, quiet, paranoid, insecure, moody, mood-swingy.
I have a button now! Thankees to Let-san for making it. ^^
Layout Made crappily by me, again. This layout here features Lawrence and Adrian from 'Boys Next Door' by Kaori Yuki and therefore that is who they are copyrighted to. It's a short story I liked, it can be read here. The background was a picture of a cityscape that I found here. This was inspired by listening to a variety of music but in particular, 'My Sacrifice' by Creed whose lyrics I partially used. The whole song is as follows:
Hello my friend we meet again
When you are with me
We've seen our share of ups and downs
When you are with me
I just want to say hello again I like the song and it seemed to fit, to me anyway, for the ending for that particular manga (no details so as to not have spoilers, should read if you want to know about it). Favorites Authors: Storm Constantine, Margaret Weis and Tracy Hickman Book Series: Wraeththu and Dragonlance Mangaka(s): Yoko Matsushita, Kaori Yuki, Saki Hiwatari, You Higuri and Clamp. Anime/Manga: Yami no Matsuei, Please Save My Earth, Violinist of Hameln, Angel Sanctuary, Fruits Basket, X and Wish. Music: Anime/RPG, Classical, Rock, Alternative, Techno, some Jazz and whatever else I feel like listening to. RPGs: Suikoden and Final Fantasy series. Movie: Lord of the Rings Anime/Manga Characters: Kurosaki Hisoka (Yami no Matsuei), Katan, Rosiel (Angel Sanctuary), Yakushimaru Mikuro (Please Save My Earth), Kaine, Die (Kaine), Raiel (Violinist of Hameln), Naoe Nagi (Weiß Kreuz), Hisui, Kokuyou, Ryuki (Wish), Hatori (Fruits Basket) and Yue (Card Captor Sakura)... Video Game Characters: Luc, Gremio, McDohl (Suikoden), Cloud, Sephiroth (FF7) and Delita (FFT) Book Characters: Raistlin, Dalamar (Dragonlance) Calanthe, Panthera (Wraeththu), Remus Lupin, Sirius Black (Harry Potter), Daniel Cranton (Grigori) and Aragorn (Lord of the Rings) Pairings (previously, as I really like very few now): Tsuzuki/Hisoka (YnM), Raiel/Hamel (VoH), Kira/Alexiel (AS), Die/Kaine (Kaine), Kokuyou/Hisui (Wish), Gremio/Botchan (Suikoden), Luc/Sasarai (Suikoden II), Cal/Pell (Wraeththu), Touya/Yuki (CCS), Sirius/Remus (HP), Amiboshi/Suboshi (FY)... Food: Seafood, Pineapple
I am the keeper of Watari's sense of direction and Hisoka's blush. I am also the keeper of Ryuuichi's illustrations (these things.)
Links
Angel Sanctuary Mailing List
Anti Social *[ | ]* Luc Friends in low places // Rosiel Gremio and McDohl are meant for each other
*Addict :: Calanthe
Sprite Adoptions! ^^;; (in no real order because I have no logic)
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Monday, February 24, 2003 *looks out window* Hell has frozen over. Again. ^^;; Grandmother is still in surgery. No idea how that's going to go. I'm feeling cheerfully cynical and I have no clue why. o_O;; I sincerely hope school doesn't get cancelled tomorrow. x_x;;; felt like forever @ 05:18 p.m. Sunday, February 23, 2003 z_z I really shouldn't be allowed to drive, even though I /must/ to keep my sanity for the next couple years. Why shouldn't I though? Because I have a distinct tendency to zone out completely when I'm not interested in something. It happened thrice today during my hour of driving time with the instructor. I think I did okay since I forced my mind into a cold, calm state so I wasn't nervous and freaking. That was, until I had to do a lane change and my mind decided 'screw this, I'm outta here', so when I did end up attempting to make my change, the instructor guy had to jerk the wheel back and I got honked at. Other time was okay since I was just sitting at a red light, then one of the people in back (had to be observed too) whispered to me the light was green so I went. Last time was at the end of the lesson heading back to the school. Was at front preparing to turn in, when suddenly some other person drives up the driveway thing. That wasn't that bad, just was a very close turn. I was just kind of 'yeah, whatever' but the other people in the vehichle freaked. *smirk* I was telling one of my friends this over the phone and she found it horridly amusing. ^^;; My lack of reaction as opposed to what normal people should/would have. Then the rest of the day went by mindlessly.... With little bad parts here and there. Some reason my brain has decided to desert me recently. I'm not sure why. Messing around with Paint Shop Pro 7. No idea what in the world I'm doing. felt like forever @ 12:11 a.m. Friday, February 21, 2003 *smiles contentedly* Talking to Geo today really did seem to help. At least made me feel a little bit more relieved of the stuff now that I actually got to speak of it to someone. Wish I could've talked with him longer, but didn't have that much of a chance to. He didn't really act at all like I expected. He's trying to come up with a plan for me to be able to survive living at home and be happy. He told me some solutions, but none of them would really work. So he said that he'd just have to think about it more and come up with something better. It just made me feel... happy. Simply the fact that he wanted to help. felt like forever @ 04:48 p.m. Thursday, February 20, 2003 Hmm. Today's update: Grandmother's still alive. She had open heart surgery today. No better, no worse. Stayed home from school since I was still feeling sick. Pretty much vegetated the day away and did absolutely nothing of note. That's all my mind wanted to deal with, so that's how it went. Been listening to same song over and over. I like how this person's voice is and the lyrics are kind of disturbing, but nice. And since I didn't