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| Name: Yeong Birthdate: October 12 Zodiac: Libra, Tiger, Horus Ethnicity: Korean Interests: Writing, reading, occasionally watching anime/reading manga, listening to music, learning (when I'm not being lazy), homework (is a forced interest), attempting to draw, sleeping and playing RPGs. Future Profession: Don't know anymore, but I will have to get a job once I get a car. Personality (self-described): Shy, quiet, paranoid, insecure, moody, mood-swingy.
Layout Made crappily by me, again. This layout here features Lawrence and Adrian from 'Boys Next Door' by Kaori Yuki and therefore that is who they are copyrighted to. It's a short story I liked, it can be read here. The background was a picture of a cityscape that I found here. This was inspired by listening to a variety of music but in particular, 'My Sacrifice' by Creed whose lyrics I partially used. The whole song is as follows:
Hello my friend we meet again
When you are with me
We've seen our share of ups and downs
When you are with me
I just want to say hello again I like the song and it seemed to fit, to me anyway, for the ending for that particular manga (no details so as to not have spoilers, should read if you want to know about it). Favorites Authors: Storm Constantine, Margaret Weis and Tracy Hickman Book Series: Wraeththu and Dragonlance Mangaka(s): Yoko Matsushita, Kaori Yuki, Saki Hiwatari, You Higuri and Clamp. Anime/Manga: Yami no Matsuei, Please Save My Earth, Violinist of Hameln, Angel Sanctuary, Fruits Basket, X and Wish. Music: Anime/RPG, Classical, Rock, Alternative, Techno, some Jazz and whatever else I feel like listening to. RPGs: Suikoden and Final Fantasy series. Movie: Lord of the Rings Anime/Manga Characters: Kurosaki Hisoka (Yami no Matsuei), Katan, Rosiel (Angel Sanctuary), Yakushimaru Mikuro (Please Save My Earth), Kaine, Die (Kaine), Raiel (Violinist of Hameln), Naoe Nagi (Weiß Kreuz), Hisui, Kokuyou, Ryuki (Wish), Hatori (Fruits Basket) and Yue (Card Captor Sakura)... Video Game Characters: Luc, Gremio, McDohl (Suikoden), Cloud, Sephiroth (FF7) and Delita (FFT) Book Characters: Raistlin, Dalamar (Dragonlance) Calanthe, Panthera (Wraeththu), Remus Lupin, Sirius Black (Harry Potter), Daniel Cranton (Grigori) and Aragorn (Lord of the Rings) Pairings (previously, as I really like very few now): Tsuzuki/Hisoka (YnM), Raiel/Hamel (VoH), Kira/Alexiel (AS), Die/Kaine (Kaine), Kokuyou/Hisui (Wish), Gremio/Botchan (Suikoden), Luc/Sasarai (Suikoden II), Cal/Pell (Wraeththu), Touya/Yuki (CCS), Sirius/Remus (HP), Amiboshi/Suboshi (FY)... Food: Seafood, Pineapple
I am the keeper of Watari's sense of direction and Hisoka's blush. I am also the keeper of Ryuuichi's illustrations (these things.)
Links
Angel Sanctuary Mailing List
Anti Social *[ | ]* Luc Friends in low places // Rosiel Gremio and McDohl are meant for each other
*Addict :: Calanthe Sprite Adoptions! ^^;; (in no real order because I have no logic)
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Tuesday, September 24, 2002 Sometimes I start to think that I'm afraid of being truly happy that's why I try to keep myself from being that way. *jumps topic* Also gets bothersome that my natural instinct seems to be to not trust people, guess that's why I don't. Causes problems, I suppose. I'm so friggin afraid of getting hurt or whatever, that I'm probably doing more harm to myself than anyone else could. Oh well, life goes on. felt like forever @ 10:56 p.m. Tuesday, September 24, 2002 Urgh... x.o; sooo... I fell asleep while studying. x_X; Unintentional nap, whee.... felt like forever @ 09:03 p.m. Monday, September 23, 2002 Hrm.
felt like forever @ 09:57 p.m. Monday, September 23, 2002 Also, added link to this site because it has Please Save My Earth scanlations and my blog, it would seem, appears in searches for that. Has twice, anyhow. Then again, it also appears when searching for Harry Potter scanlations, though I don't know why you would need /scanlations/ for a book that's been translated to... numerous languages, if I'm not mistaken. Ah well. Also, will link to this site as a few of my crappy wallpapers for Angel Sanctuary can be found there. Should probably re-submit my last two, because I don't think they went through. felt like forever @ 06:03 p.m. Monday, September 23, 2002 Tired. Sleepy. Messed with layout a bit, hopefully background looks a bit better. Figured out how to do it in Web Mastering today. Also, decided that I don't like frames that much, at least not when working with with stuff I made to /not/ be in frames. So page for Web Mastering looks crappier, but that's okay since it's only a thing for school and the teacher grades more on a basis that you've got everything required. More stuff, but I can't think of any of it at the moment. Oh. Yeah. Started a personal journal type thing that I decided to use for song analyzing. Dunno why, it just seemed like a good idea. Makes me think and write and I like music for the most part, so it's fun. Did that during classes, sorta, wrote about... six pages or so, hand-written. And mangas that I ordered a while arrived today. *yays* Kaine, Neji and PSME 1. Probably will use Kaine for whenever I decide to make a new wallpaper or layout... which'll try to be next weekend as friends and I decided to go to the movies on Friday night instead of Saturday which is good for me. *happy sigh* I love Kaine. *sweatdrops* I also got a tagboard and I'm not sure why. There it is.... Should go eat, even if I don't want to.