go to school today, get to see reaction to all I told him tomorrow. I wonder if he'll comment or if he'll just act normally or if he'll start thinking of me differently now. I don't know which of those would be best or worst. *sings randomly since she's been doing that all day* "Well, it may sound absurd. I want to be a wreck for you. Smash out my honor on your floor. Fill up your bathtub with my moods. Well, it may sound a little frightening. I want to swallow all of your skin. Chew your soft tissue into ash. Beat your ego black and blue." felt like forever @ 10:56 p.m. Wednesday, February 19, 2003 I've concluded that I'm either getting a cold or have a sinus infection. My grandmother is in the hospital, possibly won't make it, I don't know how to feel about that. She raised me for over half my life. I'm just... blank. I've also decided to take the chance and trust someone (irl) more than I probably should/what I normally do. I've told him things that I've only told people who read here or whatever. I trust him, and I really hope that wasn't a mistake. I don't think it is, he already knows enough to destroy two of my friendships anyway. I'm tired. I think I'm going to go rest. felt like forever @ 04:45 p.m. Tuesday, February 18, 2003 *sneezes a lot* Oh I feel like crap. x_x;; I'm hoping it's just alergies and not a cold or anything. *crawls off to tissues* felt like forever @ 06:28 p.m. Monday, February 17, 2003 And my fairly good mood goes to hell in the span of five minutes. Fuck this.
felt like forever @ 05:29 p.m. Monday, February 17, 2003 I was listening to one of my recent music acquisitions - Gravity Kills - at school and I start to look through/read the actual lyrics. It's one of those cds that I feel like blasting out at full volume though it'd probably make me go deaf. But anyway, not to go off on too much of a tangent, some of the stuff just fits what I want to write for certain couples /perfectly/. Well, the dark and twisted parts anyway. *sweatdrops* Very good for my writing inspiration as it all, even the fluffy, seems to derive inspiration from such. Darker lyrics or music just seems to get me writing better. Like, that's what was playing mentally in my head when I was writing the 'lighter' Sirius+Remus stuff (since at present in timeline, they aren't together. I've the feeling people will want to smack them - or me - upside the head for what I do in the one part. Or just smack me for using the horribly cliched and rehashed thing of when Sirius is sent to Azkaban *end tangent*). Happy stuff just sometimes makes me either annoyed or bouncy. ^^; Neither of which are usually very productive to writing. felt like forever @ 04:44 p.m. Sunday, February 16, 2003 x_x;;; I think if I finish this, the Sirius/Remus community might just kill me. *knows that it's not going to end anywhere near happy* Oh well, it's still being pre-written, so of course the ending's planned out first. Mm... writing. *goes back to the pre-writing stuff to try to get something like a beginning and middle* It's probably rather generic and such, but... I don't care for now? ^^;;; felt like forever @ 09:27 p.m. Sunday, February 16, 2003 Whee. Talking on the phone can be okay but annoying. ^^; Was talking to one friend the past... few? hours. First about the Harry Potter movie, during which we were looking through our books and comparing the differences and such. Then after that, since she hasn't been on the internet in a while, I started reading online quizzes out to her so she could take them. ^^;;; Reading some of the things was... interesting cause one of us would burst out laughing. Happy day, I finally found a couple of c.d.s I've been wanting and then got another two I wanted for real cheap. I also FINALLY found this song that I've been looking for forever. *cakcles happily* ^^; I also had a sudden burst of inspiration to write, but I was in the car so I couldn't, then it went away. *pouts* felt like forever @ 12:28 a.m. Saturday, February 15, 2003 Woohoo! Found one of the songs I was looking for! *v* Not the one I've been searching for forever, but the one that I read off of someone's backpack. ^^; Lyrics are nice and disturbing. *falls asleep over keyboard* Zzz... felt like forever @ 03:26 a.m. Friday, February 14, 2003 Even though I think it's a really cheesy and overrated holiday, I actually had an interesting Valentine's day. ^^; I didn't get anything from anyone (except little card thing from friend) and I don't really care. Did nothing in Gym and my two tests were incredibly easy. *happy* I think I did decent. Mwahah. Then spanish... was just really amusing. I talked to Jen for a while after the test. ^^; It was... interesting. I think she threatened to kill me about twenty times in the time span of ten minutes. She was mad at me for changing our group picture to Legolas (it's mailing group made for me and friends at school) first of all, then there were these two other guys that were annoying her. ^_^ I helped them in their efforts and succeeded pretty well. (They weren't really bugging her in a bad way, just one that would annoy her). So she got irritated at me and went to talk to Pai and told me not to go over there. ^^ So instead I went to talk to friend I'm trying to get more into anime. He didn't read CCS yet, but I did get his cell number. Which was good since I had been wondering the other day if he had a phone or not. ^^;;; Problem just came up when he asked me for mine and I couldn't for the life of me remember what it was. Something this morning I think did contribute at least unconsciously to me actually