felt like forever @ 05:39 p.m. Monday, September 23, 2002 Added sprite adoptions because... I felt like it and can't think. Lala. Sleep.
felt like forever @ 12:11 a.m. Sunday, September 22, 2002 My brain is fried and I think I mean that in a semi-literal sense. Earlier, I was cold, so I turned off the house a/c entirely. I guess that wasn't a good idea cause it go... kind of hot in the house during the... hours that it was off and now I feel strange. Feel kind of cottony and need water.... Whee.
felt like forever @ 09:23 p.m. Sunday, September 22, 2002 Maybe that's what I get for playing FF6 all day with little to no stopping (though I did take breaks and such). felt like forever @ 01:43 a.m. Sunday, September 22, 2002
I'm feeling strange in a very abnormal way. Kind of feels like... half of my head feel off or out or something. Very odd feeling. *pokes at hair* Nope, still all there. But my head is feeling very insubstantial now. I wonder if that's a bad thing. felt like forever @ 01:35 a.m. Friday, September 20, 2002 I also have the strangest urge to write an essay, though I've no idea over what. *sweatdrops* Yes, that was meant to be really random. Though at least it's not illogical like the poofy sheep plan me and two other friends came up with. *sweatdrops more* That makes even less sense, but we've pretty much determined that at least the three of us are very illogical people. Ah well, it doesn't matter as long as it's interesting. (so we claim). ...sleep. Right. felt like forever @ 04:43 p.m. Friday, September 20, 2002 Yeah, I've kind of gotten over it already. Well, not really but at least for the moment anyhow. And I found out something happy today, at least happy for me anyway since it's just the type of person I am. ^^;; I got a nine on my english essay. Which is good considering that's the highest you can get and the teacher told me mine was the best one that she had read so far. So I was glad about that. ^^;; I also think I did okay on the History test, it was easier than I thought it would be. Though now I'm also vaguely worried for a friend of mine, hope he'll be all right. Now, I'm incredibly sleepy. I think at most I got four hours last night. Nap... really think I should do that since my main driving force today was the caffiene I had this morning. felt like forever @ 04:31 p.m. Friday, September 20, 2002
Reading: From the Ashes of Angels - Andrew Collins (Well, bits of it anyway)
Somehow I've developed the logic that some reaction is better than no reaction at all. Or, at least, when you don't know what to say at least give some acknowledgement to that fact at some point during the conversation. And I wonder, if it's just me or does being ignored, intentionally or not, hurt regardless. I know I probably ignore some people at some point, but I try not to with the ones that actually mean something to me. I know I sometimes give lack of response, but I at least hope that those who I do that too know that sometimes I just truly don't know what to say. I also find that it hurts when one of the people you think you actually mean something to, seems to forget you ENTIRELY, whether that's intentional too or not. I really can't tell since I'm not that person, but I have trouble believing that someone cares when they say the words, but then ignore me and don't even realize it might be construed that they're ignoring until it gets to a drastic point. Or, at least, they'd realize that it was a need for help or to be noticed or something. I'm sure if that particular someone is actually bothering to read this much to my amazement, that she knows who she is. After all, I've only spoken to one person tonight and I probably shouldn't have. Ah, the things that happen when I speak when I'm not fit to be talking to people. I'm losing it, I feel like I'm fragmenting, and I don't have the least clue WHY. I should be fine, I should be happy but I'm NOT. I think too much and think too pessimistically. I believe the worst from certain people who mean the most to me and assume it to be true, even if it's not. I wonder how I got such a cynical, skewed, view. I'm really not meaning to make anyone worry, but... I don't know, I just feel the need to put this SOMEWHERE and that somewhere happens to be here. Sometimes I think it'd be better to be forgotten... then at the same moment I'm so god forsakenly scared that I actually will be forgotten. I suppose I'm a walking contradiction, at least some of the time anyway. I'll check my mail tomorrow. I doubt I could reply with anything that makes sense as it is at the moment. Time to go try to force myself into studying even more as I'm not making sense. felt like forever @ 01:39 a.m. Thursday, September 19, 2002 So. Not only did I stay after school to help with the float thing, I got talked into riding on it. First school related thing I've been to voluntarily in... years, I do believe. Then, stayed after for the pep rally type thing. Mostly just wandered around with a couple people, it was okay. Got to see the band play and then at the end there were fireworks which started off kind of bad but ended up really cool. So that's why I'm just getting home now. Gyah. I need to shower and then study quite a bit for my History exam since that's tomorrow and I don't feel prepared at all. x_X; *rushes off* felt like forever @ 09:28 p.m. Wednesday, September 18, 2002
Reading: From the Ashes of Angels - Andrew Collins (Well, bits of it anyway)
I'm feeling overwhelmingly insignificant right now and I'm not sure why, just one of those things that side-swipe me suddenly. Ah well, that's what I get for thinking so much and going into a chat when I really shouldn't be speaking at all at the moment. And I looked through some e-mails again and I must say, if I haven't already, big thanks to you and you because the words from both of you really mean a lot to me. More than I can really express with... words. *hugs to both* Just does for no reason I can quite explain.... I guess at least partially cause it really lets me know I'm appreciated by someone for who I am and not for something I've done or in one of my moods where I keep declaring I suck at everything and whoever I'm speaking to feels the need to say that I don't or... being complimented for many other reasons I consider insubstantial. I really am not that big of a fan of flattery, but I suppose I'm just trying to say that I find what both of you have told me really special. So, in other, equally strange, news I finished reading Of Mice and Men today at school during first class since it was pretty easy... just doing stuff with Visual Basic that's rather simple. Then finished the book up in English cause was just going over analogies... which took so, so, so, very long to get done with. I already kind of know analogies, so maybe that was part of the reason I was bored out of my mind... but... really. It shouldn't take an hour to explain and do nine that are quite simple. And the student-teacher person who's now responsible for teaching the class a majority of the time is... well... obviously not a teacher yet. She's... not very good, in my opinion. I don't feel as though I've learned or gained anything from the past two classes. And it's sad that I consider her explanations worse than my own... I think today over half the class was more confused when she was finished with explaining one of the analogies (a five or more minute ordeal) than before. I was just... kinda... incredibly bored. Friday I have a History test I'm bound to fail. *dies* My worst subject, I need to study.... Actually, I think I'll pass if I study, that's just my initial reaction to any test I take. Will study tomorrow after I get home which will be kinda late due to the fact I'm going to help with the BPA float for the homecoming parade thing at school. And I think my stories I've got going are growing stagnant... maybe I should work on that this weekend. Just so I can keep the claim that they aren't dead yet. Random declaration: I'm now a fan of very few pairings which I'm now realizing at this point of time... I still like... maybe four (Sirius/Remus, Die/Kaine, Touya/Yuki and my ever angsty view of Raiel/Hamel). I could go into a more lengthy explanation at some undisclosed point in time that is not now and I might. I don't know, depends on how bored I get. And now, I should sleep since I'm tired. Makes sense, I think. felt like forever @ 11:52 p.m. Tuesday, September 17, 2002
Reading: From the Ashes of Angels - Andrew Collins (Well, bits of it anyway)
*smiles* I have to honestly say that that is one of the nicest e-mails I've ever gotten and it really made me smile to receive it. I just... kinda don't know how to reply at the moment. ^^; And I sorta know my parents are probably best suited for me... but I can't help but be irked sometimes. ^^;; Ah... I rant and only vaguely mean what I say. *sweatdrops* And I would get on AIM but I'm currently in what can best be described as one of my 'silent periods'. ^^; It just kinda means that I feel happier being silent or thinking or writing than talking to anyone at all for the most part. I dunno if that makes any sense at all. Hmhm... in other news, played FF6 some more... got Mog to join my party and left the revisit of Narshe to go... somewhere. I'll find it eventually, like IRL, in RPGs I have a tendency to just wander until I find something unless I get impatient. And on a more random note I bought a sour pink lemonade sucker thing and it tasted... exactly like pink lemonade. I was surprised by that, don't know why. And... just started checking e-mail... and something from this nearly made fall out of my chair in surprise. The name that appeared to one of the mails of the player who's the Clover person is the exact name of one of my close friends. It wouldn't have been so strange if not for the fact that said friend of mine... types in a daily manner almost identical to that person and similarly 'speaks' in a way the same to that person and is an avid HP fan. o.O;;; I was rather startled when I saw that, but I'm 99% sure that they aren't the same person. Yeah... I'm shocked and amused by the strangest things. My mother just gave me these things that are beads with feathers on the ends. I've no idea what I'm supposed to do with them. I like 'em all right, would like more if the feathers were black or white or gray instead of blue and purple though. While I like both of the colors... they just don't work for feathers, at least to me anyway. I also was supposed to read Of Mice and Men since it was our newest assigned reading for english and my friend wanted me to read it early so she could have someone to speak with about it.... I don't feel like reading it now, though I probably will at least in part anyhow. *end random note* Uh... yeah... should go do something now; I'm not sure what.
felt like forever @ 10:03 p.m.
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