participating even more in annoying Jen today... *smiles stupidly* She and Kay were talking about Geo. And about this picture that she has of Kay and Geo on VD a couple years ago. I didn't really say anything, just listened mostly. It just seemed like yet another reminder of 'Idiot, why do you like this guy?' thing. Ah well, I think I'm going to go read for a bit. Some reason I've fallen into one of my 'don't want to write' times. felt like forever @ 04:50 p.m. Thursday, February 13, 2003 ~_~ I've the distinct feeling I'm forgetting something, but hell if I know what. ....Some reason I feel like using expletives more lately. I don't when I speak vocally, but I do mentally and sometimes when writing. Dunno why, maybe it has something to do with characters I'm trying to get to right now. *pokes through brain* I'm sleepy.... Not surprisingly. And my internet is still being bitchy, so I'm not going to attempt IM for now. *grumbles* felt like forever @ 09:54 p.m. Thursday, February 13, 2003 *switch to rant mode* One more thing.... I hate hate hate reading aloud in class. >< I'm not that great at reading aloud myself, but everyone who volunteers/is chosen for the biggest parts MAJORLY SUCKS. There're only about two or three people in that class that I think have good reading voices. And what's worse, is we're doing SHAKESPEARE, or more precisely, Julius Caesar. God, I wish we could read this silently or at home. T_T It's being butchered so horribly. They don't know how to pronounce the words or read in the proper rhythm/emotions and try to convert it to modern grammar style and replace the words they don't know with words they do know. *wailing sob* *glares at English teacher for giving the decent readers the smallest parts too* *rants because she can about parts people read* Caesar is okay, but he doesn't do well reading aloud cause of his retainer or something and he has a tendency to kind of stutter or mumble at times. Cassius thinks she can read well, but she's /not/ that great. Flavion is the only one I think is decent, since that guy has a good voice. Marullus doesn't know how to pronounce the word /apron/ and a test indicates he has a sixth grade reading level. Brutus... was just so horrible. Antony... was okay, but nothing good. The rest I think read during the time I was attempting to make myself go deaf. NO ONE got through a single line without screwing something up and everyone changed 'Antony' to 'Anthony'. And they couldn't pronounce most of the peoples' names or remember who they were assigned. Then in one part... people started muttering about one of the characters seeming gay and showing disgust at the prospect.... That really pissed me off. I mean, I'm a slash fan and all, but /why/ do these people have to think the mention of love translates to 'I want to fuck you'? You don't have to love someone to have sex and having sex does not mean that you love someone. I know it's 'ideally' a big thing or whatever other romantic crap about it is out there. But /I/ do /not/ think that it's the end all to a relationship or the epitome of loving someone. *fumes* I think that's part of the reason in my stories, the only couples actually sleeping together don't love each other and the ones that do love each other never get to that point. *end rant* And that I think of it, friend of mine has a really neat, if twisted, thing written on his backpack. ^^; I was reading it today during alg. felt like forever @ 05:37 p.m. Thursday, February 13, 2003 I did give him CCS. ^o^ An extra copy that I had for him to have, if he likes it I'm going to lend him the rest. He didn't have a chance to read it, since we were in Algebra II class and we had to correct our tests and he had a lot of work to finish and stuff. *pouts* He did look at the artwork though and liked it. *will probably try to make a Clamp fan out of him or something; mwahaha* ^_^ I'll bug him on how he liked it Monday (or tomorrow if I get the opportunity). In other news... I'm fourth in my class!!! Fourth! Of four hundred something! *grins madly* felt like forever @ 04:57 p.m. Wednesday, February 12, 2003 You know you've overdosed on slash when... ...in you begin slashing furniture. *started doing that with someone in chat* Ehehehe. *massive sweatdrop* Hmm... what anime/manga would be good to show a guy who would probably like shojo, but you don't know if he'd like yaoi? At the moment I've decided on Fruits Basket, possibly X (dislike TV series, but oh well), and then Card Captor Sakura to read. Maybe Angel Sanctuary too, though I'd rather have him /read/ that than watch the OAV. *wonders if he'd mind scanlations* I also want to show him something to 'test' his reaction toward yaoi (maybe something with shounen ai that's clearly implied). Suggestions would be very welcome. ^^; So, yeah, I've decided to try to get one of my friends at school introduced to more anime. ^^; He's a cool guy, and one of the few people IRL that I know that likes it. At the moment though, he says he only watches whatever he's able to since he's cheap. ^^; felt like forever @ 12:45 a.m. Sunday, February 9, 2003 Sooo... *hits body* Decide something, will ya? Before it was, don't eat, food is evil. Now that I've started eating semi-regularly again, it's 'eat by this time or I'm going to make you feel dizzy and pass out'. *shakes head* Gyah. Currently doing the second thing but there's not really any food around to eat. x_x;;; felt like forever @ 05:49 p.m. Sunday, February 9, 2003 Whee.... All nice and cleared now. felt like forever @ 12:33 p.m.
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